Cry a river of tears, leading to an ocean of pain,
Close your eyes and try to imagine, you can’t even begin.
A day with no sun, a valley without rain,
Can’t even describe the anguish I am in.

I can give you no reason, offer no insight.
The only thing I know, the pain I feel inside.
Repeatedly I’ve asked myself, Will I be alright?
No answer ever came, so through the times I cried.

The sadness consumes me, I can’t stop the tears,
The pain is overwhelming, so much that I can’t see.
The loneliness surrounds me, bringing closer all my fears.

All of this is too much, I long to be set free.

(8/19/15)

As I drift away into my own thoughts

Voices get farther away

Once more trapped within my own mind

Unaware of my surroundings

The world around goes on without me

As conversations continue unhindered by my absence

In my head is nothing but silence

Then my thoughts begin to penetrate the fog

In my mind I am alone

Don't try to talk to me 'cause I won't hear you

I'm somewhere else now even if you still see me

Lost within myself

Consumed by my own thoughts

So far away

Only half aware when you say my name

I'm daydreaming yet it's unclear

As I sit here thinking

I'm here, but I'm not here

~Shawna K. Whaley

It starts small, and then grow stronger
First a little sadness, then a small tear

Soon I am weeping, can hold back no longer
The thoughts come, I'm paralyzed with fear

Feeling unloved, unwanted and more
Trying to fight it, they say they care

Yet deep down inside, my heart has been torn
Trying to hold on, becomes hard to bare

Feelings of loneliness, like no one is there
Rage deep inside me, I'm feeling so lost

The true thoughts inside me, I cannot share
I want to let go, though I cannot pay the cost

Shawna K Whaley
10-13-01