Only been two people
have ever seen through my smile
the first a teacher
also the kindest man I know
a girl in 9th grade
she talked to me
these two
never called me crazy
or said I was weak
because they had gone
through the same thing
we were united by pain
because nobody deserves
to be this way

Kindergarten
I’m outgoing
with one treacherous friends
yet I am still alone

Elementary years 1, 2 and 3
I fall in love
have a few friends
yet I am still alone

Elementary years 4, 5, and 6
I am foolish
outside of academics
and my social life falls apart
and I am alone

Middle school 7th grade
I am unsure about love
and confess to it
ending in humiliation
and I am alone

I was never designed to be alone
but here, in 8th grade, I am
and will always be alone

Quiet faces
and loud minds
sitting back because
not everything requires a reaction

Why do you stand me?
after every self-deprecating sentence
email, and comment
What do you see in me?

Late to the party
punctual to class
not goody two shoes
but still do not laugh
don’t take risks
because parents are strict
always worried about the box
will I fit inside
they want me normal
but
       I’m
              just
                      STRANGE

I promised
I would always stand with you
forever
but
you grew up
when I wasn’t looking
and suddenly
you didn’t want me around
I talked
but you no longer listen
I was waiting on
your answer:
did I break a promise
or honor the trust of one?