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93 · Mar 2018
You Don't Know
Skyler M Mar 2018
You don't know my brain,
You don't know my heart,
You don't know my veins,
and you don't know my pain.

So please use discretion when judging,
I don't need your input on how my head is doing,
I know what's happening and it's messing me up.
93 · Oct 2018
Warm Winter Wandering
Skyler M Oct 2018
Riding my bike in the pouring rain,
Hold onto the slippery handlebars,
And hold onto your last words,
I'm sick again so my nose is red,
Like the dried blood on the tires,
Your memory is all I've got now,
Peace of mind without time.

I've got to get home now,
Let me in won't you please,
I'm not ready but here I am.

Walking in the cloudy overhang,
Hold onto myself for dear warmth,
And hold onto you to walk straight,
I think it's gonna rain but maybe not,
My hands are cold and blue,
Like the eyes inside of my own head.
I can't let go of your hand,
Never going to get peace of mind without you.
93 · Sep 2024
Charmed
Skyler M Sep 2024
Pockmarked arms,
Sound off alarms,
Stargazing farms,
Dependent on charms.

Unrealized power,
Atomic shower,
The flavor's sour,
Everybody had better cower!

I don’t give a ****,
By stupid, you’ve been struck,
As you run amok,
Running over kids with your truck.

Unrealized power,
Atomic shower,
The flavor's sour,
Everybody duck and cower!

Planted marigold at the doorstep,
There's blood left in your stead,
Its all you’ve ever been fed,
I think you're out of your depth!

Hats off,
Heads down,
Gather round,
Pray for the sound,
Pray for the sound,
Pray we'll all be found.

Unrealized power,
Atomic shower,
The flavor's sour,
Everybody duck and cower!
93 · Jul 2018
Mama Moon
Skyler M Jul 2018
I am a nearly burnt out star,
Venus hates my guts,
Sun won't look at me,
Mars is even spreading lies.

Mama Moon, will I die soon?
I've had enough of you,
Mama Moon, sing me a tune.
I've got my hand on a gun,
Mama Moon, before it's afternoon.

I am about to implode and explode,
Jupiter is king of my life,
Pluto won't let me go,
Mercury seems to be dead.

Mama Moon, will I die soon?
I've have enough of you,
Mama Moon, sing me a tune,
I've got my hand on a gun,
Mama Moon, and now it's afternoon.
93 · Nov 2017
Stuck With Myself
Skyler M Nov 2017
My hands are so cold,
Cause they're feeling so opposed,
My fingers wanna fly,
But my palms are sweating out.

I'm stuck to the wall,
Don't mind,
All the guts that are on the ice,
It holds me back from trying hard.

I don't even wanna try,
You're getting too close,
It's wreaking up this morose name,
You cannot service my young mind.

I'm stuck to the wall,
Don't mind,
All the guts that are on the ice,
It holds me back from trying hard.

Make it what you wish,
My eyes have turned to stone,
Alike all those dangerous times,
Meeting nothing in your way.
The feeling of wanting to do something big...but never doing anything at all.
93 · Feb 2022
Expect A Fish to Climb
Skyler M Feb 2022
Does anyone really listen?
Unless I've got something to give them?
A confusing creature made of something?
But maybe it's just my head?
Never-mind, nothing.

Problem is, I'm tired of being rushed in,
I'm not ready for the consequences,
I've been told all I gotta do is tough it,
Pull my big boy ******* up and dive in.

The world wasn't built for my kind,
Hope you know they're all friends of mine,
Far and few between from the other side,
Don't know how to help them thrive, on the outside.

Problem is, I'm tired of being rushed in,
I'm not ready for the consequences,
I've been told all I gotta do is tough it,
Pull my big boy ******* up and dive in.
93 · Nov 2017
The Role
Skyler M Nov 2017
Is there anything more terrifying,
Than watching someone die,
While they are awake for it all,
They assume the role of a ghost.

Trapped in time,
Vanishing into the covers,
Into hills of ash,
That their mind hides inside.

I want to hold them,
Tonight is dangerous as it is,
They should know that the light will shine one day,
And assume the role of a ghost.

Virus spreads inside their skin,
Reminding them that the life they live is gone,
There's no going back to what you had,
So hold onto me tightly and I'll keep you here.

Trapped in time,
Vanishing into the holes,
Into hills of fire,
That their mind hides from.
93 · Feb 2018
My Poison
Skyler M Feb 2018
Things are getting slower,
Time running down to a stop at the red lights,
The car thinks there's something wrong with them,
So it runs on it's own depression,
My legs are faltering as I attempted to pour more gas,
All I did was start a fire,
My charred hands try to take a hold of the wheel but the car has other plans,
I inject poison into my veins to hope I can hear my existence once again.
92 · Nov 2018
Missing Puzzle Pieces
Skyler M Nov 2018
Shaking down my clothes,
Searching for those last puzzle pieces,
To my life they could resolve everything,
Change the way I perceive my own time,
The possibility has me running,
Tossing over ***** laundry and disheveled beds.

Those nights that freeze my attempts,
I keep seeing those corner pieces out of the corner of my eyes,
Every-time I turn around in my head,
I've gotten the big picture but I'm always craving more,
So don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Don't give up on me now.
Please
92 · Feb 2018
Pour
Skyler M Feb 2018
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Sweep me into the door,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Drown me in more,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
Make it pour,
I’ve made it to the shore,
Make it fall onto my heart.
92 · Mar 2018
Untitled
Skyler M Mar 2018
I forget who I'm waiting for,
On the faded concrete,
As per usual I'm looking to the sky,
Maybe I'll see the sign I've been waiting for,
We've all waited for.

I'm no saint but I need your halo,
I may curse you but please speak unto me,
I beg of you to breath onto my skin,
My empty bones need flames.

Wandering isles of convenience stores,
Looking for a sign from the place where I reign,
Stole another bag of suicide, maybe cyanide.
I'm waiting.
Waiting for us all.

I'm no saint but kindly give me strength,
Prove unto me that you are here,
Empty promises never fulfilled,
My deadened bones need reviving from you.

I'm no saint...but I need you.
I need you.
Please come home now.
Please...
92 · Sep 2019
See a Moon
Skyler M Sep 2019
Ladies, gentlemen, everyone in between, and inside out.
We're not saints nor are we sinners,
Where does the lie lay,
In a bed of withered flowers,
Underneath our grandmother's porch,
Are we inspired by the truth,
Or the choices we make?

Have we learned?
From the best of people,
Or the most favorite songs,
I bet we've learned.

These are all the people who have never seen a moon,
Have you ever seen a moon within a well-lit room?
Cause we honestly never have and I'm not sure we ever will,
There's some glimpses here and there while we're jogging out there,
But never have we ever seen the brightest, fullest moon.

Have we learned?
From the best of people,
Or the most favorite songs,
I bet we've learned.
Skyler M Aug 2018
Let's take a walk out onto the roof tops,
Look out over our boring suburban neighborhoods,
Are you satisfied with your life?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

Every night that I'm alone on the roof,
I am missing all of you,
Memories are all I have at this point,
Everything feels like it's moving counter-wise.

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"

These ghost stick alongside me for now,
They always talk about how stupid I am,
Never allowed to leave my side,
I need all of my friends back.

Throw me back in time,
Even if it kills me,
I don't like being alone,
Why am I alone?

"Hey, where are you going tonight?
I'm getting tired of losing all my friends,
Could you stay a little longer?"
92 · Nov 2018
Words To Me
Skyler M Nov 2018
To wind up all of the thoughts,
Into a ball and throw it at the wall,
Doesn't seem to work,
Cause the sound collects words like dust,
I need to introspect inside of a page,
To write until the sun comes up,
And the yarn shadows untangle themselves,
Words to me don't work like voices,
But like graphite,
They don't get collected or tossed about,
They end up sitting upon a page,
Watching with hopeful eyes.

I'll figure you out with time, in time,
Nights could go by before I read it again,
But it's then that I see what's inside my head,
So forgive me if they're dark, brooding, or sick,
It's the only way I know,
The only way I know.
92 · Jan 2018
Unsure
Skyler M Jan 2018
I can’t believe all my intentions,
Have been exposed by my head,
The realization of how I really feel,
Now I feel my feet slipping,
The carpet is being pulled out from under.

I need your hand again,
I need your breath again,
I need you to calm me down.

Falling out into the raindrops,
They fall from your eyes above,
My hands are bloodied from trying to repair myself,
Then I know I've crashed and burned.

I need your hand again,
I need your breath again,
I need you to calm me down.

The wreckage holds my heart,
That was rained on by you,
I'm holding back what my heart wants to say,
But I know the answer so I lay down.

I need your hand again,
I need your breath again,
I need you to calm me down.

I've laid down in a bed of thorns,
It's piercing my neck and veins,
I'm bleeding out onto you,
I hope you don't see me like this.

I need your hand again,
I need your breath again,
I need you to calm me down.

I know the answer,
The way you speak to me,
I know your thoughts,
Because you've spoken from the inside, out,
And It's tearing me apart.

I need your hand again,
I need your breath again,
I need you to calm me down.
92 · Sep 2021
Humbled Adequately
Skyler M Sep 2021
Charging through a mild storm,
Minor inconveniences and wild coincidences,
Are what drive me to the point of insanity,
The rumble of earthquakes under my feet.

Hard to say if I'm really as strong as they say,
I lie a lot and my friends are moving on,
These trust issues keep me branded as anti-social,
Maybe, I'll decide to never love again.

Breaking up over the phone,
Splitting checks on ****** dates,
I'm torrential rain and you're a sunny day,
Nothing I could ever handle in a lifetime.

Asthma acts up because of the pollen in the morning,
Can't breathe without opening my mouth,
It's an absolute ******* curse,
Just stitch my mouth so I just shut the **** up.
92 · Feb 2018
The Fork in the Road
Skyler M Feb 2018
The fork in the road,
Didn't show what I thought it showed,
A divergence in thought, in personality,
Although I thought I'd never change,
I can see that the fork in the road is going to force me to.
Both have good and bad sides,
Both could hurt my soul,
Either way I might not make it out alive.

The fork in the road,
Pretended to know who it was,
Lying and deceiving about it's inner machinations,
So I turned to run the other way,
But the path was blocked so I sat on the ground,
Just to shake and whine.
92 · Apr 2019
Closing In On Itself
Skyler M Apr 2019
In the nighttime we,
In the nighttime we become alone,
Welcome to our secret dreams,
These screams that meditate our isolation,
Ice under our bed frames keep the fire low,
Sedated is the way that is way inside of me.

Now the sky is closing up in itself,
Give me your eyes,
Time won't matter once we're home,
Just don't look at the ground below yourself.

The fire under the bed,
The fire under the bed, oh, there it goes,
Let it go.
It wasn't an invitation or introspection,
But I guess the point of facing a new direction is to move ahead,
Ruckus before our feet become coals and hot bones,
Not until we move again will the sun appear from the black hole,
I'm disappointed in the end, when it's just laying down,
Let us go,
Watch us go into a brand new home.

Now the sky is closing up in itself,
Give me your eyes,
Time won't matter once we're home,
Just don't look at the ground below yourself.
92 · Nov 2018
Rusted Remains
Skyler M Nov 2018
I see the corpses of the ones I once loved,
At this moment, on this roof, I stand alone,
I wish that I could relive this life,
I feel like a ticking time-bomb,
Cause one day I'll fall apart up here.

But when I see you cry,
I know I need to give you everything,
It powers me on my rusted remains.

When the roof begins to crumble away,
And the interior metal shows itself,
I'm reminded of why everything could die,
In place, in replacement of everything I hold dear,
To me, a song to read, a song to sing, is a song to believe,
We'll live forever.

But when I see you cry,
I know I need to give you everything,
It powers me on my rusted remains.
91 · Jul 2018
Without You
Skyler M Jul 2018
Open up my eyes and,
Take me to the riverside,
Let's play make believe on the sand,
I'll be a prince and you can be a dragon.

Greater heights without you.
Clinging tighter without you.

I'm tired of you controlling my life and,
I think it'd be better if I killed you,
You're nothing to me,
Not anymore.

Taking chances without you,
Holding onto opportunities,
Without you.

Skipping stones by your side,
I know that you like yo lie,
You could write a Gospel,
On how terrible I am,
Now let me go.

"You're no good."
"They hate you."
"Don't leave me alone."
"You need me."

Growing stronger without you,
Staying alive without you,
Threw away all my razors,
No thanks to you.
91 · Aug 2024
Sour As Lime
Skyler M Aug 2024
Lost within space and time,
Memories turned sour as lime,
Crashing over a salty line,
Bringing me back to a scared mind,
Tell me what the hell was my crime?

Eyes unfocused inside the storms,
Crazy how a new perspective forms,
When taken from the conforms,
That shapes, molds, and transforms.

Asked God,
Who am I?
Asked Gaia,
Who am I?
Asked Osiris,
Who am I?
Asked Pan,
Who am I?

I found out that I'm my own god,
I'm my own mind,
I'm my own.
I own my mind.
I am my own god,
And I ask for a lot.
Skyler M Dec 2018
It's been raining,
But that's okay cause I'm following close behind,
The flood goes up to my knees,
It only goes up to your toes though,
How and why are you able to walk like that?
After years of flooding I guess I've learned,
That giving up is easier then taking the lead,
Though now you seem to be willing,
Holding me up by the wrist and,
Wrapping me up in black sand.

Hello my dear, I've been missing you,
Hope I see you tonight,
But will our mothers let us stay?
Well it's hard to say.

It's been snowing,
A storm is on it's way,
One that will cover me up,
Becoming my new tomb,
But if you're still willing,
Will you dig me up and out,
I'll hold you gratefully, gracefully,
Between the chorus and choirs,
Smiling white wolves come down,
From mountains above staircases,
You're still here so I'm not afraid.

Hello my dear, I've been missing you,
Hope I see you tonight,
But will our mothers let us stay?
Well it's hard to say.
91 · Aug 2018
Iris Dilation
Skyler M Aug 2018
Look up,
Look up,
Clouds form my words well,
Sometimes stormy and sometimes wispy.
Look down,
Look down,
Grass describes my personality,
Sometimes dry and yellow,
other times green and gorgeous.
Look left,
Look right,
Cars are going to run me over,
While I'm trying to arrive at my home,
Look in,
Look in,
My heart says it's been far too long for this,
I won't stand for it anymore.
Look straight,
Look straight,
Over the horizon are my dreams,
Show up to take this fever away.
Look up,
Look up,
And repeat the day.
91 · Mar 2022
Own Up
Skyler M Mar 2022
You work hard
To make this house a home
Then turn around
And break all my bones.

Come down through the mountain range,
Hop off of your high horse, he's been smoking,
You've been gloating and bloating,
Telling fables of how our house is blazing,
A nuclear family who's your pride,
Cause we are sticking by your side,
Glued-tight at the seams, turn on the beams,
The glare will blind our closest,
Is it worth it to not disclose it?

You work hard,
To give this house some gloom,
You don't care to see the children bloom,
Cause nothings worth losing your little kids,
You own us. You own our things, You own our love.
You own our home, You own our food.
Would you ever own up?
91 · Jan 2018
Big Black Sea
Skyler M Jan 2018
I'm breathing in this oxygen,
Getting high on letter knives,
Faking smiles and happiness.

They think I'm a goner,
Never getting back onto dry land,
I'm lost in this ******* sea,
So, yeah, I agree.

It can feel like the world will end,
When everything's not at my fingertips,
I've got life to live ahead,
and I won't be taking it for granted.

They think I'm a goner,
Never getting back onto dry land,
I'm lost in this ******* sea,
So, yeah, I agree.
90 · Jan 2018
Eyes Inside Trees
Skyler M Jan 2018
I start to part myself apart,
See which side I like more,
Far, to far to see my eyes in the trees,
Blinded, I wander the greens as I lean onto a tree,
It gives away like a ghost,
Tear away the moss,
It poisons my heart.
90 · Sep 2018
Everything Is Wrong
Skyler M Sep 2018
Horizon fades into my bedroom,
Scars along the walls,
History long forgotten,
And I’m glad I’ve left it behind.

I traded my bones to forget all the things I did wrong,
I’m not strong,
It’s inside the pond that I made for me,
Just leave me be.

Astronauts bounce around my room,
Admire the marks along the wood,
And the frame of my bed,
I don’t need it anymore,
I’d prefer to sleep on the floor.

I traded my bones to forget all the things that I did wrong,
It’s inside all the things that I say in these songs,
And the pond that begged for forgiveness was thrown out,
Cause that’s not what I’m about.

Trust your soul,
You know it’ll grow,
Never become the thing that you don’t want to be,
But it’s hard to tell cause it’s hard to see,
So line us all up against the wall,
And put a stop to our basic meaning.

I traded my bones to forget all the things I did wrong,
I’m not strong,
It’s inside the pond that I made for me,
Just leave me be.
90 · Jan 2018
Falling
Skyler M Jan 2018
I wish I could tell you,
That I’ve been tripping on my own feet,
I’ve been falling into a hole,
Of my own making.

The emotions that've drowned me,
Makes me want to tell you,
But I can’t cause you’re too far,
You’re just so far from where I wish you’d be.

I wish I could scream,
Your name and stop playing this game,
I’m tired of falling over your soul,
So won’t you understand,
What I mean?
90 · Nov 2018
Two Lines and a Half
Skyler M Nov 2018
Follow me until you reach my breaking point,
The point I've been at since he began,
What could possibly be worse than losing to myself?
I can't answer that question with the state that I'm in, the place that I'm in,
Do I want to heal is a question again I ask myself,
Keep promising that I do but I'm still stuck,
Stuck with the person I praised and named.

In between two lines and a half,
I'm dividing myself into halves,
And then into quarters,
Letting a poison point blend into my soul,
Carving in words of passion to drive my parts to passionate purpose that only I create.

For only I have the key to my mind,
But it's the lock I must find,
I could go in circles until I never find it,
The need to diverge,
Not to separate myself but to clean up the floor,
It's the only way I understand how to control.
90 · Sep 2018
Let's Get Along
Skyler M Sep 2018
Trying to hard,
Looking to the future,
Never gonna make it but I hope yet,
I can hope,
Filling my dreams up to the seams,
Can you believe I'm still alive?
I'm just wondering tonight,
If you're alright.
Glancing out of the window,
Your eyes glazed over,
Speaking of bones and death thrones,
Please don't ever leave me without warning,
Always afraid you're gone every morning.
90 · Aug 2024
Menial At Best
Skyler M Aug 2024
When the sky loses its sun,
And my days turn hollow,
Alongside my makeshift body,
I make my own, create my sun.

In the form of the menial,
The unwanted forms of joy,
Have to become my Earth,
As a morphed moon tugs the tides.

I’ve learned that cycles,
Must be met with a fire,
A yearning for survival,
That no one can see.

In the form of the menial,
The unwanted forms of joy,
Have to become my Earth,
As a morphed moon tugs the tides.

I am my own best enemy,
And they say you’d best keep them close.

The problem always becomes,
When I’m so completely blinded,
Lost within the impenetrable dark and,
Lead by the crescent moon into,
An utterly devastating state,
It’s only then that I will ask,
“Oh god, what have I become?”

“What have I become?”

In the form of the menial,
The unwanted forms of joy,
Have to become my Earth,
As a morphing moon tugs the tides.
89 · Apr 2020
Evening Sun
Skyler M Apr 2020
Loving the sun in the evening time,
When it strikes through the blinds,
And soothes my skin.
89 · Aug 2024
Crude
Skyler M Aug 2024
When its everything above and below the infinite starscape,
A crisis so appealing to the romantic's depthless eye,
Marlboro sold me an image and it's chaos, confusion, nothing more nothing less.

Nobody move,
Nobody groove,
Just self-soothe,
Imperceptible and crude.

Thin and lithe in the crumbling perception of stardom,
Braindead at the end of the world and the beginning of time,
Create a lake, a boulder, a man of many shapes and sizes,
Follow closely or crush my feet under the pressure.

Nobody move,
Nobody groove,
Just self-soothe,
Imperceptible and crude.

Take the lead home, into the dusty attic,
The wind will still and my feet will plant,
The wood grows over some exposed bone,
I highly recommend leaving me alone
It's the best we can do in this chapter.

Nobody move,
Nobody groove,
Just self-soothe,
Imperceptible and crude.
89 · Jun 2021
Till Death We Part
Skyler M Jun 2021
I can't imagine
becoming a part
Of the working class.

The burden of a schedule
And the thought of mental decay
Hurts more than when my step-daddy hit me.

Cause at least
that pain,
was temporary.

I'm expected to fray at the seams
Until my hair turns gray
'Til I'm eligible for retirement
If at all.

Forty hours a week
That looks pretty ******* bleak
Especially when you think
That the lasts one
Are sick of their ******* lives.

So I guess
It *****.

I'd rather die
Than become the working class.

I'd rather be brain dead and in a mental ward
Being spoon fed and *** wiped.

Don't ******* patronize me.
I know what it's gotta be.

I'm not stupid
I'm just learning everything.

Nobody even taught me.
89 · Feb 2020
RipOff
Skyler M Feb 2020
Don't you make me laugh,
I just wanna be sad,
Your smile is looking bad,
Drop dead and sink instead.

Sometimes I fear that dad is dead,
Broken down and turned out mad,
***-luck as the grand-dad fad,
Fresh out of luck aren't ya'?
89 · Jan 2018
The Kids Cried
Skyler M Jan 2018
And all the kids cried out,
**** us now.
Put the gun to our heads,
**** this game they play.
I’m not meant to be alive.

Take that thought and splatter it across the canvass, shoot the paper with your make believe gun. Ink the paper with your suicide heaven, you’ve got something worth living for and it’s sitting inside your room. It’s you.

And all the kids called out,
Somebody save me,
I’m so worthless,
I need answers,
**** this God above,
I’m not meant to be alive.

Tell your demons that the music in your ears will overpower their beliefs, now dance to the sound of your beating heart, celebrate that sound. Don’t ever let it go.

And all the kids cried out,
**** us now.
Put the gun to our heads,
**** this game they play.
I’m not meant to be alive
89 · Feb 2018
Don't Be Gone
Skyler M Feb 2018
Don't be gone,
Don't be gone,
You're worth life,
Don't be gone,
Don't be gone,
You are lovely,
Don't be gone,
Don't be gone.
89 · Aug 2018
Vehicles and Streetlights
Skyler M Aug 2018
Walking in the middle of the road,
Cars drive by silently,
The only sound comes from my nervous breath,
I can feel the spiders crawling under my skin,
They make my flesh itch and yearn for a better body.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?

The road dips down into a soundless home,
I recognize the old pictures of that girl I never was,
"Why do you doubt me?" I ask the tired woman in front of me,
She won't respond, She knows she knows me better than myself.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?

Cars begin to swerve and crash alongside me,
I'm running now, don't have a destination in mind,
All I know is that I need to get new flesh,
Things that shouldn't be there, are there.

There's no streetlights,
Only street fights,
No one loves another one,
When will all of this be done?
89 · Oct 2017
The Night Before
Skyler M Oct 2017
Time makes it's way out the door,
Hovering over her face,
I can see twilight pulsing inside her eyes,
An ebony night that scares me but pulls me into your heart.

The gears crank and grind,
Sounding out so desperately,
Shouting to become heard,
So I grasp her hand.

Fighting with gravity to not just hold her tight,
I couldn't face letting her leave my embrace,
She, of course, has revived my heart.

The gears crank and grind,
Sounding out so desperately,
Shouting to become heard,
So I grasp her hand.
88 · May 2022
Facade Of The Decades
Skyler M May 2022
I'm the trouble in the air,
The monster under the stair,
Building myself an evil lair,
I know 'cause I don't ******* care.

You will never know the face,
Behind this killer nutcase,
Line me up and pull the mace
Maybe then you'll feel His grace!

Hang me up to dry on a cross,
Long enough and I'll grow moss,
It's a revolution I will cause,
Look out below cause Im ******* crossed!

You will never know the face,
Behind this killer nutcase,
Line me up and pull the mace
Maybe then you'll feel His grace!

I dare you to flee from this beast,
Cause I'll pull you down to feast,
Upon your ***** flesh, you ******* reek,
Tear you up, I have been unleashed.

I will know the face of God,
Uncover His killer facade,
He will beg for you to give laud,
Beg not, you'll lock eyes with a firing squad.
88 · Oct 2018
Running is Saving Myself
Skyler M Oct 2018
Am I slowly giving in to those thoughts,
The ones that urge me to run,
Like running's the only solution,
Run as fast as I can as far as I can,
Away from the routine habits,
That inhabit my life every single day,
He's coming for me, He's coming for me now.

I don't feel safe,
Not when he's after me,
My bones crumble under the weight,
I need to run,
Let me run.

Please don't remind me how long I've got until I wake up,
I'm sorry to all my family and my friends,
Days are longer again but for all the wrong reasons,
Am I sick?
I'm getting sick.

I don't feel safe,
Not when he's after me,
My bones crumble under the weight,
I need to run,
Let me run.
88 · Sep 2018
Rainfall In Hometown
Skyler M Sep 2018
Rain falls so often where I stay to live,
So I walk outside and talk to the sky,
Contriving my words so that I might be lying,
To myself and the dark grey sky beyond.

Sometimes I forget that towns like mine bring creatures into our hears,
Rainfall in Hometown,
Bringing about ghouls I could never face,
And the homes that turn into beasts to roam every single night.

Then I lay down on the wet grass and pick at the greens,
In worry, in thought, so distraught, that I'm in this disarray,
Distraught, that I taught the thoughts to flock to death and distress,
My hands are cold and wet with raindrops that I like to call teardrops,
I talk to myself and the dark grey sky beyond,

Sometimes I forget that towns like mine bring creatures into our hears,
Rainfall in Hometown,
Bringing about ghouls I could never face,
And the homes that turn into beasts that roam every single night.


Drops falling into my eyes so that I can see a little clearer the next day,
The only problem is that colors shift and warp through my view,
Capturing my pupil's time,
Grasping onto the grass as I start sinking into the rainbow raindrops,
Contrasting colors faded my killjoy, rebel heart.

Terrifying, melding, my world's colliding,
I'm a long lost son, waiting for the pale sky to part it's clouds,
So that maybe I can find the answer or the meaning to my life,
Opening my chest,
I talk to myself and the dark grey sky beyond.
88 · Feb 2018
To The Sea
Skyler M Feb 2018
Someone grabbed a hold of my hand and took it to the edge of the stream, where it flowed so suddenly into the precipice of the sea.
I missed the chance of getting a glace at the boy but I have a feeling that he knew me and that I knew him.
He dissipated into the overwhelming vastness of the sea,
I wish that I could say that I had accomplished something that day,
But all I saw was a back of a head and a lonely, burdened sea.

I came clean and told all truths,
Can you hold my hand again,
So that I can feel no fear,
Then the sea opens me up and reveals that I have so much to...
Clear.

The time I wasted, just drunk on my pills and eradication,
For the longest time I ignored the sea, feeling like it was betraying me,
But finally the boy revealed his face to me, so I took my time and turned towards the tide where the sea was waiting for me.


I came clean and told all truths,
Can you hold my hand again,
So that I can feel no fear,
Then the sea opens me up and reveals that I have so much to...
Clear.
88 · Apr 2021
Legal
Skyler M Apr 2021
Sometimes I imagine you listen when I speak,
Instead of eyeing me up like candy,
And when you couldn't have me anymore,
You flayed my flesh and laid it out on the porch.

Do I look young?
Do I look fresh?
Am I a lamb who's legal to touch?
Do I look dumb?
Do I look plush?
Am I a lamb who's legal to touch?

Now I go to meet someone new,
But all I can hear is this fear,
That they'll have me only because,
I've got these wide, large eyes,
With a slim, slender physique.
idk if anyone else has this fear but, it's kinda haunted me for a while now.
88 · Nov 2017
Hiding In the Trees
Skyler M Nov 2017
These trees surround me,
I'm looking for an answer,
From the sky,
Though I don't believe,
I do feel relieved to know that when I go I'll be at peace.

I'm cowardly, hiding in the trees,
Where I call home.

I asked the log, "what is hell?"
He responded with a scoff, "The eternal burning of one's flesh."
I asked the rabbit. "what is hell?"
She responded with a thump, "A fox that's eaten me whole."

I'm cowardly, hiding in the trees,
I can see you but you can't see me.
87 · Mar 2020
Paranoid!
Skyler M Mar 2020
Headache, is this it?
Sneezed, is this it?
Coughed, is this it?
Sore, is this it?

No
I think I’ve been in bed too long,
My mind’s playing tricks on me,
And people are out here playing tennis.
87 · Mar 2022
Pawns
Skyler M Mar 2022
Sun setting over the suburbia,
Pale orange light reflecting into my eyes,
From shuttered windows on the second floors,
Golden hour just doesn't feel as right as yesterday.

Far outside of my point of view,
The president is a soldier for his country,
Kissed his wife and kid goodbye,
He says he might not see them tomorrow night.

Rain over, and over,
These bombshells falling,
Tears from the school and the orphanage,
God forbid, they fight for their dreams.

When your own people,
Surrender their weapons,
Cry to the enemies to finish this war.

Your reign.
will come.
To an end.
🇺🇦
87 · Feb 2018
The Willow Tree
Skyler M Feb 2018
Close your eyes and wait for stars to reveal their stories in the darkness under the large willow tree,
And heaven forbid you start to cry,
but from your eyelids ink will seep into the roots of the tree,
Giving life to the old willow tree.

Questioning why you laid here,
Underneath the spaceships in the sky,
When you could be running through the constellations,
and faulty paradises of what your mind says is real.

Close your eyes and trip along the small dipper,
To find your own head and home,
Leaving the tall willow tree to rot away in peace,
Spaceships crash and you're alone again.
87 · Feb 2018
She
Skyler M Feb 2018
She
She fell so hard,
So fast,
And I never even cared,
Even in the darkest nights when I gagged and bound her,
Trying to show her the meaning of my sand,
I try to give her a place to show herself to me,
But her head is enveloped in water so she only sees,
What she wants to see.
87 · Dec 2021
Looping
Skyler M Dec 2021
I don’t know how to sing,
But it’s all I want to do,
And the floors give way,
To a whole new song,
I just can’t sing along,
Cause I was right the first time,
My voice still sounds so wrong.

Meshing together in a single spiral,
A passion-driven thought,
That’ll wrestle with logic,
I’m hooked to the fight,
A looping paradox.
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