I achieved it, but at what cost?
Everyone behind, no one in sight, no one by side.

If love was simple, not perplexed,
Would it still claim the title, most complex?

I am so lost, so lost
My mind feels blank, it's fully blanked
Life seems so dull, dulled soo much
My eyes have lost, lost all light.

I want to leave, leave behind everything
Just run away, run away from everything
Nothing feels worth, lost faith in everything,
I need a leave, to find peace within.

I don't know how I feel,
Is it love? Is it even real?
Never have felt this way,
Maybe because I wasn't this way.

Simple talks bring a smile,
But I don't long for if didn't talk for a while,
I want to talk but I can't say,
What am I supposed to do, I don't know the way.

Would it be odd? Would it be wrong?
All these thoughts come in mind,
My heart says no, my hands on bind,
Is it friendship or are you just kind?

Don't wanna mistake kindness,
Nor wanna start if there is no geniuness,
They say it's true, go for it bro,
But I don't wanna regret, nor wanna let you go.

Lovely life, a hearty soul,
Sweetly happy, sadly whole.
My moods I show for all to see,
But only my notes know the real me—
The dreams I chase, the goals I seek,
The quiet longings I dare not speak.

Another day, another mask,
A weary soul, a fragile task.
It's been so long, I've lost the feel,
Of what is fake and what is real.

Time passes, repeated actions,
Efforts doubled, results lessened.
A breakthrough is needed,
to break the cycle,
Living is what I want,
not the survival.