You're afraid to drink
Because if you do it might make you think
Of all the ****** times you've been on the brink
Of self destruction, deep down you sink
Deep down you hate yourself for the things you need
So you alone to yourself this song you sing

Yeah you're so convinced that everything is fake
You don't even comprehend the risks that you would take
Just to find a way to not appear that you could break
But everybody does at some point for heavens sake

Baby it's okay to not be okay
Are you gonna burn out or fade away?
You don't wanna hear what I've got to say
But I believe that there will come a better day
So baby please just give me a chance
Life is passing by without a second glance
Yeah just take my hand
I promise I will help you understand

I always try to see the true spirit
And though I look past appearance
Your beauty writes all my lyrics
This love I feel, you have to hear it

Because
I shake.. When I'm without you
Baby I break.. Hope that I'm found soon
Pray that I wake.. For you I'm proud to
If the sun rays.. Are too much I'll shroud you
Keep you in my shade
While sun rays make me bake

Baby if you promise only
Just to not break and disown me
I'll be down forever
Keep you from being lonely
I don't have many answers..
Questions lately feel like cancer..
I'm not really one for banter..
But for you I'll raise my standards

Because
I shake.. When I'm without you
Baby I break.. Hope that I'm found soon
Pray that I wake.. For you I'm proud to
If the sun rays.. Are too much I'll shroud you
Keep you in my shade
While sun rays make me bake

I've been... On the run
From myself.. Ive come undone
Too ashamed.. To see the sun
Heartbreak.. Doomed to love no one
Then you came.. I think you're the one
I'll take.. The whole world for you ***
Stay with me.. And we can have some fun
Watch the world bake.. From the smoke on our guns

Because
I shake.. When I'm without you
Baby I break.. Hope that I'm found soon
Pray that I wake.. For you I'm proud to
If the sun rays.. Are too much I'll shroud you
Keep you in my shade
While sun rays make me bake

All these horrors you'll see
But only in your dreams
Driven mad by inner visions
You must hear beyond the screams
A wall of mist, a delirious fog
To cloud your eyes from all the fear
You're truly like Alice
For we are all mad here!

It's your system
Tainted and sickened
Another victim
Of a world truly wicked
Now it is clear!
Clearly all written!
A predisposition
Of all your decisions!
This what you chose
To join all of those
Who clearly oppose
The cure to your pain,
The cure to your woes!

To suffer, is to be set free
Without struggle, who can appreciate peace?
To feel pain, is to see clearly
For without pain, delusions do not cease
And man will never cease to be
Free of this blinding disease
Nor see the forest through the trees
Godhood is truly within reach
This lesson only pain can teach

I've never really known what's real
Go along with whatever I feel
Won't leave me needing to heal

Some times its hard to hide
What's burning inside
To this I'm forever tied

I never sold my soul
But still lost control
Now I hide away in this hole

Is this a path I pave
Or a shallow grave
There's nothing left to save

These dead hands
Make demands
That go against hopeful plans

It's too late
To change this fate
I'll wither amongst the fear and hate

I don't know how this should begin
But I keep thinking about this huge mess that I'm in
At one point my life was all based around a sin
In a time where I would go and invite my demons in
Wasn't too far gone, but then the drugs came
Everything went wrong, and I was not the same
Ticking time bomb, i was going too insane
Visions too long, and only me to blame
Didn't trust my friends, thought they'd **** me in the end
Tried so hard to justify, but it all was just pretend
Tried to end my life, like it was just another trend
So afraid of being attacked but I had no need to defend

Everything hurts

My heart can’t take it - I can feel it burst
I’m struck by lightning
and everything’s dark
I’m stuck and I’m lost and I’m drowning
I’m hand tied at the bottom and I can’t get up
The sound of people around me is making my heart erupt
I said I’m stuck
And I’m saying it hurts
So when people talks I just wish they would shut up
I’ve shut down
There’s nothing left of me

The life that I’m living is no longer mine
I’ve given my all for too many times
Instead of feeling good I wanna commit a crime
Or maybe it’s not a crime if it’s your own soul you want to end?
Maybe I’ll be pardoned as there’s nothing left to mend
I’ve bent over backwards, I’m all twisted out
Not even my own voice can help me to shout

I’m drained and I’m empty

This life is not mine

Phoebe says it best

”Not mine, not mine, not mine
And even if I was happy, okay and skipping, I’d hear
Not not mine, not not mine, not not mine”

This life that I’m living is no longer mine

Brains shrink in volume,
With forty thousand limiting beliefs.

Disheartened for varied thoughts,
Am I black?
Am I not beautiful?
Am I skinny or too fat?
Have I got an ugly front row of teeth?

Society fills up the blanks,
In their unpublished question paper.
Contributes to fill your emotional baggage.

You aren't rich,you aren't smart,
Unable to speak English!!.
Why to arrest your self esteem,
To the  loquacious kings of your town?

Accept the values within self,
Come out of the cocoon,
Fly high, disregard the empty talks,
Be the king of your own realm.