be still for just a moment allow yourself to breath
gather your thoughts and focus them onto yourself
ask yourself how did you get here
let yourself smile in those happy moments
grow the best you can from the sad
look into yourself find your pros seek out your faults
accept both change only what you feel you should
project that into the future
allow yourself to imagine the transformation you wish to see
take a step

the person you saw yesterday
is not the person you see today
and the person you meet tomorrow
will not be the person you see now

I feel ashamed to complain since I see those older who have lived threw more
I feel for the young who know nothing else
still though with every heartbeat, I feel the blades move through it
every breath serves to remind me that I'm drowning
my brain feels distant, scrambled like static noise
my legs quit
my voice stops
my muscles tighten till they cant no more
I cry in pain tears snot everywhere
no longer in control, my body convulses
all the while I'm aware as if an act I can quit at anytime
that's the torture not the pain nor the judgemental eyes
but the clarity of mind to know what you're doing  but no control to stop it

I know I think but do I hear
surely I do yet sounds can easily mislead
just how what I see can be just a trick of the eye
how an apple can be a potato
even touch that seems infallible can be fooled
surely however if I see, hear, feel, smell, and taste something it must be real
or maybe just a complicated illusion
at least I know I think right?

feel the beat
the beat of the heart
the beat of the drum
beat of the music
allow it to guide you
give you ground to walk upon
don't fear the rhythm it gives
trust your body to follow any beat you find yourself in

my thoughts are of the ocean and the beaches that form the shore
they are on the raindrops that soaked into the land or flowed beside the others forming the rivers
they are on the mountains the river flow through and the scars they leave as the river carries it to the sea
my thoughts are on the sand under my feet and the journey of which it took to arrive where I stand