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86 · Dec 2021
Liability
Skyler M Dec 2021
Now I’m no genius,
Just barely passed high school,
Couldn’t get through college,
And I can’t keep a **** job,
Maybe I’m being dramatic,
Or maybe you’re a ******* ****.

“You’re not disabled, you’re just a lazy ****”
Burned into my head,
“You’re not a man, you’re just manipulating us”
Burned into my head,
“You’re not suicidal, you’re just selfish.”
Burned into my head.

I’m whatever you say I am,
I don’t own anything when I’m here,
Can’t handle your ****-eating grin,
Want to knock your teeth right out,
But I’m too weak,
I’m burned out,
And I’m a ******* freak.

Good luck, bringing me home.
Cause you won’t see me anymore.
My seat will be empty for the holidays,
I know that you won’t care but…
Everyone else will.
86 · Apr 2019
Searching and Searching
Skyler M Apr 2019
I've been searching,
I don't have much time,
Cause time will run out,
All I can do is give you my address,
Maybe you'll find me there,
But maybe you won't,
Cause I'll be out.

Looking under rocks,
Throwing stones into the river,
Looking through grass,
Chewing seeds until my teeth wear,
Looking behind sheds,
And breaking inside to get to the tools.

I'll forget to leave a note,
And you'll wonder where I am,
If I'm searching for a God,
Or my indestructible purpose,
I sometimes wonder,
If purpose if my God,
Because that's all I pray to,
Yet despite my conclusion,
I'm still...

Looking under rocks,
Throwing stones into the river,
Looking through grass,
Chewing seeds until my teeth wear,
Looking behind sheds,
And breaking inside to get to the tools.
86 · Nov 2017
If I Could Please?
Skyler M Nov 2017
If I could please,
Concern myself with you,
Cause today you're not looking all too well,
And though that only may be me.

I can,
See it in your eyes,
That flash of a singular dying fire,
Struggling to stay aloft in this much to maze-like house.

If you could please,
Let me, wrap my arms around you,
Cause I'll protect you from all those demons,
And though that may only be me that sees.

You are dying...
86 · Feb 2018
Clarity, Please
Skyler M Feb 2018
Now you're gone,
Maybe I should be too,
I asked you so many times what you see in me,
And you told me that I was kind, fun, and the best friend you've ever had.
Then you suddenly turned and you left,
Leaving me here, on the ground, with a razor in my hand.

The world doesn't seem as bright as it used to be,
Now I feel the pressure is breaking in and tumbling down,
Down the staircase where I now reside, in the basement.
The world dims out and I feel it's time for me to say goodbye.

I asked God for forgiveness, even though I don't wanna believe.
I asked Lucifer for mercy. even thought I don't wanna believe.
I asked her for some clarity, even though I might not like the answer.
86 · Aug 2018
Vehicles and Streetlights
Skyler M Aug 2018
Walking in the middle of the road,
Cars drive by silently,
The only sound comes from my nervous breath,
I can feel the spiders crawling under my skin,
They make my flesh itch and yearn for a better body.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?

The road dips down into a soundless home,
I recognize the old pictures of that girl I never was,
"Why do you doubt me?" I ask the tired woman in front of me,
She won't respond, She knows she knows me better than myself.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?

Cars begin to swerve and crash alongside me,
I'm running now, don't have a destination in mind,
All I know is that I need to get new flesh,
Things that shouldn't be there, are there.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?
86 · Aug 2022
Screw Up Vibes
Skyler M Aug 2022
I'm gonna self destruct,
Drop everything and break it off,
Color my limbs every shade of red,
Make sure that you know I'm done.
I'm ******* done.

**** up
***** up
Calling out
Going out
Am I gonna get another chance?

Told you all my faults and left,
Insulted you and put you down,
I didnt really mean it but how else do I live with this stress?
This happens every time I feel pressure building.
So I tell you to ******* and I dip out.
86 · Jan 2018
Big Black Sea
Skyler M Jan 2018
I'm breathing in this oxygen,
Getting high on letter knives,
Faking smiles and happiness.

They think I'm a goner,
Never getting back onto dry land,
I'm lost in this ******* sea,
So, yeah, I agree.

It can feel like the world will end,
When everything's not at my fingertips,
I've got life to live ahead,
and I won't be taking it for granted.

They think I'm a goner,
Never getting back onto dry land,
I'm lost in this ******* sea,
So, yeah, I agree.
86 · Nov 2017
Eyes of Gas
Skyler M Nov 2017
With eyes of gasoline,
so close to burning up,
you could ignite the last of us.

For real, let's take a minute,
Why don't we watch from the very beginning,
The moment you found a way to clear your head.

You pretend you're so cold,
And I'm not even trying to hide,
Holding on to no man,
But an evil like yourself.

For real, let's take a minute,
Why don't we watch from the very beginning,
The moment you found a way to clear your head.

All the chaos keeping your hold,
Breathing in all the second hand smoke,
The alarm goes off inside your head,
Remembering something more than me.

With eyes of gasoline,
so close to burning up,
you could ignite the last of us.
85 · May 2022
Heavy Shoulders
Skyler M May 2022
The air is feeling quite tight,
Heavy weight on the shoulders,
All the eyes inside aren’t too bright,
Churning in an earth-shattering fight.

Must I write of every tragedy?
Does it accomplish what I want?
Or is it a selfish, eccentric perspective?
I don’t really care to correct it.
85 · Mar 2022
Assimilation
Skyler M Mar 2022
Assimilate this urge,
I'd do anything to purge,
This lack of assurance,
I will leave, I assure.
85 · Feb 2018
Pour
Skyler M Feb 2018
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Sweep me into the door,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Drown me in more,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
I’ve made it to the shore,
Make it fall onto my heart.
85 · Jul 2018
Without You
Skyler M Jul 2018
Open up my eyes and,
Take me to the riverside,
Let's play make believe on the sand,
I'll be a prince and you can be a dragon.

Greater heights without you.
Clinging tighter without you.

I'm tired of you controlling my life and,
I think it'd be better if I killed you,
You're nothing to me,
Not anymore.

Taking chances without you,
Holding onto opportunities,
Without you.

Skipping stones by your side,
I know that you like yo lie,
You could write a Gospel,
On how terrible I am,
Now let me go.

"You're no good."
"They hate you."
"Don't leave me alone."
"You need me."

Growing stronger without you,
Staying alive without you,
Threw away all my razors,
No thanks to you.
85 · Oct 2017
The Night Before
Skyler M Oct 2017
Time makes it's way out the door,
Hovering over her face,
I can see twilight pulsing inside her eyes,
An ebony night that scares me but pulls me into your heart.

The gears crank and grind,
Sounding out so desperately,
Shouting to become heard,
So I grasp her hand.

Fighting with gravity to not just hold her tight,
I couldn't face letting her leave my embrace,
She, of course, has revived my heart.

The gears crank and grind,
Sounding out so desperately,
Shouting to become heard,
So I grasp her hand.
85 · Aug 2018
Iris Dilation
Skyler M Aug 2018
Look up,
Look up,
Clouds form my words well,
Sometimes stormy and sometimes wispy.
Look down,
Look down,
Grass describes my personality,
Sometimes dry and yellow,
other times green and gorgeous.
Look left,
Look right,
Cars are going to run me over,
While I'm trying to arrive at my home,
Look in,
Look in,
My heart says it's been far too long for this,
I won't stand for it anymore.
Look straight,
Look straight,
Over the horizon are my dreams,
Show up to take this fever away.
Look up,
Look up,
And repeat the day.
84 · Sep 2019
See a Moon
Skyler M Sep 2019
Ladies, gentlemen, everyone in between, and inside out.
We're not saints nor are we sinners,
Where does the lie lay,
In a bed of withered flowers,
Underneath our grandmother's porch,
Are we inspired by the truth,
Or the choices we make?

Have we learned?
From the best of people,
Or the most favorite songs,
I bet we've learned.

These are all the people who have never seen a moon,
Have you ever seen a moon within a well-lit room?
Cause we honestly never have and I'm not sure we ever will,
There's some glimpses here and there while we're jogging out there,
But never have we ever seen the brightest, fullest moon.

Have we learned?
From the best of people,
Or the most favorite songs,
I bet we've learned.
84 · Jun 2019
The Wolf Mask
Skyler M Jun 2019
Pour some acid into those eyes,
It's time to forage for souls tonight,
Don the wolf mask by your side,
Oh, Warren my boy, you've made it thus far.

Walk through graveyards and find your mind,
For it's as empty as your very own coffin,
Hide behind trees and bright green bushes,
The ghost boy is haunting 'bout this time.

His hollow dark eyes and shallow sunken chest,
The suit on his frail skin is much too large,
Ghost boy can't be bother to trip to a tailor,
Just be glad you can't see what's underneath.

For the dark hollow eyes are a mask of disguise,
And the darkness of the suit holes scares even the ebony of the sky,
Don't doubt his name- and don't scout his dens,
Warren, I must say, you're not as safe as you were anymore.

Don the leather coat that sits near the stone,
You've got to find home,
For ghost boy has ways to make you jump right out of your grotesque little mask,
He doesn't want friends,
Only something to feed.

Pour some acid into those eyes,
It's time to forage for souls tonight,
Don the wolf mask by your side,
Oh, Warren my boy, you've made it thus far.
84 · Feb 2018
Chair
Skyler M Feb 2018
I'm darting towards a chair,

Out of the many wooden chairs,

That are surrounding my head, body, and the chair that I target,

I stand on the chair out of the many other chairs,

I'm seeing other shadows standing on chairs,

They seem to be searching for a better chair than mine,

But that's okay cause I like my wooden chair,

It's enough to keep my eyes above the seas of leaves,

I look out among the waves of shadow people,

As they climb onto very particular chairs,

Perhaps in the ocean of all that can be seen,

The wobble of my chair distracts me from the beings,

I sit into the chair because I fear I might fall,

The chair becomes my humble abode as I stare into the leaves,

As they welcome me into sleep.
84 · Jan 2021
Exxon Curb
Skyler M Jan 2021
The Exxon curb is my home,
For the next five minutes it is my own,
It's few feet of curb that I won,
By sitting and drinking my green tea.

This is my chrome golden lair,
Under heaven's blessed stairs,
Where the lights go out suddenly,
And I'm finding myself stumbling.

Don't have enough time to wander the city,
I'll be home by the time it's dark,
Cause I don't care except when you're calling me,
Please don't talk to me like that.

This is my chrome golden lair,
Under heaven's blessed stairs,
Where the lights go out suddenly,
And I'm finding myself stumbling.
84 · Feb 2018
To The Sea
Skyler M Feb 2018
Someone grabbed a hold of my hand and took it to the edge of the stream, where it flowed so suddenly into the precipice of the sea.
I missed the chance of getting a glace at the boy but I have a feeling that he knew me and that I knew him.
He dissipated into the overwhelming vastness of the sea,
I wish that I could say that I had accomplished something that day,
But all I saw was a back of a head and a lonely, burdened sea.

I came clean and told all truths,
Can you hold my hand again,
So that I can feel no fear,
Then the sea opens me up and reveals that I have so much to...
Clear.

The time I wasted, just drunk on my pills and eradication,
For the longest time I ignored the sea, feeling like it was betraying me,
But finally the boy revealed his face to me, so I took my time and turned towards the tide where the sea was waiting for me.


I came clean and told all truths,
Can you hold my hand again,
So that I can feel no fear,
Then the sea opens me up and reveals that I have so much to...
Clear.
83 · Dec 2021
Saving Face
Skyler M Dec 2021
I’m splitting into two,
Two halves of a whole mess,
Breaking fast to the cliff edge,
Shouting back to save face,
But I’m losing it, I’m losing face.

I’m a terrifying beast,
No more than 4’
Weigh less than paper,
Fighting against the wind.

I don’t feel like myself,
I invite this sudden change as a victory,
Cause I’m saving my grace,
By moving away without a place,
To stay.

He’s haunting me and he loves it,
He’s taunting me and he loves it.
83 · Sep 2018
Daydreaming
Skyler M Sep 2018
Flying somewhere far away,
Purple eyes are on the moon,
Christmas decorations floating away,
I am on a stage,
Drifting and singing my songs,
Guitar in hand as I sing it all out.

All I can hear is the crowd,
All I can see is the white corner,
All I can feel is the guitar in my arms.

Xanax drifts into my gaping jaws,
Am I just a skeleton?
Cause I see the pill again,
Cotton candy clouds,
Look like they were dyed with red,
Ascending through the classroom,
Into the eye-filled moon.

All I can hear is the chatter of teens,
All I can see is the teacher,
All I can feel is the tapping of my foot.

Back again.
I’m back again.
83 · Jan 2018
Eyes Inside Trees
Skyler M Jan 2018
I start to part myself apart,
See which side I like more,
Far, to far to see my eyes in the trees,
Blinded, I wander the greens as I lean onto a tree,
It gives away like a ghost,
Tear away the moss,
It poisons my heart.
83 · Feb 2019
Vain
Skyler M Feb 2019
Sacrifice vanity,
To see the morality,
Of teenagers in carnality,
This evoked, twisted mentality,
Hear their banality,
Trying to get it out of thee,
As you reach fatality,
Inside their hive mind's lethality.

You're not immune,
To sacrificing yourself far too soon,
But it's the moon that brings your harpoon,
To bleed her out in the middle of the afternoon.
83 · Apr 2019
Closing In On Itself
Skyler M Apr 2019
In the nighttime we,
In the nighttime we become alone,
Welcome to our secret dreams,
These screams that meditate our isolation,
Ice under our bed frames keep the fire low,
Sedated is the way that is way inside of me.

Now the sky is closing up in itself,
Give me your eyes,
Time won't matter once we're home,
Just don't look at the ground below yourself.

The fire under the bed,
The fire under the bed, oh, there it goes,
Let it go.
It wasn't an invitation or introspection,
But I guess the point of facing a new direction is to move ahead,
Ruckus before our feet become coals and hot bones,
Not until we move again will the sun appear from the black hole,
I'm disappointed in the end, when it's just laying down,
Let us go,
Watch us go into a brand new home.

Now the sky is closing up in itself,
Give me your eyes,
Time won't matter once we're home,
Just don't look at the ground below yourself.
Skyler M Dec 2018
It's been raining,
But that's okay cause I'm following close behind,
The flood goes up to my knees,
It only goes up to your toes though,
How and why are you able to walk like that?
After years of flooding I guess I've learned,
That giving up is easier then taking the lead,
Though now you seem to be willing,
Holding me up by the wrist and,
Wrapping me up in black sand.

Hello my dear, I've been missing you,
Hope I see you tonight,
But will our mothers let us stay?
Well it's hard to say.

It's been snowing,
A storm is on it's way,
One that will cover me up,
Becoming my new tomb,
But if you're still willing,
Will you dig me up and out,
I'll hold you gratefully, gracefully,
Between the chorus and choirs,
Smiling white wolves come down,
From mountains above staircases,
You're still here so I'm not afraid.

Hello my dear, I've been missing you,
Hope I see you tonight,
But will our mothers let us stay?
Well it's hard to say.
82 · Jun 2022
Self-Infliction
Skyler M Jun 2022
Just fresh out of my teens
Now fresh out of dopamine,
Good thing I’m full on fluoxetine,
All my vacant dreaming scenes,
Cut, now, tell me what it means.

I’ve fallen in between,
I’m my own misery,
A breech delivery,
In all my holy glory.

Look away from my tattered rind,
Fell away, I’m naked and unconfined,
“Kiss my ***” tatted on my behind,
Is anyone inclined to **** the divine,
It’s all sibylline story time, in my mind.

I’ve fallen in between,
I’m my own misery,
A breech delivery,
In all my holy glory.

Red dots trained on my cranium,
Bullets full of lithium and ******,
Collapse inside the auditorium,
Shot down for hefty sums,
Go ahead and sell my lungs.
Sell both my lungs and then my tongue,
Come on lets go you ******* ***,
Sell both my lungs and then my fun,
Come on let’s go become totally numb.

I’ve fallen in between,
I’m my own misery,
A breech delivery,
In all my holy glory.
82 · Feb 2018
Who
Skyler M Feb 2018
Who
Who will I be,
Who will I become,
When will I fly away,
When will I go home.

The lake never looked so much darker.
I used to see the bottom but now all I see is black.
I climb to the edge of the dock knowing my fate as clear as day.
I dip my hand into the water and start to fade away.

Who will I be,
Who will I become,
When will I fly away,
When will I go home.

My body feels like a mere illusion,
Wavering back and forth between common ideas and useless ideals,
The black waves rock over me until I lose my breath,
I can feel something tugging on my leg,
Urging me to sink farther.

Who will I be,
Who will I become,
When will I fly away,
When will I go home.
82 · May 2022
Typical Facade
Skyler M May 2022
I don't care where I'd be,
I'd take anywhere I can drop,
A typical person facade,
And take my heart out of it's box.

I'd lose my mind,
I'd lose my mind otherwise,
Soon, here, now I'll be giving,
Everything I got for the night.

Once it's gotten all out,
I better be a heaving,
non-breathing mess,
Untangled upon a ***** floor,
Non-burdened going further,
Than I ever have before,
It's what I've been looking for,
Years, years of non-concrete fears,
Pushing relentlessly as I'm near,
This is all I want to feel.

I'd lose my mind,
I'd lose my mind otherwise,
Soon, here, now I'll be giving,
Everything I got for the night.

I'd never be alone if I allowed,
For this chance to slip below,
I know I have just an hour,
The numbing pressure to cower,
Is so viciously overpowering.
82 · Nov 2017
Hiding In the Trees
Skyler M Nov 2017
These trees surround me,
I'm looking for an answer,
From the sky,
Though I don't believe,
I do feel relieved to know that when I go I'll be at peace.

I'm cowardly, hiding in the trees,
Where I call home.

I asked the log, "what is hell?"
He responded with a scoff, "The eternal burning of one's flesh."
I asked the rabbit. "what is hell?"
She responded with a thump, "A fox that's eaten me whole."

I'm cowardly, hiding in the trees,
I can see you but you can't see me.
82 · Oct 2018
Warm Winter Wandering
Skyler M Oct 2018
Riding my bike in the pouring rain,
Hold onto the slippery handlebars,
And hold onto your last words,
I'm sick again so my nose is red,
Like the dried blood on the tires,
Your memory is all I've got now,
Peace of mind without time.

I've got to get home now,
Let me in won't you please,
I'm not ready but here I am.

Walking in the cloudy overhang,
Hold onto myself for dear warmth,
And hold onto you to walk straight,
I think it's gonna rain but maybe not,
My hands are cold and blue,
Like the eyes inside of my own head.
I can't let go of your hand,
Never going to get peace of mind without you.
82 · Mar 2022
Remold
Skyler M Mar 2022
"Come home"
"Come home"
"Come home!" she begged me so.

"I won't"
"I won't"
"I won't!" I told her so.

"You're mold"
"You're mold"
"You're mold!" he's shouted at me so.

"I'm already home,
At a place that I can fold,
Breathe without a head cold,
Where I own all my clothes,
Won't come back 'til he's been remold."
82 · Oct 2018
The Devil's Subway Train
Skyler M Oct 2018
Im on a subway train,
It's dimly lit and I'm the only soul,
Some would call it the Devil's train,
But as far as I can tell It's been nice.

My hands are cold and so is my nose,
Time slows down I'm suddenly not alone,
His eyes glow yellow and nails grow sharp,
He threatens me to stay seated,
I cannot take my eyes off of the man,
I cannot see his face, is this my death?

He's stepping to me,
A green and black wool hoodie and tight black jeans,
I know who this is and I'm afraid,
He pulls something out of his pocket,
A torch, the fire is there and somehow lit,
Handing it to me, he steps off of the moving train.
I then realize that I can die- open and inviting me.

Tempted, I lean over the edge and try,
Failing, I end up back on the seat I was sitting on,
Glancing down at the torch on the dirtied ground,
I try to make it brighter but it doesn't seem to work,
Then I realize the purpose of this torch,
It flickers in recognition and glows brighter.

I'm ready to move on,
The train slows to a stop and a road sits outside the doors,
So I take this as a sign to get out and move,
Trekking down the path with a blazing torch that's my own.
82 · Feb 2018
She
Skyler M Feb 2018
She
She fell so hard,
So fast,
And I never even cared,
Even in the darkest nights when I gagged and bound her,
Trying to show her the meaning of my sand,
I try to give her a place to show herself to me,
But her head is enveloped in water so she only sees,
What she wants to see.
Skyler M Aug 2018
Let's take a walk out onto the roof tops,
Look out over our boring suburban neighborhoods,
Are you satisfied with your life?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

Every night that I'm alone on the roof,
I am missing all of you,
Memories are all I have at this point,
Everything feels like it's moving counter-wise.

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

These ghost stick alongside me for now,
They always talk about how stupid I am,
Never allowed to leave my side,
I need all of my friends back.

Throw me back in time,
Even if it kills me,
I don't like being alone,
Why am I alone?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"
82 · Jan 2018
Every Night
Skyler M Jan 2018
I fight for my life,
Every night.
I'll never tell my friends,
Of what I did last night.
The creatures on my crumbling frame,
Tell me that I made it again.

But I don't know whether,
to smile or cry.
Cause the battle rages on,
Every night.
I'm parting my skin,
To see what I can find.
Maybe I will see,
An ounce of light.

I fight for my life,
Every night.
The echos of my friends,
Who've told me they were there for me.
I'm losing my vision,
As of today.
The sun rose but my heart,
Doesn't want to beat.

My intention,
has been shackled.
And the demons,
They like to scream.
That I am better off dead,
Every night.
So I take my time,
Send a prayer to someone I don't believe in.
So I take my time,
Process my suicidal thoughts.
So I take my time,
To fall asleep.
82 · Mar 2018
You Don't Know
Skyler M Mar 2018
You don't know my brain,
You don't know my heart,
You don't know my veins,
and you don't know my pain.

So please use discretion when judging,
I don't need your input on how my head is doing,
I know what's happening and it's messing me up.
81 · Nov 2018
Rusted Remains
Skyler M Nov 2018
I see the corpses of the ones I once loved,
At this moment, on this roof, I stand alone,
I wish that I could relive this life,
I feel like a ticking time-bomb,
Cause one day I'll fall apart up here.

But when I see you cry,
I know I need to give you everything,
It powers me on my rusted remains.

When the roof begins to crumble away,
And the interior metal shows itself,
I'm reminded of why everything could die,
In place, in replacement of everything I hold dear,
To me, a song to read, a song to sing, is a song to believe,
We'll live forever.

But when I see you cry,
I know I need to give you everything,
It powers me on my rusted remains.
81 · Jul 2018
Mama Moon
Skyler M Jul 2018
I am a nearly burnt out star,
Venus hates my guts,
Sun won't look at me,
Mars is even spreading lies.

Mama Moon, will I die soon?
I've had enough of you,
Mama Moon, sing me a tune.
I've got my hand on a gun,
Mama Moon, before it's afternoon.

I am about to implode and explode,
Jupiter is king of my life,
Pluto won't let me go,
Mercury seems to be dead.

Mama Moon, will I die soon?
I've have enough of you,
Mama Moon, sing me a tune,
I've got my hand on a gun,
Mama Moon, and now it's afternoon.
81 · Mar 2019
Breathless Men
Skyler M Mar 2019
Breathing inspires thinking,
A breathless man is passionless,
Open up those eyes and look at fear,
For fear wants you to see,
That it's the only thing standing in your way.

Make your excuses,
But once you open your mouth,
You'll find you can yell so loud,
That maybe even space could hear you.

I don't mind if you're stuck in the room,
I was stuck there too and it's up to you,
To find a way out of it's damage,
Fear will crumble over you and,
ensnare you until you breathe again.

Find a way to breathe,
Find a way to breathe.

Below your eyelids is a color,
A color that inspires feeling,
And a feeling will sing something foreign yet inviting,
So take it out and crush them into your palms,
Live again,
Do it and breathe again.
81 · Nov 2018
Missing Puzzle Pieces
Skyler M Nov 2018
Shaking down my clothes,
Searching for those last puzzle pieces,
To my life they could resolve everything,
Change the way I perceive my own time,
The possibility has me running,
Tossing over ***** laundry and disheveled beds.

Those nights that freeze my attempts,
I keep seeing those corner pieces out of the corner of my eyes,
Every-time I turn around in my head,
I've gotten the big picture but I'm always craving more,
So don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Please
81 · Oct 2018
Running is Saving Myself
Skyler M Oct 2018
Am I slowly giving in to those thoughts,
The ones that urge me to run,
Like running's the only solution,
Run as fast as I can as far as I can,
Away from the routine habits,
That inhabit my life every single day,
He's coming for me, He's coming for me now.

I don't feel safe,
Not when he's after me,
My bones crumble under the weight,
I need to run,
Let me run.

Please don't remind me how long I've got until I wake up,
I'm sorry to all my family and my friends,
Days are longer again but for all the wrong reasons,
Am I sick?
I'm getting sick.

I don't feel safe,
Not when he's after me,
My bones crumble under the weight,
I need to run,
Let me run.
81 · Jan 2022
Pooltable Fable
Skyler M Jan 2022
We were kids, two empty heads,
Yet full at the heart, dropping pieces of our souls,
At each other's doorsteps, awaiting a better place to meet.
Now, we're still kids, just a few years ahead,
Still young at heart, I can't let go of your leftovers,
I'm at your doorstep, awaiting my friend and maybe,
A partner.
Skyler M Feb 2019
Red under fabric,
Single creative head made to spin out,
Drugs are ineffective but so's my hand,
Torn fresh bodies ruin the carpet of your room,
How they got there is unquestionable,
I won't judge your darkest nights.

Flush down those thorns,
Watch me move,
Let me entrance you,
I'll keep you safe,
If things get, vicious,
I'll break those arms trying to hurt you.

There's enough but not enough,
Maroon puddles you jump into,
Get transported into a world,
You don't understand and you can't think,
The world will overcome everything you lost,
Your head, your chains, your trust.

Flush down those thorns,
Watch me move,
Let me entrance you,
I'll keep you safe,
If things get, vicious,
I'll break those arms trying to hurt you.
81 · Nov 2018
Words To Me
Skyler M Nov 2018
To wind up all of the thoughts,
Into a ball and throw it at the wall,
Doesn't seem to work,
Cause the sound collects words like dust,
I need to introspect inside of a page,
To write until the sun comes up,
And the yarn shadows untangle themselves,
Words to me don't work like voices,
But like graphite,
They don't get collected or tossed about,
They end up sitting upon a page,
Watching with hopeful eyes.

I'll figure you out with time, in time,
Nights could go by before I read it again,
But it's then that I see what's inside my head,
So forgive me if they're dark, brooding, or sick,
It's the only way I know,
The only way I know.
81 · Jan 2018
Pills
Skyler M Jan 2018
The trees wave their arms as I desperately plead,
For something so much bigger than me,
I know it'll never come but I always try my best.

I'm numbed out from all those happy pills,
That're inside my system,
I can't feel anything other than my breath.

The sun shines through my window,
I see what I was meant to see and leave,
I know I was never the best person but I still try.

I'm numbed out from all those happy pills,
They flow through my systems,
I want to feel something other than this.

The rain falls from the burnt out sky,
Reminders that I'll never make it out alive,
I know my life is on the line.

I'm so numbed out,
The happy pills through my system,
I need to feel your breath.
81 · Nov 2017
Drama Queen
Skyler M Nov 2017
If you know what I was facing,
Would you be so kind and leave me alone?
You're a **** talking drama queen,
And I want nothing to do with you.

You told lies about the morning sun,
How it starts a new day,
But you killed your heart every time you opened up the front door.

You make believe that the world is revolving around you,
The crows pick out the last of your mind,
Do not expect me to cry you a river,
When your golden plane comes crashing down.

You told lies about the morning sun,
How it starts a new day,
But you killed your heart every time you opened up the front door.
81 · Oct 2021
Mind-Melded
Skyler M Oct 2021
Deprived of insecurity,
Lack of thought processes,
Possesses me to take action,
You won't like my action though.

I'll be alright,
Just forget me.
I swear I'm no good,
Mind-melded to absolute rubbage.

Held up in a suspension,
Of a singular emotion,
Rotation to my own damnation,
It's time I started eviction.

I'll be alright,
Just forget me,
I swear I'm no good,
Mind-melded to absolute rubbage.
80 · Sep 2018
Rainfall In Hometown
Skyler M Sep 2018
Rain falls so often where I stay to live,
So I walk outside and talk to the sky,
Contriving my words so that I might be lying,
To myself and the dark grey sky beyond.

Sometimes I forget that towns like mine bring creatures into our hears,
Rainfall in Hometown,
Bringing about ghouls I could never face,
And the homes that turn into beasts to roam every single night.

Then I lay down on the wet grass and pick at the greens,
In worry, in thought, so distraught, that I'm in this disarray,
Distraught, that I taught the thoughts to flock to death and distress,
My hands are cold and wet with raindrops that I like to call teardrops,
I talk to myself and the dark grey sky beyond,

Sometimes I forget that towns like mine bring creatures into our hears,
Rainfall in Hometown,
Bringing about ghouls I could never face,
And the homes that turn into beasts that roam every single night.


Drops falling into my eyes so that I can see a little clearer the next day,
The only problem is that colors shift and warp through my view,
Capturing my pupil's time,
Grasping onto the grass as I start sinking into the rainbow raindrops,
Contrasting colors faded my killjoy, rebel heart.

Terrifying, melding, my world's colliding,
I'm a long lost son, waiting for the pale sky to part it's clouds,
So that maybe I can find the answer or the meaning to my life,
Opening my chest,
I talk to myself and the dark grey sky beyond.
80 · Feb 2018
The Willow Tree
Skyler M Feb 2018
Close your eyes and wait for stars to reveal their stories in the darkness under the large willow tree,
And heaven forbid you start to cry,
but from your eyelids ink will seep into the roots of the tree,
Giving life to the old willow tree.

Questioning why you laid here,
Underneath the spaceships in the sky,
When you could be running through the constellations,
and faulty paradises of what your mind says is real.

Close your eyes and trip along the small dipper,
To find your own head and home,
Leaving the tall willow tree to rot away in peace,
Spaceships crash and you're alone again.
80 · Feb 2019
Disgrace to A Grace
Skyler M Feb 2019
I'm not ready to comply,
Cause I don't know if I can rely,
Or take any side,
Between yours and mine,
Mine takes the most time,
To pretend that I'll be fine.

To be a disgrace,
To my lovely saving grace,
Two sided place becomes my face,
Oh, I could apologize but to entice,
I must hold you high above the fights.

People would be shocked to know,
How I don't find you a foe,
But more so a friend,
I'll take that notion.

To be a disgrace,
To my lovely saving grace,
Two sided place becomes my face,
Oh, I could apologize but to entice,
I must hold you high above the fights.
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