Ever since I started attending this pathetic excuse of a school
I’ve lost sight of my goals
I wanted to see the world (more specifically the museums)
And possibly some really very attractive Asian men,
Walk the entire Wall of China,
Soak in the parts of nature Man hasn’t tampered with;
I could take a picture of a leaf, put a filter on it and BAM!
I can call myself a photographer.
Maybe I might find an intelligent guy,
Have intelligent kids, keep them from falling in line with society
But no
I am stuck with puerile idiots who only act off of their hormonal urges
Half-track minds that only go half the mile and then reverse back to where it started
I don’t dare say they have potential because I might be lying
All they ever do is stare at their phones
Snapchat! Selfies!
Do it for the vine!
Dude, I’d tell you to go **** yourself with a cactus but even then
It still wouldn’t be the dumbest thing you are bound to do.

Salient eyes softly whisper
Secrets, beneath a violet veil.

My rotting masts are hiding beneath,
The flow of my windswept sail.

Wilted daisies and ****** feet,
All for the sake of the trail.

To scratch the ground to make a mark
Only to get dust caked nails.

I seem alright. I’ve got it together,
Unintended portrayal.

Let me be confident.
Let me remember names.
Let me be the best mother I can be.
Let me be the wife my husband married a year ago.
Let me write my words out on paper and not over think things.
Let me show my son the right path.
The path to a world that will make him happy, sad, angry, bitter, better, and stronger.
Let me forgive those who have hurt me.
And keep those that have never hurt me safe.
Let me believe in something.
And stop being so **** cynical.
I need to be everything that I can and want to be.
Please Amanda allow yourself to be what you don't want to be out of anything else in the world.
Please let me be vulnerable.

A lover asked his beloved,
Do you love yourself more
than you love me?



The beloved replied,
I have died to myself
and I live for you.



I’ve disappeared from myself
and my attributes.
I am present only for you.



I have forgotten all my learning,
but from knowing you
I have become a scholar.



I have lost all my strength,
but from your power
I am able.



If I love myself
I love you.
If I love you
I love myself.

Everything is funny
especially when it's not
sad times they are a-plenty
bad times should be forgot

emotion is a feeling
attitude's a state of mind
confuse the two
as with the shoe
a bad feelings what you'll find

difficulty is to progress
as what's easy is to none
progressing less
brings bitterness
too much takes all the fun

Everything is funny
no laughter is misplaced
living your life for money
can't buy a happy face

I sit in the early morning
enjoying the dim light.
I see the birds gathering,
ravens black as night.
They are not afraid of me,
a ghost they cannot see.
Though I wish I could stay,
as ravens fly, I fade away.

This pain I feel~
seeps into the very marrow of my soul~
eroding and decaying~
all that I am~
I linger in a gangrenous state~
dying yet un-dead.