Do you ever feel like you can't move
from veins
to bones
all the way to the outer layer of your skin,
you just cannot move.
Every limb in your body
just stops functioning.
you stop thinking,
you sit there
and everything surrounding you is pressure
getting tighter and tighter
forcing you to not move.
If someone or something is calling out for you,
you don't have the ability to move and reply.
I feel this a lot,
when I am being physically abused
but especially verbally abused by many people.
The hits are just repetition,
over and over again,
each one hurting less than the other.
Once this pain finally stops,
you feel empty
because you know that everything is moving,
but your heart is the one thing that is truly...




n u m b

Do you ever feel as though you're isolated,
nobody likes you.
Everyone is avoiding you
and you just sit there
wondering why.
Like whenever you say something,
someone buds in and tells you that you don't belong there.
I get these scenarios all the time,
it's embarrassing.
Everyone is staring
thinking about how weird you are.
Sometimes,
they gossip silently,
those are the worst
because you know what they are about,
they're talking about you.
Even your friends don't stick up for you
because they know that you're weird.
During the break periods,
you have nobody
because no one likes you.
You start to wonder
if you're pretty enough,
if you're cool enough
just if you're anything and everything to talk to these people.
You sit on the side of the sidewalk by yourself,
because you're all...



a l o n e

Do you ever feel like you're trapped in a forest,
with nowhere to go.
The more you raise your voice to scream for help,
the less length you feel that your voice is travelling.
That's how I feel all the time,
except I'm trapped in my own body
and I can't find my way out.
You feel like your body is shutting down,
day by day
hour by hour
minute by minute
second by second,
the clock is ticking
and you're running out of time.
Your mind is screaming for help,
but your body is acting all happy.
You don't know what you're doing
or how to get out
so you just sit there,
silent.
All you know is that you feel like you're...


l o s t

Do you ever feel like saying something,
but anything you say will be ignored?
That's how I feel,
like whenever you try to say something,
it seems like nobody is listening
like nobody can hear you.
you try to talk to people
but they look at you as though you're weird,
as though every point you make is invalid.
Nobody can hear you,
your voice is just an echo in a cave,
ignored.
If you're ever in a fight,
you say your point
but it is never taken into consideration,
it goes in one ear and out the other.
you stand up for yourself,
you stand up for what's right,
but whatever you stand for
will not be heard
because you are...

s o u n d l e s s