Just dabbling.. sandwich bags
And scraps of discarded plastic...
Bags around my ankles
*** the weathers a martyr or madness...
Impart. Shards of glass end up..
Regarded as trash is...
Believe me im part of the madness
But do you know
Glass is just hardened sand into transparent glasses...
Like the natives had died porcupine quills and traded goods for
Glass beads to colorfully dance with
I'm aboriginal...
And poisoned blankets...
Residential schools and discrimination  frequently happened....
The priests taught Jesus
But beat the hand of a child
*** his screaming was violent
Resistant and frantic....
The system of sadness...
And difference from history classes
Will finally teach
Of the blackness hiding in aboriginal
Past ****...
Like there's no drinkable water
On half of the landscape....
And laws prevent assimilation
Into the modern managing practice...
The land was deemed
To stem culture loss..
But bread the hate from generation.
Of gospel from Satan
Take for granted they called him God..
To the supposed natives they deemed savages
In classrooms...
Like the beouthuk genocide actually *******
Happened
By Irish settlers who though sly handed
Native bandits raided encampment...
When in truth the tribe
Law was share anything gathered
Stealing was not a concept
Till the Europeans claimed land and
I'm just breaking down arguments
From every side...
Like looking glass made from glass
Beading a pattern
In our tragic Canadian pages
From systemic. Genocide....
While acting perfect
Like my beautiful sister Madison...
Jk I better dhut up or Madison
Will havr my *** again...
**** it... she's actually
The coolest smartest bad *****....
But im the ***** up who was talented...
Still love you like I'm throwing up blood...
Puking up red again....
Family and strength...
Like an image of enhancement...
*** the gablehouse
Clans see little sand
Like gods plan and its
Not  polite to be this savage..
Like a floss... speak tongue and cheek
Clean my plaques
Like trophy cases in abandonment
*** im not talented
I'm addicted cant switch a flow
Like tap water... no boiling over

Pathetic transgender Stan and ****
I'm your fan I think
You can handle it....
**** it *****

Storage on overload
Ohno
Its panic mode
I'm slow like molasses
In the cold
My *** is froze.
See how fast it grows
Individual decisions
Like slivers hope.
My little nose.
My little toes.
My pinching throat.
Like mini morphing rangers
From the center
Of my temple flow
This instrumental
Mental like recession from control
And investment
In the death. Of ghetto Joe.
Regression
Lessons known
To make messages appear with
The heavens home
Get to know the
Death the life the festival
Of dia de las Muertos
And the mortal bones
Of selfish poems
Encrypted with the jealous yet deadly knowing of a little soul
Existing in a mental hole
Equipped with weapons.
Drastically making
Molasses flow.
Like a degrassi episode
Can drake dance
Crip walk
With damaged limbs
You'll never know
Aye its return to ghetto Joe
**** that thougb

Correct me if I'm high on myself
My pious self
A dime against a dollar
Watch me coin a phrase and buy myself..
A diet helps
But minus auto correct.
I type bring pizza.
And she writes buy yourself.

I replied a dollar short 10 cents depri
Pennies for my thoughts cant buy the hope in which my wealth of honesty survived
So I try at wealth.
My moms 65 mill. In higher health
I just got told we all decide 500 thou.
To donate to charities
We find will help. And supply the help
I chose two churches
And a mosque when they invite me.
A sweat lodge
For the native version the creator
And ten sets of ******* for transitioning transgender teenagers
Wager implants
Cost ten racks.
You got nice racks.
My mom got me awesome major.
God made her an angel to provide me bread and milk and smokes
And save my *** from danger
And light my Hope's though my hope was nope.
She saved my life with love and words of spirit.
Near death. Shes wierd I tear up thinking of my fears in sure fire brick walls. Every time my pitfalls dissapeared *** she steered me clear.
Shes a heavenly body of love. Humble joy and great honest tall over powering awesomeness. Its aweful how much I was incompetent. And depended on her solidness. I'm imperfect. But yet an angel. *** she raised me to be faithful to the Angel's jesus god and strangers.
She prepared me for danger.
By allowing me to go anywhere in safety. The only angry thing I feel
When I think of how she raised me.
How could we ever know though
My brain was different
Than the type of equipment I had to **** with....
So I never got male attention. Or was cautious of assault. Or seduction
But my entire self though different.
Hardwired. By evolution.
To watch in fear but I pretended
And invented a persona to protect us.
He was born from hell.
And full of shelter that his stare was as deadly as a sinner is to selfish
Like eminem likes shellfish.
Like anna kendricks
Handles mandick
Like I like mayo sandwiches.
To get my thighs and *** thick
Like an oreo sandwich with me in between 2 massive black *****
The entire map led back to
A trap house.
With a bad mouse
Named stuart
Pumping up his bad mouth
I say put the fuckingbat down
You ******* *** clown
Your a bad mouth little
Bandit
Like disease belongs to ******* ***** rat mouth
Bring me black out
Bout to snap now
Lay the snack down
Steven Irvine talking crap now in the back ground but wont attack now
Tyler's a little class clown
News flash now
I'm massively turned on by your sisters perfe t *** now
Attack pow.
Doubt it smack my kids now
Never **** talk em.
But it's no time for *******
In this rumble. Blessed withfists that will split yourfucking wig now. Let's get down
I got a bottle of **** for lil jack.
Slsp the ***** out of your big mouth
Do let's get indignant with the fists now...
Dylan says hell make me pretty.
It's gone be ugly when we get down
Logan you must be dry asfuck *** my opposite is wet now.
Devils hood I'll get down like a war vet
In class action lawsuit with oxycontin. Low and out. And high in debt now.
No need to mention the rest

**** the head its ****** I'm thinking I'm the best now.
You know who you are. I love you too death.
Your actually the best now.
Dont let the rest down

Evicting poison in this chemical. Irrelevance...
I'm a girl.
My many symptoms.
Shine example  lack of genitals
As evidence....
Its medicine. Thats meant to cut.
The confusion.
To a conclusion.
I'm inevitable going to get it cut..
The guy I want...
Will set us up...
Hes got ****. And love.
Lots of fun wont get enough...
If im actually swallowing
The letters spelled
In devils blood
Mom ***** dad. Dad had a ****
I got one that ******* actually settles it...
Its not the devil. Its my heavrns wish.
To solve these gender quips
Like **** boy...
Tuvk your ***** in
You'll scare away the feminists
Or eminem your **** is big
I dont pretend its that big
When I mention it
But staring off to space
Makes me wet and crave
A thought to mention it
If only my left 12 year old brain
Could pleasure it
I'd leave home.
**** my dad. 8 mile road
Us together yep...
******* I'm a boy
I'm confused whst ******* road is this...
Conforming to a stormy pattern
Of ignoring anything
They're ordering...
Smoking grass and bordering
Whats more to me
Than ***** dreams of you in mortal
Wounds with me torn between
Your ******* cranium.
And ghe way
You don't say bless you
Just ignore my sneeze..
Now you buy me presents...
Like I was never going to have you notice me...
Chocolates ugh disgusting they make me hofny so abnormally....
Its performing.. acts I shoulder lean...
I wanted Chris roan to notice me
But he loves something im without
You can perform the scene
Alone and we.
Forget it. I'm sore and sweet
Like **** this hurricane of enormity
And **** these tears form into poetry... im alone. The story seems.
I'm abnormally and disproportionately totally
Utterly and informally...
Requesting your attention...
Dress up. **** once I swsllow this
Cordially extend your mobile flex and text me... ill get a message if I'm meant to see...
Eventually... i guess ill be... left without a purpose....
A turtle for a shell... no cloister. Squirtle. Water pistol.. just my dads
Hand me down... squirt gun... ***** with a perfect circumcision... still no ****** identity or purpose...
This ain't right.. fix it first...
And get you search...
Your so **** worth it...
Morph and you'll be perfect...
Maybe not 8 mile wide but at least you'll scratch the surface

Listening to the madness swirl
In echoes. Drifts
The plastic world.
Constant like autopsy
Thats the anatomy girl
Wrapping powder pearls
Twirl his finger
And he has it girl
But hed be nothing with out his girl
*** she's bomb like
Flowery burning
Showering flurries
She's coming down but she's out this world....

God and Gabriel..  Michael in a whirl wind...
Blowing candles on cake...
Wondering on worlds end....
The female birth.. of gabriels nerve ends...
Like surface waves of energy
As God emerges at the world ends
Michael... in the tidal wave of surfing
More than couches
The internet. Or crowds.. at term end...
*** pistols with SOME FIRM LEAD
Urgency
Of Gabriel to emerge  the turbins
certainly not the world's end...
Latin is a term once dying like
My dire red period.
Words end
After sentence makes a point
Red dot light
On make shift stamina... burned legs
Come fast... my girl gives the worlds best.. toe curling pearl necklace
**** tetris
Perky ******* with
A ****** dirt wish
Fit your cylinder between her first exit
That learn her curves grid
And turn her words into complex
Poems that search the cosmos
In a burst nexus...
Flowing moaning words from dirt Texas
Bigger than the girth menace
Redbull on a pair of horns
And *** the sequel...
Racket slang yelled from *** heavens
***** of steel ***** this ain't fence tennis...
Head lettuce.. brain like praying men is...
You get menace from God till you  met dennis
And Dennis ain't Gabriel's *** image

Taboo subject.. end of the concept
Packaging time
I ask dad if it's wise...
And he actually replies....
No asking its actually time...
Sike kid... damage your eyes...
Elapsed ****.. collapsed in a matter of retractable spines
that back the
Matter of mind until
Inception of collateral action
Sadly applies....


I'm like **** son this crazy as **** and...
Mother loving mud mucking truck of a subject.... I love your corruption of discussion but I won't touch this
Much detention of budget....
I'm supposed to plummet corruption
And raise consumption of loving
But something had me..
Crunching my stomach....
**** it... slum love sees me ghetto
And I admit I untouchably love it...
Like sons to a summit
Peaking like ridges of country pines
Extending from mud pits .. in the numbness
Of winter and the crumbs of son to the mother to son in...
A witness of love at the summit...
Till food prices plummet
And the poor is full in the stomach
Something of a drunkness
The world is end of discussion....

Fascination with creations judgement
Free spaces. Nature free running
Sky to touch
And hearts keep humming.
Smart as bees
The wings a buzzing
Impossible to fly
To them means nothing
Free your self from
Lies and clutter
Judge none at all
Not even your mother.
Pride is false.
It speaks in stutters.
Spread growth like seeds
To bloom in summer
Run with horses
Feel the ground.
Spirits free
The fleeting sound.
Beating fast
With leaves of change
Gemma g
Freeze this seething pain.
Ask one question
Free from blame
Who is myself
Accept the change or he remains

Boi don't give up on me.
I'm never going to let you do that.
Came to far.
Shared every part
Of someday. In forevers.
rumour mill or group chat
but our past selves ******* knew that.
Wed meet and marry and
Be resilient brilliant strong.
And live old enough to prove that

Now your giving up dont ******* do that...
I make you mad.
Family discussion
Leaps from you and mom to me and you dad
What ever happened. To the glue attaching all my love just me and you had
You came to far to give up on yourself
Your not going back so  fricking ***** that
I'll push you through the wreckage in your path. *** I love you your my true dad....

Son I knew that
But

Who had. A better knowledge base of pain. And terror
Before I lash my tongue at your mom. I pause and feel my anger. Terrible...
It feels unbearable...
At times I scream. So ******* loud.
It isn't fair. I dont wanna scare her
Well you please pass and share
How can i
Your life
Is constantly in comparison...

The question ******* tortured me..
My early life was an embarassment
Now you have me prepared..
To let go of my tormented self distorted vision
  Prepared
To leap full forward
Into nowhere and you'll catch me...
*** your going to be devoted and totally supportive of my problems.
No matter thin or thick skin...

Yep... I'm here for more than just passion
*** it sometimes comes with madness

Yep I am...
******* babe. You don't answer a rhetorical question.. i didn't wanna know the answer....

Remember when you said
Stick a needle in my eye. Right now..
*** this ***** sees how you would
Leave me
when I share my ghosts
Your going to leave me bleeding
An open heart still inside me beating
Under scalpel.
Incision made. Right when I'm helpless. You up and leave me

I know I love you baby...
This isn't really me the real me
I got issues you ******* know this
Promise your not going to
Let go of me...
Babe I won't let go believe me
I know you've sacrificed.
And right now both of you need me

I may be less hopeful for tomorrow.
But its not tomorrows hopelessness.
That shoulders all my sorrow
Its a prospect. Of something working properly.
And it not needing me or wanting me.
I was always a product of dysfunction.
It hardwired  me so improperly...
I dont like to admit it...
But im a love sick kid. With platinum
Albums and discography...
A drug addiction. Daddy mommy issues.

Abuse neglect.
And ****** ******* trying to marry me....  
The scary thing.
Is neither of us were good enough...
No matter who we were comparing see

I know babe I got issues. I was born a ******* man. And thought I was a serial killer. How embarrassing



Well
Mine was how unscared I was Of whats inside. And how dare you believe
Love me completely. Be there and ******* care for me
The little voice
In the mirror. Saying Nobody ******* cares for me
Don't believe it for a second.
Your the greatest. In my heart.
What don't you get about.
I love this man so much
Enough to marry me
Thats the scary thing
**** it...
Run a mile inside my head...

Babe I love you but your scaring me...
No i love you more than life...
Thats the ******* scary thing....

Long live the government of war machines...
Torn between
Shores to storm.. or performing
Mortal forgery. In government
Assassinations over greed.
Causing deformities
Of character.
Till I perform open sore surgery.
Purely. The nerves. Serving up
Cures for greed.
*** terms are we..
Cough up Justice. Racial equality.
Or burn as we...
Commit purgery. Of first world urgency... in search of belonging. Love and its encouraging.

Jason sudeikis.
As plain as stacy and Greg is
With racist language
At the picnic
With no other races to face it
Now the teacher miss Gleeson.
Escapes with Liam's Neeson's
Escape list
Come find me you
Bleach head.
If you think I'm a demon or racist.
I'll be surfing the basements
Couches of glory.
Are you not entertained
By the crows
Russled up in this story.
While travis is building
One hell of a complex
Escape is impossible
If Houdini himself had a stump for an armpit
I'd rather slum dog
Like a pile of dog **** on the carpet
Than leave my house
While the wolves
Caution off our wee piggy market.
Take it the farthest
Like a dash for my freedom.
Like dog **** is my job
And my esteem needs a cleaning

Its all about deliverance
Man I can feel it coming
Do you ever feel the chill of night
Behind your day time running
Cold to those I loathe
Opposed to really nothing
Owe my life to special someone
Hungry game
Its a chess match
Real killer with the best batch
Of estrogen for chest fat.
Looking where the *** at
I love apocalypse
His ***** a final death match
Hly water. Holy father
Virgjn mary
*** addict.....

You in the sky now
Get a flight down
And peep me in my nice town...
This for life now
Daddy wanna wife boo
Than peep me in a white gown...


Neural  vision
You ***** aint worth the *******
Short cuts.  Ugh
Circumcision..
Its a perfect system.
I see the  world twisting
Turning into spots to **** in....
Thats the plot so listen




1:15.
I bring the bomb raps
Where the bomb at
Vietnam ******
Who be bringing bomb back.
You can't stop that
Shooting movies in a rock shack
Lucifer can't top that
**** that
**** black
roosters in a Sox hat
Thinking You knew gods plan
Slaughter rage and
aliens.
Watching out for Damien
Come on in with Gabriel.
Make up stains
The makings of an alias
Im hoping
Entertainment value
Amazing wet like
A Maze with plenty space to  ****
I be up in space and ****
Crazy trip.
Like bowels spill.
Vowels spell.
I Owe you aye. Its
Its time for Payment *****
Spoken in Canadian...





...You in the sky now
Get a flight down
And peep me in my nice town...
This for life now
Daddy wanna wife boo
Than peep me in a white gown...

Mind games.
Crime rate. Is raising in Georgian.
Abortion. And ****
Charges that lawyers support n.
Hand in hand.
*** divorce. Is an evil.
They give out to the masses.
Impunity. Goes together like
Klu klux  ****
And covid masks yah
While trump solution
Is to feud with any
State that won't remove the ban yet.
Demand. That can.
Of cat ****.
To get a better spray tan n.
******.
Cant stand. This romance.
With a trans from somewhere
In canada.
Shy but slams so hard.
She makes hulk Hogan
Look like canvas practice
For a Steve Austin massacre.
She plans like a passenger.
Or clueless like
Matador.
Gay bulls in a coloseum.
She's out of this stratosphere.
Her movies are passion laced.
Gas riot grenades
In a rythm show.
Like taking a lick from the spoon.
Of inevidible
And letting none but the devil
Know.
She's metal. And schedules.
Like head spaces. Of under developed
Men that turn into pedophiles.
Wow that just took a setting tone
It's time that I let her know
Shell never be on stage
With this encore when
The smoke settles the eminem show

Intersect ideas. You got this in the pocket.
8 ball kinda lyrics
Ain't been turned in to hard rock yet.
I get a rocket surge of clearance
When the ozone toxic.
Its ducking awesome.
I congratulate congruent folks.
But its always fiscaud that I have to talk with.
Never mind. Forever blind.
Not tragic though.
I know forgiveness.
I can out live this.
Remembering my misfit
Like I fit in after years of
Cruel indifference
Its a shift in
My forever existence
Entire condition
And relinquishment
From this prison
Like I finally feel free
And without stipulations
Shackles or conditions
That exist when I'm in prison

Preceeding self fulfillment
Was a wasted land
The makings of a safe hand
To raise the heavens
From a place of self deprivation
Deprication and deliverance
From a slipping time
Wishing lies
Would lose the definition
Of words to fit
Emotions in a gifted mind
The light becomes
A different split
That rips existence
Into Jean's that fit my thighs
And twist my *** too look like
Michelle. That **** little
Hotty fox
Your my oxygen in a misty fog
With ****** softness in your body's
Blind.
The water of a drop that stops
The flow of Carter to a halter top
Like falters not
An option
When you rock with god
He frees you all
To beat the odds
Feeds you all
And believes you all
He loves the life you possess
He seen it all.
Like believe me y'all
Do you believe in god?
Or Do you dream at all.
I'm not swallowing
This intolerance with out you
Seeing all the love
With in
A sea of loss
And still needing god to grieve your loss...
I'm his *****. And I believe it all.
What once was demonly involved
And seemingly self involved
Mental health a fleeting thought
In lots of drugs
And disconnection from the human
Law. A meaning
Of connection feeding all
A seamless logic that sees every angle
Untill it reads em all
The very script against the bleeding
Words written on the christmas wall.
Not finished all...
I've controlled every aspect.
Of perceivable existence
Untill this prison
Seems so distant from conviction
Of a different law
I'm more in witsec. Hiding
My self from criminals
That all live in similar walls
I'm sick of my intentions
I need some different walls
Or either in a prison
Meant for ****** thoughts
There not
Their really hot
I need **** alot
Oh **** that little thought

Lets be real. For just a millisecond.
I'm wolverine one second
In the xmen
The next a  nasferatu.
With no reflection
Wheres my perception

Society pariah def
Kind of game to menace
Ten seconds left
And im ******* pregnant
With God's greatest weapon

This can't be deception
Though im mentally ill
I know my head is
Sick but eventually will
Regain perception
Of this lesson
And ingest this heavrnly pill
I see life in meadowy hills
With a blessing
So incredibly real.
That even my future husband
Will find inevitably sealed

Listen hes a shotgun
A long hot one
I give pennies for a thought
I sent you dollars
For a  koffin....
It is a bad tight squeeze
I am a trans white queen
And he's the silhouette
Of bad NIGHT DREams.
Daddy trying mad wife me

Mixing trying to say no.
To encourage it to start

With fearing leaving God
And feeling him exit from my heart
Trying to marry functions
Of fear based tuck and run
To collide with lets have some fun
And God ll get me done
But like the rest he never comes
Michelle had vagi plasty
She had the same disease I do...
Fantastic news its gonna happen
No matter if I don't believe its true
But I'd mis manage that package
If its all I really need to do
I'm a savage mistake from conception
I guess thats why you see me as a dude
God made me and you
Different stock
A different flock
You got a ****
I got a ****
You felt good with getting ****
Life told me better not
You married him.
And I did not....
I got **** on as an actor.
*** i smiled and played along
**** this screaming siren violent voice from keegan in my song
Communicate my ******* you got more seeds in your **** than my lawn. Just kidding bro
Stay shifting. Don't sniff your rental income...
Stop eating out your girlfriends step mom. Like take out dim sum


******* get sum...
Sniffing bath salts. In a calming
Pond. Of contraband and then sum.
Keegan you make mat Foley look like stone cold Austin's special interest victim....
I give my kids swimming on your chin
A high five and a fist bump.
I'd like to see you raise em.
But you only want your **** ******

Dare devil with a master plan
Accredited with 7 kills.
Debt to the devil. That invented
His attention skills


Crafted in the heart of monster
Debted with a mercy streak....
A first rate cut like guts will spill
And you ***** will be the first to see..
Surgery with urgent needs
detergent cleans the ****** scene
Detective with a pet peeve
For erecting death in ****** teens

A tiny word becomes a curtain scene
And closes. On a ghost.
No way I thought.
The ******* would return to the ****** scene
And revive me from the dead just to ****** me

Her evil a complexity..
..
Formed from instincts
Savery and shrinking
Need to beat necessity....

Reliving things
Like demons.
Retelling ingredients
From a recipe.

Her wielding days are over
Holster up that dagger
Of *** ...sweat and ***** getting
Destiny....

Karmas just a *****.
You havent met yet in your wettest dreams... while stealing
Promises and dealing minors minor high time kind of felonies....
Like crystal **** and ketamine.
Karmas going to ***.
Like teenage you. In bed sheets
As you relive your pubescent destiny. Your ******* wettest dream
Your trial becomes your childhood dream....
While kindness shines inside your eyes illuminating. Lies you once tried embellishing....

the devils not the evil one.
But I got pictures in my cellar still developing.
Eminem maybe way better than me...
Still firm on the jdea
My ******* are like the pictures in the cellar.
Not worth developing....
Retelling. A story born of a hellish beginning. Middle are no less intense
Than  ending credit scene...
Reads tenderly.
RIP.
Bruce Jenner's swaure into the gender scene.....
Representing Compton.
Not like easy e. Dr dre ice cube or mc ren it seems...
I'm more like venus and serena William's. Lezzing out on the Womens tennis team...
God complex. With messages.
From death herself
Depicting images of me sexually...
If its a wedding eventually.....
Required. Add frodo baggins
In attendance. Cant forget to bring the wedding ring
While Sam's eyes are always searching. Touching me..
Uncomfortably ******* me...


Hype productions.
In association
With the dumb *****.
That brought you something free.
From the sharp point extruding
From a honey bee....
Oh god we never had this talk.
My parents. Viewed communication
Like a luxury....
So puberty was understood funnily as something getting passed
Like a baton to all the other ******* on the running team...
**** I hope its painless.
*******. Flowers!!! thank you mister honey bee.....
End it off with something green
From your well
Invested money tree.....

Oh god I hatd interpreting these I feel like a monster....

Just a little insanity.
Janet hold the judgement
while.
I manage to elaborate.
On such a touchy subject
So hot. You may prefer
oven mits to touch it.

I'm half of the corporations budget.
When I talk of fiscal losses.
**** it.
I'm distraught.
You caught me siphoning.
Corporate stocks to stuff my pockets..
To be honest
The loss I'm talking isn't stocks
Its more in bonds.
We used to share.
You cut your losses.
I found a bridge.
Jumped off it just because you dared

Getting in the order of things.
Is mention to swords.
Lore and kings...
Rule of order. Lord of dreams.
The morphing being...
Of formal seeds....
Planted in a roaring field...
To more be seen..
The storm of green.
That hordes its needs from foreign fields......

Transgender is my label.
Its remembering anatomy
While managing
Identity
Freed collaterally
Exchange of parts
For sanity.
I'm a be so genius
You'll give props although your mad at me.
Has to be.
Sandwich meat.
Shred like lettuce. Going ham
Cheesy dance scenes.
In a single plastic packaging.
Trans queen.
In a grand scheme.
While I demand equality.
For every one.
There ever was.
Forever ***.
We better love
Each other and develope love
Through touch. Hugs. Vibes
Smiles and better trust.
Wild **** my smile up
In the center of.
Your memory.
To remember me
Forever ***.
I get your love
And never run
Even till the death of love
And the devil comes.
**** that I'll single handedly mask up.
And sacrifice my eyes taking blindness
Over  feeling death in heart.
That tyrant. Deceptive ****.
Can leverage none.
He better come.
God has me under love.
I'll be under trust.
And safe as banks. And corporations
When the end of days
Come undone.

My life in thoughts of future freckles.
Imperfections and hobbling over hurdles..
In thoughts of feeling ugly.
Unwanted. Uninspired is exactly.
The notions that it echoes.
In my ear
A fear. Still born.
A fear of love.
To be in love would be a high gone unnoticed.
With the contagion. Of drugs.
And the smoke from my lungs.
The random nameless mystique and freak show. Needs no follow up peep show....

Introvert with a constant filter...
A concert killer..
Nausea type of sickness
***** spills...
Get the comet and the coffin
Mac Miller got the process splinter...
Remember that video with 5 inch punch in the koffin filmed here....

Bad *** scenario... we start apocalyptic guns... I Orbit on morbid shock.. but I claim im God for fun... until they actually prove it... I'm constant haunted blood... remote control on court room comet... vomet clean and scrub.... its beyond a doubt no claiming fraud to run... I pause.. he walks... I do my time... I want the longest hugs.... and when he remembers im God... I speak in common tongue..
And bless my body... and my honor for what your bodies done...

Introvert with many questions.
Slip into fates fine direction
Of heat that sweet
And feet that ache
Of growing pains see the seasons change.
Of lies that fall
On common ears
Believed in tribes far from here
Speak onto many
With poise and grace
And make ghe choice to
Slowly change
The voice you hate
That rumbles loud
Is false beliefs
You feed the clouds
It goes around and befuddles
Masses
If seeking change
You have first to ask it
You want the truth
Free from strife.
The packaged deal
Reveal your lies.
Live with purpose
Certain faith
And find the worth
Against your current grain

The snake. Is deceitful
Creepy and a liar
Peace is never achievable
Its hardwired
To be viral.
Fangs like mortal venom
Never knowing friends...
A mirror showing back
A portal endless... blank canvas
Showing death ......
An endless question
For every sentence...

The second scurries
Hurriedly
Like spiders in a ****** scene.
The purpose being.
Vital aim. Like turtle shells
To hide behind a ***** deed

The 1st
A disgrace never achieving much.
Ambition is like anguish
As it uses its condition
As an unhealthy clutch
To its own disgust
Its potential
Much like dynamite.
That just wont combust
So he dont give a ****

Settle in a point of peace.
Anoint your sleep
Free from demons.
Sleep with hope and dreams.
The noise you breathe
The closing motion scenes
Where once was voiceless screams.
Poisoned streams.
And emotion bleeds.
Uou show your feet
With slow defeat
Your lies will
Grow like weeds
If you can't grow
With flowing peace
Releasing truths
You mostly keep
As burdens in your golden fleece.
And show your feats
Your broken feet.
That roses grow on concrete
Streets
Moses leaped like toads
And locust
With devotion
At the unknowing keep
Of sacred souls
And ***** so deep
The same way
You must free yourself
From poison speech
Believe in thrones
Of Joseph's sheep
I dont know if I'm going to deep
I try to know what the Bible teach
But im scared I'm worthless
My lies are deep.
Inside they creep.
Like flies to feast.
My child just smile and rise to feet.
You cry at least.
And try to beat
The miles between.
Your pride and meek
Its your time to speak
Praise higher power
Its raising lives
The final hour.
And ifs not time to weep

Sorry for the dark ****
might be poetic license.
I've been writing for 3 weeks straight
And unwillingly promoting violence
I've been dark and and filled
With silence
While loud. Evoking riots
Why do I try to be a rocket man
When I haven't mastered rocket science.
I'm not eating much these days
I think the drugs
Are playing mind games
On my sinus.
While I'm emotionally withdrawn
And feeling no semblance of kindness
Why this. **** seeping out my eyelids
So I can be a rapper
You all talk about behind his...
Back and use key phrases
To remind him...
He's unworthy...
I've been trying to have high self esteem
So why do I feel *****.
Its unnerving
Like I'm hurting
And my eyelids need my surgery
*** I can't see
The reason
That my mind is so disturbing
And it hurts me.
I'm lost in purgatory.
With revenge a far off thought.
If I killed myself tomorrow
Would the killer really
Stand the thought of being caught

amigo me a trans woman
Experience the daily life
Well im in a crazy high
*** when I wave people
Wave goodbye
I look like a man
No mistaking I.
Get accepted still. How great
Inside.
Got **** on once or twice
By closet flamers that parade as guys.
I'm not a rep for any others trans
I feel though
That there safe as I...
I go to church. And get included
Get to pray. And vibe
Although
My shame it hides
Much greater. Than being trans
Or gay or straight or bi
Now I say I'm rainbow flagged for life.
Crazy life. My town
It raised me right.
I hope other trans feel just as crazy high.
That I feel when everybody waves me by

my illness is
Of the severe variety.
Limits against
What appears behind me.
Like a wierd design
That keeps re designing
Tears drying
On the sphere of where
What once was here
Now appears blinding
In the seering right
From  facing dreams
Of first light
After steering clear
Of ******* on the first night
Gotta get the thirst right
Thanks for fallout boy
For naming every symptom
In my curse right.
Not sure if I was manic.
Addicted. Or the worst mind.
Looking like  dirt right
But flying *****
Dont leave the perch behind
Until the ******* first flies
**** I'm the worst guy
Pull my **** from the dirt
In 6 months mother earth is
Giving birth guy

Time is running out
The chandeliers appear as nearly driven into crystal tears
By prison fears.
Invisioned here....
He strikes a different zero energy
Complexity... of death and steer so  near necessity..  but distant to mixed appearance...  similar traits... developing mentally and limbic gears of kids see clear... seeing that the ships appear... with equipment strictly
Specified to mix atmosphere..
With gasses here...
And expand the massive stratosphere...
With Brandy whine and have man candy.. if she asks to share...
Her breath is fog that stares back at her... with gravity of passengers...
I'm asking her if her relationships
Equipped for outside passengers...
Passing near... the Harbour...
Armored and blessed in bartered trade... to offer her a passioned word... in exchange for a pass at her
And him... for happy ****** midnight massacre..... that will make me a happy girl... all I'm asking for...

Watching patterns in a storm of randomness.
****** in pants. Tailored
For a man.
When my inner strength.
Is female handling.
Obstacles. Thinking
Boxless like tearing chocolates
Out the cardboard box
And dismantle conventional
Practices of packaging.
An instrument of god.
Who solves the wolves
That lurk
Like shadows. In the city
Under man made suns
That light up.
Sidewalks
Where bodies lined in chalk
Make Benjamin bratt
Batman.
Marishka hargitay
All deploy tactics
To evolve the plot of miss piggie
Fooling mom about the sweet allure
Of my want for the awesomeness of
The cookie mob.
Is watching every ounce of
Imported chocolate
Controlling product
*** dad hated gangsta rap
So that's the way my life
I was crazy to model it.
Drakes the top. Of tyranny
He wants my body
For a swallow of his hot chocolate
So I swallow it
And roll in modesty.
While sarcastically
Talking of obnoxiousness
Like the same box I do not think in.
*** drakes box.
Is toxicly stocked with ****.
And ***. And love.
The total. Sum. Of love and chocolate
Like I'm filled with humour
Haunted by a want
That's as noxious as a ****
Choking other every other
Thought
That grows in the garden
Of my consciousness
So as the watchmen
Drop clues
So do I want me to swallow this
It's like slavery
13 states wanted it
Half of the people fought to abolish it
America. Your awesome
But half your population is intolerant
The times have changed you votedtrump
Your dumb as ****
You scare me with your complete
Abandon of moral competence
So I've gotten my response
From god
He said you lost in Vietnam
The dudes who wanted it
Were haunted by a political ideal.
Your rich sons never fought in it.
Hate me for every stitch my Jean's rap the sacred cloth that swaddled my body in.
That's slot of talk
That Jordan's a false prophet
And hesgodless and monstrous
Prominent talk of Christians acting like gods. Trump followers. And ignorant fallen angel followers and lots of intolerance
In the empty corners of an office crawling
With spiders. Inside my eyes. Drawn inside a web that entangled every bug and crawler.
In my bedside drawer.
Tell me horrors. I cant stop
So say goodbye.
Admire my broken jaw
My spoken song.
My matching eyes.
And watch me die

Listen to the gender texts you got me twisted... God please listen..
I've been caught with in it...
Product of a body prison....
Thats rotten *** I want it fixed and....
Sway because I'm straying from
The context of a modest Christmas
....
Sloppiness or godessness comes creeping in the toxic mess
Of voices in my haunted head....
Leaving me as opaque as my
Optic lens.. the view of...
Modern pharma stock of meds....
That get flocks of oxytocin heads
To order ******* lots of them....
While some prepare apocalypse...
I'm stuck here in a toxic tonic that involves lots of men... drugs... and chronic dread.... but lots of sentiment....of sweat in bed
Will conquer every chopping block that wants my neck....

Retro vert. The textual vibe
I invest in pride
Slide messages in sensor
Self describing pleasure highs....
Connecting..  metal kindness...
To electric static...
Central minded...
Sentimental vibes
Eclectic collection... of a matchstick
Mattress... of the devils eyes...
My kettle black... the *** is
Metal mind...
One color somehow better
But never mind....
Shadows of a cemetery
Narrowly been scared
To climb and settle back
Down resting fine...
Underground...
A sentinel of sensory perception
We can sense is blind
Depth of messages in
Mentorship with blessed heavens glimpse and left behind
The dead to test the time...
And steven brandy fine as whine
I guess its best if I..  recollect...
What they've left behind...
But I'm willing to be the best
Thing to them... I won't get jealous...
Of these men of mine...
Neither pretend its fine...
I want you blessed and I...
Love *** with guys...
Girls and sweat *** describes
As collective headspace..
Detention vibes... of sensing highs
Between Steven's eyes and
Brandys thighs.... oh man your fine...

Facing ****** headspace
Caught between my best decision
Dead race between
Depression and a **** addiction.
Ingesting drugs.
To reallocate my fat cells
Make my hips and ******* more feminine.
With all my friends
Are sending bestest wishes.
But.....
Sobrietys a dragon. Only slayed with unconventional means
And fully rigorously tested metal mental weapons...
Praying for an angel.
Its armageddon seconds left and its best done blessed with intervention..
So my saviour can evict my spirit from a mental prison.
And my body of a mens invention
God will have you all.
So ferris bueller get some class your ashy past gets you sent to detention...
While my class of kick *** canadians.
Get my vote for re election.
No greater people in the history.
Of press. Films radio or ******* television...
Broken ribs. Aching head.
A debt repaid when I can carry out your suggestions.
After all I'm meant to listen
To your wishes....
And find the proper spot to squat and **** in...
*** changing with men.
Is like teaching a dog to stop eat doggy biscuits .
While insisting that your ***** cat
Best kitchen mop
And wash the dishes
Its exhausting.....

So if you just started watching
And won't make it to the ending edit...
Dont expect to be top notch spot
As god drops the ******* ending credits...
*** for now I'm still accepted
Like I'mgod **** cash credit or debit....
You just read it.
I'll stay mostly sober
Roger over. Repost immediately on reddit...
Growing every day. Like America's foreign debt is

Listen for a second.
Calm your tongue
It wags with anxious.
Your calloused hands
Hold something precious.
Your dignity.
Your virtue within
Your love that blesses us to eternity.
Your unrelenting cause
Of thy fathers glory
The burden less beast
I am
In which I carry all the love he has shown me.
In failure I find
The resilience. Of his love
Is boundless.
Never ceasing.
Never ending.
And forever you are ours to cherish.

the answer is a question.
Believe it ....be it...  or **** it
Anxiety is indigestion
Of a future you cant stomach.
Need a bucket.
Reap the harvest of tomorrow
You have to plant seeds.
And man we
Know
Luxury is
a status. I just cant be.
Today's gift
Is push the envelope
Stamped. Addressed
To mister tomorrow
Oumarro  "has been"
And quarantine me in a
Morning
Where the thing between
My legs is more rewarding
*** all you know I'm *****.
I just hide it
On delivery
U.p.s sending wrong packaging
To your door you see
Its killing me

Gravity is immense.
Still im
suspended in weightlessness...
Unfriended the image of God
Because you don't
Like this realm in the way it is......
I trust in benevolence.
But develope some pity
For rapists. Mercenaries and Satanists...
Its love that echoes. Eternal shapes.
In the motherly keep.
Of a weightless opaque tinge. Of vacant spaces and emptyness
Creation swirling in majesty
Till human travesty.
Tragically came from space...
And trashed up. And ran with
Hate ful ness
And created racism.
Slavery.. corporations
And ceo benefits
And brainwashed through screens.
Instead of educating
On how to change the ****** way it is
Its time to man up
And ask his grace....
Every man in existence what day is it
Can you answer. Your destiny.
When the damage is wasting
Half of this place at a rabbit pace
With weapons. Disaster.
Gravitate. To a sadness shape...
But **** it lets go to ahappy place...
I gotta get rid of
This devils dance. Its a habit I have to break...
Say **** it for habits sake.

Greatest in the game
Ain't no cookie cutter flow
And its weeks before I know
Like a freak
Leaving the show
Leaving people in attendance
******* weeping as I go
I'm elite you need to know
Beat the game
No need for hype....
Peep skill about to bubble
Like the puddles in your pipe....
It's the hustle that I like
Play dumb till I ignite
smoking chemicals
No sleep
My weekends
Deep inside the fight.
Devil type of instrumental
Bringing metal
To the fight
Or you can settle
For a debt
And get
A continental ride
I'm the metal type of mind
Like ***.
I'm getting better every time.
I tell the truth and never lie.
I ****** your mother
Killed that ***** call it ****** suicide.

i breathe for you, ill breathe for you
when your weak
impaired and sick
the cancer peaks
and things turn to ****
ill breathe for you
ill breathe for you

when the fading lights
turn black and dead
ill breathe for you
i weap for you

the things that hold us into place
like blanket blackness in outer space
ill bleed for you,,, ill bleed for you

when time is raw, and the lions roar
you know my strength is at your door
the extensive pain
you must endure
ill go to any lengths
to find a cure
ill breathe for you , ill breathe for you

when time is but a absent  tear
and doctors nurses dissapear
the near the end is
is nearly here
ill breathe for you, ill breathe for you

How much does this weapon cost
Of virtue lost.
To turn the law.
To hurt you dawg
Its ****** and the weapon.
Carries discrimination.
With a ****** clause.
But not every badge.
Is worthless dawg.
Like every white person.
Named kirk or Bob
Don't automatically
Have the perfect lawn.
Imperfect flaws
Like every curtain call.
has a certain song.
Worth turning on.
Its love in search results.
But some people don't search at all.

All my life I thought I'd never make it...
now I strive for mental patience..
*** time and grind make.
Friction
Sparks and  greatness...
If heart is made to take the weight
Of loss and break it
Reach
The after life
While present in this realm of sanitation...
Cleaning  up of my hazard mind...
In slashing prices as advertised
Causing
Panic buys...
*** new lows... is the actual advantage
Of a masked up van that rides
With
janitorial masterminds...
And its 7 man masking time....
Ask God is he precious dude....
Let us have it... arrest me in my tennis shoes....
Mental deception weapons
The menace who...
Created cognition dissension
Me I invented you....
I made the hospital my second residence....
The emergency
My second room
And worked when the cable
Auto loans and rent was due...
But eventually. Settled on
A check for my mental *****
I cant function. At one thing.
But
Excel at a level of melody in  truth....
Like eventual distortion
Is not an inevidible doom
As long as the premises. Is genesis
I wont sag a bit.. unless
Your telling me to
Surrounded by hell...
Alphabet heaven. I sent a letter to you
C I m breathing.
And I'm never with you..

Whatever I do...
So **** genesis..
Lets make exodus... a letter to you
Just a mess. In my head
Messaging you

Copasetic voice talent. Swayze as a lemon drop...
Tangy ***** you taste like every  thought
That made my  taste buds rot...

Chasing supervillains...
In a
Crazy plot
facing down my demons...
Pursue em. Tag em label them...decease em...
To a Playlist that I play alot.

Ifs me your seeing.
Praise God Jesus. And heavenly beings
Amen and thank you god
Count to 15 open up my eyes and made sure Im still breathing...
Giving thanks to god
I think I'm heaven sent at times
But plagued with evil danger
Tryna break the odds
Human being with mutant dreams
I pray for reasons to believe
The truth inside of me creeping smoldering and bleeding. Like the under currents of a river keeps you... wrapped in pressure as you screaming till your heart skips a beat or two...
I need jesus
I let my secrets slowly speak.
and crack the ceiling make it see through ..  
and seek a listener who makes me speak truth.
Because it hurts to much to keep em locked up when I don't need too

please i need compassion and devotion. Need you boo
While I unravel in a backwards motion
Feeling your loss. Your absence.
And your memory is teasing
I wish it was the real you...

The truth is freedom isn't cheap. Some get nervous.
But truth has gotta see  the living breathing surface.
Can't hide away your every flaw pretending that your perfect. Thats just needless
Expectations a false pretense.
Devoid of learning courage
You avoid the ugly truth...
hiding it the lies get more determined
****** is a messy thing.
And suicide is never truly worth it...
You struggled. Juggled jobs. Just to run and tuck tail and get discouraged...??
**** that burn it. Till you learn.
That you deserve it.
Your always gonna think your worthless

If your struggling right now i bet  you just ******* heard this
You say clean up. I say its ******.. riley says go get detergent....
This is a fight against the God in you and satan and its ******.

Mentality on eternal dwelling
Is this the life I got
Or the world im smelling
First rhyme ****** felony
With a merk like smirk
I give courage to many.
It hurts sometimes
Your not a goof your
Good just gotta rework my spelling
Auto correct.
Is a perfect envy
Green and learning everything.
Techno massacre.
Lets go passengers.
last call for earth its ending
Naji its worth your blessing
I search. Terms
Of burning embers
Met with deadlines
From an inferno burning
But the green lights turning
See might
We might. Be learning something
Think the earth is less than dirt
Or other people
Deserve to hurt somebody.
Than we've really mastered nothing than. A search for  purposelessness
Turbulence in the
Word of trust me.
Fly high like winds of change.
The life of second chance
Is a fervent term for blood is re arranging.
Re framing pain.
Disservice words you keep on saying
Come to earth.
I love you first
Your the worst but the most im perfect person
Saved me
Every last one on earth
I give my word.
I'll change your worth
*** i think your worth raising
**** I'm trying to make sense of this
Verse
But my head hurts
And this nurse
Just slurred the words
Hes human first
Second word he's crazy
**** ill ******
Someone for a cigarette
Howd you learn im crazy

Eminem. Give me spectral vision.
Ghosts that live with in
The different dimensions
That suspend my visions

Wolf like domain. My cravings.
Hunger. Driven under
complexities and striking thunder
Recipe for destiny
A message feed.that makes me sit and wonder.
How am I unnoticed. On a site but watched by upper hundred million numbers....


Madness is a virtue
When sanity is left like stale food.
In the dungeon cupboard...
I dream in multi colours.
My mind a shuttle that leaves earth
Just to ******* hover....
The atmosphere. The gasses here.
Got
Me under ageless. Mold that grows
Upon that clouds.
When satan ***** his mother...
Dating back to days when
Dudes made rubbers out of sheep skin stomachs......
**** I'm I'll. Still left undiscovered
As if rap was my thing.
You ******* know my hunger

Alter ego. Dan rather mistress
Slit wrists and a point of view.
That rivals Kenny logging
**** my foot is in joint review.
*** when we kick it I get loose...
Like out the book of jet lis moves .
Forget me im to you
What a napkin is to ketchup...
You brushed on me
I read you up...
And to meet you
No way yo
Lettuce be corrected
Not to meet you its tomatoe
Hey yo you must be hard to
Forget. And something
Worth relishing till I'm grey old...
And underpaid at bingo
In the old age home
*** i forgot how to make sense
Of my judgement calls
Like coin reimbursement
With a pay phone....
I make David Blaine look like a safe bet..
At disappearing in my day home...
I'll have a safe kept inside our braids
And a shotgun with two *****
And its a great blow..
I'll make *** Olympics three look like Harry potters magic safe zone....
While wrapped in kleenex *** my entertainment. Is in the safe code..
99 the great one.. 69 and split your legs bro... 0 chance of raiding my safe...
Alarming as the shotgun in the safe zone.
..

God is my Armour.
My promise and my protector.
My father.
Teacher. Redeemer.
And genius inventor.
Mentor. Selector .
Embracing my soul.
In his forever.
With one word.
I earn back. Terms
He made me to endeavor.
But I better never.
I remember.

Hostile violence.
Thoughtless and  childish

Immoral times that.
I felt no guidance.
Surviving blinded.
In a spine.
Of dry rivers.
For every hidden crying.
Maybe minding more of
Your acceptance.
And selling perception
To the mindless.
Society disguised as.
A lie *** I hide that
Which is cloaked
In my inner innocence.
Now the whole thing
Brought to light shed.
My soul becomes awoke.
With poetry
Devotion music
And new kindness.
As he spoke it.
My time diminished.
And I'm reminded
Of his every thought
As I was blinded
And misguided
In my silence

I actually thought this ****
Voices were encouragement
Deserving it
That flourishes
With nurturance
And purposeness
A worthless word discourages
But jesus returns the world from
Murderous
Destruction
Of governments
Corrupted greed
And people without words to fit.
The urgent times
That emerge from surface looks
And ownership of
Currency
You think determines it
You still feel worthlessness
No matter earnings
Or status. Terms of searching
Left unfollowed
Untill your emptiness resurfaces
Its head is like an urchin
With a body of a life built on
Self esteem determined by purchases
Never returning love
To those who've truly earned that ****.
I speak as if I'm perfectness
In fact I'm pre determined
To emerge as being
Neither perfect
Nervous. Entitled or worthless
In a sea of certain defeat
I emerge a beast.
The mirror image of
Plural need.
My girls a freak.
My boys a beast.
In between is dreams.
Of worldly peace.
In earthly scenes that shoot like solar flares as time and space unfurls
Against a blackened sky
That hides its hurling mass into a further speed.
So free and in her perfect dream