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Somebody Nobody Dec 2017
Why are you like this?

Everyday, it's a battle.
You try to get me angry,
but it doesn't work.

Everyday, in order for you to have something to talk about,
you try to make me cause a scene.

Why?

I don't know what you gain from it,
nor what you want from me.

People happen to like me more than you,
so why do you tell them:
"She got mad at me for no reason"?

They know.

They know that you try to aggravate me,
that you try to get under my skin.

Is this some sort of accomplishment for you?

I'm sorry but you don't mean anything to me,
so I'd appreciate it if you stopped trying.

You're just hurting yourself.
Sorry for rambling on, but this poem doesn't really make sense without a little background. I'm still in school, and there's this one guy, Aaron, who always tries to make me angry. He proceeds to say when people ask, "She got mad for no reason" or "I was just joking". Honestly, it's one of the most annoying instances that I have to endure everyday.  When I say something like: "I don't appreciate how you're acting", he goes around and brags like it's an actual achievement. My friends don't like it and usually defend me. Thanks for reading!
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
I've got friends who don't talk to me.

I've got this one friend who acts like he cares,
but in reality just wants to talk about himself.

I've got this another friend
who only cares about being on good terms with everyone.

I've got another friend
who doesn't care about anyone else but his girlfriend.

I've got this one friend
who talks trash about me.

But what I don't have
is a friend who actually cares.

A friend that's willing to talk to me,
to help me.

And I desperately need one.
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
All I've got in chaining me to this world
are a few friends who don't talk to me
and a graduation party that'll never happen.

Maybe someone would be sad if I left,
but they'll probably cry fake tears,
just to get attention.

All I know is that,
very little people would actually care.

My teachers would just see me as another student,
a name to be taken off their roster.

My classmates will see me as an empty seat,
more storage space.

My parents would see me as a failure,
and just act sad.

No one would see me as anything different,
because I never am.
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
I don't know what I've done,
but it's come back.

I thought I've escaped,
but I'm still here.

Why?

I wish I could run,
run away from all these feelings,
but I can't.

I thought that I've hardened,
that I could take it on again,
but I can't.

I feel so
empty.

I feel so empty
that I want to cry,
but I can't.

I feel so hollow in side,
that if someone knocked on me,
you'd hear a drumming sound inside.

I'm not sure if I can go through this again,
the first time nearly broke my will to live,
I don't know what to do this time.

I just have to hope for the best.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
She's here again.
Everywhere I go,
I can see her.

She's batting her lashes at me.
Her lipstick gleams in the light.
Her dress is ever so tight.

Everyday it gets harder to resist her,to control my urges.
She knows how bad it's been.
Her eyes bore holes in my soul.

Every time I think about who I truly am,
she rears her pretty head around the corner.
She smiles, and waits ever so patiently for me to give in.
She wants me to go with her.
If I go, I'll never come back.

Today was a bad day.
She knows this,
and she waits to pounce on me.
I have nothing to return to,
no one is chaining me down.
I have no one to disappoint.

I hate to admit it,
but she's so tempting to leave with.
She'll solve my problems sealed with a kiss.
As much as I want to stay,
I can't.
Her powers of temptation are too strong.
I think I'm about to give in.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
She's top of her class,
straight A's with almost 100's as every percent.

She's the first one in class,
praised by her teachers,
and her parents approve greatly.

But she's often ridiculed.

Being called "teacher's pet",
"*****", and "no-life",
by her jealous peers.

Everyday she goes to the library,
to hide from her peers.
Burying herself in the books
is the only safe haven she knows.

She doesn't have any friends,
not real ones, at least.
Her "friends" use her to get quick answers,
a cheap way to finish their homework and assignments.

She knows that she's all alone,
that nobody would want her as a first choice.
She knows that she's been called names,
and can't do anything about it.

So she buries herself in studies,
buries herself alive,
to try to survive.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
Everyday I give people the benefit of the doubt.
I believe that good is in them.

I just can't seem to understand
why people take advantage of that.

I gave you a chance,
don't take it for granted.

To be honest,
I'm starting to lose hope.

The belief that held out so strongly throughout my life
is starting to thin out.

I'm not one to hold grudges,
but I'm not one to forget.

Just because I gave you another chance,
does not mean I've ignored what you did.

It does not mean your slate is clean,
it does not mean you're in my good graces.

I'm simply giving you another chance.
Somebody Nobody Jul 2017
I was in the depths for so long,
I forgot what true happiness feels like.
I was trapped for too long,
I forgot what it was like to be free.
I was let free.
All my troubles floated away, and the weight was lifted off my shoulders.
There was no tearful departure, nor any regret.
All I can feel is pure happiness.

It's an odd feeling, but I absolutely love it.
I can finally see the world through bright eyes,
and I'm just radiating happiness.

I'm free
and better than I'll ever be.
Somebody Nobody Jul 2017
I'm bleeding out.
I've been shot countless times, with insults and glares.
I've been stabbed with rumors and lies,
I'm hiding everything through a mask that makes me seem carefree.
I act as if nothing's a big deal anymore.
Not one of them knows.
It feels painful to try to get up.
So I just lay here, waiting to die.
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
I used to be so
happy,
cheerful,
ignorant.

Then, one fateful day,
my world came crashing down.
And in the rubble,
the pieces of my shattered heart.

I knew no one would accept me for my true self.
So I wore a mask. It was a perfect mask, a remnant of my past self.
No one could see past it. Not one person.
I looked through my mask with pleading eyes,
but people don't take another look at someone like me.

I've run out of tears to cry,
and now I finally see that I'm truly broken inside.
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
Everyday she goes to school
a smile plastered on her face.

She is lonely and despised
by her horrible classmates.

All she wants to do is fit in,
but alas,
people will never let her.

She has natural beauty,
but people don't acknowledge
or let her enjoy it.

She wants a chance,
a chance to breathe,
but alas
they'll never allow it.
Somebody Nobody Dec 2017
It was just in her to smile,
programmed at birth.

Her smile was bright,
enough to light up a bleak room.

She was a joy to have around,
the warmth some needed in their life.

But not anymore.

Her smile's faded,
leaving no trace of it ever being there.

She's stone cold,
unable to feel happiness.

She's fought back with all she could,
but it's not in her anymore.

And they wonder why.

They ask her,
"Where's the old girl I know? It's too quiet."
She doesn't lie, so she can't say that it isn't them.

So now she walks down a lonely path,
one that she wouldn't voluntarily walk,
but has to.

She's lost her most beautiful trait,
and she's willing to take it back.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
Something in her lay festering,
a side of her that she would never expose.

Her sturdy exterior shows her as
smart,
sweet,
caring,
compassionate,
amazing.

But look a little deeper.

On occasion,
you can catch her rare moments.

How cruel she really is,
how violent,
how manipulative,
how evil.

She likes to play God.

Everyday,
slowly making everyone into a puppet,
she controls them all.

With her words smothered in honey,
and smile shining brighter than the sun,
she controls them all.

I wonder when they'll notice.
Notice that they're all puppets in her game,
and they're all losing.
Somebody Nobody Dec 2017
I'm not broken anymore,
because I've already pieced myself together.

I'm not empty anymore,
because I feel something resting inside of me.

I'm not lonely anymore,
because of you.

You've filled me with warmth,
in these cold seasons.

I'm probably not worthy of your attention,
and your care,
but you gave it to me anyways.

You've let me breathe,
and helped me to live.

I can't find the correct words to express my gratitude,
for "thank you" is too easy,
and I don't know of a word to describe how I feel.
Dedicated to my real friends, Jesus Garibay, Grettee P., Sam (a poet on this site),  and Jonathan Garcia. I thank you all.
Somebody Nobody Dec 2017
How could you?
After all we've been through,
You seem to have forgotten me.

Because of one pretty girl,
All you do now is
Leave me.
Every time we talk, you try to find a way out of it.

You didn't give a crap about me

And now I know why.
Somebody Nobody Jul 2017
I've mastered an art, truly one of the most useful.
I've shaped an image of myself to others, but it's just an image.
I've mastered the art of lying.
I'm a fake.
But no one else can see it.
I hate doing this.
I hate wearing a mask everywhere I go.
I seem carefree on the outside.
People think I'm truly happy.
They don't know how wrong they are.
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
I'm clinging on to my last bit of salvation.
I'm hanging off a cliff, and the only thing I can hold onto is
a thread.
I'm desperately praying, hoping, begging that this can save me.
If I fall, I will certainly die.
But then again, if I live, I have nothing to return to.
No one is willing to save me.
Deep down, I'm broken, and nobody wants someone like me.
I'm a parasite in society, and they'd rather let me die than see the truth.
So I'm hanging on until there's nothing to hang onto anymore.
Somebody Nobody Sep 2017
Have you of no honor?

Life is a battleground,
there are wins and losses.,
wrongs and rights,
strengths and weaknesses.

Life is a free-for-all.
Might you make an alliance,
beware of distrust and deceit.

Some choose to fight with honor and valor.
Some choose to fight with underhanded tricks.

There are no written rules, but unspoken ones.
Do not strike a person when they are down.
An unspoken, clearly indicated rule.

Then why, do I ask, do you continue to strike me?
I'm down, done for, and yet you still continue to hit me.

I can't ask for help,
I can't fight back.
This poem was inspired mainly because of an event that happened today. I recently fractured my ankle, putting me in a wheelchair. I chose a wheelchair so that my crutches would not get kicked and I would fall over. As I rode in my wheelchair, already sad that I could not walk for a while, people would walk by and call me a "*******". Now, I would usually have no problem with it but after a while, it just gets offensive how they use it. People would say, "Watch out for the *******" or "I can't believe that ******* hit me" (I would accidentally hit other people when I rode to class). As I rode to class today, my big wheel got stuck in the door bump. A classmate walked by and laughed at me and yelled, "You're going to be late.", in a jeering tone. I honestly did not know what to do. I could not reply or I would be shot down quick. I just decided to ignore it. This event may not be applicable to many of you, but this truly hurt me.
Somebody Nobody Sep 2017
I need someone to talk to,
to depend on.

I am the person who is depended on,
a sturdy post behind everyone.

Everyone leans on me,
but I never get anything in return.

I didn't mind for a while.

But now things are getting lonely.

Everyone has someone
but me.

I'm alone.

For the longest time,
I didn't mind, nor care.

I was fine.

But now, I can't stand to be alone any longer.

How far have I fallen?
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
Oh How they laughed at my ideas
How they laughed at my hair
How they laughed at my walk
How they laughed at my voice
How they laughed at my expense
How they laughed when I made the smallest mistakes
How they laughed when I took the blame
How they laughed when I told the truth
How they laughed when I told them I was depressed
How they laughed when they humiliated me
How they laughed when I was gone
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
The battlefield of life is not man against man,
but man against themselves.

The real battle in is internal,
rather than fighting against someone else.

The fight is the choice to bring someone down
or help someone up.

There are winners,
and there are losers.

It's based on whatever you think is right.

I've already lost the battle today,
and I'm starting losing the war.
*man is just a board term that is used for humanity in general. Apologies to those who are a bit sensitive on the topic.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
What do true friends do?

Do they talk to you daily?

Do they care about you?

Are they always there for you?

Are they always willing to help you?

Now, I can't say those for sure,
but I'm willing to bet that that's what true friends do.

My "friends", you see are willing to leave me at the drop of a hat.
And we'll leave that topic as that.
I apologize if this poem was pretty ******.
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
I can't sleep anymore.
Last night, I just stared at the ceiling and thought.
I went with the negatives first, but they were all true.
I tried to think of the good next, but none were true about me.
I'm a pest.
I've tried so hard to keep hanging on, but I can't.
Not anymore.
I felt something wet on my face.
As I tried to wipe it away, more tears just came down.
I cried my heart out in a dimly lit room, alone, and not any one of the people who knows me will ever know.
I've already tried reaching out.
But I can't take it anymore.
The image I've set up for others is crumbling.
But no one bothers to look at me anyway.
I've got nothing to fear.
I can't sleep anymore.
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
Do you ever get that feeling,
when you're in a large room of people,
that you're lonely?

It's an icy cold sensation that just
freezes your blood flow.
It's a cold feeling that spreads from your ribs,
to your stomach.

I hate that feeling.
It hurts both ways,
emotionally
and physically.

But that feeling just melts away,
when someone notices me.
The feeling just leaves
when someone talks to me.

But that doesn't happen most of the time.

And so I'm still stuck with that icy feeling,
with no one to talk to,
with no one to look to.

But that's okay.
I don't suppress my pain anymore.
I don't need to,
because I know I'm not alone.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
"She's so annoying"
Am I really?

"She's ugly and nosy all the time"
I'll take that into consideration, thank you very much.

"She's so weird"
Hmm

"She's so rude, too."
Is there any other word you can use other than "so"?

"I hate her"
I don't really know who doesn't, so I don't blame you.

What I thought was my best friend,
said these words behind my back.

I heard them say it when I was walking in class,
and the entire class hushed up.

I just stared at them,
until the class started agreeing.

I just sat down and ignored them,
as I should,
but having an entire class agree that you're a bad person,
well that really raises your confidence, doesn't it?

So now I sit alone,
isolated from the others,
thinking in peace.

Starting out alone was rough,
I thought that I was a social butterfly,
and that I need others to survive.

But after time,
I told myself,
I've lived most of my life without them,
why should I need them now?
Somebody Nobody Dec 2017
I loved this place,
But now I know that it was temporary relief.
All I know is that I need to leave.
There’s no point in me staying,
There’s nothing and no-one anchoring me down
Not anymore at least.
Maybe it’s time I left.
I’ve got no one to say my final goodbyes to,
I’ve got nothing to leave here.
I’ve got nothing.
Somebody Nobody May 2017
Palms sweaty,
Eyes darting,
Stomach churning

You look amazing,
in the short summer dress
your clothes bring out your eyes

Everything is perfect,
the humidity of the air matches the party,
the music matching the mood

My clothes are a size too big,
my shoes a size too small,
my courage a size too empty.

I ask you to leave with me,
to go the park we loved as kids

You happily agree,
and my heart bursts with joy

I push you on the swing,
and lean in for the kiss.

That was the best day of my life,
and I hope it was yours too.
Thanks for reading!
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
"Please stay I love you."
I love you too.

I love the way you never acknowledge me.
How you never seemed to notice I was there.

I love the way you called me names.
How you called me annoying and troublesome.
How you called me stupid and weak.

I love the way you always left me.
How you never wanted to talk to me.

I love how you were ashamed to be around me.
How you walked away from me in public.

I love the way you toyed with me.
How you treated me like an experiment.
Like I was a thing for you to test out.

Why do you spit out lies?
We both know you don't mean it.
Is this another game for you?

You put me through hell.
I'm nothing to you.
I'm leaving you forever.

One day, when I'm on my deathbed,
I'll know that I made the right decision.
Somebody Nobody Jul 2017
Why do I feel like I'm taken for granted?
Is it because you ******* off every chance you get?
Is it because I'm too nice to say anything?

Why do I feel like a ******* doormat?
Is it because you walk all over me?
Is it because you think I'll always be there for you, even after how you've treated me?

Why am I constantly disappointed in you?
Is it because I always give you the benefit of the doubt?
Or is it because you betray me without batting an eye?

Do you know how long I cried?
Did you even try to feel how I felt?
Did you forget that I had a conscience too?

Why are you so quick to make a joke of me?
If the air is tense with someone else because you ****** up, you always make fun of me who did nothing.

Remember when you said, "I'll be there for you, always."
Well now, I don't want you.
You're a ******* liar.

Remember those times when you'd say, "I love you too" whenever I got truly frustrated when you insulted me?
I'm going to say what I've meant to say ever since you've done that.
I'd sell you to Satan for ******* free.
But hell, you'd do the same thing.
I'm terribly sorry for the strong language, but sometimes, that's the best word for it.
Somebody Nobody Aug 2017
All my life,
I'd been a sweet girl,
an eccentric girl,
a caring girl,
a passionate girl.

Your little girl
is on the edge of insanity,
fueled by desperation
and loneliness.

Your sweet, loving girl
is crying her heart out.
Her tears the byproduct
of their actions.

Their laughter,
sneers,
humiliating words,
and obvious glares.

I used to laugh until I cried,
but now I just cry.
I cry and cry and cry.
I hate it, waking each morning to a soggy pillow.

I'm sorry,
but your sweet little girl is gone.
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
It's dark
and lonely
I'm just staring out into the bleakness of my soul.
The air is frigid
and empty
I can't see anyone in the distance.
I've tried to leave, but I can't.
So I think.
Maybe the people around me like me, but just don't show it.
Maybe they appreciate my presents.
Maybe I'm not truly alone.
And there it is, a flash of light. A glimmer of hope.
I get up and run into it.
I'm free.
Somebody Nobody Mar 2017
I'm Sorry
That you knew me
for so long

I'm Sorry
That I acknowledged you
when no one else would

I'm Sorry
That I stuck with you
Through everything
even though I would be shunned

I'm Sorry
That you would never
give me a second thought

I'm Sorry
That you made plans
and you never showed up

I'm Sorry
That I waited
for hours on end
believing in your promises

I'm Sorry
That I loved you
and never told you

I'm Sorry
That you always left me
when I called for help

I'm Sorry
That I tried

I'm Sorry
That I love you
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
Sometimes I wonder,
would it be better
if I just left?

I have little to nothing
chaining me to this world,
just a few things that I honestly won't miss.

The people here don't like me,
and I don't have anywhere else to go.

But I'm still here.

I have a chance that so many people have lost,
out of accident
or on purpose.

I have a chance to leave a legacy behind that would make me proud,
a chance to make the world a better place when I leave
than when I came into it.

That's the only reason why I haven't left.

I have a chance
that people would die for,
and I'm about to throw it away.

Sooner or later,
the weight of my choices might be too much to bear,
but for now,
I'm still here.
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
When I'm around others,
I act normal.
I act happy.
I act energetic.

When I'm alone,
My smile fades,
My energy has been diminished,
The last of my strength gone.

When I'm around others,
I act perfect,
and they never take a second look.

When I'm alone,
I pick up my shattered heart,
the one that ached for so long.

Even with my head held up high,
I walk feeling like a cut that never healed.
I'm truly bleeding out,
and I can't fight this inevitable pain.

In the end, I'm the same.
I can't keep this act up for much longer.
In the end, is it all worth it?
Dedicated to my friend, Ariane De G.
Somebody Nobody Aug 2017
I can't do it anymore,
I just can't.

My front has finally cracked,
and I can't take it.

I'm almost completely numb,
the only thing left is emptiness.

The realization of being truly alone has finally hit me,
right in the heart.

It's not settling in either, no,
instead every time I think of it, it hits me as hard as the first time
Somebody Nobody Sep 2017
So recently,
I was reminded of a sad incident,
where I cried in public,
where I was comforted.

In a discussion,
the topic was brought up.

And you know what the said?

"Oh yea it was funny."

What
the
****.

What in god's name is wrong with you?

I cried my heart out because of you.

And you know what you said after that?

"I was trying not to laugh."

I don't cry for attention.
I don't cry to be wanted.
I cry because something happened.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
It's a relentless cycle,
of pain and pleasure.

Those moments of pure agony,
fueled by instances of sweet, sweet company.

I told myself,
I won't fall victim again,
never ever,
will I have feelings for anyone.
Not anymore, at least.

My will has betrayed me,
with my heart feeling one way,
but my brain pulling me the other.

My mind tells me I have no chance,
and it's probably right,
but my heart fosters hope.
Hope that this time will be different.

I keep telling myself that
this time it'll be different,
but I know from experience that
it never is.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2016
She looked around with her piercing, golden-green eyes.
She growled, and told herself she would survive.
She knew they were empty words.
She sprang from her spot. She attacked them and ran.
The bullets pierced her skin, but she kept going. She would never stop.
They stopped chasing her, and went to treat their wounded. She went as far as she could.
She sat, and cleaned her fur. The bullets stung, but she eventually got them out.
Just another day in the jungle. Just another day as a leopard.
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
Where can I escape?

Where can I go to hide from the world?

For the world is an evil place,

and you can't tell me I'm wrong.

The world outside is unsafe,

with people running rampant

and killing each other left and right,

I don't want to go outside.

But as I look outside,

a small flower of hope blossoms.

There's so much good in the world,

but it's shadowed by too much bad.

You'll hear about horrible things that happened,

atrocious crimes that were committed.

But you'll also hear about beautiful things that came from someone,

and a large symphony of good deeds.

Life is a book,

sometimes of heroes and villains.

So I ask of you today,

who do you choose to be?
Somebody Nobody Oct 2017
I'm not entirely mad at you,
and I'm not entirely disappointed in you.

I kind of expected this,
but I didn't know how it would feel.

All I know is that I'm not happy with you.

I know you want to apologize,
and that you already have,
but if there's anything I've learned from my emotional wreckage,
it's that saying sorry right after the fact,
is always insincere.

What's worse is that,
the next day after our fight,
I was ready to forgive and move on,
but every time I tried to get your attention,
you ignored me.
It was humiliating,
in a public place,
to be ignored.

I just sat quiet,
astonished by your behavior.
I should have be mad at you,
not the other way around.

Again, you apologized right after.
Your insincere words hurt me,
but I'm willing to look over that.

But now,
I want space.
Space and time to reconsider,
to evaluate.

You've hurt me,
other people around you,
and yourself.
Think about it the next time words come out of your mouth.
You know, if there is one.
Somebody Nobody Jul 2017
I'm absolutely sick of it.
I'm tired of
reading all of these poems
about sadness and despair.
No more.
All of you
are the strongest
and the most dedicated,
or you wouldn't be here.
I ask of you,
pick yourself up
one more time,
and fight for yourself.
No one else will.
Somebody Nobody Dec 2017
Losing a best friend
is like having part of your soul ripped from you.

But it really stings
if they did it voluntarily.

She seduced my best friend,
and he forgot all about me the next day.

He lied to me.

But I have to ask myself,
how did she charm him
in the course of a couple weeks,
that made him forget about me,
who he's known for years.

Was I not good enough?
Somebody Nobody Jun 2017
People don't listen when I talk to them.
Their eyes, always looking for someone else.
Their arms, always limp and at their sides.
Their ears, always tired from listening.
Their breaths, exasperated sighs.
So I stopped talking.
Nobody really noticed.
I watched from afar.
I always wanted to be a part of the group, but I had no place at their table.
I was always alone.
No one came to talk to me, look at me, acknowledge me.
I was nothing.
Somebody Nobody Dec 2016
I lost you
The one thing I promised not to lose
Gone

Soon after that
My love faded
Leaving nothing but dust
For where it stood

I broke my promise
I didn't mean to
This wasn't supposed to happen

My friends noticed
They didn't say anything
They assumed I'd move on

I didn't

I watched
as you loved
as you smiled

My heart was broken
shattered to pieces

I picked up the pieces
and tried putting it back together
only to find that I had lost a piece

That piece was you
Somebody Nobody Aug 2017
When I look into the mirror,
all I see is a broken person.
Someone's who's been through the worse things that life can offer.
Someone's who's been forgotten for all their life.
Someone's who's sick of it all.
I can't feel anything anymore.
I've put up a defense so thick that I can't feel anything anymore.
I look into my eyes.
I have eyes clouded with emotion, but I don't know what it is.
I can't tell what it is.
Somebody Nobody Jul 2017
I'm that person who's always smiling.
I'm that person who's full of smiles and giggles.
I'm that person who's always willing to help.
I'm that person who thinks of others before all else.
I'm that person who's always excited.
I'm that person who sugarcoats everything.
I'm that person who always takes the worst **** that life throws out.
I'm that person who no one will ever take a second look at.

I'm also that person who's the loneliest.
I'm also that person who seems that they're hiding something.
I'm that person who has a false tone of happiness.
I'm also that person who's shed the most tears.
I'm that person who's the best liar.
I'm that person who's only called for help.

The most colorful are often the bleakest.
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
I'm not saying that my parents were bad parents,
but
I think they have some flaws.

My childhood was rough,
I was soft and my parents didn't seem to like that.
Granted, they didn't seem to like me in general.

I had little to no support from them,
at one point I was left home and feverish for a week,
starving and dehydrated in bed.

I could tell they liked my brother more,
but I accepted that from birth.

They'd talk trash behind my back,
to other adults,
to other children,
to my brother.

I didn't idolize my older brother,
and for a while I had despised him.
But I realized that it wasn't really his fault
that my parents had loved him more.

I could feel that others felt pity for me,
but had other things to do than help me.
But who could blame them?

Now I'm not expert,
but I'm not sure how that's how parents are supposed to be.
I apologize for rambling on about myself, but I couldn't keep this in any longer.
Somebody Nobody Mar 2017
Remember when
we walked to the office
because you needed to take care of business?

Remember when
you held my hand
because you could tell I was scared?

Remember when
we were on the bus
and I leaned on you to sleep?

Remember when
you'd always cheer me up
in the worst of times?

Remember when
you'd offer to throw yourself under the bus,
because I was a troublemaker?

Remember when
you got in trouble,
but I took all the blame?

Remember when
you asked me, "Why did you do that?"
"Why did you throw yourself under the bus?"

Remember when
I answered
"You'd do the same for me".
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
I remember the one of the worst parts of being in school,
I was used.

I believed that I loved this boy,
a popular, funny boy,
and he was my world.

I usually watched from afar,
until one day he came up to me.

He asked me if I could help him on his homework.
I ended up doing it for him,
but I was so happy.

Eventually, I just kept doing his homework,
and he'd lead me on.

Giving me hugs,
calling me sweet names,
sitting close to me.

But I realized that I had nothing,
he would just talk to my friends,
and only talk to me when he wanted me to do something.

He'd never let me have anything,
and I regret not seeing it sooner.
Somebody Nobody Nov 2017
When your first child turns out to be a failure,
don't expect the other one to come running.

Years of neglect had hardened her,
training her to become a cold, silent child.

She had been deprived of her childhood,
always ignored or forgotten about,
abused and yelled at.

The day she went mute,
nobody cared.

She went on with her life,
living off of her friends,
hearing about their daring adventures,
hoping she could have one of her own.

When her parents had finally figured out
their first child was mediocre at best,
they quickly tried turning to her.

It was too late.

For her entire life she'd went without them,
what makes them think they can just go in now?
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