"You did win! You need to look at things differently"
"Well it's clearly not a main passion of yours if you didn't spend that much time on it"
"You can keep music as a hobby"
"It's not broken dreams, you just cant always have what you want"
And framing me as if this isn't blaming myself, as if this is pointing a finger, but I'm just speaking to the state of a system that pulls itself down. As if I dont know this is essentially victim blaming.
You need to let me have this space where I can vent, I'm not insulting michael I can take responsibility for the thing he has had to carry. But you still need to understand I can smell doom, I can see this is a trap, and that's not the only way of looking at it, and I will look at it other ways as well, but this IS a truth i have to process.
You, upset, wanting to confront me about this, are saying then I have to do something to change it. And that it's not a truth for you.
Okay I see you and I guess you are trying to help but there is a bigger picture, there is something looming even over the concept of you trying to help me and that is where I live. So you can point every finger at me but eventually will you realize that is just the natural state of the universe? And you detest whining but do you see yourself? We are living in a paradox. You need to give me this space where I hiss and spit about Michael, the operating principle of success, because I am just starting to doubt success itself.