Cover me from the rain,
With the tarp you stole from the neighbor's garage,
I'm a sponge that's ****** up too much liquid,
Anymore and I just might gain some weight,
With the weight that rests on my shoulders I don't want anymore,
Cause my frail knees might crumble under me,
And I will lay face down on the ground,
Unable to make a sound and while you surround, I'll be breaking down.

I am a creature of war,
A soldier unable to soar,
I've written of battle,
And I've managed to travel,
Through No-Mans-Land,
Just to withstand firsthand an unmanned stand.

But then I lost my hand
to cranking the crank to the Gatling gun,
I was much too brave,
And to my dismay I broke the grave I was lowered,
Now I'm sobered, shoulder to shoulder with my polarized,
I lost my hand,
to cranking the crank to the Gatling gun.

What a sight to foresee,
Right exactly where I stand with the key,
On my tiptoes under the crows,
It snows but I'll grow,
No more guns for me,
No more breaking into pleas.

But then I lost my hand
to cranking the crank to the Gatling gun,
I was much too brave,
And to my dismay I broke the grave I was lowered,
Now I'm sobered, shoulder to shoulder with my polarized,

Everything spins so fast these days,
Swirling into a sink hole, okay.
Guess I'm alright,
But, you don't don't really know my mind, right?
I'm seeing everything in slowmo,
Working my way through the trough.
Seeing how every bodies, just.
Writing for nothing but the show.

Even though I could end my pitiful life here,
I decide to stay in this loco motivated town stead,
Hounds instead, motivate me to move towards,
Everything the light won't touch.
I'm seeing everything in slowmo,
Bounds let, through snow and such.
Nothing could ever live up to something like the crutch.

It's been difficult to write lately,
Stuck inside the words of Rhymezone,
It's going on day eighty,
Can't write without breaking my collarbone.

You might see,
I'm outside,
standing with the banshee,
I'm so awake, wide.

I knocked on Death's door asking if I could come in,
He told me, "Kid, you got all the things to live for."
Then slammed the door.

I knocked on Life's door asking for a drink,
She told me, "Kid, get your own drink, you've got your own hands."
Then slammed the door.

I knocked on God's door looking for a savior,
Nobody answered.
So I slammed the door

Everyone watches my mess,
Seeing as I continue to confess,
To the times that I committed crimes,
Crimes that hurt as I wrote these rhymes.

And so.
In a process of elimination,
From head to toes,
I found that my conscience was guilty,
A list is cannot write but only feel,
What if I said I wasn't sorry,
For once.

Everyone watches my mess,
Seeing as I continue to confess,
To the times that I committed crimes,
Crimes that hurt as I wrote these rhymes.

Sink your teeth into my shoulder,
I don't care if you are poison,
I need you more than anything,
You can **** me off,
Bury my heart in the middle of a crossroads.

Hand me your soul,
I'll take good care of it,
I won't ever set it on the ***** table,
It'll always be in the smallest pocket of my backpack.

The light shines through the locked door,
I know that you are behind me,
Your eyes boring into my back,
Slip me back into my slumber.

I found that you aren't so nice,
Realizing that you were just toxin,
Blinding my vision, why,
Are you so proud?

I got to bring myself back down to earth,
Remind myself that we're all just made of stars and dreams,
No matter how bad the man, they were once a little sun with lots of love,
Maybe that'll get me killed one day but at this point does it really matter?
Shooting stars fly past my head and I'm once again reminded that I feel pain.

Spread my ashes across the universe,
Grip a lonely comet and drift across the cosmos,
You are worth it if you live in this atmosphere,
Stay here, with me and whisper secrets into my ear,
I promise I won't tell.

Time always slows down when we're young,
It feels like you'll never get out of it, but once you're out you wish you could go back,
Back to imagining you're an astronaut,
Safe inside a ship and headed on a one-way highway to all your tender dreams,
Now we're just drifting off and admiring the passing rockets,
Maybe one day we'll be inside of one of those too.

Spread my ashes across the universe,
Grip a lonely comet and drift across the cosmos,
You are worth it, darling, please don't leave.
I don't want to drift all alone.
Stay here, with me and let me whisper how much I love you into your ear.
I promise I won't tell.

If there has ever been a time for me to hide,
It's now cause the tide is coming in high,
Oh, mighty sky, I can't see through to the outside,
I see the walls, how they climb into a terrifying lie.

I've broken my leg one too many times,
In fact, it might have been exactly nine,
I'll thank heaven that I wasn't born a feline,
I'm a clever ruse hidden inside a fallacious disguise.

It's this pride I've locked eyes with,
I refuse to ever say goodbye cause this vibe,
My dancing shoes are on and I'm getting high,
Oh, wretched fright, I want to see inside your mind,
Do you trust me to go with the flow and jive?

Limping across the sand to the lifeguard's stand,
And within my hand I will find a land,
It's my land, my brand, an undeniable dance.

Best you leave your brain at the door,
Cause we're gonna go crazy,
Tonight's the night we break our bones,

Tonight's the night we twist up the rules,

Tonight's the night we fall down dead,

Then grab your guns and ammunition,
Shoot whatever moves in your blind spots,
Make a deal with the second-hand smoke.

Tonight's the night the ocean dries up,

Tonight's the night the drugs go boom,

Tonight's the night the enemy comes to life.

Best you leave your heart at the door,
Cause we're gonna go crazy,
Tonight's the night we repair our bones,

Tonight's the night we assemble an army,

Tonight's the night we build our plight.

If I'm to be honest,
I'm starting to trust you,
And with trust comes a feeling I enjoy,
It's your companionship that I long for,
Nothing more.
But could you forgive me if I brought home a stray dog?
Would you forgive me if I stripped my bones of meat?

And the morning welcomes new thoughts,
While the night ushers them out the door,
Because without the sun,
I'm just me. Just a son.
Not a mask,
Not a man.
Just a son.
Hoping to meet you tomorrow.

I'll take it to the sea,
The reality of myself,
And could you please listen to me,
I need to know If you're alright,
Nothing less,
But could you forgive me if I brought home a black cat,
Would you forgive me if I stripped my bones of marrow?

I really hope that you're alright,
I keep on noticing all these little changes,
The way your smile never makes the corner of your eyes crinkle.

It concerns that you never want to leave the house,
Even your favorite movie makes you want to die inside,
Could we talk for a little while?

I didn't wanna fall asleep last night,
I was afraid that you would be dead once I closed my eyes,
You keep on giving me those sad eyes and I'm only more convinced.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Everyday I ask you, "What's the matter?"
You respond without a thought,
I never believed you but I didn't want to pry.

Except that every day that I see you walk by,
I know that all you want to do is find the gun your father has,
I don't even want to think what you'll want with it.

Hey, can we make some pastries?
I know it won't solve your fake smiles,
But I need to show you that I care the most,
Trust me now, won't you?

Dark is the room I was in,
I ran out of light bulbs so many years ago,
I've been sitting here waiting,
Not moving much,
Just hoping that I would get along just fine.

Checked through all of our old conversations,
Couldn't believe all this time passed,
I've changed so much I doubt you'd even like me any more,
But I just wanna say that I miss you so.

The way you looked at me,
The way you held my hand,
The way we could make each other laugh.
But I just need to say that I miss you so.

The first time I realized I was going to grow old,
Was when I was with you,
You made me the best man I could've ever been,
I wished it never ended,
But I just wanna say that I miss you so.

The way you looked at me,
The way you held my hand,
The way we could make each other laugh,
But I just need to say that I miss you so.

Pink sweatshirts,
Long distances and funny little pictures,
Sleeping through the sound of mothers yelling,
Night-time praises and young love,
Round glasses that always made me melt,
Chocolate brown eyes that you hated.

I just need to say that I miss you so.
I just really need to say that I miss you so.
I just really, really need to sing.
Sing it out of me.

I could sing this melody for eternity and nobody would hear.
But I don’t really care cause I just wanna feel like I’m doing something with my little poor life.
I could fish off this rock until the sun goes dead and I’d never catch one.
But something inside me tells me it’s alright and that I only need myself to know.

Enough about me, please.
Why don’t you sing for me?
Its getting a little crowded but I’m happy cause you’re here.
You’re singing from corrupted lungs but I don’t care,
You still give me chills as you sing your songs.

I could breath for millennia but no one would see the plumes that come out into the cold morning air.
But I don’t care cause I have you and maybe you can’t see but at least I can hear your voice.
If the sun were to die and I became the light, nobody would care because its just a little light.
But I don’t care cause I like it up there, where there’s no one to make fun of my meaningless songs
but you tell me that they mean something, I still can’t see it but thank you anyway.

Enough about me, please,
Talk to me if you want or sing if you please,
I just wanna know what’s on your mind,
As the room grows smaller on the growing crowd,
I huddle against you and beg you not to leave.

We’re singing through corrupted lungs but I don’t care.
We’ll give the world chills as we sing our songs.

Twist and contort my voice into something unrecognizable,
So I can feel something other than my own self-destruction.
A fortnight or two until I'm totally blue,
Water cast to fire just to satiate his primal desire.

I've got not much to walk for,
Nothing to run for,
Nothing to scream for,
It's all just a chore.

Carry me down my own obsidian path,
Leave you barefoot to slip and bleed.
Only then you'll see what it feels to be me,
Maybe then you'll hold me closer and tighter than before.

I've got not much to walk for,
Nothing to run for,
Nothing to scream for,
It's all just a chore.

Let me watch the sun drown in the shimmering lake,
Why do you always block the beautiful view?
Doesn't it make sense that I have stopped respecting you,
For all that you do, For all that you say,
How is it any stretch to feel so enraged.

I'm young, tired, and feeling useless.
Don't know where I'm gonna go,
But I wanna make the opportunity to become something.

I'm driving on this road with nowhere to go,
I guess it all depends on me and what I decide to do,
I can't even lift my hands in the morning,
So how am I suppose to write song for my demons?

Blank walls, tore down all my posters,
He told me that I was not good enough,
My dysphoria won't stop so,
how am I supposed to keep living alone?

I'm young, tired, and feeling useless.
Aren't you tired of me?
I've done nothing but sit here and dream.

The need for purpose becomes my purpose,
I hope it won't be this way forever,
But I wanna make the opportunity to become something.

Call me tonight
Hold my spine
As I give up another heart
Is there anything you can do besides pleasing?
Cause I'm only looking for hope

Grab my spine
There's no more heart
Nothing I do, gives me hope
So, give me yours, tonight
It would be quite pleasing

Anything I can do for you, heart?
You lost your spine,
Bet it feels so pleasing
You don't need any hope.
In the midnight, tonight.

There's Iron in this water,
Falling through my throat,
Spilling on my chest,
Someone convince me,
That I'm enough.

Silly little daydreams,
Give me all this hope,
When I don't know,
Where I'm going to turn.

There's marker on my arm,
Faded off of my skin,
Staining at the last layer,
Someone convince me,
That dying's not next.

Silly little daydreams,
Give me all this hope,
When I don't know,
Where I'm going to turn.

Could we turn back time?
Could we bring back the sun?
Could we become holy again?
The lies we embraced as own own,
The times we pretended we were okay,
Ending on a sour note of progression.
Could we sing you to sleep?
Could we apologize in somber eyes?
Could we **** to regain our love?
A land where death never comes,
A song where we were divided.
Could we turn back time?
Could we sing you to sleep?
Could we dowse you in red and blue?

in reverse
from the end

this is how
we go through the motions

begin again
happy and so alive

ending in
tears and broken hearts

in reverse
to the beginning

let me
be a kid again

and I
will be happy once more

Your mama calls you a flower,
But you believe you're a ****,
Stealing water from all your friends,
Your pokey leaves don't affect me,
I'll water you with everything I've got,
And It's a lot.

Dirt glows green,
When you're not happy,
Oh, I notice it every time,
I'd like to hold your petals,
Show you what you've been missing out on,
All the flowers lies and pushed you aside,
I won't let that happen,
Cause I believe I'm a **** too.

Your mama calls you a flower,
But you believe you're a ****,
Stealing water from all your friends,
Your pokey leaves don't affect me,
I'll water you with everything I've got,
And It's a lot.

Again and again the gardener came by,
To extract you from the growing lawn,
This time though, I'll be beside you,
We'll hold out another week.

Sudden moves so slow to grow,
Record scratches become music to our ears,
Wreck it and tuck it under basements,
Your bed is a colander to sift bad memories,
Outside of each of us is something you can't trust.

Don't trust the shadow boy,
Break ties with his chants,
Fingers crossed, R tossed behind backs,
Take him on now.
Right now,
n o w.

******* your hands,
Restraining rubber bands,
Freakish offhand to demand,
And now we're ******* up contraband,
It might taste like sand,
But it's actually bland, man,
Oh I hate the way I stand,
Do you understand?
Of course you don't understand,
Cause I'm gonna countermand,
Drive yourself to misbrand, me,
This isn't land,
This isn't land,
Just quicksand

Don't trust the shadow boy,
Break ties with his chants,
Fingers crossed, R tossed behind backs,
Take him on now.
Right now,
n o w.

Something takes ahold,
So I don't lose control,
The highway just winds me down,
I'm rushing for a breath,
As it follows me again,
Up into the underbrush,
I feel my legs give in,
to the monster on my skin.
Oh god.
It hurts.
The fingers on my chest,
Scratching at my flesh.

What Is this,
Feeling,
Of control,
I want to lose myself again.

It climbs into it's disguise,
My skin.
Bloodied and cold, I,
Follow the morning star until I can't anymore,
This isn't who I am and I would like to scream,
but he took my teeth,
"I'll never be free." says my mentality.
The day drags on,
I can feel my skin as it tightens around the beast,
My hands are digging for purpose and a hold.

What is this,
Feeling,
Of Control,
I want to lose myself again.

I know I shouldn't be cursing
Mamma wouldn't be proud
I think about it everyday
How I can't be the boy
She wants me to be

I'm to weak
Beaten down
Into the black pavement
To follow every saint
I don't hear the clouds sing
I couldn't hear the clouds sing
I'm descending now

Here in the dark I will park,
In my spot where I taught,
All my thoughts to flock,
Inside of my head when I'm in my bed,
But when the sun goes I'm not done,
For it's the night that brings me to fight,
If a battle is what I need then hear my bones rattle,
Cause I'm never letting go before I have something to show,
Something to show that I've been through a war, Call fore!

We trade our homes for obsidian stones,
To build our walls inside our bones,
Not to hide but to thrive,
Inside our minds which we believe are fried,
Awakening a soul we lost so long ago,
So we're ready to grow.

My car's on fire so my time is dire,
Heart getting harder with each time I get farther,
From the state of mind that kept me bind,
To a wall to a constant fall,
Of which takes away the best of a day,
Not anymore, I promise, not anymore.

We trade our homes for obsidian stones,
To build our walls inside our bones,
Not to hide but to thrive,
Inside our minds which we believe are fried,
Awakening a soul we lost so long ago,
So we're ready to grow.

F a l l i n g —

I n  a n d  o u t —

O n e  d a y —

L o v e  s e e m s  s o  f a r—

A n o t h e r  d a y—

A l l  I  n e e d  i s  y o u—

Atop a self-made treehouse,
I’m a self-created personality,
Tree beneath, you’re my morality,
Clouds up above, weak spirituality.

Sitting on the edge,
Where the treeline meets the sky,
Not one of these birds know why,
But they’ve found that they cannot fly,

i'm unsteady.
not ready.
air is getting heavy.
are you speaking through the telly?

getting wasted on memories.
it's enough to drain my energy.
and steal all my extremities.

i'm so far away.
you're just a replay.
i've seen this scene, okay?

Gun to my head.
keep wishing I was dead.
my vision's just deep red.

bend over backwards.
to see my attackers.
only to find that I am the Hazard?

What do they make of me?
Am I a mistake or a prodigy?
It's really not too hard to see,
I’m just a liability.

Pulling at my skin,
Pulling out the pin,
Loving my sin,
Loving to win.

Under the moon and stars,
Their shadows draw moving picture photographs across my chest,
Opening it up to let me play a song for you,
How is it that the sunrises have turned so colorful,
And how is it that your eyes change every time I fall deeper.

If a wolf runs along the tracks,
Spectating me from the other side,
As it watches me place my brain,
Inside of your fridge as well,
Does it wonder what you are like.

There's a place in the stars,
Where I can find a new galaxy,
It calls me to trust you,
So my hands start bleeding ink,
In my mind I'm beside your drawn lines,
And I'm chasing that feeling down.

If a wolf runs along the tracks,
Spectating me from the other side,
As it watches me place my brain,
Inside of your fridge as well,
Does it wonder what you are like.

Water me down, flower kid,
To a seed in the ground.

There's no such thing as wanting to die,
You're just a silly sad butterfly,
Plummeting gracefully from the sky.

Remember when you got me,
Safely to ground,
But now the tides have been rising,
I'm sinking even further down.

I won't drown in this sea,
Not by your hands,
I will try to fly,
but my wings are soaked,
In the burning sea water.

As the ocean throws me around,
I am lost as to what I can say,
You said that you'd be there for me,
But now I see the blue sea is tugging me further.

But I am here so you won’t take me down.
Bring me to life, bring me to shore.
I don’t care if you don’t care,
I’ve got this now, I’m on my way.
Walking underwater but it’s steady,
I’m getting there.

Bench on the path,
He sits in the middle of the woods
Covered in the prints of time,
He’s withstood howls of anger,
And cries of anguish,
In the middle of the woods.

Bruises and cuts were tended to,
As were disconnected friends,
Two lovers brought closer,
And a father with his child.

Bench on the path,
He’s still in the middle of the woods,
Brimming with memories of animals,
The ones who died,
and the ones who fled,
In the middle of the woods.

How many times do I have to die,
To feel like I fit inside my skin?
The times tend to fly on by,
Over years and years,
Along with symphonies of unfamiliar faces,
They pass by my ink-stained hands.

Forgive me if I don't remember you,
It's been so long and those years that I met you,
My eyes where blinded by the rage and fear,
Something everyone knows of once in their life.

I had fallen further than ever before,
No amount of hope could've brought me home,
Do you see the burn marks,
On my red-singed clothes?

A new perspective and I love it here,
People remember me somehow and I need to say hello,
The road doesn't seem as cracked as before,
Ripped up the dead body and said goodbye to toxic memories,
You inspire me to keep on living.

Forgive me if I don't remember you,
It's been so long and those years that I met you,
My eyes where blinded by the rage and fear,
Something everyone knows of once in their life.

Could I cry some more in a single day?
The adrenaline that rushes through me,
It's got me holding on so tight,
It's got me grinning to wide.

The yellow will wash over my skin,
Flash my fears away for a night,
Leave me high on my own joy,
You have my heart and my soul.

Hold my hand with me, let's scream some lyrics,
I wanna hold you high above me and show you the best of me,
I wanna show you where I've been since I've been gone,
Believe in me.

The yellow will wash over my skin,
Flash my fears away for a night,
Leave me high on my own joy,
You have my heart and my soul.

White river calmly flows,
Her sudden moves never too wild,
Along come the people that she tows,
In retrospect, I should have appreciated the mild.

Along the trail, I'll follow the stones,
If anything's true I won't break my arm,
With the things inside my bones,
Things I collected keep me warm.

And the trees become so green,
The moss on the rocks take the sunlight,
Where have I gone and where have I been?
It's been so long since I've fought the fight.

Along the trail, I'll follow the stones,
If anything's true I won't break my arm,
With the things inside my bones,
Things I collected keep me warm.

Kindle this fire,
Feed it with moss,
Singe all your body's hairs,
It's the only way to learn.

Rearrange this damaged root,
That sits at my feet in defeat,
I want to see it grow without the soot,
Slowly becoming stale from this seat.

I need something to breath for me,
I need something to **** for me,
I need something to feel for me,
I need something to see for me,
I need something to walk for me,
I need something to cry for me,
I need something to **** me.

When the sun fell behind the houses on the Friday horizon,
I was sure then and there,
That it was said and done,
My weathered teeth and nails don't work as good as they used to,
If I say and do something wrong I'll blame it on them,
The night's when those attributes start to fade and I'm,
I'm just a boy,
Not a man,
Not a mask,
Just a boy.

It's hard to see you deny,
To contrive all these lies,
How you're not as wonderful as everybody says,
As I say,
And I notice when you look away,
Because you can't face the truth I've placed,
In front of your face for you to take.

On the floor and wondering,
After a long day of wishing the clouds away,
I saw you next to me,
Somehow I remembered that tomorrow was the day,
But something changed and rearranged,
Inside of my chest came a feeling I couldn't ignore,
Overwhelming and calming all at the same time,
Taking my courage with me,
I said something I couldn't and wouldn't take back.

It's hard to see you deny,
To contrive all these lies,
How you're not as wonderful as everybody says,
As I say,
And I notice when you look away,
Because you can't face the truth I've placed,
In front of your face for you to take.

As the note laid under my pillow begun to fade of it's ink,
I was with you and knowing,
There was something more to watch the sun rise once more for,
Stay with me for tonight my dear,
Let's live and sing out our hearts unto the moon's eyes,
You're everything and always for me,
To me,
So give me your hand and I'll hold you for as long as I can,
So stay with me tonight my dear,
Let's live and sing our hearts unto the moon's eyes,
Nobody needs to know that we're home.

It's hard to see you deny,
To contrive all these lies,
How you're not as wonderful as everybody says,
As I say,
And I notice when you look away,
Because you can't face the truth I've placed,
In front of your face for you to take.

It's always ending at the little brick road by the creek,
In my dreams I will laugh in despair cause it's not fair,
What the trees like to believe is that I am there for my dying days,
The problem is that they might be right but I can't tell,
Cause my fists are numb and there might be some razors buried inside,
My fair skin begins to bleed cause I've been running away with common sense.

Founded,
A toy of a women.
Her eyes of gold,
and tongue of thorns.

She eyes the cigarette in his open mouth
His limbs sprawled onto the floor
The lungs he once spoke from, now charred with tar.

Forecast had been getting me down,
A puzzle-piece brain rearranging,
Shaking the foundations of my sanity,
Produced for myself, an island alone,
Like Atlantis I would sink to disappear,
Expected to never be found again.

It's stormy,
My strain forming,
Wished I was a story,
Make believe,
Fictional,
Paper-thin product producing purpose.

Instead I was holding onto hot coals,
How in all of the ocean was I alive,
After all the waves and the sharks,
I was alive.