Today being the day we focus on Love, I thought about the Great Loves of my Life that have transition on. Several of them, I didn't know they were Great Loves but in time with all they shared with me, taught me, gave me...I felt that unconditional Love that they left me with. The lessons that took some time for me to learn but open my heart. Guides, teachers, friends/family they all were....is...and always will be. In moments of silents today...I hear the voices, the laughter, felt the hugs, the kisses, saw the smiles and I realize that even though they are not here physically, they are truly here. They continue being a guiding light, a teacher, a guide, always family/friends.
I remember today, when I was in elementary school, a friend was hit by a car and died. I didn't understand and of course, I went to my Grandmother (Ms. Minerva) for answers. She told me; "his work here was done. He went on to bigger and better things but would always be there when I needed him." Then she asked; " What is it that your remember about him?" It was his smile...whenever he saw me he gave me the Biggest Smile. She than said; " every time you smile, he will be with you...to help you. A smile will always be a light for you." I guess that's when my smiling so much started...my friend, who's name I can't even remember, is always guiding me. I see that little face with a big - o - smile.
Then once during, what I call my dark days, I tried the suicide thing...after many pills and wine, I was ready to go but I heard Ms. Minerva say; "your work here is not done...remember to smile, that smile is your light!" Love...Unconditional, continuous, all powerful...coming our way...sit in silent every now and then and focus on the Love and you'll feel that Love for your Great Loves that have transition on, still guiding you, sharing things with you, Loving You...and smile for that smile, their smile is still that guiding light for you. So, at least once a month, have a Valentine day for you, where you remember the Love, feel the Love and be guided by the Love, their Love. It never stops and it will carry you forward.
Okay, I know to many this is cra-cra but it is who I am, right now in the present moment...I Am cra-cra Curtis C. and I Love You Unconditional, continuous, with all my Power.
I Am so Blessed...Thankful...Loved...and will continue to stand in Gratitude's Light!
And so it is.