I've seen it in my dreams
& when seen in reality
I did not realize what attracted me
Paid no mind
Yet, knew it had to be mine
Finally in my hands
I began to dajavu
My soul yelling at me
"this is a part of you"
Who knew?

Reflecting on old habits
Once was blind from all tablets
Wrapped inside the devils blanket
His worshipping, is what I practice
Oh how I wished I hadn't
Having his way with me on my darkest days
& taking control over me on my pitch black nights
Now to think, there's many other ways I could've handled it
Realizing I could've made a few turns, & stops
Yet, already thinking about hitting the high way
Numb to the feeling of the wind blowing through my hair, the warmth of the sun beaming down on my face,
deaf to the sounds of nature that surrounded me
So blind, so cold, so dry..

Narcotics are chaotic
if you let the chaos come over you
Mountain high
not visualizing with the naked eye
that the view isn't as clear,
Not clear enough to see your soul falling into its hands
to finally have you as a whole
yet, devour you as one
He will demand, & demand,
you'll obey his commands
Unless you're strong enough to brake free from the chains,
all with bare hands

I find it interesting
that others dream of us
Yet, I do not dream of you anymore
You are not reality, & no longer a dream
You are imaginary, a fantasy in which I can not see.

Being a girl,
Doesn't mean a three way hole,
Being a girl,
Means to be admired and respected as a whole..

Being a girl,
Doesn't mean that getting married is your goal,
Being a girl,
Means to be whatever your heart says to your soul..

Being a girl
Doesn't mean that (just) as a mother, wife or girlfriend is your role..
Being a girl,
Means that you need to prove yourself as a diamond in the mine of coal..

Being a girl,
Doesn't mean that entire your life you need to stay a tadpole..
Being a girl,
Means that you need to develop into a frog before getting ole..

Being a girl,
Doesn't mean that you are the negative of the dipole,
Being a girl,
Means that - you need to take your life's control..

Being a girl,
Doesn't mean to accept your worth to be ***** and *****,
Being a girl,
Means to accept your beauty, not just the duty,

Being a girl,
Doesn't mean that you can be a heroine just in the movie..
Being a girl,
Means that you can be a superhero in real life - you can be a ruby!