Trying only gets us so far.
Trying to live doesn't stop us from dying.
Trying to love doesn't mean that there isn't hate.

I finally understand that when you love someone that there are things about them that you don't.

I try so hard to not let you down.
I try to make things at least a miniscule amount easier.

That doesn't mean I don't fall short.
I'm trying though.

I don't want to lose you.
I don't want to miss this.
I don't want your sweet love to sour into hate.

Why did you rope me into this condition?
Why did you make me want to love you,
Just for me to be weak for you, just to hurt me more.

I suppose it's chess and not checkers.
Trying to piece these letters together to hopefully make myself feel better.

Why are you so important to me but on the other hand, you are doing jumping jacks on my heart?

Why did you act like I did something wrong by questioning your integrity, You don't think that's something someone would do if they were guilty. You're holding the door open and saying I could leave if I feel that way about you, but really how am I supposed to feel?

I feel hurt and unfocused, You probably think I'm making this up because I don't trust you, I have a hard time trusting you now that I feel questionable about if I should trust you.

As a very distinct song plays that I've heard before.
I heard that!
I hear it all of the time in my mind.
'come on baby' 'take my hand'
Always in the back of my mind I hear it.
And I wonder where it is , that they wanted to fly to.
I hear the glass break.
I heard that!
I heard the tires screeching
I heard that
When the doctor told my mother I won't remember her if I live
I heard that.

Shall never be cursed by the
            blink      blink    blink           
  of the cursor.

Amazing how much changes
Even in a matter of short time
In a few seconds
Only a couple moments or maybe more
Unwelcoming time can be sometimes


"Then they started to fly"