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 Nov 2019 Smothered Divine
Renata
today
I cut today  
I saw my blood dripping
and i liked it ???
I don't want to seem crazy
but today broke me
today
my mom yelled at me all-day
and I just wanted to end my life
but instead, I watched my blood drip on the floor
I'm not dead
but I feel dead
self-destruction will never die,
but it will be killing a lot
of innocent harmless bystanders.
In my dreams I can sing like a bird. Waking up, I just croak trying. It saddens me that I can sing an aria only in my dreams.
I always start on a high note. Why can’t I sustain it? Maybe it is the pollution, the congestion of the air that fails me.

In slumber I am an artist of black and white prints that reveal one mystery after another unfolding before my eyes.
The next day I feel energized to create a masterpiece. Alas, my fingers recoil at the sight of my paltry attempts.

But awake I dance with a light foot and a dizzy head as I circle and swirl to my image’s delight, my heart as my witness.
 Nov 2019 Smothered Divine
Renata
one day
I will be more than a number
i will be more than the gay girl
more than the disappointment
more than a name
more than a girl, student, and more then crazy
I will be me
I'M NOT A NUMBER
OR
any labels society has put me
no labels
nothing defines me
one day
someday
society will see me for the real me
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