I  went to the bar again tonight

i drank my feelings with a dash of tonic

it tasted like regret,

and lonliness...

the bartender is my escape,

like a waterfall

his drinks never stop flowing down my throat.

He shoots you with bullets made of shame, aiming straight for your heart.
He stabs you with a knife made of insults,  etching forever scars in your back.
He forces self doubt down your throat and gags you to swallow it like stones.
He punches your gut with fists made of manipulation, leaving you gasping for air.
His lies like a tight rope wrapped around your neck, a noose, if you will.
His attitude like a cleaver, sharpened and ready to disembowel you at every turn...

L - Left here alone with my scary thoughts
O - Only me, myself & I are present
N - Nobody will ever understand how this feels
E- Everybody always leaves when things get hard
L - Love hurts more than anything I've ever felt
Y- You could never see that, so you ran.