Hollowed eyes and sunken cheeks,
Shaking hands and uncombed hair
She wants her back
I want her back
You say you do
But you’re the one who took her away
Sitting and watching her fall
And look
And shatter
Makes my heart fall with grief
From grief is just love after we lose
And you always found away
And she always trusted you
Even when the knife was 2 inches away
She let you envelope her in your facade
She wanted you to be real
So she lied
To me
To herself
To you
I hope she finds her way out
You don't deserve you see her suffer at your hand

If my soul could only of seen
The white fall of the wind
Covered in red
I would have turned
To the barren broken summers
Filled with tears and screeches
I now hold a broken face- broken smile

Glass broken and my lungs winded
Maybe we were the dirt
From the creek that froze over
Where the a lace trimmed dress still lies
Bloodshed time again
The marks still there though the blood turned water

The bird call was never quite right
I longed for the bitter taste
Of the things you said you didn't mean
Just once more
From across the room
Your smile doesn't quite reach your eyes
A Sorry-but not quite

Almost 5 months
over 21 weeks
148 days
It doesn't seem too long
But never once did you say sorry
Almost doesn't cut it

Ash trays not cleaned in a year
I keep coming back
Clean and then again
I chew out the nicotion  
My throat ran raw
Years of yelling and smoking and longing

Maybe I’m the rain
Peaceful and angry
Im cold. shivering
A reckless force filled with too much love
My lungs stabbed and shattered
You called me a butterfly
Then you proved what my heart cant take

My old dress sits there
I long to sit in it again
Everyone i've ever loved is 6 feet under
Or miles away
I write because i loathe who i am
Who you are
Because the love you don't give me
Is all I have for you

The pain you bring me
Goes to my soul
Myself


Im borderline between clean and addicted
Between you and me