I've no desire
to struggle
or do more beyond
my means
only that
which does fire
my imagination
and does inspire
me to feel
and write
to cast my mind
on a new bearing
to explore
new poetic paths
to absorb
the essence
of myriad things
that makes
for meaning

perchance
I'd slowly arrive
at the portal
where the mist
of doubt
is lifted
and the glitter
of new thoughts
and the splendour
of words make
their visitation
as never before

it would be
a revelation
and I would wake
into a new beginning
transformed
and never think
such were a gift
that has arrived
too late.

I placed my heart
in the wrong place
can't disentangle--stuck
reality hits me ******* the face-

this is an entry with no exit
I could die for dearth of psychological space
those around me are all out calling loud
to pin me down in the alley of disgrace.

Oh no!
no reason at all
for the 'wow'
my journey
lasts a lifetime
I'm only starting NOW!

After long absence
trees I planted are now old
how the years have fled

By all means
be stupid at the start
what really matters is
you later learn to be smart.

I didn't need
to travel far
to see the star

Stars do grow weary and old
          their own years they have forgotten
          too long in suspension in the ethereal cold
          tedium and angst in their hearts have begotten.

         Tonight under the dim sky hours I've stolen
         my past suddenly resurrects and my life's story is retold
         my youthful dreams she had once faithlessly broken
         to emptiness and melancholy only my tears now alone I hold

You thought you had seen
the worst of human wickedness?
you had just turned the first few pages
infinitely more you would witness

Verily, cynicism I didn't choose
after my idealistic days of youth
it knocked loudly on my door
I replied:  Your invitation I can't refuse!

Dismal is the day- verily
silently moans the heart
the angst and monotony
the bane that wouldn't part

but none could run away
of life everyone is a part
there are few joyous words to say
break, break and weep must the heart!