Rain falls so often where I stay to live,
So I walk outside and talk to the sky,
Contriving my words so that I might be lying,
To myself and the dark grey sky beyond.

Sometimes I forget that towns like mine bring creatures into our hears,
Rainfall in Hometown,
Bringing about ghouls I could never face,
And the homes that turn into beasts to roam every single night.

Then I lay down on the wet grass and pick at the greens,
In worry, in thought, so distraught, that I'm in this disarray,
Distraught, that I taught the thoughts to flock to death and distress,
My hands are cold and wet with raindrops that I like to call teardrops,
I talk to myself and the dark grey sky beyond,

Sometimes I forget that towns like mine bring creatures into our hears,
Rainfall in Hometown,
Bringing about ghouls I could never face,
And the homes that turn into beasts that roam every single night.


Drops falling into my eyes so that I can see a little clearer the next day,
The only problem is that colors shift and warp through my view,
Capturing my pupil's time,
Grasping onto the grass as I start sinking into the rainbow raindrops,
Contrasting colors faded my killjoy, rebel heart.

Terrifying, melding, my world's colliding,
I'm a long lost son, waiting for the pale sky to part it's clouds,
So that maybe I can find the answer or the meaning to my life,
Opening my chest,
I talk to myself and the dark grey sky beyond.

I confessed to the stuffed animal at the end of my bed,
That daddy doesn't come around,
That all the friends I gained I lost,
And the only one I have left is breaking me down,
Is this what life is?
Is this what He designed me for?

I'm just a kid,
And I already hate the world,
I'm just a kid,
And I hate my own reflection,
I'm just a kid,
Just a kid.

I confessed to the characters on the paper,
That the seasons grow lonelier,
That my name doesn't fit my brain,
And that I need someone to listen to me,
I build my life only to watch it crumble down,
I've learned that life is a bully on the playground,
Kicking over my sand castles and getting sand in my teeth.

I'm just a kid,
And I'm already lost all hope,
I'm just a kid,
And I already stopped believing in Him,
I'm just a kid,
Just a kid.

I confessed to my therapist in the chair,
That I'm sicker than I've ever been,
My flesh has been eroding away in chunks,
Leaving me with just a skeleton,
That my weeks feel like years,
And that the sun is always setting,
Leaving me on the brink of exhaling.

breathe.

breathe.

breathe.

And. Here in the dark I will park,
In my spot where I taught,
All my thoughts to flock,
Inside of my head when I'm in my bed,
But when the sun goes I'm not done,
For it's the night that brings me to fight,
Cause I'm never letting go before I have something to show,
Something to show that I've been through a war, Call fore!
My car's on fire so my time is dire,
Heart getting harder with each time I get farther,
From the state of mind that kept me bind,
To a wall to a constant fall,
Of which takes away the best of a day,
Not anymore, I promise, not anymore.

There's the smile on your face,
It keeps me here on this earth,
Don't underestimate your life,
When it keeps me alive.

I think I know where I'd be,
Without you in my life,
I think I know who I'd be,
Without you keeping me here.

You ask yourself all these questions,
About the skin you're in,
friend, look at me,
don't you dare,
Take your life away from me.

I think I know where I'd be,
Without you in my life,
I think I know who I'd be,
Without you keeping me here.

Good men don't fall so hard, so fast,
But I can't resist so guess I'm a fool,
I've done bad things to myself,
I don't think you'd care to deal with me,
My bones are weak and afraid,
Cause I know if I say a word.

You'll turn away,
Find another place,
To build your home,
I'll be alone.

Look what I've done to my voice,
It's broken beyond repair,
The only thing that speaks now,
Is my heart,
So please,
Understand what I mean,
When I say.

You'll turn away,
Find another place,
To build your home,
I'll be alone.

Hear what I've done to the angel on my shoulder,
His wings are broken and tattered,
The only thing I hear,
Is the demon speaking clearly,
I know instantly that I've lost my heart,
To you.

You'll turn away,
Find another place,
To build your home,
And I'll be alone.

I need everyone to know,
That I cannot survive this,
Life.
The way I bid my life,
On your beating pulse,
Tears me up inside.
Then some passenger gets inside my car,
But I can't see the face they made,
So I crack open the window,
Letting my soul get swept away.

Scream,
I need,
Somebody to save me.
But the car drives away,
The passenger stole my car.
I'm left in the rain,
My soul trapped in the wind.
I sink to the ground,
My frame continues to fight,
But my mind has given up.

But the shock from the flock,
Flies into my windshield,
So I'm stuck inside my hands,
My pen is melting away.
I'm so afraid.
Of what you really meant to say.

Scream,
I need,
Somebody to save me.
But the car drives away,
The passenger stole my car.
I'm left in the rain,
My soul trapped in the wind.
I sink to the ground,
My frame continues to fight,
But my mind has given up.

The smoke infiltrates my lungs,
Stealing all of the air I had,
Using me as means to breathe,
Mother nature's thief who's holding a grudge.

Those who hate me,
All reside in this town,
I see their flags everywhere,
And I see every way I could die.

I'll write a formal letter,
To the smoke and hope to the Gods,
That it'll carry me far, far, far away.

Through alleyways and empty malls,
I'm not lost, you're all just losing your minds,
I'm strangled by denial and a yearning to be free,
That's all I would wish for if I saw a shooting star,
Except all this smoke screens me from the stars,
And the meteors that fly through.

I'll write a formal letter,
To the smoke and hope to the Gods,
That it'll carry me far, far, far away.

This city,
Is a prison,
Alcatraz island,
As a town,
For all the richest,
The *******, and the bigots,
To move in,
And tear down,
What we just began to build.

See how I take and take and take,
Watch yourself begin to deteriorate, ate, ate
Begin to break down and hate, hate, hate
Everything that you ever make, make, make.

Come on down, hear me out,
It’s a good day if you’re not around,
I’m not heaven bound, never to be found,
So come on down and break the whole town.

See how I take and take and take,
Watch yourself begin to deteriorate, ate, ate
Begin to break down and hate, hate, hate
Everything that you ever make, make, make.

So blame, blame, blame me,
For who you've become,
Instead of where you're from,
And what you have done,
So blame, blame, blame me.
For who you've become,
Instead of where you're from,
And what you have done.

Does anyone really listen?
Unless I've got something to give them?
A confusing creature made of something?
But maybe it's just my head?
Never-mind, nothing.

Problem is, I'm tired of being rushed in,
I'm not ready for the consequences,
I've been told all I gotta do is tough it,
Pull my big boy ******* up and dive in.

The world wasn't built for my kind,
Hope you know they're all friends of mine,
Far and few between from the other side,
Don't know how to help them thrive, on the outside.

Problem is, I'm tired of being rushed in,
I'm not ready for the consequences,
I've been told all I gotta do is tough it,
Pull my big boy ******* up and dive in.

Living empty-minded, unaware of plaguing viruses to find it and mind it.
Purpose becomes worthless if you move by inches, pointing you to giant homes and dehumanizing riches.
When life hands you meaning,
Why do you run and hide from it's changing chimes?
We're living the American dream,
Access to process your every single word.

Don't like me,
Don't like you,
Well, there's something I gotta write,
Don't like this,
Don't like that.
Well, there's no thinking left living.

Follow the big white line that leads into the sea,
How corrupted could we be,
To only see the world from the pictures on the T.V.,
Sempiternal delinquent humans run to become free.
We're living the American dream,
Access to process your every opinion.

Don't like me,
Don't like you,
Well, there's something I gotta write,
Don't like this,
Don't like that.
Well, there's no thinking left living.

Been driving for hours,
My hands off the wheel,
Staring at the meteor showers,
The time ticks slowly as I reveal how I feel.

Then I see the night has arrived,
So I’ll grab my map and turn on the lights,
The road begins it’s journey as it suddenly contrived,
Into fear and it just so happens that it might,
Watch me slowly be deprived.

The car slows down at the cliff,
And I’ll look out over the edge,
I see my porcelain body, stiff,
I realize that it had jumped itself off of the ledge.

The car then begins to drive towards the trees,
I find myself in the backseat,
Begging for forgiveness, please,
I know that I alone cannot defeat,
The devil sitting in the front seat.

Aiming for the hole in the ground,
The car begins to swerve,
In the backseat I notice that I am bound,
The ropes are hitting a nerve.

I’m sad because I know at last,
My time has come fade away,
All my time has become a past,
I knew all my edges had fray.

So driving once again,
I drove off of the cliff,
Knowing that I had just committed a sin.