While I laugh
Someone is crying

While I dance
Someone just found out they lied

While I can't sleep on my bed
Someone wishes they had a blanket

While I eat
Someone starves

While I walk
Someone loses their parent

While I live
Someone dies

When I remember,
I wish them to feel better
I send them some of my momentary joy
Because maybe
That's how miracles are born

I'm so sick of being sick
sick of the clawing, itchy feeling in my throat
let me speak already
let me speak

I need to tune you out
because you're stressing me like crazy
I'm stretching in all directions
and I can't stop it lately

My head hurts when I move
My brain hurts when I talk
And my heart hurts when I trust you

I constantly need to check myself
Make sure I'm not turning in to him
I need to be more self aware
Then he'll ever be

I never want to make anyone feel
Anything close to the way he did to me

When things get to be to much
I change my perspective
I am no longer there
In the place
Or with the people causing me stress

Im simply observing
For my own pleasure
In some way
Like I have the controller
To a video game
I am always playing
But I'm not in

Lies and deception
What some use to create a sense of perfection
It feels calm and it feels like it protects  
But some might see through your incompetent dialect