I have never walked the sands
of that far away land
Where black clouds might
seep into my soul
Leaving its stain in my thoughts
and its knife buried in my back

This camouflage disguise burned
under my skin

Losing sleep.

Forever a battle in my mind
red vs. blue
Which shade are you?

Stealing my soul
forever lost in eternity
locked in place
madness grips me
an enduring fear never ending

A face of stone
the cracks won't show
a river of stars lost
in the night
reasoning with myself
as I melt into nothing.

A raging silence escapes me
waiting for you to wake

Watching as the night
begins to spill across the sky

Still missing a part of me
Understanding this concept of love
Time will not pass me by
for I am aware

Your intoxicating vapor
fills my soul
as I exhale

Time grips my reality
Blending the hours for years
I can hear the gaze in your eyes as
they softly stare.

Tall towers of stars
build these gravity walls between us
as I navigate this ship of sails
through the nights sky to breach
the edge of your heart
causing a waterfall
of space dust particles
to pour over us

Leaving us tracing our scars
and sharing our broken memories
that now lie beneath
these gravity walls.

Sounds of souls intertwined
  I'll step this way to you
Torn from my heart
  to write love new
Painting your scars
  along the sky

Raging fires run through
  your veins
Singeing my skin
with your touch

Yet,
  from this fire, there is a glow
  to warm the cold in me

And yet,
  from this star, there is a shine
  to bring a light
  to the dark in you

  Solar clouds in this depth of moonlight
  bring questions burning in me.

You radiate past the sun,
blinding sonar waves bleed
into my every thought

Soft rays of you spill across the sky,
blending our consciousness together

as one.

Loves skin
paper-thin
like porcelain
deep rising eyes
draped in a sadness

An immortal touch
a caress through
a dream
insisting upon
my love

Drawing in near
conceived of dust
illusions of the unreal
a blur in the
vacant night

A ghost
of what once was
haunted
by you

Looking up for you now
staring down the night

Nowhere to go now, love
that you've taken your own life.

Last night I thought
I saw your constellation
orbiting the moon.

In another life
I would have known you.
Quiet like the stars in the night
....ever shining.

Childhood dreams within a vacant memory
Thinking of the dark shadows who haunt my lost past.
Sanity escapes  my mind as she constantly whispers to sing in the soft veil of night.
Against my will she forces another tomorrow.
Subtle breezes of sorrow follow behind me.
Reminded by my clouded thinking
I'm confused by the signs
Taken by the soft touch of flame against me
I become unbreakable like a polished stone in a sea of  sand. The years have slowly melted me outside the box.

Waking early
too early
I can't sleep right

The mind racing
and pacing in me
too fast

Too fast to slow down
I can't slow down
can't stop this head on collision

Singed on my skin
is a memory
burnt on my thoughts
are your eyes
with a touch
you calm the raging waters
within me
as I wade through a flood

This tattoo stain
stings my soul at night
waking me in a river of wonder

Paranoia in the brain
hearing soft voices calling
I hear you through the wall

The void above sends messages
yet hides behind itself

The stars are calling
I can't find a way to answer

Alone, I slumber in a hole of thought

Silently  listening to the stars
entering this new phase of life
light years away
Layers of time and part of me
hears past eternity
your voice
Shifting the Earth and touching
the Moon only to be near your ghost
as the ground beneath us
crumbles and gives way
    -leaving only nothing.

Pulled memories from
my brain
In this instance
These diluted things
Foggy like the day
My sight grows dark this
dreary night
Hours became yesterday and
minutes this fortune
this grain of sand

This colorful strain
a single thread from my thought

Wasting away these days
listening to lost memories
wishing upon a star

Breaking down in my mind
Face is falling off
yet there is

Oxygen in your eyes
a light I found
breath of life
a fire behind
a dragon's rage

as you are a knight, a king
evermore bring oxygen
the fire within

The length of my fingers
touch
my face
Imagining you
listening to the sound of
your soul against mine
moving in rhythmic time

Weaknesses rise
through this frame
along with the night

Losing myself to this dream
inside again.

Am I so strange
that I can sense you
here
with me
in my thoughts
whispering
finding hope in negative spaces
finding light in an underground bunker
stars hiding behind the sun

Jupiter told me innocently
anyway

differences can lead you astray
so to become one
I'll blend us together

Living on Mars
easy enough

Functioning at under normal levels
lost under your breath
seducing the mind
blending thoughts together
as misfits unite

A glitch in the programming
a break in the night

Bring the water
that I breathe
and I'll drown
in your sight

Lost to an emotion
I thought I forgot
then a breath of
air.

Stealing a whisper from
my lips as the voices echo
from afar

My reflection pouring
from the hourglass
while speaking
of  loneliness with her
saddened glare

She doesn't recognize
me as I am well aware

Her beauty now gone
only her eyes and their
saddened glare remain.

A chill in these
broken bones
leaking out
everywhere
leaving only my decimation
in it's wake

Frozen eyes of blue
remember
a spell of liquid
iced rain

The storms
soft death of cold
brings an
understanding of
the darkness

While freezing in these
cold air dreams.

Floating through this forest
of trees that is in my mind
Reaching down
searching for the pain
to remember your face
a memory forever seared to my soul

Inside the sphere of life
there is only you
within the walls of this globe of blue.

The bull is within your soul
He begs me
Calling out your name in silence
afraid of what's inside.

The magic of the ether
now taking hold
singing to the pink  dolphins
as they swim past the stars.

And then you told me
The ether was made far from here,
made just for you.
Living above the sky like you do
wandering in the night.

Something in this world
is changing
and the magic of the ether will
guide us through as the dolphins
begin to turn blue.

High Functioning
Breathing in
I want to fall in

Missing the strength
Exhaling
I want to get lost
lost in your mind gaze

A solid stare into my thoughts
feeling the flame as you
burn me alive
on the inside.

Mother spoke from Heaven to me last night
She told me
Now the night stirs

The storms rage on and on
as I listen
listen to you
your heart beats
to the sound of the
Earth as it quakes

Father whispers
listen
listen to the blue
this shaded hue
in the night
this night on fire
watch it stir

The scent of your remains
linger in my heartbeat
leaving stains on these
black walled veins


My one wish

A painted veil
flies in the moonlight
past the breaking of yesterday

Yesterday
My one wish

With your eyes
wrapped in starlight
I chip my nails on the
night

Listen as the moon cries in an evening sky, while I gather copper coins
for her song, rejected by the day, underneath this velvet night

Her tears gather

Everything  is the sun
His quiet shine through the universe.

Last planets in the system, so cold, feel no love from his rays yet,
growing from the moons sadness are lakes to become great oceans
bringing life to the lost...

and yet her tears still gather

As the sky glows
onto the purple-like snow
The wild wind whispers
gently to me

saying

take this day with you and forever
remember

As you are the wind
and your purple-like eyes
fill my heart

Bathing in the sands of lost time
I stir
Longing for more memories to drown in

As the blue fades
my dreams wither
within it

While the light of the ancient stars
breathes around us
I begin to cry against the wind
and within this dark moment
The blue of earth
takes me

Eyes of the dark
in the death of tomorrow
you see past the sorrow

Eyes of the light
in the birth of yesterday
the ending nears

Visions of night hawks
climbing in the stars
burning their vengeance
into well worn scars

Burying their breath beneath the sea.

They sing in the night
their lonely song

Marching forward under the stars
crying for their eternal flame

The smell of death,
decaying on their lips

The scent of the fallen one
closing in

Memories coming back for more
as the deafening rain pours down

Upside down
and turned around
the dragon sleeps inside

Dancing around the flames
tonight and forever
crawling though voices
that scream your name

falling in silence
such a subtle torture
enveloped by the bleakness
of my insides

The red moon softly
speaks in whispers
I hear his thoughts
breaking the current
of the waves of myself.

A sting to my senses
emptiness resides within
and so I called
and called again

your voice
haunting my memory
your voice
lingers in my head

Voices drowning in sorrow
calling out as if ******
walking over my soul

and so I call
I call no more

As I rise
As I fall

Spinning in my head
pacing through this hall

Shattered walls of thought
Insecure
so distracted

Sending spirit warriors
forth to battle far away

Pacing
Pacing back and forth

A whispering upon the ear
A red velvet touch
The flow of life

The unwavering truth
The sound of the crow.

My eyes lit up and twinkled like
the stars of Heaven.

Before the Dawning Age
in the realms of beyond

Death knocking upon
the door

Free thought to disperse
exhaling the light

A flexing of mental thoughts
A dream like dance
floating above with a loving glance.

An ordinary touch
filling these veins
as they turn to stone

Markings on my heart
leave scars seared on
the red velvet lining
of the outer shell.

The Earth carries this mark
in it's womb endearing us
to those who live beyond

The ink bleeds from the pen
creating a whirlwind of thought.

Lost to the heavens
leaves a tear on my soul

Darkness alludes me
I am the white raven
flying alone
no more are stones
thrown

Eyes of a fiercely carved
star

watching

awaiting your return
in the wake of memories
I'll float above
my wings the shade
of a dove's

My breathing grows heavy
as the sands in the desert shift

Soaring though this
poisonous storm wind
calling you in my dream

Escaping a trap that was
set
by the wizards
who sought control
of the night

Cold winter breathes
acid in the rain

Blinded by ashes
it grows harder to
inhale your touch

My bones ache
in the night
as the heat sets
into molten stone

An inner freeze
enters my body
creating a storm
of the ancients
so far away

Dreams cast shadows inside me
In the night the clockwork
fights against me

Again with this disaster

There is a magic in the wind
that carries me to you

Wisdom gained by the light of the moon
with a teardrop on the window

Out of the arcane
in a mist the of the day
brings a fury of angels
to unearth the dark.

These days don’t
say I love you like
you do.

Like you do.

I must imagine you near.
Your throne awaits
my king
The way the soldiers
stand so tall
like you do.

Like you do.

I can sense you close
now as the wind washes
this away.

Searching for the dragons
among us to take away the pain.
like you do.

Like you do.

Falling from the dreaming sky
cutting myself on it’s edges.
these nights don’t whisper
to me like you do.

Like you do.

Cold and alone
with only my thoughts
of you to keep me warm.

Like you do.

Bound to the Earth
as I move with the Moon
Can you hear my cry
while you sleep against the tide
As it becomes harder to see
while watching shadows
play in the light

I’ve fallen in this spell
My soul grows fond
bathing in stars
warming the universe

Imagining your whisper
was a touch
gazing past the nothing
through the storms
seeing certain patterns
emerge
Watching shadows play in the light

Catching the rain
with your love

I'll meet you in a song
I'm ready for your rain

These pages torn
from my heart
I give to you
to write love
anew

I'll meet you in a song
with these pages
you've written something new

Never have I felt so safe
the way I felt lying there
in your arms
you were my knight

The way my heart sang
for you could be heard from the
evermore

Then the years passed by
the isolation set in

My insecure delusions take over
the days as sleepless nights
bring a terror to a new kind of
nightmare

When I realize the days gone
by and you are gone forever

As I begin to fade into you
The sky grows dark
as if it knows that once
we join our souls
the stars will speak

They will sing a melody
of the purest light

The laws of mankind become
the laws of illusion
when we dance against
the night
catching the rain in my hands
washes away the pain
as I begin to fade into you.