I need everyone to know,
That I cannot survive this,
Life.
The way I bid my life,
On your beating pulse,
Tears me up inside.
Then some passenger gets inside my car,
But I can't see the face they made,
So I crack open the window,
Letting my soul get swept away.

Scream,
I need,
Somebody to save me.
But the car drives away,
The passenger stole my car.
I'm left in the rain,
My soul trapped in the wind.
I sink to the ground,
My frame continues to fight,
But my mind has given up.

But the shock from the flock,
Flies into my windshield,
So I'm stuck inside my hands,
My pen is melting away.
I'm so afraid.
Of what you really meant to say.

Scream,
I need,
Somebody to save me.
But the car drives away,
The passenger stole my car.
I'm left in the rain,
My soul trapped in the wind.
I sink to the ground,
My frame continues to fight,
But my mind has given up.

I confessed to the stuffed animal at the end of my bed,
That daddy doesn't come around,
That all the friends I gained I lost,
And the only one I have left is breaking me down,
Is this what life is?
Is this what He designed me for?

I'm just a kid,
And I already hate the world,
I'm just a kid,
And I hate my own reflection,
I'm just a kid,
Just a kid.

I confessed to the characters on the paper,
That the seasons grow lonelier,
That my name doesn't fit my brain,
And that I need someone to listen to me,
I build my life only to watch it crumble down,
I've learned that life is a bully on the playground,
Kicking over my sand castles and getting sand in my teeth.

I'm just a kid,
And I'm already lost all hope,
I'm just a kid,
And I already stopped believing in Him,
I'm just a kid,
Just a kid.

I confessed to my therapist in the chair,
That I'm sicker than I've ever been,
My flesh has been eroding away in chunks,
Leaving me with just a skeleton,
That my weeks feel like years,
And that the sun is always setting,
Leaving me on the brink of exhaling.

breathe.

breathe.

breathe.

And. Here in the dark I will park,
In my spot where I taught,
All my thoughts to flock,
Inside of my head when I'm in my bed,
But when the sun goes I'm not done,
For it's the night that brings me to fight,
Cause I'm never letting go before I have something to show,
Something to show that I've been through a war, Call fore!
My car's on fire so my time is dire,
Heart getting harder with each time I get farther,
From the state of mind that kept me bind,
To a wall to a constant fall,
Of which takes away the best of a day,
Not anymore, I promise, not anymore.

That's how I like it!
Don't knock it till you try it!
Best I'll do is light it!
Don't you dare fight it!

Curb stomps,

Time stops,

**** cops,

Don't stop!

Please, in the name of the law,
Hunt me down like a dog,
Hear me, I'll be shouting-
"Stupid ******* HOG"

That's how I like it,
Don't knock it till you try it,
Best I'll do it light it,
Don’t you dare fight it!

Curb stomps,

Time stops,

**** cops,

Don't stop!

Esteemed Executioner!
May I present my case?
Against all odds,
I have prevailed,
Please don’t deny me bail!

I am your enemy.

I am your enemy.

I am your enemy.

I am your dream.

Living empty-minded, unaware of plaguing viruses to find it and mind it.
Purpose becomes worthless if you move by inches, pointing you to giant homes and dehumanizing riches.
When life hands you meaning,
Why do you run and hide from it's changing chimes?
We're living the American dream,
Access to process your every single word.

Don't like me,
Don't like you,
Well, there's something I gotta write,
Don't like this,
Don't like that.
Well, there's no thinking left living.

Follow the big white line that leads into the sea,
How corrupted could we be,
To only see the world from the pictures on the T.V.,
Sempiternal delinquent humans run to become free.
We're living the American dream,
Access to process your every opinion.

Don't like me,
Don't like you,
Well, there's something I gotta write,
Don't like this,
Don't like that.
Well, there's no thinking left living.

I like you better when I’m drunk
You wouldn’t like me when I’m sober,
Don’t you dare **** up my funk,
Drag me by the chains on my choker.

Do you mind if I dance bad,
I don’t care that I dance bad,
Do you care that I dance bad,
I don’t care if you dance bad.

Told me Texas was your home,
Now you're covered in sinful appeal,
This conversation's so monochrome,
Let's get up and make a colorful reveal.

Do you mind if I dance bad,
I don’t care that I dance bad,
Do you care that I dance bad,
I don’t care if you dance bad.

Swirling galaxies and childhood realities,
Falling stars and midnight scars,
Rising dawn and futures redrawn,
Rain comes and teenage bums.

Rockets failing and children wailing,
Planets surround and youth uncrowned,
Moonlight noses and he overdoses,
Capsizing comets and killer comments.

meteor upcoming and skyscrapers crumbling,
Warm sunshine and she's so benign,
Heaven's heirs and unanswered prayers,
Gas emission and atomic demolition.

Terrified and still, he's alive.

Why do you care for me at all,
When I can barely care for myself,
They say that you can't love someone,
Unless you begin to love yourself,
Then why do I still look for your smile?

Its all this debris that clutters the epicenter,
The point of no return was the moment you looked into my eyes and saw a human worthy of love,
I'd rather you curb stomp my head and take me out,
At least then I don't have to reconcile with the inevitable consequences of being alive.

The feelings are all the same,
Hopelessness, worthlessness, impending doom,
With the context of all that I was,
And all that I have become,
They feel mature these days,
Perhaps more manageable,
but I'd argue that they're worse,
The consequences are only tenfold,
I'm supposed to operate without hitch,
Yet here I am, reiterating the feeling of a fall.

the feeling of the fall

the feeling of the fall

the feeling of the fall

F
A
L
L
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.

An abandoned sunset on the horizon,
Keep persevering towards a limitless sun,
Dark prairie field, a fraction of a second before sunrise,
Before we know it, the calm passes so there’s a demise.

What’s better than the morning air?

The drag of a dead tree and its saturn rings,
Honey, you know I don’t play with these things,
Nothing in the universe or beyond is ever fair,
Then it’s decided, I shouldn’t pretend to care.

A pine cabin sitting pretty in the prime of its life,
Will eventually sit heavy at the end of its strife,
Bitter and old from what it thought it deserved,
Historic yet crumbling, nobody wanted it preserved.

An abandoned sunset on the horizon,
Keep persevering towards a limitless sun,
Dark prairie field, a fraction of a second before sunrise,
Before we know it, the calm passes so there’s a demise.

A sinkhole opens to swallow it all up,
A cabin to the depths,
A sunset to the abyss,
A joint to the deaths,
I know we swear something’s amiss.
Who’s to blame except the wash-up.

Been driving for hours,
My hands off the wheel,
Staring at the meteor showers,
The time ticks slowly as I reveal how I feel.

Then I see the night has arrived,
So I’ll grab my map and turn on the lights,
The road begins it’s journey as it suddenly contrived,
Into fear and it just so happens that it might,
Watch me slowly be deprived.

The car slows down at the cliff,
And I’ll look out over the edge,
I see my porcelain body, stiff,
I realize that it had jumped itself off of the ledge.

The car then begins to drive towards the trees,
I find myself in the backseat,
Begging for forgiveness, please,
I know that I alone cannot defeat,
The devil sitting in the front seat.

Aiming for the hole in the ground,
The car begins to swerve,
In the backseat I notice that I am bound,
The ropes are hitting a nerve.

I’m sad because I know at last,
My time has come fade away,
All my time has become a past,
I knew all my edges had fray.

So driving once again,
I drove off of the cliff,
Knowing that I had just committed a sin.

Good men don't fall so hard, so fast,
But I can't resist so guess I'm a fool,
I've done bad things to myself,
I don't think you'd care to deal with me,
My bones are weak and afraid,
Cause I know if I say a word.

You'll turn away,
Find another place,
To build your home,
I'll be alone.

Look what I've done to my voice,
It's broken beyond repair,
The only thing that speaks now,
Is my heart,
So please,
Understand what I mean,
When I say.

You'll turn away,
Find another place,
To build your home,
I'll be alone.

Hear what I've done to the angel on my shoulder,
His wings are broken and tattered,
The only thing I hear,
Is the demon speaking clearly,
I know instantly that I've lost my heart,
To you.

You'll turn away,
Find another place,
To build your home,
And I'll be alone.

Just wanna smash up my old car,
Cause the memories made so far,
Are settling and tearing me apart,
I don't wanna go back to the start.

Bits and pieces,
**** and wheezes,
Risky maneuvers,
Here's to our futures.

Wholly partitioned into facets,
I would prefer to just gas it,
Turn them into exoplanets,
Let the crumbling system surpass it.

Bits and pieces,
**** and wheezes,
Risky maneuvers,
Here's to our futures.

Eventually,

No. Say it with me.

Eventually we'll all end up in the dirt.

Our minds thoughtless.

Incompressible darkness.

Eventually,

We'll all reckon with our mortality.
Regardless of our immortal will.

Parts scattered,
Upholstery tattered,
It never really mattered,
Bits and pieces,
**** and wheezes,
Risky maneuvers,
Here's to our contributions.

Tried so hard to blend in,
Balancing on the head of a pin,
So many me's to choose from,
Whoever is needed, I'll become.

King of the dirt hill,
Inside of suburban hell,
Its how hard I fell,
From being a run of the mill,
kid.

Standing firmly on the sideline,
Picking absently at a dandelion,
They thought I'd be something,
Thought I would be something.

King of the dirt hill,
Inside of suburban hell,
Its how hard I fell,
From being the run of the mill,
kid.

Are you proud of me?

Be honest.

Are you proud of me?

Don't lie.

Are you proud of me?

Cause it's all coming crashing down,
And I'd hate to see you frown,
Now tell me. Are you really proud?

King of the dirt hill,
Inside of suburban hell,
It's how hard I fell,
From being the run of the mill,
kid.

There's the smile on your face,
It keeps me here on this earth,
Don't underestimate your life,
When it keeps me alive.

I think I know where I'd be,
Without you in my life,
I think I know who I'd be,
Without you keeping me here.

You ask yourself all these questions,
About the skin you're in,
friend, look at me,
don't you dare,
Take your life away from me.

I think I know where I'd be,
Without you in my life,
I think I know who I'd be,
Without you keeping me here.

Tracing star patterns,
Love only what matters,
Always feel I'm in tatters.

Passed a shooting star,
Seemed too much too far,
But there haven't been many wars
Been a while since I made new scars.

Tracing star patterns,
Love only what matters,
Always feel I'm in tatters.

It's not all done and I haven't seen the rising dawn,
But I have faith the darkest nights can be met head on,
That I can right all of my wrongs,
And find peace in these songs.

****** nose leaking onto wood floors,
Blue eyes sullen into a dull grey,
Bruises curl 'round with menace,
Bother him when he gets to Hell.

Smell the rot,
Hear the flies.
See the corpse,
Feel the cold vein.

Grand display of regret and guilt,
Garden on display above his plot,
Good on him for finding his home,
Getting back to the real world soon.

Smell the flowers,
Hear the trees,
See the gravestone,
Feel the icy grass.

Hell's not so bad when its yours,
He's left his throne and ****** off,
Heaven's never bothered to intervene,
Here's a toast to reforming the sinners.

Smell the brimstone,
Hear the fire,
See the lost souls,
Feel the humid air.

Forgetting seems easier these days,
For what else can you really do,
Fork inside your steak as you stare,
Funny how it's all so meaningless.

Smell the red meat,
Hear the dishware,
See the watery blood,
Feel the existential weight.

I'm not alone but it still stings,
Intermittently regressing inside,
Inside of an imploding star,
Internally dying once again.