I couldn't understand
what was happening between us.
It seemed so foolish
But even after you realized that
you pushed to make dark space between us.

I couldn't understand
why you wouldn't even glance my way.
It was so hurtful
I was only trying to make another friend

But you misunderstood
Thought I was replacing you
**** like I ever would!
It's been half a year since and I miss you
The only good thing time's done is cooled me down
so now I make sense when I talk this out!

But I'd rather choke on my words
Try to say something but I'm crying too much
That it cuts the insides of my throat
leaving me starring at you and managing

"Silly"

My silly friend thinking silly things.

"Stubborn"

We both hurt each other even if things were misunderstood so just admit it!

"I'm Sorry"

And if you don't take this 25th chance then

"I'm Sorry"

Cause I'll be done with this painful relationship.

You have grown up but Baby, you ain’t no man.

I want a man. I’ll be fine on my own if you don’t wanna be mine.
I can manage the bills, fix the car, and cut the lawn.

I want a man. Who wants to be mine and hold me when I’m not fine.
He can help make the bed, fix up dinner, and cut the crap.

I want a man. Who’s honest and not afraid to speak his mind if
my hair looks like a dead animal and my dress, a garbage bag.

I want a man. Who gets as excited about what I’m doing as I get
with what he’s doing. Even if it may just be over a silly poem.

I want a man. Who doesn’t need me. But wants me.
He isn’t a mess and can take care of himself without me, yet allows me to care.

I want a man. Who I can punch in the arm, and he tackles me to the floor.
Someone to make me laugh, to make sure I’m never serious all the time.

I want a man. Who respects what I see is beautiful, as I see in him.
He must understand we can love one another, as well as other beauties.

I want a man. who’s my best friend. So when we have disagreements,
we’ll find ways to satisfy all intentions. And to treat me like ‘one of the boys’.

I want a man. Who will lay with me, all warm in our bed, arm in arm,
and listen to the rain outside. Because I love these silent moments.

I want a man. To read this and realize this man is him. I feel I need that man.
To be you.

I don't know when I'll be back

My time here has run out

And I'm afraid I'm in some doubt


If you wish to read more

Of my sights and feelings that wash ashore

Please, don't hesitate

Like I did

Call out for me
Fall out for me
Go out with me?

A little note to you
from me
The you who allows me to see
The me with the amazing view
Of the beautifully non-perfect you

Your hands shake
So I can hold them tight
When sad, your smile's fake
I touch your lips and they're bright

My heart aches
So your laughter can kiss it
When I'm going crazy, I silently hide
You face me with arms open wide

A little note to you
From me
I'm no wheres close to perfect, you see
You're everything I wish I could be

The beautifully non-perfect view
of me and you.

"You gon'a sleep all mornin', Bud?"

We get up for the day
Breakfast first, or else we're both wild animals
He walked over in such a way
An older version of my pal

An abandoned soul
A loyal, trusting friend
He makes me whole
He's a tired old ten

Was always horrible with words
Got homesick a lot, too
Always had to be with Ma and Pa
For me, there's nothing he wouldn't do

"You stop to smell the roses, Bud?"

I love long walks
On the beach
A flaky line, but it mocks
I want to teach
you about Meech

He lays down
Breathless, aching body
But oh man that was a great walk
His smile doesn't dare frown

A lonely soul
Last night I lost my best friend
In my heart, a sunken hole
At least now I won't have to pretend

"You just sleep in now, Bud."

I've never been too good with my left hand
I'm spilling
Dripping
But thank goodness I'll be there in a few more steps

Shaky steps
Unbalanced
Inching slowly to the table
"Here you go-"
And I almost spill the cup of morning goodness everywhere

"O-oh dear me..."

I've never been too good at accepting this
I'm upset
Crying
But thank goodness angels hands have touched mine

Soft hands
Reassuring
Holding mine a little tighter
"Grandma, it's alright"
And I almost spill my little smile onto the floor

"Thank goodness for angels"

Laying down
Faced up
Staring at the ceiling
Using it as canvas to paint out my feelings

Looking over
Feeling closer
Memories I recall
I can see them in the writings on my bedroom wall

Words that speak of good times
Oh I love how it all rhymes
And makes me revisit
Makes me admit
How much I love the memories I've made with you

I smile
A quarter smile
Think 'Excuse me miss, I miss your face'
Even if we're only in an imaginary place

My heart beats wild
From your smile
You turn around and hug me
Call my name out, say you love me

Muscles tighten
Wanting embrace
I remember how you feel about personal space
Then I remember the sweetness in how you taste

Move my body
You move my soul
I promised you I'd come up with a word to describe you
Its definition 'When deeply touched -emotionally- by a loved one', how you do

Lovamto
I say it slow
Loving, amazing, and touching
What you are in your simple 'Hello'

Looking lower
Falling fast
Hoping you'll stay with me throughout my dreams
Throughout my life
Cause like the light on our future
My love for you gleams