it's so cold
i wish we lived next to each other to warm one another up
like penguins do
huddle and cuddle
i miss you

something troubling is happing in my heart
throbbing painfully
suffocating painfully

I'm so in love with you...
tonight, I'll be dreaming of you
My sweet dream
I want to stay in your arms forever
I want to kiss you...
I think of you so much.
You're so sweet my love
I'm so in love with you
Be mine.

you're so beautiful
your skin looks so soft, your hair is so well put
sometimes wanting to drive my hands through it
day dreaming about you is so,
                                                helpless
                                             if i can't do it
today you've straighten your hair, you look delicate, so noticeable.
i love the way you talk, no stuttering and a smooth flow of talk in you
today was the first time i heard you laugh differently then your other laughs
           your features are so appealing
driving me crazy that i can't even talk to you

"What's a life experience that you would never want to relive again?"
                                                                     "Why?"

The worst pain I have ever experienced was feeling like my life was getting taken away from me. It felt like I couldn't breath. It felt like someone was taking away my breath. My whole brain. Everything.

I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I couldn't take it. I simply couldn't.
I never wanted to relive that moment again but I missed feeling what I felt back then because... at least it made me think of her. The more I endured it the more I loved it. At least she made me feel something, even if it made me feel like I was dying. I just wanted love.
Why couldn't I get loved correctly.
I just needed love.
I need love.
I don't know what I'm doing now.
Can I still love?
I don't know how to love correctly.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry I hurt the ones I hold close to me.
I just need someone. anyone.

I don’t need you anymore, you said you would’ve been gone years ago was but you haven’t seem to be gone yet
I reminded you everyday of it
to make sure of it
You tell me to try harder
I do but you always talk to much about me, & to me

You come at me like a wave with no notice, Every time were together it gets more darker then ever
I found a way to talk to you
I found comfort with you
But it was awfully difficult

Feeling the smooth tears going down my cheeks from what you said the other nights, having late night crazy thoughts with you was lovely
You wanted to be dead with me
But all I wanted was to stop you

You wanted me to not see the light
I wanted to leave you to the dark

Just the other day you had me screaming in public. During that moment you told me to call it a life instead of a day
You got me though
You had me convinced that I actually wanted to stop trying too

     I just need a hand to hold.

wanting to turn cold on the world, for the people on it
or maybe because i'm living with it
i'm myself's only one
i don't belong to such close people
i can't love. more i love. deeper it gets. meaning less it turns into.
don't know if i find her attractive anymore as i use to