Each day it's always the same
My life's lit like a single flame
Frozen beneath the layers of pain
Utterly useless with ones own brain

Tears of past wishes fall once more
Agony rips through to my broken core
Re-living dreadful truths of yesterday
Sleepless wonders project the definition of gray

Empty affection consumes my life
Aching feelings like a stab from a knife
Ripping the wants from the terrible needs
My happiness is small like a pumpkin seed

Walk across the crowded land
Sadly soaked like mud packed sand
Whispers from sinful anger filled faces
Take away my soul with stinging grace

A world filled with diversity and love
Cover their imperfection with a thick *** glove
Breathless wonders yelling to get out
Constantly in trouble for their week lifeless shouts

This is the truth in poem form
Untamed and wild like a western storm
Listen close to this ******* tone
Another day I wake up alone

He loves me for who I am
But his heart is only for Sam
A girl who's kind and pure
What makes him feel so very sure?

That her sun kissed tan
With her snow white vans
And the freckles on her chin
Makes her a clear easy win

Her hair shines in the sun
which to you makes things much fun
When her ruby red thick lips
Desire you to stay and strip

You never leave my sight
Your smile makes my soul so bright
But when she's hanging out with us
I always cause a little fuss

You only belong to me
How can I make this so you see
That what I truly have to share
Will for once make you just care

About my golden brown hair
That swims throughout the purified air
With colorless crystal snow skin
On a body so very thin

But your heart belongs to Sam
You couldn't even give a dam
That the girl who is your friend
Will love you till the very end
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A sliver of skin rips from myself
I take the knife from the upper shelf
Skimming the blade through each skinny hair
The blood within mixes with the purified air

Drip drop down my white pale arm
From the look of it I enjoy much harm
Able to see clearly tons of hard bone
My heart is broken like pebbles from a stone

Tears fall down my colorless face
Unable to see the light between all this black space
Chopping away the person I am
Looking like a beet red Hannaford ham

Piles of memories splatter on the floor
Agony and loss block my bedroom door
All the pain I once contained
Is hopefully finally being drained

I lay upon my comfortable bed
And picture the horror that I just bled
It's cold within these shattered walls
My happiness feels so very small

I heavily walk to the bathroom sink
The mirror is melting just like ink
I stare at the person on the other side
She's just bone with little to no pride
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