I honestly can't handle this any more:
I can't take crying so often,
I can't keep waking up in the middle of the night shaking from fear,
I'm done with constantly trying to stay positive and act happy when all I want to do is cry,
I hate that the only time I can be honest about how I feel is when I've almost completely lost hope,
I'm sick of holding on by nails to the false promises of everyone,
I'm done with hoping that for once someone isn't lying;
I don't want people to be disappointed in me any more.

I'm done.
I'm done with it all,
with everything.

Did you know what was happening?
Could you feel yourself flying through the air for the moment,
or did everything happen too fast for you to register?
Did you feel pain, or did your body convince you that there wasn't any?

God, how could this have happened?
A million memories stream through my head
Between two moments everything was fine, and then it wasn't
I'm so sorry

i miss us, the way we were before
i miss the way you used to understand me
i miss the way i could sit for hours and talk
i miss how i used to turn to you first

i miss the way we knew where we stood with each other
i miss the way i could tell you anything
i miss sitting up until 2 am stalking celebrities together
i miss feeling at home in your presence

i miss our friendship
i miss the trust we had
i miss you
i miss us

My bedroom floor is littered
with letters all addressed to you
that you will never read
or even hear of.

a wise man once told me about the stars
a wise man once taught me how to draw
a wise man walked along the beach with me
a wise man built cities in the lounge with my junk
a wise man helped me see marbles as people for my city

a wise man once held me as i cried
a wise man once wiped away my tears
a wise man once heard me tell him about a broken ******
a wise man once gave me money for smokes
a wise man once told me that he wouldn't tell my mom

a wise man once told me that he loves me
and i told him that i did too