Hope goes out the window to run for the sun,
It's sinking into the ground so far away,
So it's around this time when I find my hands becoming cold,
Then my head being strung onto the curtains,
The sense of control is gone from my grasp,
My eyes are permanently shut as I curl into my bed,
I asked the Lord for perseverance again,
Then I remember I don't believe and He'll never answer my calls,
So I grab the hidden razors and slit my eyes open,
I can see the nightmares walking around telling and stalling my planned death,
But nothing seems right as the rain falls into my room.
I cry out, please, help me.
I shout out my words, help me.
I scream my sentences, help me.

****** nose leaking onto wood floors,
Blue eyes sullen into a dull grey,
Bruises curl 'round with menace,
Bother him when he gets to Hell.

Smell the rot,
Hear the flies.
See the corpse,
Feel the cold vein.

Grand display of regret and guilt,
Garden on display above his plot,
Good on him for finding his home,
Getting back to the real world soon.

Smell the flowers,
Hear the trees,
See the gravestone,
Feel the icy grass.

Hell's not so bad when its yours,
He's left his throne and ****** off,
Heaven's never bothered to intervene,
Here's a toast to reforming the sinners.

Smell the brimstone,
Hear the fire,
See the lost souls,
Feel the humid air.

Forgetting seems easier these days,
For what else can you really do,
Fork inside your steak as you stare,
Funny how it's all so meaningless.

Smell the red meat,
Hear the dishware,
See the watery blood,
Feel the existential weight.

I'm not alone but it still stings,
Intermittently regressing inside,
Inside of an imploding star,
Internally dying once again.

What's life,
Without suicide?
The contemplation,
To accuse the abused.

God forbid a kid,
But **** an adult,
The glorification,
To alter a perception.

Hungry for the other side,
We all assume we know,
So much so that we throw,
Our blood to the streets.

What's your life,
Without a suicide,
A kid with no thought left,
Knocked a chair to the right.

I’m drinking bleach,
Yum.

Life is just a peach,
Ate a seed.

Sitting on the beach,
Blood on my feet.

I’m so glad I’m me,
Who would I be?

I couldn’t reach,
The whole meal.

I’m drinking bleach,
Yum.

Cause I’m a leech,
Won’t you please,
Forgive me?

Forgive me?

Forgive me?

I’m drinking bleach,
If you know what I mean,
Forgive me.

Forgive me.

Forgive me.

Got a feeling you enjoyed the show,
You’re alone in a seat at the front row,
Saw you smile like you knew I’d blow it,
Took me years but I can now decode it.

All I do is question,
Am I who I say I am?
Am I who I say I am?

Believed I was going insane,
Composure I tried to maintain,
Came undone, I tried to explain,
A creature feature for your gain.

Pick the raw stitching by my eyes,
Intent seemingly to antagonize,
A breakdown, only to be utilized,
Proved you're justified to terrorize.

Wish I didn't give a ****,
Am I who I say I am?
Am I who I say I am?

Believed I was going insane,
Composure I tried to maintain,
Came undone, I tried to explain,
A creature feature for your gain.

Now all I do is question,
Am I who I say I am?
Am I who I say I am?

Wish I didn't give a ****,
Am I who I say I am?
Am I who I say I am?

You wanted to hear a confession:
"I'm a liar,
A falsifier,
You've been right,
The whole time,
I'm a liar,
A falsifier."

This is what happens,
What happens to a country,
When the opposition is stamped,
And the institutions have *** with racist sentiments.
That *** must be good if our rights,
The rights of the minorities are tradable.

LAW AND ORDER.
TO THE BONE,
LAW AND ORDER,
UNTIL YOU DROP,
LAW AND ORDER,
GET ARRESTED,

I cannot confine this rage,
We're so liberalized,
Standing in line to die,
Like sheep into the slaughterhouse.

LAW AND ORDER.
TO THE BONE,
LAW AND ORDER,
UNTIL YOU DROP,
LAW AND ORDER,
GET ARRESTED,

What do you think you could do?
Well I think I could break a few windows,
Apple, Starbucks, Meta, Microsoft,
Run into the streets screaming, "**** THE RICH"
But you won't cause it's out of order.

LAW AND ORDER.
TO THE BONE,
LAW AND ORDER,
UNTIL YOU DROP,
LAW AND ORDER,
GET ARRESTED.

WE LOVE,

WE ****,

WE LOVE,

WE ****,

LAW AND ORDER.

Everyday the signs blur further,
My eyes deteriorating,
Fading into obscurity,
Beyond how I thought they’d decay.

Just as the days grow colder,
The trees fall into their routine,
Inviting me to fall too.

Everyday my breaths hug tighter,
Each inhale clamps around my lungs,
How long till I suffocate?
I’ll find peace in this fate.

Just as the days grow colder,
The trees fall into their routine,
Inviting me to fall too.

Everyday the memory I cling to,
My mind deteriorating,
Fading into obscurity,
Beyond how I thought they’d decay.

Not a day goes by,
Now its endless,
Useless,
Peer upon the fuseless,
Electric machine I pilot,
Created a solution in a daydream.

Now the days stay colder,
The trees fell into the routine,
They invited me to fall too.

When sitting within the room where I was reborn,
I cannot tell if the fumes that I exhale are toxic,
When I'm so afraid for anyone to know me,
For what if they find out I'm a tyrant before I do?

Sitting in a crowded room with the lights,
Bearing down on my shoulders and tongue,
Manage the twisting shame through trials,
I am a twisted beast full of sin and carnage.

I am a twisted beast full of sin and carnage,
A dictator pleading with deities for forgiveness,
Ravage the next night with vicious vices,
I am nothing more than a young and dumb kid.

Sitting in a crowded room with the lights,
Bearing down on my shoulders and tongue,
Manage the twisting shame through trials,
I wish I was confident in my impoverished crimes.

Don't look my way, no, cause I'll feel it,
Bitterness that crawls into my throat-

Is it that I'm a bad dog?
Am I dog trained to protect myself?
Or am I a stray yearning for a home?
Can I follow someone home and curl into their lap?
Can I lick my own wounds and share them carefully?
Or will my hackles begin to raise as my lip curls?
Or will I turn to bite and tear at the hand's flesh?

Sitting in a crowded room with the limelights,
Bearing down on my shoulders and tongue,
Manage the twisting shame through trials,
I am a twisted beast full of sin and carnage.

I am as I was raised to be.

Remains spread across a mossy bed,
Trees warned of the wind above,
Dissuaded from reassembling,
Decided rotting was better,
Transforming into the earth below.

These hands,
These arms,
This torso,
This mess,

It’s more so,
Less so,
Guess so,
It’s so-so.

From moss comes the dewdrops,
Caught sight of the glimmer,
Travelling inside of fingernail beds,
Through pumping varicose veins,
The pressure erupts through-

These eyes,
These ears,
This nose,
This mess.

It’s more so,
Less so,
Guess so,
It’s so-so.

These legs,
These feet,
This tragedy,
This mess.

I’m less so,
More so,
Guess so,
I’m so-so.

Startled awake,
Thought I was fake,
It didn’t take,
For heaven’s sake.

What's left,
The carcass getting picked clean,
All the ****** bones at our feet,
Vultures have had their fill,
Circling above our heads,
Wishing for our downfall.

What's left,
Of a genocidal nation,
When it doesn't hide,
Wears it on its sleeve, that pride,
All the tears our enemies cried,
We flay all the children alive.

What's left,
After it all crumbles away,
The welfare state,
The indomitable hate,
Nobody can afford anything,
It'd all be gone and be too late.