You're afraid to drink
Because if you do it might make you think
Of all the ****** times you've been on the brink
Of self destruction, deep down you sink
Deep down you hate yourself for the things you need
So you alone to yourself this song you sing

Yeah you're so convinced that everything is fake
You don't even comprehend the risks that you would take
Just to find a way to not appear that you could break
But everybody does at some point for heavens sake

Baby it's okay to not be okay
Are you gonna burn out or fade away?
You don't wanna hear what I've got to say
But I believe that there will come a better day
So baby please just give me a chance
Life is passing by without a second glance
Yeah just take my hand
I promise I will help you understand

Oh how far I've come, such a long way
Far from rock bottom amongst decay
Risen like the sun does for a new day
Bright and free from the games they play
Called me a longshot, called me a risk
Left me in the dirt to sore in ****
But I'm from hellfire, so I lit
Lit ablaze, from the pit I lift

Oh yes I'm back, oh yes I'm here
Give me all you got, and I'll give you fear
Oh yes I'm back, I'm here to stay
Who's next to try to get in my way?

The road from hell, it was made of pain
But I gained strength from the endless strain
Surely anyone else would have gone insane
But I have the iron will to sustain
Forget my past, and heed what comes
And never forget this when it's done
It doesn't matter where the hell you run
I will always be the shadow that you fear my son

Oh yes I'm back, oh yes I'm here
Give me all you got, and I'll give you fear
Oh yes I'm back, I'm here to stay
Who's next to try to get in my way?

Blessed blessed
Is the heart
Whose knees
Kneel on acient hills
Because in them
Is a source of life.

Blessed blessed
Is a soul
Whose hands is digging for a source of light
Even when buried in darkness.

Blessed blessed
Is a heart
That knows a washer
That which washes impurities
And source of sin
From the a dying soul.

Blessed blessed
Are the legs
Walking in a path of truth
Even in difficulties.

Blessed blessed
Are the eyes
Those seeing  a ladder to heaven
Because when the world
becomes a river of tears,
They'll easily go to paradise.

Blessed blessed
Is a hand
Holding a hopeless soul
Even when it's about to sink a ***** hole.

Blessed blessed
Is the heart
Whose life is love
Even in a bed of death.

Blessed blessed
Is an ear
Hearing this song of faith
That's giving birth to hope
With children of kindness
Whose life is patience
Even in difficult circumstances of life.

My anxiety is taking over
My anxiety is taking over
My life, is not yet over
My life, is not yet over
I'm stone cold, yeah and sober
I'm stone cold,  yeah and sober
My anxiety is breaking me down
Its causing me to drown
It erased my smile
I've been without it a long, long while
And replaced it with a frown from a clown
My anxiety is taking over
My anxiety is taking over

I feel like I'm always losing
Even tho I should be winning
I'm close to losing this fight
Even tho I'm giving it all my might
I try to breathe, I can't breathe
My anxiety is killing me
I roll over, I become colder
My blanket is giving me the cold shoulder
Im usually hot, but tonight I'm not
I'm doing a better now,  I'm remaining sober somehow
I'm one year older
I endure pain, i experience fear
I don't feel I compare to all of my peers
Because of that these eyes are pouring tears
Everyday I ask whats keeping me here
Just a misunderstood youth, who speaks the truth
It doesn't matter how much these eyes rain
No one ever understands my pain
When poison entered my veins
Never once did I complain
It knew my name
It played my game
It was a hard lion to tame
I have been robbed
For falling for the wrong heartthrob
Never again will i bring my walls down easily
My anxiety defeating me will not be easy

My anxiety is taking over
My anxiety is taking over
My life, is not yet over
My life, is not yet over
I'm stone cold, yeah and sober
I'm stone cold,  yeah and sober
My anxiety is breaking me down
Its causing me to drown
It erased my smile
I've been without it a long, long while
And replaced it with a frown from a clown
My anxiety is taking over
My anxiety is taking over

I'm remaining in the slow lane, I'm staying in the right lane
Just because I do well at carrying myself
Doesn't mean I'm steady, cuz lets honest, **** is getting really heavy
I'm all the time being put down
I look in the mirror and stare at my frown
I wanna turn it upside down
I wanna know the secret to finding true happiness
Because what I'm feeling isn't happiness
I feel like with my luck **** with end like city of angels
No fairytale ending just a nightmare fable
I do all I can, I know I'm able
To turn over this ******* table
I must find the the right content
It might take me a while
Its something I'm probably going to have to invent
I truly ******* hate this
Is there a secret recipe to ending this
Where is the cheat codes
Triangle, square, circle,X it didn't work
Where is the correct code?
I'm still feeling hurt
Without Chester I feel lost
Withour Wrld I know what's at cost
I wanna hold on, but its getting hard
I have so much but I don't want to loose it all
I'm stronger now but I feel I'm still going to fall

My anxiety is taking over
My anxiety is taking over
My life, is not yet over
My life, is not yet over
I'm stone cold, yeah and sober
I'm stone cold,  yeah and sober
My anxiety is breaking me down
Its causing me to drown
It erased my smile
They replaced it with a frown from a clown
I haven't seen it in a long, long while
My anxiety is taking over
My anxiety is taking over

I can't believe the neglect
I've done to myself
I wanted to eject
I felt like such a reject
I lost my way
And I'm paving it now
I embrace each day
No matter what I'll make it go my way
No more keeping my head down
I'll keep it held high
As I look up into the sky
I am so blessed to still be alive

My anxiety is losing the battle
My anxiety is loosing the battle
I've got my **** handled
I've got my **** handled
No more relying on poison I don't need it
I'm doing the best now better believe it
I'm awake now, no more narrow minded
My heart is free no longer binded
My heart is free no longer binded
My source of warmth is now my friend
It will be with me till the very end
My anxiety is losing the battle
My anxiety is losing the battle

I don't know how this should begin
But I keep thinking about this huge mess that I'm in
At one point my life was all based around a sin
In a time where I would go and invite my demons in
Wasn't too far gone, but then the drugs came
Everything went wrong, and I was not the same
Ticking time bomb, i was going too insane
Visions too long, and only me to blame
Didn't trust my friends, thought they'd **** me in the end
Tried so hard to justify, but it all was just pretend
Tried to end my life, like it was just another trend
So afraid of being attacked but I had no need to defend

Black balloons carried you away.
I can not go, can not see, can not feel,
can not know.
        
I watched you fade; distant, drifting, further and further until out of sight.  
I can not see.
      
Oh to bring you back, to hold you, to feel your strong hands behind my back just one more time.  
      
But they carried you away, drifting, dark and distant and you are gone.

I watched you fade; distant, drifting, out of sight.   What was of you was lost in the distance.     Far, so far, oh so far!   I can’t see you.    I can’t hear you.    You can’t see me.   You can’t hear me.  
      
If I could bring you back, hold you, feel your strong arms and hands wrapped around  my back, and feel your generous loving heart.   The heart that you shielded away, lest it be seen as weak.

But black balloons carried you away, drifting, dark and distant, you are gone.      I can not touch you.   I can not see you.    I can not hold you.

I hold your absent presence.

Do you know what its like to feel alone in a room full of people?
Do you know what it’s like to have a gaping hole inside you?
No matter where you go or what you do something feels missing.
I’m searching but it’s so dark.
It’s so dark that I can’t find my way out.
I’m searching but I’m so lost.
I’m so lost that I don’t even recognize myself anymore.
I stare in the mirror trying to find the beauty I once saw so prevalently.
But now all I see is a vessel.
A vessel that once held so much love for a man, it lost love for itself.
A vessel that once carried two children.
But when they vacated they too took a piece with them.
This body is nothing but a reminder of everything I am not.
Not beautiful.
Not loved.
Not whole.
I am nothing but a body.
And this body has been broken down.
This body has been wounded.
This body has been stolen.
I try to find peace somewhere, anywhere.
I’m grasping for just a thread.
That’s all I need.
But it’s so dark and I’m so lost.

My eyes are burning from,

The cascading tear drops,

But I need to handle this,

Since I have been pursuing,

The wrong thing until,

My perception towards life,

Was changed by a friend,

I now want a good life,

It might not be referred to as,

As successful one but the most,

Significant thing for me is,

Leading a life where I am,

Contented with what I have,

Achieved from all that I have,

Given in my quest,

Until I bring happiness home,

I will not tire,

As it will effect my revenge,

Against sorrow since I will,

Keep my weapon close,

When you have a happy,

And willing heart you will,

Gain the peace of mind,

I'd rather have this than,

Have a "successful life"

With a disturbed mind.

Compassionate Ocean

Waving waters saying “hello”
“You my dear friend, come to me”
I move towards him, attracted to his aqua voice
This ocean swells with pride
As I step forward, he spins around me
The comfort he brings cannot be overstated
I worry the waves will swallow me, but the ocean, now my friend, reminds me, “you are safe”

At the crossroads between holding onto my faith or escaping from this fate
Is it wrong to write this down? Is it right to be left between a choice to never even love or hate?
At the gallows, slowly pressing forward towards that sweet escape...
From a death that leaves behind a fainted memory to take our place
And a life that leaves behind nothing more than just a bitter taste...
Is this our time to rise and react to every piece we use to recreate our broken destiny?
Or is this just the way to taint the best of me? Or maybe there’s poison in the recipe?
Or maybe we never had the time to rediscover our place in this moment, we only lived just to die?
Maybe we were just a waste of time with time to waste...
Maybe we were another lost piece of this grand and divine puzzle just trying to find our place?
Who’s to know.. who’s to say?

the rhythm of the rain
falling outside my window
fills my mind with faeries
dancing with Mother Nature
as she composes her songs
bit by bit

the trees sway along
to the rhythm of the rain
moving side to side

inspired by the music
my heart beats in time
with the sounds I hear
I am nature's mime


my heart hits my feet
they begin to start tapping in time
with the gentle sway of nature's time

The constant beating of the wind,
Sends shivers through my skin.
Burning like icicles,
it cleanses me.
Mother nature breathes me in.

I am taken back by the beauty and poise of the woody acres of life.
The joys of mother nature and her prides!!

As the breeze dances in the trees,
the creatures sing their song
Intoxicated by the air
as one,
with nature,
I am free

The rain, gone now,
but it's scent lingers
reaching my senses
as I take in it's aroma
that wonderful feel of clean earth,
gently washed

like clean cloth on a line,
left to be dried and warmed by the sun.
I revel in its crisp loveliness.

Beauty so tranquil,
but man so able..
bombs turn flowers to ashes of a fable..
connect the cable,



pull up the roots..
beauty is forsaken and there's no excuse..

The ribbons of clean air
Wrapping me with gift of tranquility
Whispering soft,
teasing gentle words

And as the fairies dance their dance
beguiling us with their childish charms
once more we bow to Mother Nature's whims
as she gently holds us in her comforting arms


My world is so free
when I see mother nature in action
I just stand there in awe
I walk outside
and touch a new bloomed flower
Wow I can feel the nature's power

Night falls and takes it's turn,
As the moon brightens the sky
and the stars appear,

Sparkling like diamonds in the moonlit sky
lighting the way for the faeries to dance
and play,
how magical it all seems as they
fly back to earth to dance with nature

The forest king upon his throne
Smiling inside his wooded home
As the creatures all begin to mingle
A vision to make ones heart tingle
As the night birds raise their song in chorus
And lay such wondrous sights before us

Bright eyes flit and dart around
Listening for unnatural sounds.
Insects die,
whilst others live
Mothers Nature,
bountiful,
takes and gives.

step on the pink clouds
between stars and moonlight
enjoy this cosmic ballet
in this perfect night


And take a moment of time to sit by the river
with the frog-green rocks.
Contemplate,
meditate,
investigate the beauty all around.

Open you eyes so you can see
The old world -
as it use to be
The slower times of yesterdays
Taking our time through the haze


beauty of the soul,
in greens and tints of nature
gives a peaceful reminder;
gives a peaceful stature.


**** father time to preserve
mother...
life
The Oedipus complex at its best

It's dark in the heart
Of a sinner from the start
And mine is no exception
So I tore it all apart
And left it in the gutter
Followed the footsteps of my mother
And now before I sleep at night I hear her ghost mutter
"This is your debt
That ends in your death
And you can't forget
All of your regret"

The darkness settles in because it knows it's here to stay
For the sun must always set at the end of each day
Until the morning comes to once again light the way
But until then my friend, the creatures will come to play
So when the moon is out be sure to hide out in bed
For the night is the time that the demons crawl out of your head
Only to torment you and fill you fragile heart with dread
They feast on pain and for too long have not been fed

I was walking through a narrow mud path
Out in the middle of the haunted woods
When I heard some clear crisp sounds
Like footsteps crushing tilted leaves.

Sharp-eyed, I looked around me
Expecting to find someone near me
"Who's there?" I shouted in the air
But when I turned around, I found none.

The rain has been consistent for weeks
It made the air quite damp and chilly
I tried to skip over muddy puddles
Some I succeeded, others got me wet.

The trail in the woods was long and dark
Sometimes the sun would sneak in
Shone some light on my rugged path
Finally I reached a dark, spooky tunnel.

I could hear heart's dribbling drumbeat
Both my knees were shaking wobbly
I was already thinking of turning my back
I heaved audible gasps to calm nerves.

With a reliable flashlight in my hand
I started walking through the dark aisle.
Never give up at your lowest point in life
Soon you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel.

" When the days had grown shortest, and the leaves all died.
When life became scarce and all was covered in ice
There lived a pack of wolves against every odd
That grew hungry and tired and needed to hunt

They'd sneak in to the towns in the dead of the night
And seek fire for comfort and warmth in the light
And though they weren't evil, and knew it was wrong
They couldn't escape, the lust for the blood."

Dear addicion

By Patrick ramsey

I'm writing this to you,
Telling you we're through.
I can't take you anymore,
Don't know what I liked you for.
All you did was wear me out.
Now I know what you're all about.

You came to me with promise and joy,
Now look at all the things you destroy.
Families, lives, bank accounts, you see.
You ruined it all with one little tease.
Look at the way you make me feel
Then you take it all and want me to steal.

Why can't you just go and hide
Somewhere far away where I'll never find?
Everyone at home doesn't understand
How you rip me apart then lend me a hand.
I keep coming back thinking inside
Maybe this time I'll make you my bride.

Then I sit and wonder why,
Why do you really want me to die?
Thousands and thousands come to you
Hoping and praying you'll help them through.
Then they fall for your lending hand,
Only to realize you're nothing but a scam.

You promised me heaven and sent me to hell.
You ruined my life and then wished me well.
Watch me now as I go on my way.
I'm washing myself of all your pain.
So you and your power can just leave me be.
I'm taking my life and setting it free.

Talk depression
But you're no exception
Feel the attention
Which sparks your aggression
Hating when all their eyes are on you
Brought to light everything that you do
Feeling like you can't hide out of view
The more that you fight it, the more that you lose
Slipping further, don't know who to blame
It's yourself but now you're too ashamed
To admit it, so you turn away
Just a pawn who's still stuck in the game
You really don't know how to quit
On the trigger, your finger just slipped
You felt it fade fast when the bullet hit
Cut short, the lifeline got clipped

Depression

By Patrick ramsey

Talk depression
But you're no exception
Feel the attention
Which sparks your aggression
Hating when all their eyes are on you
Brought to light everything that you do
Feeling like you can't hide out of view
The more that you fight it, the more that you lose
Slipping further, don't know who to blame
It's yourself but now you're too ashamed
To admit it, so you turn away
Just a pawn who's still stuck in the game
You really don't know how to quit
On the trigger, your finger just slipped
You felt it fade fast when the bullet hit
Cut short, the lifeline got clipped

My heart goes out to those who hurt
From dead dreams and promises broken
Sometimes the diamonds are in the rough
Sometimes a gem is just a token

If you’ve been blinded by the shine
Of fool’s glittering gold
Toss that farce into the ocean deep
And listen to the advice my Daddy told

People come into your life
And make your ego swell
And when they’ve gone their selfish way
Daughter, dig a little deeper in the well

Love like water below the surface
Is clear as a chiming church bell
Daughter, seek out your own true love
By digging a little deeper in the well

Forget the shinning objects
With only lies to tell
Shine up a hidden treasure
Lying deeper in the well

Drugs, yes... I’ve tried them. Hell, I’ve almost done them all. Been up and down and round and round like a kid playing on an old playground. Drugs take you places you don’t ask to go, they teach you lessons that will force you to grow.  Drugs are hard teachers, and not many pass the test. However if you do, you’ll stand out above the rest. You’ll have mental fortitude and blessings for the rest. Continue pursuing greatness and be humble till death. But Drugs let me tell you... I’ve had the best.  Socially accepted but probably the worst, forced love and alcohol truly hit me where it hurts. There was a hole in my heart and **** I tried to fill it... with anything I could grab or people to fit in it.  I used them and abused them like drugs... because they were. There are many things I regret, but I cannot reject, for these are the things that helped me project. I had to do wrong so that I could learn from it. I’m only human with fire like a comet. These days I prefer the best drug of them all... cartoons and snuggles, my son fills that hole. Being his father takes higher than I could ever desire. Now I see of what I’m required. To teach love instead anger, yet prepare him for danger. Pass that fire to all that desire to learn and grow from the lessons perspired. The future has been written, and to understand what’s coming, you must look behind it. The past repeats itself, unless you can change it. For the wisdom you seek you already hold, dig deep inside and look into your soul. That is where you’ll find your glitter and gold, it hides itself in talents untold. We all have them, and they’re all different... they’ll take you places you couldn’t imagine.

Everything hurts

My heart can’t take it - I can feel it burst
I’m struck by lightning
and everything’s dark
I’m stuck and I’m lost and I’m drowning
I’m hand tied at the bottom and I can’t get up
The sound of people around me is making my heart erupt
I said I’m stuck
And I’m saying it hurts
So when people talks I just wish they would shut up
I’ve shut down
There’s nothing left of me

The life that I’m living is no longer mine
I’ve given my all for too many times
Instead of feeling good I wanna commit a crime
Or maybe it’s not a crime if it’s your own soul you want to end?
Maybe I’ll be pardoned as there’s nothing left to mend
I’ve bent over backwards, I’m all twisted out
Not even my own voice can help me to shout

I’m drained and I’m empty

This life is not mine

Phoebe says it best

”Not mine, not mine, not mine
And even if I was happy, okay and skipping, I’d hear
Not not mine, not not mine, not not mine”

This life that I’m living is no longer mine

faces..
⠀⠀by Patrick ramsey

"Your face looks different now",
an old friend said yesterday
"Yeah, been a long", i replied,
just to say something
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doing hairs this morning i puzzled though
did i really change? do we, ever?
but why then i FEEL same about it, forever!
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sure we do, like we change attires for different occasions, we change faces too
for different people, at different places
i am plenty of faces myself
an angry young man at home
a polite and nice outside
I'm a boss like rude face at restaurant
while calling waiter
an elegant courteous face asking for
a change to a big-shop owner
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I'm the old wrinkled face, wise having
denounced the worldly affairs
a little kid on days, innocent and curious
I'm the face of loneliness that often
roams on crowded streets
and the failed success for a family
who once took pride in
I'm the face oscillating between teary and
smiley, unable to catch the right emotion
I'm the face of body with
beautiful imperfect settings
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I'm thousand different faces and counting...
and I'm none of them really
they all protect the vulnerable, fearful,
unsure, childish face beneath
and I'm not that either
I'm none
for I'm just the one who wears them all
and that's it...

© April 2021
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#writewhatyoufeel #poem #write #keepwriting #poetry #english

"Fish out of water"
Written by me

When you quit your resistance and you finally crack
Let's take a walk down my path and we can look at the facts
You like to live your life reckless, yeah you live life fast
You got no sense of restraint, control is what you lack
Doomed to burnout young
You fly too close to the sun
You've felt death coming for your soul since you turned 21
But you don't care, cause you've numbed it all gone
Drinking with the devil, but you won't last long
Thought you'd get away but this time you're dead wrong
Cause down here, boy we're burning, and we're singing your song

So, Knock! Knock!
Boy! You better let me in!
Cause i don't like to wait for my meal to begin!
Yeah, Knock! Knock!
I got my foot in the door!
And I'm feeding off your misery, please give me some more

Another day, Another dollar spent on bottles of gin
Whiskey on your breath before the day can begin
If you drink a little more you might think you'll win
In love with all your demons, it's original sin!
You've been through it all
But you're still doomed to fall
Cause every time the bottle clinks you always answer the call
Drowning in liquor, you're a fish on a hook
Get away for a few days and it leaves you shook
You even bought *** instead of food to cook
So lets face it boy, your soul the bottle took!

So, Knock! Knock!
Boy! You better let me in!
Cause i don't like to wait for my meal to begin!
Yeah, Knock! Knock!
I got my foot in the door!
And I'm feeding off your misery, please give me some more

Only the jester remains,
How?
No one knows,
For those secrets remain unanswered,
But in the corner of a shattered and tortured mind
one thing remains,
Revenge!!!
Those that thought to silence him
underestimated his will to survive,
And in that they live in only a fool's paradise,
Time comes full circle,
And revenge will be mine!
For justice remains to be served...
cold ...
laughter haunts a hallow mind,
It's only a matter of waiting,
This atrocity will be forgotten
but not by the jester,
My time will come!

When the elusive heart withers
With unbegun breaths
And unblemished whispers,
And dances like rain
I forget myself
And wither along too!
For a while...

For a while;
All blemishes vanish,
All tears smiles,
All unexplained secrets unveils!
And sings,
All languishes ebb,
And stands still.
Only tranquility emanates...

For a while the thundering blazes
Doesn't smite or confer,
Doesn't matter!
All manifestation
Comes into believing.
The two opposing forces
Comes into harmony
Sings and dances
For a while...

Benign grace showers
From the sky's abundance,
Leaving my thirsty soul replenished;
Like miracles yonder!
And I see only greatness!
For a while...

When the soul spreads it's wings;
And flies unto the unknown
And embodies itself
With the perfect present
I can't help but wither too!
For a while...

If only those
"for a while moments"
Could last forever!
I would die into it and drown
Into that abyss of bliss,
And simply and subtlety just be;
Even if it was only for a while!

I have given all my love to you, but what do I get in return?  
A broken heart.
I have given you my heart, and you stomp on it like a doormat.
I have given you my youth and you took advantage of my un-experienced heart and played with my emotions.
I gave you all the trust, but you misused it.
I gave you the benefit of the doubt, and you proved everyone right.
I gave you my life and you killed me day by day.
I want to pull my aching heart and tear it piece by piece so I no longer love you.
I want to lose my memory so I no longer think of  you.
I want to go so far so I no longer have to see you.
I want to cry, but I no longer have any more tears to fall down
my sad, lonely face.
I want to sleep, but my dreams haunt me with you in them.
I can't seem to find a way out. What do I do?
I don't want anyone to see this, not even you.
How do I get out of this?
How do I stop this misery? How do solve this mystery?
I can't seem to find anyone to make me feel the way you do,
The way you look at me,
The way you say my name,
The sound of your voice when you tell me that you care.
I love you so much I think I'm going to die from this pain that haunts day and night.
How can I forget you? If the only love I know is you.
How can I move on? If life is not the same without you.
I want to break free and move on, but I think I'll be doing something wrong.
I just have to close my eyes and let things fly and let the days pass me by.

Its time to stop falling for government ploys.
To stop being played like government toys.
Its time to resume a conversation.
To start a process of healing nations.
Lets focus the anger and hate.
On the media and government who set the bait.

You don't have to hate someone if you disagree.
Even if its fundamentally.
Are we not all somehow lost.
Is not finding a way forward too high a cost

I've travelled a different path to you.
This doesn't mean there's no common ground.
There is always mortar to build bridges.
A compromise can be mostly found.

Our views may conflict on things deep within our souls.
Yet this doesn't mean we have to hate each other,
Or sometimes have some common goals.

Life is way too short to fall out over points of view.
I feel pain and bleed just like you do.

Don't **** me because I pray to a different God.
Or try to convert me through violent means.
It's just as stupid as hating me,
Because I wear trousers and you wear jeans.

Forget about borders , status, creed or class.
Hate breeds hate but agreements can last.
The future need not be determined by the past.

Its possible to disagree or have principles that may have conflictions.
But find compromise,
Without
Sacrificing deep convictions.

The world has become a twisted place.
A moral compass that's severely skewed.
We listen to yarns that governments and media spin.
Rather than accept the obvious truths.

Forget for now about exploring space.
We're not ready for what we may find.
First lets all find each other.
Lets break the chains that continue to bind.

Its time to look at how the world is run.
To see injustice through untainted eyes.
To build bridges that bring men together.
To start to make right the wrongs and value each others lifes.

Its ok to disagree but not to **** and maim.
Especially based on hate of someones colour of skin or in your gods name.

Its ok to enjoy your culture or practice your beliefs.
But not ok that live in extravagant excess while others barely survive on city streets.

My soul grieves and heart is heavy, when I see what this world has become.
Man has achieved so much.
Yet so much more can be done.

I've walked a different path to you
It doesn't mean compromise can't be found.
We simply have to try to coexist.
Our survival depends on finding common ground.

Thank you for another day the breath I take I'm blessed to say. Thank you for my strength I owe it all to you. Thank you for the pain it really made me who. Thank you for the rain it really led me to.Thank you for the vision the wisdom for granting wishes. Thank you for the heat the stress the symptoms my God cures conditions. Thank you for the grace covering my mistakes no longer have to cover my face. Jesus Thank you for dieing in my place

Thank you for waking me for making me. Thank you for the strife thank you for the fight. Thank you for the trials by light. Thank you for the strength in the night thank you for never leaving my side time to decide. Time likes to divide. Thank you for the last 29 years of my life I hope I'm living right

Thank you for another day the breath I take I'm blessed to say. Thank you for my strength I owe it all to you. Thank you for the pain it really made me who. Thank you for the rain it really led me to.Thank you for the vision the wisdom for granting wishes. Thank you for the heat the stress the symptoms my God cures conditions. Thank you for the grace covering my mistakes no longer have to cover my face. Jesus Thank you for dieing in my place

Thank you on Thanksgiving what a short giving. Thankful for food or just for living. How about Thank you for the control of my limbs. Thank you for my family and friends thank you for the scars they remind me to mend. Thank you for the time that I have, for my mom and my dad for sight when I'm sad grip when I grab patience when I'm mad. Thank you for the grace that covers my mistakes thank you Jesus for dieing in my place

Thank you for another day the breath I take I'm blessed to say. Thank you for my strength I owe it all to you. Thank you for the pain it really made me who. Thank you for the rain it really led me to.Thank you for the vision the wisdom for granting wishes. Thank you for the heat the stress the symptoms my God cures conditions. Thank you for the grace covering my mistakes no longer have to cover my face. Thank you for dieing in my place

I can hear your spirits shatter against the floor.
You don’t know what to think anymore.
Mind racing, eyes pacing as you face your demons at the door.
Little flower let me see you smile.
Turn away from the monsters and sit awhile.
I’ll light a candle to drive away the flies buzzing in your ear.
You have nothing to fear.
I am here.
A mask you can wear when you forget your smile at home.
The company you keep when you feel alone.
The answers you need when diving into the unknown.
I am your written poem.
I’m the one that you can turn to
When you start to feel blue.
I see the vampires, and I won’t
Let them harm you.
I’ll fight with fury to drive back your tears.
I’m far away, but I’m with you here.
It’s okay, baby girl
I won’t let you get lost in this scary world.
I’ll be here holding your hand.
We’ll figure out what we can’t understand.
Apart we are weak and divided,
But together we stand united.
We are immovable objects with unstoppable force.
We both know when it rains it pours,
And I can’t take all your problems away,
But I’ll be by your side today.
I am the words I send.
I love you forever and after the end.
When you wake up you will see
How much you really mean to me.

thoughts weigh
heavy on my mental
So I grab a pencil
And write it all down
I hear the pitter patter sound
of my tears
They Run the ink away
Even they too can't stay
My anxiety is kicking in
I grab my paper and my pen
And I jot my deepest pains
and dreams
I share my nightmares
which aren't really what they seem
Merely old experiences
that only have clearances
when I'm sleep
My pencil in my keep
I write and write until I pass out
Then I wake to fake a day
In my thoughts is where I stay
It a terrible terrific curse
A writers pepeeze
My pencil keeps my mind at ease
I wonder after I write and scratch and choke recanted and jot side incomplete notes
How does my paper feel?
Because my mind is the flood the hurricane the tsunami of fear
my paper and pen are my life jackets my levee
Poor paper must feel real real heavy

Hello suicide!
Its been awhile
Remember me?
Yer ol' buddy patrick
I need your assistance
To escape from this trial
Forgive me friend
If I'm unable to smile

Ah, yes! Patrick, of course!
Forgive me bud
If my voice does sound hoarse

I've been hanging around
Don't you see?
I'm glad you've swung by
To console in me
For my first recommendation
Is hanging
Yes, in fact
This is my plea
Might I suggest a rafter
Or perhaps a nice tree?
This ones on the house
Yeah, this one is free

Ah, yes! A hanging
Indeed!
But if I were to do that
A rope I would need
Not only that
But I could be rescued
And freed
Do you have another?
Please forgive me suicide
Forgive me for my greed
What else can I do?
Please consider my plead!

Ah, yes! I can do one more
But I'm growing tired and weak
And my neck is still sore

Take a handful of pills
And overdose
This I know you've tried
And you came really close
But you can't be easily rescued
And you don't need a rope
Do it! Destroy your dreams!
And trample your hopes!

Excellent! This one sounds great
For sure!
I do have a decease
And pills might be the cure
But what if I live
What if my body endures?
But this option has potential
And it has great allure
I'll consider this option
To you, I ensure

Well, well, well!
Look what we have here!
Looks like I'm successful
As if a death is near
Theree no need to panic
Theres no need to fear
However, I do need payment
So start paying in tears!
Now RIP my good friend
Its been fun mate, cheers!

I wonder if its wrong to hide my pain with all this laughing
Often when I'm smiling I'm truly only masking
The way i want to hurt myself for what I feel I'm lacking
No control of these emotions which are all just overlapping
And so clearly overflowing
Maybe all this pain is just sign for me, showing
That I can't forgive myself for the self harm i committed knowing
That it slow my progess down and keep me from ever growing
I was a liar and an addict
Went from "happy days" to static
It was only a matter of seconds for me to develop a habit
I've tried to move on, almost every day in fact
But I'll hate myself till the end for this devilish little pact
That I made with a pipe that scorched my soul black
I will always be this creature that can't ever escape it's past

Dense darky clouds of steam
are blurring my sight.
The valve is closed.
Impredictible thoughts
are crossing my arid desert
Explosive feelings
are looking for relief.

Where's the oasis
in this uncomfortable heat?
I need to open my veiled view,
to nourish my dried soul
with green, azure, yellow and red,
to be one with nature's features,
to dive in calm waters,
to feel the vitality of sun power,
to admire the beauty of a flower.
I need to smell new fragrances
and to feed my arid brain,
to cure with serene hues
my heart's dissonances
and transform it in fertile terrain.

High pressure discourages me.
Negatively charged clouds
overshadow
every rising light in me.
My tormented emotions
are now a terrible explosion
My sight is blurred
my limbs are trembling
my heart jumps madly
making me feel badly.

Finally
a caressing hand, a soothing voice
some uplifting words in this noise
a simple human touch
and suddenly the curtains fall
Here the longed-for oasis, my withdrawal
My desert is kissed by your loving sun
watered by your caring attention
nourished from the calm green of your nature
and blessed from your heart's red beauty

Calmness lies like fresh dew
my terrain is fertile anew
to receive and to give
Love

Patrick ramsey

All these horrors you'll see
But only in your dreams
Driven mad by inner visions
You must hear beyond the screams
A wall of mist, a delirious fog
To cloud your eyes from all the fear
You're truly like Alice
For we are all mad here!

It's your system
Tainted and sickened
Another victim
Of a world truly wicked
Now it is clear!
Clearly all written!
A predisposition
Of all your decisions!
This what you chose
To join all of those
Who clearly oppose
The cure to your pain,
The cure to your woes!

To suffer, is to be set free
Without struggle, who can appreciate peace?
To feel pain, is to see clearly
For without pain, delusions do not cease
And man will never cease to be
Free of this blinding disease
Nor see the forest through the trees
Godhood is truly within reach
This lesson only pain can teach

I Am Enough
I am enough to make it
Through the night. I am enough
To make it through the day.
No matter my struggles
And I have many struggles
I know I’ll be OK.
I don’t give in, I believe and have faith.
I am enough.

You are enough to make it
Through anything. You are enough
To live through anything.
You don’t have to be perfect
And it doesn’t matter if you are smart
Just open your eyes and open your heart.
Find the strength and peace
That we have inside our chests.
Believe that it will stay there
Until your very last breath.
You are enough.

We are enough to make it
Through the highs and make it
Through the lows. We are enough
To make it through the dark sky
And the nights when tears fly.
Don’t give up I promise you
It gets better
and our dreams come true.
We are enough.

I am enough to make it
Through drugs, heartbreak and pain.
I am enough to make it
Through the cold and pouring rain.
I am enough to make it
Through anything with you my friend.
I am enough to make it
Because this is only the beginning it isn’t the end.

"I drown...
For too long I felt the winter's breath
The rain keeps falling down into my soul
Thorns cover my grave... they hurt within me
I wonder how death shall ever set me free
When I cannot close my eyes
I wonder how death shall ever set me free
When there's even in this darkness no place for us to be
Wish I could **** myself again
The spectral lights would fade away
And I...
A thousand voices in my mind
A thousand empty faces starring at me
A thousand lies I can't forget
And one single life I do regret
The only thing left of me... an aura cold and blue
As the banshees embrace me with a sigh
I am gone...
The autumn's song is guiding me
With the sound of the weeping rain I fall asleep
And the thorns, that cover my grave? They hurt no more"

Distance is an illusion of mind,
Faraway may be,or otherwise
Thoughts cover up the mileage
And brings souls together.
Sharing all that is
And enjoy the memories for ever.

It's time..
It's time we all see..
Where dreams can lead
An end that need not be
An end..
An end to heart beat..

So now..
Now does your heart bleed?
And is loneliness the seed?
The ****
What off you must feed
The sorrow so sweet!
Are you like me?
Drowning due to the state of your sanity!
What a calamity!
Tell me dear! Tell me!
What's left of your humanity?
Yes, I can see it plainly!
You're just like me!
All alone,
We must atone!
Do you dare behold,
This fate foretold?
Look in to the future, but pay a fatal price!
Can't communicate what you've seen with your own eyes!
Driving you mad, and you pray the fear and pain dies
But slowly over time it surely can only rise!
Don't be lonely! Join me in this pain!
We can never escape, lest the life of us will drain!
But we can find a way to make it work!
Just a possibility! Doesn't that hold worth?
We don't have to die! We don't have to hurt!
No we don't have to die! Never sleep in the dirt!

I was kind

I am bright, lost a light
I am a night...
An unread soul behind the scene
A nervous head, couldn’t go to bed
Walking all the night, but!
For away can see a sight
Maybe a sun and a kite
You didn’t find,
Yesterday, I was kind.

Thoughts please!
Regards,

Patrick Ramsey

I would rather accept the blessings of blindness,
Than to see you cry with teeming tears;
You are too innocent and pure for that mess,
I would fight the devil without any fears.

I would rather accept the blessings of freeze,
Than to see you cold with shivering smears;
You are too kind and giving like trees,
I would fight harsh winter with warm spears.

I would rather accept the blessings of blood,
Than to see you hurt with agonising tears;
You are too gentle and warm to see others glad
I would fight any army without warring gears

I would rather accept the blessings of emptiness,
Than to see you lonely and sad with un-cheers;
For you are too loving and full of joyfulness,
I would fight the demons with lightning shears.

I had jealousy, I took it  like it was ecstasy from there I ate a page from a fool called rage it taught me a lot of things for me to grow wings as I was growing these wings my body was changing from a cat I was slowly gaining the strength as my body grew in length I just transformed into a tiger

We who know so little on the Earth so vast,
What is future, what is past
What is good news and what is bad,
In the life of the Yang and the Yin,
Fusing Hamlet together again.
Is everything gain or lost,
Fortune and misfortune,
Good or bad, happy or sad,
Or the consequence of the flowers
In the garden behind the fence?
a source so simple
penned the wellspring of words
a painted fable upon the fields
of the king who tried to make the Sun
for those blind to the honest beauty of the stars
and put the stars into order
for them to understand
the mountains refuse to move
it is their last stand
against submitting to be owned by man
So tree and lake and fountain
tall and deep and flowing
the sea is silent, the ice is melting
the aim of fury is clear
shall the earth endure
invites the sea
or be done, sunk, and swallowed amid oceans
full of new, and difficult emotions
We are the garden cancer
Upon the bird
Upon the flower
Upon the mountain
Upon the sea
We have taken many forms
And spread our disease
Upon the ice-fields
upon the glacier snow
Upon the quaking ground
Where the hollow children go.

Memories of childhood days,
Where outside the children played.
When fathers worked and mum’s stayed home,
No latch key kids, or home alone.
We didn’t have a lot to eat,
School dinners were a welcome treat.
Cake and custard was the best,
wanting more like all the rest.
Tuesday was family allowance day,
butter roll then out to play,
Playing rounders with our mates,
Not going home until very late.
If you got bullied by another,
You didn’t dare go tell your mother.
For she would give your ear a slap,
Tell you go and hit them back.

Imagination was a wondrous thing,
boys made carts with wood and string.
Old pram wheels were the best,
race down hill was the test.
Battered and bruised we didn’t care,
two or three would often share.
Mum would shout, our trousers torn,
Patched up knees and bums all worn.

Blankets we had on our beds,
frozen fingers put between our legs.
Curled up in a ball shivering and cold,
dads old coat was like pure gold.
Wake up in the morning with nose of blue,
Jack Frost had painted the windows to.
We didn’t care what we would wear,
or even think to brush our hair.
Our parents didn’t have a lot,
no need had we the door to lock.
Neighbours helped out one another,
Children would respect their mother.
Memories of childhood years,
as clear today as yesteryears.

listen to the warm
of a heart
where memories rise
within those golden times
held in the distant past
those lineaments of desire
touch in those moments
within the hour
where that excitement
rises like a beast
exploding passion
where two hearts meet
lips touch
and the evening continues
into the dawn

Brains shrink in volume,
With forty thousand limiting beliefs.

Disheartened for varied thoughts,
Am I black?
Am I not beautiful?
Am I skinny or too fat?
Have I got an ugly front row of teeth?

Society fills up the blanks,
In their unpublished question paper.
Contributes to fill your emotional baggage.

You aren't rich,you aren't smart,
Unable to speak English!!.
Why to arrest your self esteem,
To the  loquacious kings of your town?

Accept the values within self,
Come out of the cocoon,
Fly high, disregard the empty talks,
Be the king of your own realm.

I live with mental illness
Every day I am entangled
In this invisible war
Some days I come out victorious
Other days it's leaves me torn
Yet I put up the fight
No surrender, no retreat
I will never accept defeat
You see....
I may be mad completely
I know that I will never be freed
However I know with every fiber of my being
That life is truly beautiful
I do sometimes feel fulfilled
Incredibly strong willed
I have this fire burning inside
I will never turn from it
I will never hide
To this evil I will never abide
The war rages on
Battles lost but battles won
I know from the depths of my soul
I will continue to fight against it
I do want to grow old
That is one helleva miracle
That not many of us get to experience
Even when I'm feeling tired
Even when I'm feeling furious
And yes
Even when my thoughts turn delirious
I will still pick up my sword
And let the battles carry on
I'll fight everyday with all my might
I will not allow myself to lose my sight
Please come fight with me
I can show you how it's done
How you can fight thru it too
Because I know that you love me
And I most definitely love you
To ourselves we have to hold true
And war through the blue
The darkness is spreading fast
But we are the warriors who will outlast

truth found in those miracles
mysterious yet believable
subtle within a whisper

listen...
can you hear it?

it is there,
but can you see it?

For the wind speaks in many voices
and stands the test of time
staying sealed within this bottle
for some soul to find.

You know it's real.
You KNOW
but do you feel it?

A message in a bottle
the truth we read in red
unable to accept it,
so we toss it out instead.

When will the seal be broken?
Its message spilled over the sands.
The truth impossible to find
while mixed with tiny grains.
But that time has not come yet,
the message floats on.
Forgotten by those who read it.

I write my love in the sand
and wait for the sun
to make infinite bottles.

While digging through life's pretty
I see this crystal glass
And write a muse filled ditty
Remove the top that's brass

If wishes were mere treasures
With notes scribed in ink's flow
I wonder what right measures
Would spin the bottle so

If you should find this bottle
lying washed up by the sea
please give a thought to what'll
be happening to ME!!

Fluidicity was the redefined language
amongst translated lines;
sanctity lingered
upon rivulets of spinning,
wanting nothing
more than to be read with easement of self
thought

A heavy heart,
a broken soul?
Their words stain the page.
A life forlorn;
then a second chance
Though they nearly lost their hold.

lost love I put in a scratch paper,
gently fold and inserted in my old bottle..
slowly it flows down the river,
smile because there's a consequences
and a happy riddle,
will it make it back to shore?
or simply drift into the unknown...?

Illusion spill like granules
of sparkling pyrite
chipped from the mind
instead of the heart

Drifting along on the river of Time
My bottled hopes sail away on the tide
Whilst my memory fades to a day long ago
When you promised to stay by my side


What does it all mean to me?
Something lost in the eyes of a mystery.
It asserts it all once existed.
It confirms that I may yet survive.

Now with patience as your virtue
and a heart so strong to guide
it will wash upon your own shore
with the message still inside

and reading what was placed into
this bottle in your hand
you'll take each step with courage
and spread peace throughout the land.

My mind is screaming to no end.
It’s getting harder to pretend
My heart is hurting.
I’m worrying for you.
Don’t let this fear take over me.
Close my eyes and count from three.
It’s my worry that starts to consume
The only thing that matters is you.
Hold me back my mind is racing.
Take me to the place that I call home.
Sick and deprived
At least you’re alive.
I’m so afraid
But I know you won’t go away.

Pinky promises mean so much.
The ones we made though we can’t touch.
I’m burying my fear to save us from the darkness that’s creeping closer.
Are there answers we will find?
You’re constantly on my mind.
We’ve come so far
We left behind
The hurt we felt so long ago.
I’m right here as you know.
I can never let you go.
You mean so much to me.
Only with you I am complete.
One day my arms will wrap around you.
Deep inside we both know it’s true.
We just have to see through
The fog that covers the road ahead.
Don’t be afraid. I’m right here.
I’m writing this for you dear.
When your eyes close
When you go to sleep.
Know my heart is Forever your’s to keep.

The moon's eyes upon me
As I travel this road, never ending
Thoughts of never belonging
My empty soul now depending
On hollowness
I'll swallow this
Pride if not for ignorance
Take for granted bliss
But savor the taste of a painful kiss
Upon the grave of the one I miss
Still I must prevail against the odds in which I find myself
On a long twisted road, deep in thought, deep in hell
Will I find myself petrified?
Or am I doomed to be stricken?
Am i just lost?
Or fatally sickened?
Am I truly free?
Or am I imprisoned?
Question after question!
The plot truly thickens!

Grow up Mr President and accept your fate
Give Biden a chance to make America great
The poles are not fixed as you indicate
You took it to court to the Magistrate
They found no findings cause you speculate
You should have been focused when you did your debate
Not using your mouth to dominate
The people were waiting for you to relate
Not to say your immune you feel great
The people have spoken as our votes tabulate
A Nation on edge as we patiently wait
For our 2021 president-elect and Donald Trump's fate