Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Feb 14 · 45
Untitled
Renee Feb 14
Clocks slip through my teeth,
counting hours spent waiting
for you to return.
Feb 12 · 76
Untitled
Renee Feb 12
The house leans inward.
Creaking beams, hollowed-out walls.
It was not built well.
body
Feb 8 · 867
Mother’s Handwriting
Renee Feb 8
The grocery list
was in her shaking hand.
I traced the letters,
but never found her name.
Feb 7 · 75
Untitled
Renee Feb 7
A dead moth, preserved.
Pinned beneath glass forever.
Still, the dust falls off.
Feb 6 · 240
Untitled
Renee Feb 6
Stale air, sinking walls—
mirrors bend but won’t reflect,
not meant to be here.
Skipping class in school bathroom writing stuff on my Phone
Feb 4 · 81
Untitled
Renee Feb 4
I am not her child,
I am her ghost, red-mouthed, raw,
reliving her sin.
Feb 3 · 100
to my future lover
Renee Feb 3
if I tell you what happened to me
you’ll never be able to unsee it
if you leave, I won’t blame you
Renee Feb 3
i wrote my name on fogged glass,
just to prove i was here.
no one else has ever bothered
Feb 2 · 62
Untitled
Renee Feb 2
I need.
I need you to look.
To want.
To touch.
To confirm I exist.

I empty myself.
I fold, I fit, I mold.
I shrink until there is nothing left but you.
I let you carve yourself into my skin,
so I will never unlearn you.

I do not exist without you.
I do not exist
Autumn
Feb 2 · 64
Untitled
Renee Feb 2
I know she is there,
In the dormant depths of my heart,
Where the passion eats
At the washing ardor.

Deep in there,
It’d feel
The tender touch
Of a crooked hand.

The hand of emaciated dole.

You starve me
To bone:
The ribcage i hide
In and out
With vehement denial of myself.

Touching me
With your contaminating meat:
I have become at odds with my flesh.

The ***
You have deemed so essential
And utterly irreplaceable /
The love
You have deemed so futile
And utterly unavailable.

Crying when naked,
So exposed and concealed;
No part of me seems right.

Corrupting that humanity
Since i first felt filth on my soft skin,
Your foul breath onto mine
Kindles eternal sin.

Puberty like ill
Drives life into death,
Raging angst to asymptotic love.

Renews itself as ****** tissues,
Torture manifested in lust for youth.

Limbs stretched so thin
To the pit to the crucifix;
Uncontrollable growth and decay,
I open my legs
For the birth of the pale horse.

Unveil my illness
To dogmatic hatred,
My existence lies as falsehood.

Abiding that passion
In perfervid *******,
I die as and in sin of man.

Martyred for those jaundiced eyes—
Desire births and kills everything.

Buried into that burning chest,
My body caves into torrid pits.

Now all man leave—profane.

Now angels and demons merge in cupidity.

Mow pining for pity in prostitution—
I have absorbed you,
God
And His divine displeasure for my desire.
Feb 1 · 92
Untitled
Renee Feb 1
Rain forgets itself.
It falls, it breaks, it unnames.
I long to follow.
Jan 31 · 192
Untitled
Renee Jan 31
This body warps me.
Strapped into its meat and name,
a thing I don’t want.
Jan 31 · 91
Siéntate
Renee Jan 31
The TV hums, a vigil of static.
Its blue glow licks the sheets of my bed.
She is already here, and she says siéntate.
The room thickens, swallowing silence.
I close my eyes, recite my prayer,
but God does not come to take me away.

At seven, I thought He could take me away.
But He never saw past the static.
Never answered, no matter the prayer.
No angels gathered around the bed.
Only her voice, gentle, precise—
as if it was mine to refuse. Silence.

Somewhere, my mother believes in silence,
believes I am safe while she is away.
The house echoes—siéntate,
and I obey. The TV crackles, static
spitting nonsense, flickering across the bed.
The remote is in reach, but not my prayer.

I hold the words in my teeth—a prayer,
a plea I never speak into silence.
She smooths my hair, straightens the bed,
but the folds still hold what she took away.
The air stays dense with the static.
Her hands do not hesitate—no te muevas.

I do not move when she says siéntate.
Seven years old, I am not a prayer,
only a body sinking into static.
I have learned there is mercy in silence.
I have learned to go far, far away.
But I always wake up in the bed.

And the bed is always the bed.
The sheets whisper what she said—siéntate.
She is gone, but she is never away.
God never came; maybe I was the prayer.
Maybe the only answer is silence,
the weight of it, heavier than static.

The static stays. The bed does not forget.
No prayer unmakes what was done—siéntate.
Even in silence, I cannot get away.
7
Jan 30 · 95
Untitled
Renee Jan 30
The tv, open-mouthed—silver-lit, swallowing air in the pauses between my breath.
It drones, a psalm without mercy, louder than prayer, louder than no, louder than me
The tv didn’t stop it     Nothing ever does
Jan 30 · 97
Pretension
Renee Jan 30
Solving by a flame,
I must be so happy
When born into the world.

Burning on from millennia,
Passion breathes all birth
And end
And everything in-between.

Welded by the inferno,
My face molds to a mask:
Chalk-white as paper skin,
Flakey strips for lips—
My expression alarms.

Into light,
I have projected death
Into shallow screens
With verbose screams.

Emerges towers of babel,
False prophets come as i.

From the pit to the crucifix,
My corpus, my words,
Spreads so thin
As a caricature of God.

I am heresy,
I am the gnostic,
I am conviction
For and against truth.

I am stripped conviction
Of inanity and insanity
Behind and between
Intemperate intellectualism.

Held up to heaven,
My head is afoot
and upturned in disorder.

I have seen,
In violent retribution,
The vehement falsehoods of it all.

I fall to turn
To watchers—
Those who churn
My melted body
To the callous grounds.

In perfervid *******,
Burdens strap to backs
And i hold this as novelty.

From its forever conflicts—
Agon of life and fore,
Bodies are torrid
And these ravishments break.

I drown in flaring flagrance,
It bleeds me dry—
These torrid bones of mine.

These final gasps
For air to dust,
I die to an untrue hand.

By a crooked hand,
My voice is seized
From an inflamed throat.

I lie,
Ardent,
Ad a martyr—
My life and death
Has been pretension.

— The End —