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733 · Aug 2011
Goodbye?
Regan Troop Aug 2011
I don't know when I'll be back

My time here has run out

And I'm afraid I'm in some doubt


If you wish to read more

Of my sights and feelings that wash ashore

Please, don't hesitate

Like I did
714 · Nov 2012
I Would Rather the Moon
Regan Troop Nov 2012
On August twenty-ninth, two-thousand and seven,
Marks the night my mother will never forget.
The night that had headlights for a moon
And air bag smoke for a cloudy sky.
The night she lost a part
Of her daughter.
For paranoia sets in every night,
I would rather the moon, than those head lights.

Rest In Peace,
To the trusting girl in me
Who got lost in the night’s cloudy sky
On August twenty-ninth, two-thousand and seven.
703 · May 2012
That's Rank.
Regan Troop May 2012
"You rank of daisies,"

The washroom stall told me.

I look, I sniff, I say,

"You rank of a teen that was bored today."
Inspired by the art I created on the school's washroom stall, followed by a doodle of a daisy :)
696 · Oct 2011
Rubbed Blank and Lonesome
Regan Troop Oct 2011
Hello Tiny Notebook, how are you this fine evening?

Empty?! Why, what seems to be the bother?

Ah, Tall Pencil keeps turning its eraser to you..

I am very sorry to hear.
Why does it keep taking back its words?
Can it not trust you?!
My, it is much too Tall.
673 · Jul 2011
Starry Nights
Regan Troop Jul 2011
I wish I’d held his hand a little tighter.
I wish I’d kissed his lips a little slower.
It’s getting harder to remember his smell…

All my days he made them brighter.
Wrote happy endings like a writer.
Daily stories that I loved to tell…

[Chorus]
Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on looking high, to the moon-lit sky.
Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on holding tight, wishing on starry nights.

I wish I could make things seem a little lighter.
I go back as the sun sets lower.
And the stars cover me, prepare me for the all-nighter.

All of his words he spoke them stronger,
told me he wished he’d held me longer.
Separation, isn’t easy on the heart…

Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on looking high, to the moon-lit sky…

Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on looking up high, to the moon-lit sky.
Wherever you are, if you’re near of you’re far
I’ll keep on holding tight, wishing on starry nights.

Wishing on starry nights (x4)

Wherever we are, tonight.



( My friend played her guitar and sung these lyrics, a better idea for you of how this may sound )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z58HjB0N0Yo
668 · Sep 2011
Stop.
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Just stay away
I don't wish to be found
I know where I am
And that's good enough
But don't stay too far away.

Just stop talking
I hate hearing you make those girls laugh
When I'm in the room.
Don't sound upset when you hear 'no'
But don't stop talking for too long.
Regan Troop Feb 2012
The added spark of anger
As your eyes
Speak the words
That your mouth
Isn't given the chance to

The added flavour of salt
As your tears
Slide down your cheeks
And rest on your lips
To mix in with your tea

The added feeling of shame
As you look
Into the mirror
And see a red, shiny face
Of a girl admitting she was weak

The added shade of blue
As your tears
Soak into
That protective blue sweater
Of the one you wished was here

The added sound of silencing
As you hear
him complaining to
Someone else
Like you're not in the next room

The added second of silence
As you t-try
-like you always do-
To hold back your tears
I-in the back of your throat

The reduced state of esteeme
As you believe
You truly are a
Failure.
Because he had a bad day at work
Regan Troop Jan 2013
My hand
in which you
till rows with
your fingers
will produce
the most painfully
exquisite
flowers
by the time
my adoration
for you
reaches the point
where our fingertips
touch.
There will always
be flowers
in my hands
for you,
even if
our fingertips
part.
628 · Sep 2015
A lifetime on tiptoes
Regan Troop Sep 2015
A lifetime
In bare feet
on soft nourishing
forest ground
With a warm sweater
of self love and worth

Is what
a year
without you
feels like.

A year that felt like

A lifetime
on tiptoes
over exploding
eggshells
With a hot sweater
of hate for you
And for me

RKT
618 · Sep 2011
Eviction
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Why are

You

still living

in my heart?

Move out,

So I can move

On.
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Sometimes

The bad things happen for the right reasons

And sometimes

You're better off without certain people.

Sometimes,

You're wishing this wasn't true.
Dedicated to my dear ex-friend.
I miss and love you more than you can allow yourself to accept.
597 · Oct 2012
Melodie
Regan Troop Oct 2012
I cannot recreate your smile with lines of a pencil.

I cannot capture the twinkle in your eyes in a photograph.

I cannot imagine your bubbly laughter with no recorder.

                                               I can, however,

see and hear you as best as I can in my mind,

and wait as long as needed until I see

                  your full smile,

       and that twinkle in your eyes,

and burst from your contagious laughter

                                                     again.
595 · Nov 2012
Snowy Shoes and Sky Cards
Regan Troop Nov 2012
I couldn't imagine being in her situation.
I couldn't walk in my friend's shoes.
I couldn't imagine walking into the house after being
outside in the snow and not hearing my mother say,
"Kick the snow off your shoes outside!".
Or swapping shoes because we share the same foot size.
I couldn't imagine walking in her shoes,
but I can imagine how damp and sore they must be.
She doesn't know it,
nor did she intend it,
but a story I had heard about her made my eyes
damper than my snow-covered shoes.
It hit me because there was a part of the story
I could identify with, and one I couldn't.
We both write little appreciative stories inside cards on
Mother's Day. We've both done so for years.
We differ when I learn she would go outside and throw
her card as high into the sky as she could, hoping it would
reach her mother in heaven.
In that moment of the story,
her years of heartache are felt within mine.
We both expected wonderful reactions.
One particular wonderful thing about you,
I'm sure you'd like to know,
happens during my classes.
I do pay attention,
usually.
Well, I do try to at first.
But you take my mind away from my work
and make me work on a story about you and sometimes about us.
When I feel you tugging for my attention,
I usually give in.
You're much prettier of a story to tell.
583 · Sep 2011
Hear what you're saying.
Regan Troop Sep 2011
There's no such thing

as pretty people

or ugly people,

Only shallow

and open.
567 · Sep 2011
A love that keeps kicking
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Ankles and legs always being bitten into
Jabbed by plastic teeth
It's broken my bones and clenched onto my heart
It's tightened my muscles when I've tried my hardest
Too hard
And my body can't keep up with the consequences

It's kicked my skull
to the ground
Bruised my ribs
Clawed at my skin
Claimed parts of my body again and again

It hates me for pushing through it all
My struggling body hates me for it, too
Even if one day it puts me in my place early,
my love for it would remain for all eternity.

It's the drive and adrenaline that keeps me moving
It's practice that's making me better at dodging those harmful intentions
Those magical slow motion moments
When you imagine it,
And it happens.
It's the satisfaction and pride I feel when protecting and staying strong for them

The smiles
The tears
All are worth it
I love it
I crave and desire it like none other

It shows me my limit
So I can overcome it
It puts me in hard situations
To watch what I can do
It treats me unfairly
To listen to my bittersweet acceptance
It throws itself at me
So I can prove to myself I can stand
It tests me at every encounter
Then leaves me to recover with the only feedback being from my own mind

"What's good for the body is good for the mind"
... It might drive me off the edge.

But my love for it would remain for all eternity.
566 · Mar 2013
Emotional Eating
Regan Troop Mar 2013
Another handful stuffing stresses down my core hoping their buried seeds won't grow to cause chaos in my mind's bright and warm sky of daydreams for the dark and cold clouds will destroy the view of a beautiful place.
558 · Aug 2013
Return
Regan Troop Aug 2013
Before

I was slowly beginning to trust

Myself

Because I wasn’t going to be unfaithful

To someone who actually cared about me

This time.

After

I saw you return to your old life

Closer friends

People who also loved you

I was slowly beginning to trust

My overwhelming feelings

And prayed that these

Friends

Would allow you to stay faithful to me

This time.
556 · Aug 2012
Mr. Heard
Regan Troop Aug 2012
Mr. Heard have you heard of the bird stuck on the third floor?
Its song slurred and absured singing a song it overheard
Mr. Heard have you heard of the bird stuck on the third floor?
Its eyes blurred from the fall, wings broken and heart soft spoken
Mr. Heard have you heard of the bird stuck on the third floor?
It sings of you finding it, sheltering it under your wing
and allowing it to heal, allowing it to sing
Mr. Heard have you heard of the bird stuck on the third floor?
You saved it without knowing it, it's you it sings for
It's you it adores, wings open and a heart that soars
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Let's make 2

cups of tea

and

Let's sit anew

Let's laugh wishfully

of our old selves

of our old dreams

of our old love
540 · Sep 2011
Note To Self
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Once you feel that tiny
almost non existing
sensation
of freedom and inspiration
in your chest and soul,

you're happy.

Fulfill those small
streams of creativity

and you're truly happy.
534 · Aug 2011
Burned and Blind
Regan Troop Aug 2011
Please rain

Make your long journey to me

Allow my body to be what you rest upon

Please rain

Land on my skin

Ease the burns that leave me weak

Please rain

As I look up, begging to your gray home

Kiss my closed eyes

Make them alert again

I can't stand feeling burned and blind
Regan Troop Sep 2012
Her bones shake
from his earthquake
inside her core,
from the ache
of 'no more'.

He takes her shoulder
She shrugs it away
She won't let him
Hold her
Now that he won't
Stay

He can't tell her why
Why?
And doesn't realize
As she will realize
That's how her heart will die
*You can see it in her clouding eyes.
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Your hand hides your face

Whenever someone wants to see it

They wonder

Does he smile?

Or does his frown reach the ground.

Does he whisper so no one hears a sound?

I'm using they when I really mean I

Guess that's my way of pretending

That I'm not curious.

I feel it's wrong

Don't ask me why

Because I don't have an answer

And I'm too busy wondering to notice

I wonder

Does he sing?

Or do those hard nights and memories steal his voice.

Does he realize he has a choice?

To leave it all behind

To take it all in

Take in the minds who wonder

... Is he alright?

Or is he just writing out short stories.

Does he know he makes me worry?
528 · Sep 2011
Hush, my Lovely Regret,
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Hush,*


That says more about you

than you want people

to hear.


Wouldn't want them finding out

who you really are.
524 · Sep 2011
Goodbye, My Lovely Regret,
Regan Troop Sep 2011
You're going to choke on your own poison.
And don't look to me to save you
when you've poisoned my mind of myself.

I'm your rude awakening.
Regan Troop Oct 2011
I love writing about you, along with all the other small,
worthless problems in my world.
Well, the only one really is you.
Others love my work! They can relate!
Thanks for the inspiration.
515 · Jul 2011
Lullaby
Regan Troop Jul 2011
It’s eleven-eleven
and I wish that we
were alone together
just you and me
With your body by mine,
you’d make everything feel fine
With our fingers intertwined  

And your voice would be my lullaby

The hand moves to a new number
as I’m lying here wishing only for you

So I might be down
for a little while
But I bet you I’d smile
if you made fun of my frown
Hold me tightly until
My smile reaches a mile
From the best thing I’ve ever known
505 · Jan 2012
To Show Me Love
Regan Troop Jan 2012
Have some tea with me, let's share a deep conversation

about the stars in the sky

about what happens when we die


Make a kind gesture, hold this ladies hand and show me

what you think is proper love

how you'd hold only me above
493 · Jun 2016
I love you now
Regan Troop Jun 2016
If I ever say to you, "Stop saying that" gently with a smile yet a sad expression, I really mean "I believe you, that could happen, but I don't love the thought of you not being in my life, because I love you. I care about you. I'm not prepared to not have you for the rest of my life."
Helpless romantic
Regan Troop Sep 2012
I'm so sick
and you don't even know
feelings uncontrolled
wild, they go

I'm so disgusting
but I'm so lonely
hot and lusting
for you, if only.
486 · Sep 2011
Twenty-fifth chance.
Regan Troop Sep 2011
I couldn't understand
what was happening between us.
It seemed so foolish
But even after you realized that
you pushed to make dark space between us.

I couldn't understand
why you wouldn't even glance my way.
It was so hurtful
I was only trying to make another friend

But you misunderstood
Thought I was replacing you
**** like I ever would!
It's been half a year since and I miss you
The only good thing time's done is cooled me down
so now I make sense when I talk this out!

But I'd rather choke on my words
Try to say something but I'm crying too much
That it cuts the insides of my throat
leaving me starring at you and managing

"Silly"

My silly friend thinking silly things.

"Stubborn"

We both hurt each other even if things were misunderstood so just admit it!

"I'm Sorry"

And if you don't take this 25th chance then

"I'm Sorry"

Cause I'll be done with this painful relationship.
482 · Dec 2015
Infinite
Regan Troop Dec 2015
There are an infinite amount of pieces
that create a person,
and an infinite amount of pieces
within those.
A person could spend a lifetime
trying to put all the pieces together.

I placed your brightly shining smile
between your cheeks coloured rose
and your lively forest eyes
above your nose that is so smooth to kiss.
Your thin strands of hair run through
my fingers before falling delicately out of place.
When you really pay attention,
you can learn a lot from her pretty face.

I found Ambition and Simplicity,
a Dreamer and a Planner
and placed her in my arms to hold
my soul relayed to my body, heart and mind
a message anew for this lifetime,

"You can smile brightly with her
Until your cheeks turn rose
And travel to different forests and linger.
You can share delicate kisses and
Hold her as tears run through your fingers.
So place all these pieces of this piece
close to your heart, mind and body.
Because she is a piece
that could make your lifetime
seem Infinite."
479 · Apr 2015
Return Home
Regan Troop Apr 2015
Drowning her lips in a warm cup of sweet tea
She listens closely to her memory of the wild sea
One day soon, she will return
She will return home
To drown her lips in the salty sea
Regan Troop Sep 2011
I know we both are opposites, and you do too
But my heart's been set on you ever since I met you
Five years down the road and you're still the one
At the seat of my heart
Driving
Into Confusion
And Unknown.

The hardest part right now is not basking in your sun.
478 · Sep 2012
My Very First Friend
Regan Troop Sep 2012
Tiny feet
millions of them
crawling over my nose

Sun shines
through the trees
I forget how the rest goes

Next time
my friend finds my nose
we'll both be grown butterflies,
I suppose
473 · Aug 2011
Beautifully Non-Perfect
Regan Troop Aug 2011
Call out for me
Fall out for me
Go out with me?

A little note to you
from me
The you who allows me to see
The me with the amazing view
Of the beautifully non-perfect you

Your hands shake
So I can hold them tight
When sad, your smile's fake
I touch your lips and they're bright

My heart aches
So your laughter can kiss it
When I'm going crazy, I silently hide
You face me with arms open wide

A little note to you
From me
I'm no wheres close to perfect, you see
You're everything I wish I could be

The beautifully non-perfect view
of me and you.
Regan Troop Sep 2011
Next Time*

I won't say anything at all.
Regan Troop Sep 2011
I come here
to work
to relax
A little space to hear my thoughts

But then I hear voices.
Horrible
Loud
Destructive Voices
Ripping up the silence in the room.

I hate when I can't hear myself think.
443 · Oct 2012
Cracks
Regan Troop Oct 2012
You shift your weight
to the left
                and as you do
so do they
                                  One crack.
               it surprises you.
                                  A second.
                      A grin,
                it loosens you
                                 The third
             stole your breath.
Your body,
               like a slingshot,
                                 shoots
               back.
                                 No crack.
442 · Jul 2011
Star Kisses
Regan Troop Jul 2011
The soft strand of your hair gets moved behind your ear
as you feel a gentle kiss on your cheek.
Been laying here for hours, side by side, field of flowers
Curious, I tap my watch to sneak a peek.

We both lay under the stars but the stars gaze down on us
for we're shining so bright always wishing that this night
will come again. Oh will this night please come again.
439 · Aug 2012
Oh That Smile
Regan Troop Aug 2012
But then that smile

Oh goodness, that smile

It will take away
any darkness
you feel

With how brightly it's shown

It will force
your own smile
to show

With it's inviting appearance

It will soften
your heart

Because you know that smile is for you

It will capture
a thousand butterflies

And send them all fluttering to your stomach
436 · Nov 2011
That's How I Will Remember
Regan Troop Nov 2011
A very friendly young man who wasn't shy to start a conversation with you.
'Was my first and last conversation we shared
Til an equally painless force took him from his loved ones.
And from people like me,
Who were for some reason or another,
Meant to have known of him.
Rest In Peace.
Rest in the friendly Earth's soil.
Rest with memories of you
In conversations shared between your loved ones
And people like me.
Rest In Peace, Jordan Brown.
428 · Oct 2015
Curtains
Regan Troop Oct 2015
They say eyes are windows to the soul
But mine have curtains black as coal

To protect seers from glimpsing behind
To a past of a bothered state of mind

Did I see Jekyll or did I see Hyde?
I can't decide

Dead men tell no tale
They only lay behind you and exhale
409 · Jul 2011
I Need
Regan Troop Jul 2011
I want to breath new air
I want to see strange sights
I want to go where it's not fair
I want to stop every fight
I want to experience new tastes
Understand beauties and their grace
395 · Jul 2013
More or Less What You Think
Regan Troop Jul 2013
I will sometimes forget
The stories you tell me.
The ones about
All your friends
And your grand
Adventures
And mistakes
Because at the time,
I am recording in my mind
How noticeably your freckles
Cover your nose and cheeks
And in what direction
Each wrinkle in the
Corners of your
Eyes
Flies.
I can't understand the dislike you have for your ****** features... I love them so much...

— The End —