Words truly do escape me this day.
I’m holding her hand so tightly
She seems calm but
That obviously can’t be true.
Her eyes are fixated on the sky
While the clumsy childish fanfare dances on loop through my ears.
The more I stay in this moment
The sadder I feel.
No
that’s not right
Rather
I’ve never felt more in love.

I’m lost for words
His grip tightened for a second
But I can’t stop staring
Those red and blue rubber relics of pure happiness fill my soul
They carry the weight of the moment,
This never ending moment
Grating the once beloved fanfare into a refined sadness
The flakes of which sit uselessly upon my exposed brain.
The more I stay here
The heavier I get.

Maybe when I think it’s over it’s not
And I have to keep going.

It just keeps going and I think
When will it come
Where’s that sweet music?

I thought it was but,
What’s happening?

It’s over and I didn’t even get to tell her everything

Everyday
I wake up at an appropriate time
Go downstairs to eat the EXACT SAME ****
Then look out the window to see ABSOLUTE NOTHINGNESS
After that I take a long hot shower and think about EVERYTHING AND NOTHING ALL AT ONCE

Confidence is key so sometimes I practice speech in the mirror
But I won’t do it for too long cos I FORGET I EXIST
Then I get creative, I write **** songs about my ****** life and BEAUTIFUL MENTAL ILLNESS
I don’t show many people because I’m sUCH I GIANT WASTE OF OXYGEN NOBODY WOULD CARE IF I

After all that brainstorming I’ve gotta get fit so I DECOMPOSE FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AND EVER AN







why?



d talk to my friends for a bit before THEY TAKE TURNS IN ******* ON EVERY MINUTE DETAIL ABOUT ME, EVEN THE ONES I NEVER TOLD THEM, THEY KNOW EVERYTH

It’s break time, so I usually relax and THINK ABOUT KILLING EVERYONE IVE EVER LOVED AND WATCHING AS THEIR LIFE DRAINS FROM THEIR EYES
Animal Crossing is my favourite but ****** ****** ****** ****** ******  is a close second

And after all that it’s time for bed, goodnightMARES OH GOD THE NIGHTMARES PLEASE HELP OH MY GOD HELP M
Everyday

There he sits
On the edge of the earth
His smile as wide as the sun
But his breath was too cold to bare

It’s a dark night
We’re out on the porch
Got my phone in my hand
Just scrolling
I’m not taking any of it in
Headphones are connected

Harness Your Hopes is playing

He’s sat in front of me
Playing with some bugs
He can feel my eyes on him
Turns around
Smiles
Turns back

We both look at the sky
One star
He says “make a wish”
I’m hesitant
But I do it anyway
I always do

It’s the same wish
Every time
I just never specify for how long

“Forever. You know that right?”

“Yeah.”
“I know.”

Guess I finally get that starting line

It’ll take me some time to get used to the air.

Frankly, I’ve never felt this way before

I used to see you everyday

Sat all on your own

Then one day
You found that special one

That didn’t last too long.

Did it?