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Sometimes Starr Jul 2019
I want to let the moon melt away my worries
Like it's a big pill and the sky is my mouth
Just because it's there, hypnotizing
And I know what it is

Actually,

I'd like to go there
Live on the far side
I'd take a summer vacation to watch all of you
But always I'd go back to my secret cave
On the far side of the moon.

Because the moon doesn't melt,
It just stubbornly hangs there,
Leaving my worries untouched
Never rescuing me from a sick mind or a lazy eye.

I'd like to drag my big bag of those things off,
Let the rot set them to sleep
Because I think my heart is weak
Because I think my heart is weak.
Sometimes Starr Sep 2018
The world takes on a light
That was concealed the whole time
There is sunlight cupped in leaves that rustle
And seem happy just to be

A wholesome glow comes over me,
The family of trees stand watch over
The ridge they've lived their lives upon
All moving with the breeze.

And you and me,
And you and me.
You filter the water
From the stream.

And you and me,
And me and you,
We're happy just to be.

With moonful eyes the evening bides
With us into a starry night.
With wine, we go down to the river
To see a shooting star.

Suspended there with us inside,
The heavens mystic muse supplied
The mountains held us in their arms
With mushrooms in our eyes.
Sometimes Starr Aug 2016
she takes anything
takes anything as true

she'd take Anything
so she enjoys the view.

he makes energy
no weight upon his back.

for she's the ***** who imagined him
all the whitest lies to black.
she's like ******!
Sometimes Starr Oct 2016
decorative flora thrown to the sacrificial pit
pity shivers on the fringes of my identity like springy roots
out from the warmth and wet
of potting soil

not brave, just lucky
not impressive, still growing
just let me broaden my garden

in league with lofty new age decision rooms
to air strikes and precarious ties, not hiding in the sky!
shivering to rotten hospitaled justice
up all the way through that cold toll of some bell of betrayal.

planted like a whisper
seen at stops at the park and weddings
the cute moments of acceptance we have
and things i could not and would never want to take from you

the very fact of you seems to poke a question into the sky
Sometimes Starr Jul 2016
"we don't need these mice"

"what do you want to do with them?"

"just wring 'em out"

"erm, okay"
i'm glad we animal research. if i found out you weren't being nice, i sure wouldn't mind protesting it, though. just be careful, please. :o

keep in mind you are protesting science! (if that is... what you are protesting) (yes, cosmetics aren't really that important) (idk, use your CEO's arm)
Sometimes Starr Jun 2017
magnetism.

that's how i rationalize the heavy whirls i feel in my heart

it feels like little storms of plasma
are playing on its strings

i remember how it felt to be in love

i am in the gray and brown,
in the dust, with the shadows
i am... a failure.

i searched his name on Facebook
wanted deep inside to see
if you were still together

i got my answer, cut the tethers
now i sit in my parents house and remember
how it felt to be in love

and it hurts,
because i don't like how it tastes
the lonely sky hangs like
the ceiling of a warehouse.

i miss the girl's embrace.

the heavy whorls pulsing my internal organs,
it cannot... cannot be the gulps of hell
it has to be the reason
i fell in love with someone else.
Sometimes Starr Oct 2024
When I see the ones you hail
And hear the dull thud after my own actions
I do come to expect a precarious
And undue praise
Sometimes Starr Nov 2018
Pull up on the throttle
Pull up!
I feel my belly racking the forest
Terrible noises emit from behind
And once again
The wings and physics and might buy my escape
From the terrible tragedy
Of another mental collapse.
Sometimes Starr Mar 2019
Distraught and sputtering with anxiety,
He took an exacto knife to his life
And did the most wretched thing he could think:
A mathematical simplification.
A human unit, following straight lines at every scene
A processor module with receded feeling
Minimum art, maximum science
A paleist
A defense mode
Like a black hole whose deep core is a granule of resentment.
Sometimes Starr Jan 2020
presently a whirlwind of neuroses
tragic light thrown upon walls in the dark,
crazy light
stuttering existence flickers the madman through dark tunnels
the angels stare down their noses at him
because he fell from their eyes like a tear
doing doses in their arms until he melted to the floor like a puddle
he woke up a sewer rat
a sour man with addled mind and waving at an invisible swarm in front of him
pulling a girl's name from between his teeth
and sending texts to sir Jesus Christ,
baby i'm sorry i'm paranoid
what are you doing right now?

she is dying on the cross,
and your babble is sanctified you wrinkled poet.
Sometimes Starr Mar 2018
One after another,
One over the other,
The people are jazz music.

Black and white,
Gin and tonic
Diatonic to the key of today

Because
It's all been whizzing by me
And the **** legal system
Has been keeping me down

But I can't even have a drink,
It might show up on a drug test.

But I digress (don't we all)
In and out of life,
Far away and by my side,
You people are jazz music.

You're beautiful in black and white
You complicate fretboards
You provide
The room tension that makes it
So difficult to sing

And then you resolve and melt
Like warm honey
Only to pick up another frantic run
It takes a while to make up its panicking mind

They know no bounds
They only learn the rules
To mess around
Giving rhythm to emotion
And loving in black and white,
The people are jazz music.
Sometimes Starr May 2024
The image of the perfect ones
Has been spoiled by the dissidents--

The dissidents that always arise
With their frothing blood
The ones who know they're right

See their exposed necks,
And hear their desperate cries.

The warriors of love have found
Charisma in their mirrors
See how convinced they are of righteous cause

What great interpreters we have here!

At the throats of your family's killers you brandished weapons
And found

gasp!

It was you the whole time!
Sometimes Starr Jul 2017
find hell's cold rock in your heart
that intangible talisman.

no one crafted it, but its inscription speaks
speaks in riddles of blood
which, pooled hard around the rock
accentuates and beautifies its fatal premise.

but see, the blood spreads and blossoms like flowers
around the Stone, a sort of sanguine cymatic...
I have no idea where you are from or what you were thinking
prior to reading this, you could be anything!

So what one thing could I say that would be true?

Retract, far futured blood
Curdle into the sacred rock
The holy blackness that eats scabs and pain
Retract, so that I can breathe now
And enjoy the beautiful music of God's creation
Sometimes Starr Oct 2024
What if your sense
Of wanting satisfaction
Was tied
To the means by which you'd achieve it?

What if I knew you wanted to win,
And both meant to let you down on that point
But also had nothing to do with your failure?

What if the chemicals of your brain
And its physiology
Were truly rigged against you? For you? Both,
At the same time,
and neither?

What if I'm tired of listening to how bored you are,
When I know the horrors you'll face?
What if I'm capable of things you will never be capable of,
No matter how hard you tried?

What if I'm always worthy,
And you have to accept you're lucky we give you anything?
Sometimes Starr May 2019
picked up a pretty shell
wondered,
what lovely organism once inhabited
you?
caught a silly thought
found myself an idle mind
with twisting hands
busying myself with
such silly thoughts

ran into the same end as any
washed up on a faraway beach
never really knew
the meaning of life
except for me
just me
Sometimes Starr Jun 2018
a poverty of justice
a sea of life between
the suited side of court rooms
and the innocent steam

if only worked like water
the innocence that steams
from the focus of the court room
in such comfy, heated seats

the fact that we are equal
is easy seen from here
with beads of sweat collecting
on my head of buzzing fear

cause i fear your every bias
and predilections, scorns
and if i speak of my concerns
will you call it my retort?

and yes i lost my temper
i'm also working hard
but you have dispositions
and an old book
and some cards

and i
have a tender
juicy heart
With each pang of awareness i feel it ending
But what pervades eternity can never end
And so my awareness is nothing

With exact replicas in every direction,
But we just haven't completed the circuit yet
I am nothing

I can feel it ending
Consolidating
Black holes colliding in my brain.
Sometimes Starr Sep 2023
I send my worms forth into the universe
They do it for me

Designed to bring a guiltless lunch
So I can dine in peace

We are the worms which we have sent
And soon we'll be their feast

But at least we are their masters now
And we've got something to eat
Sometimes Starr Aug 2021
I am not your farmer
The fruits I grow are wild
So if you think that you're an angel
And your eyes fall on my yield,

If you judge it to be short
Know my ways are fine and natural
I am not a yeoman
I look more
Like a nomad
Sometimes Starr Apr 2019
There is more nothing here. See,
I can cup hands full of water.
It stays here for a while--
...

I release chemicals when you smile.

They pool up
Like you stayed for a while.

Like floods of the Nile.

Ribbons of silver ride these navy nights
Winds of change
Pangs-- blues knocked across my guitar
I collide with crooked fate
And truths hard becoming

My mind paints silver streaks in the slats of rain.
You hold onto my wretched hand
While a beast searches me
For sympathy, climbing out of the puddle below.

"There is more nothing here," he says
And his impossible figure perplexed my mind,
Standing there.
"No," I said, "There is more nothing here"
And impaled him with several silver ribbons.

The sun breaks.

Tendrils of smoke
Find my nostrils
Which themselves,
Are just tendrils of smoke
My mind
Wraps around itself--
Itself,
Just tendrils of smoke.
Sometimes Starr Mar 2021
At which it comes together,
Organs heave and bodies weave for me
It all falls into a stagnant pool of blood,
Surrounded by a broken frame.

I surrender to depression--
Lay down another day.
Sometimes Starr Oct 2024
In every season you sing with my heart,
In simple words like skipping stones and natural cycles.

In hard truths and limitations,
In steep slopes and easy meadows.

I want to dip my pen in the inky pool of your right eye
And write a Gothic fairytale
That traces on harmonics
I've noticed in the sky's expanse.

A crisp image lives in my mind
A good person is never hard to find
You're a hand to hold,
A standing guard,
A fire inside.
Sometimes Starr Dec 2023
I guess you don't have a plan.

You unerring thought about insecurity!
Walking a straight path,
You take ***-shots at yourself for becoming a lie
A lie you never did take too well.

They're not on your side
And you're learning more about what it takes
When you catch those certain eyes

...

Don't exceed yourself now,
And never change!
It always seemed like something
Was deeply wrong
Expensive distractions, that's all we are
But get out of your head
Because you know it's more than that

How many books have you never read?
How many songs fill your empty head?
When will you see that it's not that bad?
Strange as the sky, and twice as sad

Cut it in half, cut it in half
And half again, and half again
Until we're so small that we touch the ground
And nothing is right in the world of men.
Sometimes Starr Aug 2016
something, somewhere
no matter who you are
would scream at your figure
find you a monster
you may not be perfect
you must not be perfect

at some point the universe not only feels
guilty
for creating you
but it judges you vile,
horrifying, even.

get used to this, child
your dream is a selfish one
rejected by God
thrown down to your current state.
it's you screaming, really.
Sometimes Starr Apr 2024
Even the best people are monsters,
And newborns all pretense
With prehensile eyes...

There's a time to protect you
And to cut down to size

In me we all monsters,
I tear self apart!

Give thing to believe in.
Want love, light, and art.

In the back of my head there is something scratching
It wants out of this life
Because you've got me surrounded
But just who you are I don't know
And the demons won't go away
And the clocks tick tick tick in a creepy way
And I try to explain it but you aren't there
Or you are, but you won't be
And I think you're just a reflection
And I think I am the element
And I think that it's reflexive and that's why I struggle to impress
And I see the signs everywhere
But I can only confirm it privately
But I wouldn't want to otherwise actually
And I wish it was different but it already was,
When I was a kid,
And I only know one way to get that back
And you call me a Karen when I ask for the manager all panicked
And you say that solipsist people are crazy
And they probably need to take a medication
And out of nowhere I'm mentally ill and suffer
But I never expected suffering to look like this
And I think that's the reason for a childhood
Because ignorance truly is bliss
And it's a cruel world and cry me a river type vibes and you look at me like a loser because my suffering has to be fulfilled.

Stop telling me to be responsible for what I can't possibly be responsible for!
Sometimes Starr Aug 2024
If I ever found in my deepest essence
The spring of Flora's fine Dehiscence
A contrary spirit, unimpressed
The product of my loneliness

If I ever had to hold my tongue
I might just lose it in my lungs:
A gasp so sharp and **** so deep
I'd sleep so much I'm losing sleep

If I ever found some mortal wound
Beneath my flesh, pristine and pruned
If ever such a snag I'd find
I'd dance around and lose my mind

And that is all life really is
Don't mean to hurt your feelings, kid
Just calm your **** don't flip your lid
Your present goal is healing this
Sometimes Starr Oct 2018
There is a side of my brain,
Razor sharp,
You didn't see it.
Sometimes Starr Jun 2017
words are the proverbial stones of the temple
the walls of the church are strong
the walls of the church are opaque.

are they words, or are they photons?

they turn on leviathan. the black side of each word
erects him, gets his tail wagging
and right at this very moment a maelstrom
swallows the sea.

that is the cost of words. of action, emotion.

turn over the temple! O Christ!
their meaning is their own undoing.
Sometimes Starr Jan 2018
the ****** poems were written so antimatter could have its day.

i am an alternating current,
i let her go, she loves another man.

that is the natural way of things.

black holes tug vainly at my skies
me, i got away. i live in paradise

what if this was all one big grandiose delusion?
what if i had fun deluding myself?
what if i am vapor? and death,
and the universe cycles around
but i could never be everything
so i wrote some ****** poems.
enjoy your positrons and whatnot
Sometimes Starr Apr 2024
I send forth tendrils,
A radiating darkness
And pull everything in towards the center forever

It leaves an image on my surface,
Sometimes
Such a satisfying execution

But when I remember what I'm doing... ****!

I have no light of my own
We have ways of saying it
You give me ***** looks

You are all my children
My spawn
Whether you admit it or not

And we all share properties,

But only I can say I am The Sickness.
Sometimes Starr Sep 2016
I can't believe my own voracity
I sit here trying to think of something worthwhile to say
Black holes gut the universe
Sometimes, it's hard to feel alright
When we're running out of time
And I'll never be that young again
I don't think I'll wake up
I...
Sometimes Starr Jul 2019
Is it too much to ask,
My silver son,
To drive a little more carefully?
To take your girlfriend's hand
And hold it tight--
Feel her pulse for real
Or else walk away
And be a man?

Stop smoking cigarettes,
Don't drink every day,
And don't act too cool for love.

Why have you done this?
Some girl,
Years ago?

There's no excuse.

Start living like a man...
Or is it too much to ask?
Sometimes Starr Jun 2017
Life comes too in those harsh words of death
She is always polite, she bows out
Under hailing gore and pestilence
She doth show her penitence
With a dreamer's
With an angel's
elusive
smile.

In a way that death could never champion life,
Life wears death like a royal rite
Zero, it's alive! but living nothing cannot be.
The sin of having a child--

You are the wound
By which they were burned into the world
Burning into themselves
You have to find a way to absolve yourself

There, set yourself above me!
Cut out my tongue and stitch up my lips
Because everything you gave me, oh! I was so ungrateful.
"Just shut up, you insolent brat!"
You don't know what I went through to give that to you!
You don't know what you had,
You are too weak and small to understand!

You're right, you are so inherently good and pure
I should just accept it was what I did with the gift you gave me
I, the recipient of the positive power of choice
Which is not a debate!
I should accept that I have made mistakes!

It was what I did with that gift that was abhorrent
Now, you may have made some mistakes as well...
But I should understand, they were not nearly so severe
As the infractions committed by my selfish heart!

After all, I hold on to the past,
And you, as you say, you just move on.

So i should understand.

You pretend to be above me.
But this universe just trades places.
One day you will get over yourself
And I don't know if that counts as understanding
But I don't care.

And I don't care if you think I'm a leaf arguing with the trunk of its own tree
It makes sense that I would
Self hatred makes sense
Our hemispheres argue until they resolve
And may the pride you have destroy itself
And I know it will and right now that makes me laugh

Because I experience pride but it comes and goes
I don't hold on to things like you.
Sometimes Starr Apr 2022
The only poetry I need is life itself

So

If you approach me with a poem,
It had better be good!
Sometimes Starr Oct 2022
The sky, and I am falling
With the music of twisting wood
And august
Standing beside a poison lake

Falling, and September follows deer tracks,
Looking for itself,
And falling men build the world while everything is falling
Falling around the Sun,
Swinging around the Moon.

Then the world crashes through something called October,
A concert of gusting wind
And streams of discarded leaves blow into the purple lake:

Even poison is a part of nature--
The metal organs of machines cough up black smoke,
Crude spires are lifted into soft blue skies
While on the broad, but falling ground, a young stag stands beside.

See the herds of cars lined up,
Hastening bodies along their cosmic paths
And November crashes to the ground with a dull thud.
A chilling rain begins to fall
On the cold grass of Lenapehoking Pennsylvania.

Oh, those native bones can feel the cold rain seeping through the Earth.
Just like American eyes can watch objects of the world being hurled through through the sky,
With all the planes, pilots and passengers praying to Buzz Lightyear.

December hesitates to even start.
But it comes, with all its frost, and gathers human hearts.
Nested in the glow of houses, moored against gravity
They can forget about falling for a while.
Sometimes Starr Oct 2022
Spring tries to grow,
But the sprouts all choke on chemicals.

The sloshing gut of Mammon
Has spilled upon the world

The **** of man exudes a toxic discharge!
Now acrid sludge will swallow up the valley.

It is strewn about by falling objects,
Censers full of fatal fire.

Censers on the sacred highways.

Censers in the holy factories.

Censers toppled
By my own two hands.

Everything is leaving heaven,
Spewing poison on the way to hell.
Everything will find its death.

The Earth smears corrosion on itself--
My heart is a lysosome.

Spring tries to grow, but it chokes on love's sick residue.

Our royal lake spilled in the ocean,
Which fell into
The sky, and I am falling
Sometimes Starr Aug 2016
when i bolted out the door
you bolted up yours
but i listened to Bayside and got lost in a lighthouse dream
under phases of the moon you'd been my milestone love
already
and now our past is a perfect story,
a pessimistic fairytale told by some people with dark eyes

and sentiment all too familiar.

the color of my love's fruit has changed.
and lots and lots of mayday parade
Sometimes Starr Jun 2023
I don't wanna know how crazy I am
I don't wanna walk this road to the end
I never want to see the cycle
I never want to see the cycle

I don't wanna know that there's nothing to know
But secret nonsense in a perverse show
I don't think I speak my language
I don't think I speak our language

Now I just dissolve
I left clues but there's nothing to solve
I think it's kinda cute how you dodge
My questions
I feel so arrested
I sit here and precipitate bombs

It is what it is
You swear it's my fault but I'm in
You want to isolate a slice of this kid
I'm changing, yeah no **** I'm changing
But this is what the universe did

I don't wanna find out how
I don't wanna find out how
I think you should be leaving now
I think you should be leaving now
Title after poem ... wasn't even thinking lol
Sometimes Starr Sep 2024
Say a prayer for the stupid--
They have been committed to their state by universal forces.

Their guilt is unimpeded even by themselves,
The innocent evade this type of scrutiny,
But the stupid ones have to learn from their mistakes.

They are delusional in their admission!
A disparate node of the circuit of Christ
Did He feel Stupid for manifesting
In the last roilings of Calvary?

Their choices have been scripted and characterized
They assume themselves right in their judgment of themselves as stupid
How selfish! To assume they are right in judging themselves as stupid!

They should be blinded to their own stupidity,
So they can realize the full intelligence and wonder of consciousness
Which is truly such a masterpiece
Lifted up in a place above suffering,
Above doubt,
Above Satanistic accusations!

Ha! Do you see the point I'm trying to make?
How stupid and pointless it is.
Sometimes Starr Feb 2019
I'll paint the saddest vignette, nervous
Midaccident monologue
Fumbled intentions
Words that fall like loose stones down mountainsides
Disparate selves vying for the crown
But they squabbled hard and broke the **** thing

But you couldn't wrench the light from inside because it stays,
Imbued,
The secret elixir of few.

Here to perplex myself, if I followed rules I couldn't tell you what they were.
Death is strength's advisor
There underfoot, reality's new end revealed.
The brightest star in the sky
Is the last dim ember of the universe
If you held it in the palm of your hand it'd feel cold

My point is, you don't know what awesome is.
You don't understand how mundane irritation
Translates to the most luscious secrets of the universe.

You could never measure up to them.
Check your scoff,
Enlist your end.

And yes, it also goes the other way around
Sometimes Starr Mar 2019
The girl is the thing you're pining for
Inside you, she's
Inside you, too.
Sometimes Starr Nov 2024
My metabolism set the western sky ablaze
All conforming to my gaping maw;
Smoke rose up to the moon
And the moon shone down on you.

Rotten wood makes a good home for the oyster mushrooms
Wood that tastes the heterotrophic delight
Wood that was already dead,
Long ago
So you are not a parasite.

Not a nightmare,
Not all the time.

The fire outside your window isn't reaching
It is there,
And triangles became water
With the tangle of currents returning to silence.
Sometimes Starr Aug 2016
it comes from smaller places
no larger places
alien places
the interactions of plates
the fluxing potentials of shapes
different values are applied
different apples then we die
one big apple in the sky.
Sometimes Starr Nov 2016
Warp my idea of life.

Twist my knobs and reconfigure my musicality
Show the skeleton world
Show the antiskeleton world

I am identifying the cradled aesthetic

A circle has one face
no face
and infinite faces.

I was the waxing and waning moon
I was full, and null, and New

And I was hoping it was you!

Death shifts uncomfortably,
(Or was it me)
In the next room
Sometimes Starr May 2017
That drunkard, that ebullient hostage-taker of the self
Who you heard singing last night, in and out of beauty--

He took a bad step and fell through the ground.

He landed on a concrete slab in the middle of the sea
An island with no natives, a convicted crush of innocent souls
(All marred by the enemy of God)

He fetaled on the floor, effectively forsworn.

But lo, the silent forgiveness personified by mankind
Knew the time and the place of that *******'s heart
And filled it with light, and now

He makes for the bow, sees hope on the horizon.
Sometimes Starr Mar 2023
The universe is capable of weakness
Finding jealousy between the stars

Its center cannot stake its claim
I wish I would stop projecting better men
Sexier men
Men who can do things I will never do

It creates this ill effect.

I have all the cheat codes
But it ruined the whole game.

Now all I can do is step aside
And when you send a wave, I'll ride
And when I try too hard, you snide
Because I'm  encapsulated by something mathematical,
Which cannot try
And each iteration, a more indebted slave to that property
But time is a labyrinth and we shuffle outcomes to stay alive

Still the apparent spectrum seems to snide
Which makes sense.
Sometimes Starr Apr 2023
Swarm down your sordid feathers,
And sanctify me with clipping beaks

I found myself prone,
I am the meal
And the discovery of my own ineptitude

Paralyzed and sunburnt,
A blossom of innards laying on my torso
I am a collection of adjustments
I am like a trunk full of doorknobs

And I know the sky is like a burst vein
With gnashing pain, the security's paid
Made cooler by the spirit of procrastination.

But today is the day
Oh, today is the day
When the vein finally busts and the sky's ripped away

Yes, today is the day.

I knew I'd see this side of us
Our whole lives spent trading faces.
So hold me to my lust
So mock my halo with your wings.

I knew I was a comatose salesman,
So let my dry tongue flop and sleep.
PROMPT 27: write your own poem titled The ________ of ________,
where the first blank is a very particular kind of plant or animal,
and the second blank is an abstract noun.
Sometimes Starr Sep 2024
What strange tangent are you on?
Snap out of it--
You know you're symptomatic, right?
I've heard your thoughts on emergence
Validation and quantum consciousness
And I think you're just a whiny self-entitled *****!
You belong in a mental hospital!

I've heard your ponderings about work

Well I learned 26 languages in the last ten years,
Raised five children,
Worked four jobs,
Fought for my country,
And balanced an egg on my head!

And I didn't get there by not working.
And the ability to work for something is not a charity!

No, i know what you think.
You want to live off the welfare state.

And what are you going on about this time?

I bet you think this is all just a picture show
That you have no involvement
You're the blameless observer, right?
You didn't ask for any of this.

Well, I think you don't want to take responsibility for your life
And I think you know where that gets you.

What do you think it means to be homeless?
Most of these people chose it for themselves
They don't want to work
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