What used to be, was us against the world
Just you and me together

What used to be, was holding you every night
Can we stay like this forever?

What I’m used to now is a cold new normal
Though normalcy seems forever away

I shattered myself when I left you my love
Now what I’m used to seems forever to stay

The first time I said I love you
Was the night I made love TO you
It was the start of something beautiful,
wasn’t it my love?

The second time I said I love you
Was when I gave the key to you
It was the start of something beautiful
Do you remember my love?

The third time I said I love you
Was when I spoke my vows to you
It was the start of something beautiful
Do you think of me my love?

The fourth time I said I loved you
Was the day when the doctors told you.
It’s the start of something beautiful?
Please wait for me my love.

Indeed there was once a time before you,
I just never imagined there would be a time after you...

The numbness tingles at the edge of my senses
like the cold familiarity of an ****** mistress

But there is no way over or around this withdrawal. No therapy or rehab for these symptoms at all

Desperate for the pain like a fiend for the spoon,
I drown in your memory, let the anguish come soon

While most run from pain, and what it will do
I'ts all I have left, to remind me of you.

To my dreams I retreat
How we met on repeat

I long for your smile
So I stay here a while

Your thighs miss my kiss
my neck yearns for your tongue

The breath leaves your lips
Your dress comes undone

My haunted dreams, they speak my rue
In dreams I stay, to stay with you

Verses from the heart, they come and they go

Like life and like lovers, like friend and like foe

You were my everything all rolled in one

Best friend and lover, equal to none

The smoke burns my lungs but it’s nothing compared

To the numbing reality of the lost love we shared

This pain in my chest though deep and though true

Means our love was once brilliant
I’ll never forget you

She looked up at me with the sweetest delight

Eyes full of mischief, playful and bright

She loved to be told just what to do

Not cause of what, just cause of who

She was my Lil and I was her Big

To protect those I love, my grave I would dig

And my grave did I dig, no fault but my own

With sorrow in heart, I turn from my home

The scars on my heart still bleed from that day

I shoulda coulda woulda wished I could stay

This feeling this feeling deep in my chest
What was new and undying now
Feels cold with regret

Not for the love or the life that was shared
But for all the moments that I wasn’t there
Only now can I ever truly see
The grace of your presence which you gave unto me

Never again may I love in this life
How we loved each other, my little one, my wife.

But go now I must, for better for worse
I’m sorry I leave without warning you first
I love you forever Printesa don’t hurt
I love you I leave you my heart in this verse