If my life were a series of conflicts
Banging doors, disappointment, expectation and insecurities
Would you suspect that I would live this life?
Each day I wrap myself up
And pretend to be something I am not
Because I am still dependant on them
Only to return to my room
And once more surround myself in my dark thoughts
And plan my ways to escape.

© Maria Francine

This aimless loneliness inside my head
        Threatens to swallow me
                           Filling me with dread
But you gave me your world
       Hurled me into your innermost thoughts
                                   And I don't feel
                                                      Quite so
                                                           Lonely
                                                               Anymore.

© Maria Francine

Do you remember me?
                         Is it me you see
when your eyes glaze over?
                                      I don't think
                              you will
                                           ever
                                                 find
                                                      me.

© Maria Francine

I lost the person you used to be
I look for you everywhere
But I'm wandering in circles
And chasing shadows

The echoes of the love we used to share
are slowly fading
But I still listen out for them
I still remember them
Were we always doomed to be so temporary?

It used to feel like I was always supposed to be with you
But now there is a voice in my head
Screaming for me to leave
Because now all I feel is hate for myself
When you are around

Your hardships are always my fault
But nothing can console you
I know you are happier when I am not there
So why can't you let me be happy without you?
You tease me of what we used to have
Promising we will go back
But sometimes I realise that will never happen
At least loneliness would be consistent.

© Maria Francine

I wish I could feel the magic in the air the way I used to
Music inspired dreams
Hopes and desires
I miss the way opportunities felt endless
Tangible and thick on the space around me
Everything around me was new and inspiring
Now I feel the closing of adolescent dreams
And infinite love
I'm all grown up now
But being a kid is all I've ever known
I miss nothing else mattering apart from you and me

© Maria Francine

You're the only one I trust
The others pretend they care
But no love is as selfless as ours
I remember birds chirping, twilight skies and the breeze from my bedroom window
And the way you kissed me
These thoughts keep me safe
In the chaos of this world which I don't understand

© Maria Francine

Let me lose myself in you
My previous desires flew away
without warning
When I truly got to meet you
Unravel your soul to me
Isn't mine plain to see?
Tangle your thoughts with my dreams
Love is an immovable force
And beauty can be a path to hurt
But your words can still find their way to my heart

Love is the answer
To keep away the darkness
I feel it resonate inside me
It soaks into my spine
and every fluttering part of me
If I try to push away
Only cloudy thoughts and memories await
I'd have to leave a part of me behind
I don't even know the person I was before

Your force keeps me on track
And protects me from the hurt
Your heart reminds me of the time I used to feel safe
And defines my every move

© Maria Francine