How is it that I still feel heartbreak after nearly 3 years.

How is it that I still have a you shaped hole in my heart

How is it that I cant even speak your name without it tearing that hole in my chest open again

How is it that no matter how hard I try I always end up crying about you when I am drunk

How is it that I can’t even go to our old favourite places because I have a panic attack at all the thoughts and feelings that come rushing back to me

How is it that I have lost all my friends from when we were together because I feel the emptiness of you not there with us, with me

How is it that I can’t even smile the same way as I used to because my smile was your favourite thing and thats all I think about

How is it that I can’t love another like I loved you

How is it that I can’t let you go no matter how hard I try

How is it that even though you destroyed me I would do anything to have you back in my life