Tap dance for me on the hands of a clock
Hold back time "oh don't step off!"
Tango with me till the end of time
Haven't I already heard that line?
Run with me until your heart pounds
Then collapse upon the ground
Run fingers through my greying her
Tell me you will always care
leave footprints in wet sand
As we walk holding hands
Be all the thinks that you have dreamed
But most of all be here with me

Caught by chance upon a tree
Now a jewel for all to see
Trapped in a moment for evermore
That's how Amber creates a jewel

Like a first glance for eternity
The unsuspecting didn't see
Was simply passing on their way
Didn't mean for them to stay

But once touched by all that Amber is
Your whole life changes in a flash
For you there is no turning back

A drop of liquid gold
She has you in fateful hold
For you can never be the same
Trapped inside till your last breath
And you haven't realised it yet

Her golden warmth like liquid love
Surrounds you as you feel its touch
By now it's far to late
For Amber now has sealed your fate

You cannot resist
You cannot move
It's over now
At least for you

You better not cough or sniff or cry
Don't get sick I'm telling you why
The Tory party is coming to power

They see you when your'e working,
then taxes all your pay
They say it's for austerity and you voted it that way

You can't have any help from them, then when you die your taxed again
Camerons claws are running the town

We recycle emotions each day
We try to balance imbalance
Aggregate physicality with spirit
Pit fear against loving
Just the pros and cons
Always wanting positivity
But prepared for failure
It's the conditioning
Endemic duet in fact
Yet surpasable
Once balanced you can tip the scales
Rise over what held you down
Begin to live not exist

I wanna be a mystery shopper
Go from store to stop
Buying stuff I'll never need
Just to keep a score
KY jelly and other things for laughs
Ask the staff for windeeze
Then let out a squeaky ****
Well someone has to do it
It might as well me
Then score them on the walmart scale
From zero to ten

Dad!!!
Where can I  buy a fridge freezer, I'm hearing things that can't be real.
Dads head now spinning, can't fathom why so asks the question why oh why?
Why  because your mum has two and when I left one was new.
No it's not for me its for my friend, because her daddy upt and left
The first time in months she touched my heart because she showed she cared allot
So daddy asked what's it all about and his heart sank at how she cared for a friend she hardly knew as yet
Her mum works hard all the time and can't afford to get one now
She works all day on the farm and I want to get her one ok?
So what does a dad say to that when he finally sees behind his daughters mask
She has a heart and god its big,  so I guess I need to find a fridge!
So asked about and favours called to find a fridge for Dherrans  mum!
Off to Woolton and back again, we have one and I'm feeling great.
Four weeks later I still have one and no contact with Dherrans mum!!
Calls and texts and no reply! Oh how I've tried
So Emily tonights the night I'll leave it in your friends drive.
So off I popped and knock knock knock and eyes like saucers looking back!
I'm now sure I've got it wrong the house the number the whole shabbang
Who's this bloke and *** I'm in me onsie oh my god!
Introductions and no idea who or why he is here!
I'm Emilys dad well that fell flat, but dont I know you anyhow?
After deduction better than Sherlock Holmes he showed his badge it all came clear thank **** for that the fridge is here!!!
Fridge inside and cups of tea and laughter filled the air with glee
Talk of art and Shakespeare to a pleasant change from a Thursdays gloom
Then time to go and say goodnight, I rather liked the onsie sight!!!
So there's the tale and simple enough..
Don't underestimate a childs love
x

Cry not at the shadows of yesterday or morn the passing of an opportunity.
Instead look forward to the vision of tomorrow, unsullied by yesterday's mistakes.
Look at what a dawn brings not what the night tried to steal from you.
Speak not of what might have been or where the roads may take you.
Instead trust in what you feel, what you believe and be guided by raw instinct.
Only then will you be at peace with your own heart and open its doors to others.  

Y C Pturd 1987

The wrinkles move as you smile
They tell a story of your life and it's trials
I've never seen a crow with feet that big
Your days in the sun are now your treat
Or curled up warm at my feet
You've reached the age were the body won't work
It fails to warn you your going to purge
But what goes on inside that head
I watch your eyes follow the world
Are you still running still chasing cats
When you bark in your sleep and your legs trot
It's all retrospective now as your gone
Both my faithful friends sleep under the ground
Dont know why I thought of you today
Maybe it's time to foster a friend
For dogs should pick you and not you them
For they know best who will look after them

I little nip a little tuck
To get the wrinkles off my mug
Some fat from tummy round to ***
Let's lift the **** and up the cup
DD yeah that's enough
Dont stop there get tombstone teeth
My nose could do with being straight
Almost done spent thirty k
Guess what he left me for the maid!

The last English King to ride into battle
Would give all for a horse to lead into madness
A curved spine and a ******* he still lead his men
No English King since has had backbone for it
A young prince now a nation's last hope
The rest just an expensive joke
Plantagenat King the last of a kind
Died in battle no horse to ride
A paupers grave the best he could get
Stuffed naked and tied ramed in the ground
No headstone to show a King was beneath
Just ticket machines from NCP

Watching an inappropriate romance
Between two who can never be one
The chats that skirt around reality
The laughter only they know
The passion in words so simple
The fact that neither of them know
All they have in the world
Is the words when they say hello
No one there sees it
Only one thing remains
They fell in love forever
In a bookstore that day

Karma......
Karma comes in many forms
From a simple breeze to a tropical storm
From a gentle nudge
To hearty push
But when it comes it doesn't rush
**** on folk and scream and shout
Karma is always taking notes
So build an empire and declare yourself queen
Nothing karma hasn't already seen
But to get to the throne you used those who cared
Then when your needs fulfilled you cast them away
Then karma after taking notes, came to call to rerurn it all.
The throne now challenged, the empire at war
You really really should have known.
But when your ego is all you have
When others love is cast aside
When all you have left is the world outside

Ask yourself was it worth it all?
To be the empress is to be alone

Sat watching television
Trying to immerse myself in its banality
Scene by scene, less interested more thoughtful.
Wondering, what someone is doing.
How they feel, are they ok?
I'm the random man who walked into a life.
A life organised but not perfect, is any?
Stability but bereft of happiness in many ways, but not all.
I entered by chance, an act orchestrated by one who would bid me no harm.
Yet greeted by one who bid me well and more.
The collision of souls, an awakening, with an outpouring of sadness.
A train wreck of emotions and needs.
Yet within it a glimmer of hope and a dream.
Or a passing fancy? A passion momento, not a passion momentum driven.
Time will tell.
The same time that passed long ago.
But this time clocks in synchronization.
A link in time, a portal to a possible new life.
Or a what might have been.

You thought of saying it to her today, but decided to wait until tomorrow, but someone just said it now, having thought of it yesterday.
The time is always right
The words may not be

Awake
Solitude stands with me this night
Uncanny the silence has noise
A white noise only punctuated by my breath
You ever listen to your breathing?
You become conscious of its shortness
Breath deeper and deeper
A car passes, the silence broken
You become frustrated, sleep in not here
Pick up the phone, log on, read others work
Smile knowing their awake miles away
Tapping away, giving their all  
Like, comment, enjoy. Mae on top form
A simple yet beautiful verse.
Then Samantha Wells  "Wanting"
A new kid on the block who tonight readers gave it all!
She can't see how good, others will, many
The Phantom calls another great piece but now
Now I have to try again to sleep
Goodnight wordsmiths don't hold back
Miss Askew, Dieingemembers you keep me enthralled
1796 we could chat for hours, Victoria watches my spelling of course
So thankyou so much for the pleasure you bring
The sandman is calling so  now I must leave

I can say with up most confidence, that I knew not what love was, till I knew what love wasn't

Sounds disappear as if smothered into the shadows
Footsteps make a dull thud lost in a blanket of fear
A fear that is held taught by the night and it's visitor
The cold velvet makes the dark light but impedes sight
All move on edge from doorway to doorway ears acute
Are those footsteps or the mind playing tricks
Working girls, Gin filled amid the stinking streets
Will I be next?? Is he a regular or a new player
The cry goes out followed by whistles
Boots on cobbles, screams! He has returned
No person saw him he morphed into the night
Her body lies torn mutilated to precision
Organs laid out in a rutualistic yet barbaric display
Once again unseen his work done "Jacks back"
Fear grips the streets again the press give him status
The people condemn, the police powerless or forbidden to act?
Only history will reveal the killer in the fog

Darkness veils my thoughts
Not gentle, or inviting to sleep
No an intense choking of them

A blackness you cannot imagine
A feeling of alone you can't describe
Not the first time, but may be the last

Like a tight restraint
There can be no clarity
Just a wanton lust for self destruction
Anxiety feeds its depths
A burning tight grip in the chest

Sinister your thoughts collate
Not segmented, oh no
They spiral out of control
They have no place here
Yet have no other home

You're in turmoil and beg for release
Held to mortality by a strand
It's threads thining with each attack
Yet you may see me smile

I don't condemn you for not seeing
You just wouldn't understand
If I tried to explain I'd scare you
You can't comprehend such pain

I die a little more each day
I know not what keeps me here now
Is this simply an existence rather than life
Darkness veils my thoughts

Thou shalt not covert thy neighbours wife
Listen Jesus!
Have you seen her?
She is like the dawn of the day
The still of the night
Yet now alone
Try to put her out of your head
Ignore her!
It does not work
Try to forget!
Though all you can do is remember
You imagine her kiss
Yet never kissed
Imagine her touch
Yet never touched
Crave her favour
But know not her feelings
For once upon a time
In a land far away
Fate dealt its cards
In a cruel
Cruel
Way.

The sun came up today
A different sun to yesterday
It felt warm and strong
Warmth through my flesh to my bones
Like a summer sun at noon
Yet it's spring and snow abounds
Last night I stared at stars amidst frost
Twinkling bright like messengers
Evening now approaches
Yet I still feel the sun
In all  its parallels

Confusion is amok
Emotion runs wild
Reason takes a dive
Heart skips beats
Stomach turns over
Belief is suspended
Love was there
Remember it well
Love that is
It was all
All or nothing
Jealousy it came
It caused havoc
Pain distrust anger
Loneliness hurt dismay
Goodbye was swift
Unexplained not reasoned
Betrayed by another
Confusion is amok

Interwoven through the decades
Like a dream fragmented
Recalling the laughter
Hiding the tears
Small talk, no mention of sorrow
Paths crossed by chance
Yet fused together in a past
Updating the similarities
Glossing over the failures
Not eluding to the passing of love
Love! What of its spoils, it's loss
Now coveting the richness of maybe
The longing for perhaps
To capture a time lost
Then by good grace and fortune
Re start the clock
Like a caravan crossing the desert
To a destination hidden to all but the chosen
Where the weave becomes tied, knotted
The richness of lifes tapestry completed.

Only echoes now remain of they
A silence that became louder year by year
More deafening than the reality of the suppressed truth
Then it was out
louder than an explosion
The truth emerged and in that moment
Solice became a possibility
Justice an equality
Not an orchestrated privilege
For it had long been hidden
Hidden by lies told by those who knew
Those sworn to protect
A small group of inquisitors
The truth would have brought change
The truth however bitter would have ended it
Yet they did not air that truth, oh no
A group so powerful they changed history
No they re wrote it as a *******
Tomorrow so it seems they bury their leader
With honour and pomp and ceremony
Yesterday you mourned the victims
Left to die like cattle slaughtered
But soon you may vanquish the conspirators
Tonight sleep as your 96 do
Be at peace for the truth has aired
Lady Justice now is in balance and wields her sword

It begins
A feeling or a sense
Something that is different
Separate from the rest
A glance a sneer
A hidden joke
Now its one or two
The only one not laughing?
It is always you
It doesn't take many
The focus of three or four
A nickname like fatty
Or geek or *****
The teacher's they don't notice
Its just foolish play
Tell that to the child
That cries to sleep each day
Try to join their group
It just makes it worse
They now have you closer
To play their evil games
They feed upon your pain
Your grades are poor you can't explain
The teachers say your lazy
The bullying has altered you
You think you have gone crazy
The day you leave the day for you
Life can start afresh
School was like a prison
No more will you now take

Becoming invisible, more each day
Withdrawing inside to feel safe
Building walls as all bridges burnt
I stood on them as the timbers flared
Trying just to survive each day
People don't see you fade away
A little less of me to give each day
Until the walls are now so high
They can't hear your soulful cry
They can't see you now
To them not there
You became invisible
You no longer care

Ever wake and realize it's gone
Not just gone I mean GONE
You have drifted on like a train wreck
Looking for a place to happen
A culmination of ostrich behaviour
A summary of ignoring signs
The last post plays in the distance
The day you realize you can't do this
Not just another day, not another week
Not at all
You play over how to plan the escape in your mind
You can't call it suicide, but they will
You find you stare at trees "bit of rope" job done
Or walk barefoot on the shore, further out all the time
The third rail is looking good !
Tablets and *****, ***** and razor, or all three
What makes it worse is the "Oh we wish we knew"
The oh his poor wife oh the children
Why do you think he did it!

The Bath was the option chosen
I never knew why he did it
I just cleaned up afterwards
Reassembled his torso
Bagged his belongings
I never knew why, never will
The note was a ramble to me
I guess a last eruption of emotion
I think I've had days as bad
Where sadness drowns you
Fear chases you
Emptiness overpowers logic
But here I am and he is gone
Who was the bravest
He had his great escape

Liking or licking hmmm maybe similar
Pain or pane smash one get the other
Steak or stake drive cattle or a post
The English confuses me most
Lite or light, bright or brite
Understanding is all that is write or wright or write
Oh who gives a ****

Behind closed doors you do not see how she cares for three
A mother, her children, her whole life's work
From dawn till dusk, day after day
The best for them in every way is her soul purpose in this world
Granted all mother's are not like this, but who are you to interfere?
Self appointed village snout to dig in others business now
You chat and pass your poison on, all make believe as facts you've none
You curtains twitch you evil witch, you make it up to feel complete.
A man knocks, a family friend, but in your mind she's on the game
Another calls to fix a light, in your fantasy world he stayed the night
Are you so shallow yes so bereft ? Your purpose to destroy this nest
A parasite is all you are and yet you claim to have a heart
The authorities will always listen and their attent fueled you mission
How comforting it is to you, thou feel complete you've mixed a brew.
You got it wrong and all you've done is show her as a brilliant mum
All evil has a price you know, you may be old and need someone
A friend to pick you off the floor when the reaper visits your abode
Cry oh cry oh cry out loud, but no one comes to help you out
You burnt your bridges, no neighbour's love, no time for you do others have
Why you ask can this be so ? The answers simple and you should know

Because they don't look behind closed doors.

It was so cold there nothing could live
It hasn't always been that way
Before, there had been long summers that never seemed to end. Nights when all around danced and sang until they were played out and watched the sun rise
The sound of laughter filled the air and love was in over abundance.
That was then, before.
Now the seasons have no definition. No spring comes, no bird song. No buds promise the beauty of a flower. Just night.
Cold dark apocalyptic night.
For when they left, the seasons left with them.
The sun never rose
Night and darkness was all that remained in
Aleppo
For love had gone

No day is ever the same
Today was confusing
I've had to change my relationship status on Facebook
No big deal I hear you say
To "its complicated" for a few days
I've sprained my left wrist
It's just not fun you see
  The other hand isn't working out for me!

X

Can I ask in soft a tone if you ever feel alone?
Feel like no one ever cares
Doesn't notice you are there
Doesn't seem to see your face
Doesn't know you feel their pain
Never knows what you feel
Always makes your heart reel
Then you as I, sleep alone
We wonder what we do that's wrong
Try so hard to make it right
But sleep alone every night.

So when looking at others you see outwardly what they want you to see
You can sense from their actions where  they in fact are even if they don't know.
From their words more.
Their touch more again.
We colide with people and on collision loose parts of us and gain debris.
Seldom we collide when at the same state of mind in body and emotions.
Often it's in turmoil from a recent collosion.
To some extent greater or lesser we all move from definition to definition of what and who we are or become
Its the perception of inner self relative to others
and to ones self.
That is the soul

Odd how faces from a past defined by others now define you
Odd they see things, you in a light more bright more in focus
Cast aside from the chains of conformity the perfectness of delusion
The false image of what is expected
So onward to tomorrow and it's dawn

The rain now ends the day, washing its benality away
Sunlight never made it through cloud, only it's traces
Overcast sky prevailed today
As though the sun was refusing to come out, in protest
Between elation and desperate measures the minutes passed
Slowly as if held back this morning, an eternity
Then racing as though unable to find their feet this afternoon
Tonight I shall shut out the world and simply ponder
Examine what remains and foundations
  The dawn can wait a few hrs

The ties that bind me
None are visible
Yet restrain my every move

Tight
Cutting
Invisible

The more I resist
The tighter they cut
I know only pain

My bindings have no knots
No ends no escape
No release

My past binds me
What binds you?

Once upon a yesterday all the trees stood still.
No wind blew between their leaves only silence filled the air.  
No birds sang, no grass grew, on here or the otherside.
It was simply green and motionless, as though frozen in time.
Clocks stopped, no traffics roar, no planes flew overhead.
It was as if time itself had left the earth as well.
There was a sound he strained to hear, was it one or two?
The sound of their beating hearts as her eyes looked at you.
For in that moment time stood still and all around them wained.
The world they had come to know was fading away.
No longer could they live as they had done before.
For once upon a yesterday had now become today, all their thoughts and dreams had gone, as they had now met.
Yesterday now gone, today is at its close and all we yearn is tomorrow, will it be mine and yours?

In epiphany
To stark silence
We are a base
The two elementals
Mixed shaken not stirred
Compounded a molecule
A ying and yang
Bonded in a fashion
Yet not definable
Examined
Observed
Scrutinized
Lectured
Quized
We're friends
There is no formulae
The antithesis
Of our past

Running barefoot along the beach
Farting in a room before you leave
An extra cake and sod the diet
Five minutes more in bed
A couple of drinks on your own
I twitch in the pants as they pass
Lie in the bath on the phone
Music loud when alone
Because we can

Oh what a sweet smile
Hides the bitter betrayal of a lover
Your effervescence is brimming
Yet behind it all you are a loveless mannequin
Happy in the world of illusion you create
Selling snake oil is just the ticket
Selling a lie, as well you live it
Image everything, built upon a lie
In a cold mansion you wither
******* the life from others

Not today you ******* thing
Two days early it isn't fair!
Mother natures evil work
I'm like a grenade waiting to go off
My stomach aches burning hot
Don't speak or ask me what is wrong
I'm a woman you ***** it's obvious!
Give me a hug x No don't touch me now!
For I'm the moody PMT cow
I love you I hate you god your a man
But next week I'll want you if your still around

I liked this. I no longer give a toss if anyone else does
Anarchy is the new democracy????
You chose that not me.
Oh I like cake too, cheesecake to be clear
I am very fond of animals but not cats
I have a fatal attraction to the wrong type of women at the right time and the right women at the wrong time
The beach, my only saviour
Guinness has tickled my fancy as well
I am not a Tory
The point???
Is there one anymore
Go figure that yourself
But remember
When you poke a bear the bear gets angry It attacks all around not just the stupid hard left activist who poked it
Then who will help you

Is there a place lost emotion goes?
To talk to sorrow and loose its soul.
A place where love's favours, labours and graces lost.
A place where hearts are tossed to rot.
Or am I so cold I no longer see any feeling left in me.
No place for a spark or thought to grow.
No fertile flesh no inner glow.
Does it fade away or leak like blood ?
Or evaporate like cold breath does.
My words for once are not a muse I ask a favour of all of you.
Look around at every face, look in their eyes and see that place.
Not the false smile or shielded eyes look behind and peer inside!
Can you see their essence there or a dead bewildered broken stare.
Look closely now and take your time for you won't get a second chance.
For some it is there last chance to smile before depression takes their life. Decision made??
There or not its you who now decides their lot.
Be cruel? Condemn a soul today or smile and give them hope to stay......

Floating in a world of change its hard to see what's real or vague.
Hard to know what truth looks like in all the faces seen at night.
In dresses short and heels so high you see an image not the light.
It's a competition to compete like birds that Coo and **** all compare.
Soils the image that you see a true portrait of the real.
A work in progress unfinished raw that needs to be formed a little more.

With due diligence she completes her task
Her fluorescent pen working flat out
Multi coloured no less adding importance
Then staples bashed and ready to go
There seems now a delight in her work
Demob happy counting down the days
Tearing the days of the desk diary
September will be here soon enough
I then imagine her retirement writing labels
Plants with little tags in the garden
Jars neatly stacked, labels all compliant
A new found order to disorder
An organised mind conquering the world

Waltzing with fire
watching the priest,
drop to his knees
and a boy screams with fear

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire till he goes to jail

A fear of all
he prays to a god,
for if he is caught
he won't have a job

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire Rolf Harris again

Oh the tide rolls in
with crashing waves,
the Daily Express always says
"Prepare for the worst!"
or
The torys are great

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire their expenses claims

Well someones dog
**** outside my gate!
Made the page
Not Nepal's earthquake

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire Everest a grave

What to do
when it's all gone wrong?
Oh I'm Traped in the vesel
that I got at birth,
as age contorts
and changes its shape

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire another *** change

Oh mistakes a plenty
and then somemore
as I made decisions
like a needy *****
Try and keep up
we march today!
Just where are we going
I couldn't say

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire labour lost again

Direction lost
and the maps on fire,
my souls ignited
by another's fire
Another who warms
at a different grate,
no wonder people run away

All i see in the press today
Waltzing with fire a teacher caught again

So waltz with fire
and quench the coals that burn
for loving only makes you cold
Cold in spirit, cold in bed
and distorts all up inside my head

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire Mr speakers wife again

So what was that all about,
I say that daily and often shout!!
Wish I knew I would share the plot,
but like my soul...It all is lost

All I see in the press today
Waltzing with fire the popes lost his faith