I dream of you always
Late at night when no other is near
My thoughts there inside you
Running round inside my head
Wishing you were here
My dreams are clouded
As I can't see who you are
I could have known you all my life
Yet I've never met you
But still you occupy my dreams

Awake
Solitude stands with me this night
Uncanny the silence has noise
A white noise only punctuated by my breath
You ever listen to your breathing?
You become conscious of its shortness
Breath deeper and deeper
A car passes, the silence broken
You become frustrated, sleep in not here
Pick up the phone, log on, read others work
Smile knowing their awake miles away
Tapping away, giving their all  
Like, comment, enjoy. Mae on top form
A simple yet beautiful verse.
Then Samantha Wells  "Wanting"
A new kid on the block who tonight readers gave it all!
She can't see how good, others will, many
The Phantom calls another great piece but now
Now I have to try again to sleep
Goodnight wordsmiths don't hold back
Miss Askew, Dieingemembers you keep me enthralled
1796 we could chat for hours, Victoria watches my spelling of course
So thankyou so much for the pleasure you bring
The sandman is calling so  now I must leave

Take egg, invite *****
Mix for five minutes to two hours
Dependant on assistant
Feed at about body temperature
After 9 months or a little sooner if needed
Your childling will be ready to *** out
Decorate in nice new clothes and feed
After 5 years place in greenhouse with others
Come back in about 12 years
It will be totally unrecognizable to what you started with
Now dependant upon cross pollination in greenhouse environment
You may have unwanted seedlings of its own popping up!!!
So choice of greenhouse at an early stage is essential
If that doesn't present a blight they are now hardy enough to plant out!!!

It'***** and miss the *******
We know It's there and needs a kiss
A gentle lick a temperate ****
A delicate flick with the tongue
Then more and more and firmer still
It pops up to show it's thrilled
Then hands you feel on your head pushing you deeper in her cleft
Faster still you thrill her more as she writhes and asks for more
Then finally as her body shakes you taste her as she slips away

My grammar may be rong
My spelin may be crap
My poems may make ya smile
They may make ya cry
Neither nor either or
My where when were a mess
Thank god their tis an editor
To sort the awful mess.

Dark skies now roll overhead
The sunlight disappears as the day ends
My thoughts now go back six years
To a night in maternity awaiting your birth
The fear when the midwife said it was going wrong
The joy when later I held you in my arms
You and Emily Rose will never read my prose
That's ok because those who do
Know your daddy loves you
And that's enough

So people think where at it
They think we're on the job
Touching where the sun don't shine
The horizontal jog
Sneaking round in darkness
A bunk up here and there
A bit of a knee trembler
Oh when oh where!
I suppose they see a something
That neither of us do
Is it what they would do
It they were me and you?
Well sorry to deflate them
It isn't really so
We never got between the sheets
Or any other joy
So just to set the record straight
We haven't popped the cork!
It just gives you a purpose
A topic for to talk!

Morning world I'm here again
Stiff and ready to face the day
My bones and joints arnt what they were
Where are my glasses I put them there
Time for tea I'll ring the bell
You see my legs don't work to well
In she pops like a little girl
And talks to me like one as well
I'm old and grey and frail outside
My brain still ticks and works inside
I 've done most the things I tried to do
But right now I need to poo !

I wanna be a mystery shopper
Go from store to stop
Buying stuff I'll never need
Just to keep a score
KY jelly and other things for laughs
Ask the staff for windeeze
Then let out a squeaky ****
Well someone has to do it
It might as well me
Then score them on the walmart scale
From zero to ten

It is ethereal
A start and an end
We can never be precise as to where exactly
Nor can we measure its mass or volume
We just move with it
Within it
and notice its passing.

Speed equals distance divided by time
So the mathematician says
On paper that may be right
Reality isn't so
For when a lovers far away
Time it moves so slow

The miles seem longer still
When you drive away from them
You drive a little faster
To try and shorten them

The faster you go the more you think
The more you think the more the burning
The miles decay the time passes by
The speed a measure only of delay
It doesn't stop your yearning

So you see on paper it works just fine
For trains and planes or cars
It doesn't seem to work though for the human heart
For love has no relativity to space and time
It's all encompassing emotions exist inside the mind

Eyes dry he concentrates every mark a testimony
A work of art to each who call but not seen
Its personal, cat or raven
To who takes his ink
Ink is ink but only those who live ink know ink
His time he spends making amends for those who tried before
Fools with no grasp of artwork or hygiene he abhores
Inky simply does his work and ignores the fool's and ******
What you see is what you get and if it's him it's perfection
Others ink like children no skill, no direction
So dont ask a master does it hurt or does he give a dizzy
If cheap you want and Hep c, and many an infection
Then go and find a amateur to ink and go in another direction

In bedrooms now across the borough, they try to dress like no other.
Make up here, slashes there and rubber arms everywhere
A bikini  top, a blouse to tight for **** to fall out tonight
It's all a laugh and games you see for Bexi Boos birthday treat

Half a pound of christening rice
Half a pound of incense
Don't leave me alone with anyone's kids
Pop goes the priesthood

It's ok they'll never tell
The bishop he's been at it as well
But now the press are going to tell!
Pop goes the priesthood

No! we're all in the dock
For where we stuck are private parts
The Pope has had to take the wrap
Pop goes the priesthood!!

Lonely little rock tumbling through the sky
You tightened a few **** cheeks as you flew by
Your mate arrived earlier and gave a wild display
Some messy under garments in Russia today!
Your one of many out there, we no you all exist
Dinosaurs got finished off and I guess that we'll be next
Meteor or comet asteroid or rock
Please wait until I'm dead and gone
Before you next drop !

What are the marks on your tummy mummy?
They're special my sweet it's where you put your feet.
I didn't walk on your tummy mummy.
I know princess it's where you slept, until you came into the world.
Oh mummy it looks so sore does it hurt?
No my love, not at all,
your sister left some there as well.
They don't look nice will they go away?
Oh no sweet pea they're here to stay,
to remind me I love you both every day.

Behind closed doors you do not see how she cares for three
A mother, her children, her whole life's work
From dawn till dusk, day after day
The best for them in every way is her soul purpose in this world
Granted all mother's are not like this, but who are you to interfere?
Self appointed village snout to dig in others business now
You chat and pass your poison on, all make believe as facts you've none
You curtains twitch you evil witch, you make it up to feel complete.
A man knocks, a family friend, but in your mind she's on the game
Another calls to fix a light, in your fantasy world he stayed the night
Are you so shallow yes so bereft ? Your purpose to destroy this nest
A parasite is all you are and yet you claim to have a heart
The authorities will always listen and their attent fueled you mission
How comforting it is to you, thou feel complete you've mixed a brew.
You got it wrong and all you've done is show her as a brilliant mum
All evil has a price you know, you may be old and need someone
A friend to pick you off the floor when the reaper visits your abode
Cry oh cry oh cry out loud, but no one comes to help you out
You burnt your bridges, no neighbour's love, no time for you do others have
Why you ask can this be so ? The answers simple and you should know

Because they don't look behind closed doors.

You said you had a bucket list
I laughed and smiled
I pictured an orange one at your side
A yellow one for posh days. A red one today !
A Silly thought now it won't go away.
I have written for years under a pen name
Something just seeds me to write now and then
It then kind of struck me that it's not quite as mad
As when where children a bucket we had!
From sandpit to garden and beach holiday
It went with us always as well a *****.
So send me a picture, from each of you trips
With you beautiful smile and your bucket In it!

Bring bring bring bring
Answer phone
HELLO!
HI DADDY!!
happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday dear daddy
Happy birthday to you
BYE DADDY SEE YOU AFTER SCHOOL FOR PIZZA
Phone goes dead
Pause
Tears run down face
Warm inside
Now that's a call I'll never forget

Sing to the tune of teddy bears picnic

If you go down to the town today your in for a big surprise
If you go down to the town today you wont believe your eyes
For every man that ever there was is ordering flowers today because
Today's the day the media says you have to!
Revenue time for florIsts, with over priced blooms everywhere
Xmas time for florists just pay them they don't care
For tomorrow morning when she wakes up she'll shake her head and think your a nut
And wonder why you ignored her the rest of the year!!!

Giver her a hug a tell her she's great 365 and not just today
And maybe take her for picnic!!!!

I'm a remnant of a past me.
Driven to the brink
Yet now a few steps back from the edge
Stolid in how I view life
Bereft of a need to just be
Longing to find peace
Together or alone it doesn't matter
Some days are unbearable
Others palatable
A few dire
But if your lucky there is a tomorrow
It may not be your tomorrow
But tomorrow none the less.

Michelangelo I look at your work
Davinci to and I'm in awe
Dali, Picasso saw in their own way
Blake magnificent and Turner as well
Degas, Monet, Manet to
To many to mention or view
All I ask is this half term
You go to a gallery
Help your child learn

Tug at my hair
Nibble my neck
Oh kiss me there I'm all a wreck
Fingers entwined hands up high,
Kiss me harder I feel alive
Down my neck across my chest
Oh god I want more lift my dress
Run your tongue across my chest
I want you now get undressed
Almost made it to the bed
Oh do me on the stairs instead
Oh this is how I dreamt it would be!
Take me to bed and ravish me
Hang on
NO
Who's in my bed!
It's me you see
I'm still asleep
Night's like this
I simply weep

Oh Valentine oh valentine
Like every other year
You get a card from a geek
The guy you thought quite weird
He's stalked you now for months on end
And finally tried his luck
He should have checked the wedding ring
The three kids and a dog!!!

46 today 47 tomorrow
A life that's had highs and lows
Will it feel different? I doubt it no
I can drink, smoke and vote
The smoke I'll pass I'd probably choke
I can marry, err no I tried that one
Don't think my heart could break again
So I can be straight or gay! Now there's a thought
Im sorry guys your not my sort
The world you see is pretty much my oyster
I just lack direction as I get older
Younger days now that was fun
The postman used to think I was a stud
As cards galore the day before
St Valentines to my door
Reality was not quite the same
It to just another day
Now it's different really quite strange
As friends ask What you doing today?
What's planned? Your single now so party man!!!
Sometimes I just don't think I can
Depression you see has become my friend
He visits me around such times
Like the ex wife a parasite
For years it's raised its woeful head
Really ! Wish I'd stay in bed
Well 815 that Sunday morn to a cold world I was born
I have seen wars and famine disaster and greed
Nations bring others to their knees
So the plan is simple all I want
Just to see my daughters for an hour
I can't wait to get the cards that they have made
Means more since they have gone away
Then a cuddle that could make my cry
But they can't see as I just smile.
So go think a while on what you have
Your world may not be so bad
Look into your lovers eyes
Hug you kids, hold them tight.
Oh if your out tomorrow night
Tie one on for me alright x

The Pope has gone
A walker dies
His mates rescued by helicopter
75k to be old aged
Iran is brewing
Syria's a mess
Every day more get killed
Rush and China annoy Japan
And the water bills gone up again!
The football world is always there
Overpaid and seems unfair
Then top it all the weather man
Depress me, more with snow again
So I sit drink my Earl Grey
Watch it unfold every day
Sad to say how much we see
Of death or war on TV
Off to my bed to try turn off
And dream of a better world tomorrow

You look at an old house
She sees a haunted house
You look at a card board box
She sees a house
You look at a the old fort
She sees a princesses castle
You look in the mirror and see old
She looks at you and sees daddy
We had those eyes once
The boundless imagination
Everything was an adventure
Nothing was impossible
Try looking with them again

No day is ever the same
Today was confusing
I've had to change my relationship status on Facebook
No big deal I hear you say
To "its complicated" for a few days
I've sprained my left wrist
It's just not fun you see
  The other hand isn't working out for me!

Her eyes glance across the room
That look of loving no other has
The hair tossed as she turns to face me
She crosses and uncrosses her legs in  anticipation
I go to stand up and she is upon me
Her tongue wet and on my face
Ok Ok I'll get your lead and take you walkies

Why the sudden alarm I ask?
Because you've eaten a horses ***
For years we've eaten all kinds of meat
Mixed with things you find in paint
A list of E numbers a sentence long
Who knew if they where doing wrong
Colouring from crushed beetles shells
Or other insects as well
Artificial raspberry sounds yum yum
Yeah it's made from beavers ***!
So here's a tip to help you shop
Look under the bar code at numbers lots
This may stop you getting cross
If it starts with 5 sling it out !
Its Asian chicken bleached and vile
From roadside **** or any source
boiled in salt of course
So we now protest at a bit of horse
Years to late we've eaten worse.
On holiday you eat bulls *****
Your hotdogs could be his other smalls!
Sweetbreads eyeballs hooves the lot
So diced, reclaimed or added in
You've no idea what's gone in
Mad cow mad horse or confused pig
I wonder if I've eaten each
The veggie options just as bad
With GM foods Monsanto's bag
MSG enhancers to to stop the food from tasting goo
So wine or beer for me tonight
As foods now a depressing sight

Bacon butty anyone?

Love.
Love what?
Their touch ?
Their scent?
The way they smile?
Their laugh?
How they sleep?
Their laughter?
Their tears?
Their weakness?
Their strength?
Or simply
Love them

You park a car on yellow lines you know it's wrong but all the time
Rules are there but not for you,
beneath your place you seem to think
You park emotions on others to
With same flipancey and disregard
I must start reading the Catholic Herald
I missed the date they made you a saint
You speak to others like they are possessions
To fill a gap in your social status
You can't imagine how much it hurts when you destroy people with your words
So now I'll speak little more, you pariah ! Your just a social *****
Tittle tattle rules your day and it replaced your reality
I'll shut up now as negativity has no place
I'm off to see a happier face

Cast an eye over the things that matter
Are they close or far away
Unattainable or simple impractical
But do those thoughts fill the day
Does distance change emotion
Or enhance its fire within
Does the cold of night comfort you
Or savage at what dreams have
Did great explorers travel with their lovers in their mind
Was livingstone restless in his pursuit of knowledge
Lying alone night upon night
Until he bedded his African wives
They buried his heart when he died
Beneath his beloved foreign skies
Alexander centuries before an explorer who took to war
Took comfort at many a camp with native girls of every land
Was he a better or worse person to do so
I guess that shall never know
Now voyager
See the world in all its splendor
Feel sand between your toes
See dawn in a foreign land
See sunsets many more
For it is time for you to go
Walk in footsteps of the great
To lands faraway
Would be fabulous to see you on your return
If you come this way again
Don't get bitten or sick this time enjoy the world
YOU GET ONE LIFE!

The last English King to ride into battle
Would give all for a horse to lead into madness
A curved spine and a ******* he still lead his men
No English King since has had backbone for it
A young prince now a nation's last hope
The rest just an expensive joke
Plantagenat King the last of a kind
Died in battle no horse to ride
A paupers grave the best he could get
Stuffed naked and tied ramed in the ground
No headstone to show a King was beneath
Just ticket machines from NCP

Go now!
Spiteful conveyer
For your close counsel is false and needless
Don't call to discuss your woes and infidelity
Or use others to shield your sworded encounters
No affirmation of friendship is ever trustworthy
As swathed thy black soul is with treachery
Chased away, no drove away happiness between others With bitter contempt and yet brazen still thy protest, yet they called you friend.
Friend! How that was mocked
For they had nothing, save one thing you could not buy,
only love
Yet you clouded a heart that needed help
Drove it to darkness and despair
Was it a fantasy of what was never yours that procured a lie
Or was it simply jealousy?
The man who did not desire you?
Why not he simply must!
The man who asked nothing only friendship
Desired nothing of you nor wanted of you.
Yet you destroyed what warmth he found with another
Thou shalt not covet!
Yet you did.
Oh but he kissed her so tenderly
He kissed her !
Not you
He spoke of her
Held her
Loved her
Not you
It was all about you  
But
Was never you

My little friend
My tickle stick
My happy unatached rubber ****.
Don't have to cook or talk to you
Just flick the switch and off you go!
A shimmer here a tingle there
Oh Mr Shake you take me there
Then when I'm done its wipe you clean
Then pop you in my drawer again.
I don't have to call to phone or chat
Or score your visit in my bed
Batteries cost about a pound
For mummy your just superman!

Profanity  profanity there's nothing like profanity
A cheeky T@@@ a silly cow we just can't stop them coming out
A quick F@@@ off, a ***** yourself
Improves the mood like nothing else
But wait!
It's really better still when alcohol helps the thrill
A sentence made of  many c@@@ and f@@@s
That grammar simply can't construct !
But you my friend have drunk tourettes
You swear and curse amongst the best
The more you drink the more you cuss
You really are a social plus!
In front of kids and grannys too
You just cant stop your verbal puke
I've learnt words in groups I can't describe
Your mouth shouts out in awe and pride
You simply are an ignorant pig
Who needs carbolic in your grid!

It's not a person or what she sees that makes a twitch between her knees.
A gentle rub a closet pressure can make her lips rub together
Once she's off a little moist then a thought is uppermost
Where oh where today can mystery man get me laid
In the park or on the stairs
With or without my underwear
From behind to start or end
Imagination is her friend
Of to the loo she must pop
To finish off her sacred spot.
Returns to desk with inner warmth as shes just strumed and now is calm.

Nobody's perfect I do what I can
If your perfect good luck with that
Your one on your own, cream of the crop
Trouble is I think your a ****
Your brilliant with figures, that can't add up
We call it deception, you call it a job
You magotty toad you utter *******
You bought all your friendship one day it will end
Behind bars or a ditch I'm not shure witch
Who ever gets you first you horrible ****.

Hear it?
The white noise?
Lie awake, it's louder
Like leaves rustling in my ears
Or the constant tone?
Yeah you know!
The noise won't leave you alone

Darkness veils my thoughts
Not gentle, or inviting to sleep
No an intense choking of them

A blackness you cannot imagine
A feeling of alone you can't describe
Not the first time, but may be the last

Like a tight restraint
There can be no clarity
Just a wanton lust for self destruction
Anxiety feeds its depths
A burning tight grip in the chest

Sinister your thoughts collate
Not segmented, oh no
They spiral out of control
They have no place here
Yet have no other home

You're in turmoil and beg for release
Held to mortality by a strand
It's threads thining with each attack
Yet you may see me smile

I don't condemn you for not seeing
You just wouldn't understand
If I tried to explain I'd scare you
You can't comprehend such pain

I die a little more each day
I know not what keeps me here now
Is this simply an existence rather than life
Darkness veils my thoughts

Who is this stranger
A face that seems so familiar
It's features coarse and hard
Its whiskers grey and rough
Eyes no longer bright
Dark rings beneath them
Bags, no, more like holdalls
Wash and groom gel and shave
Presentable for today
A day for what
Who's the effort for
What meaning now as I'm alone
It's not enough my face is rough
My little fellas shrunk to a stump!
No morning glory anymore
Just memories of fun had before
So gel or wax? Who gives a toss
I may even shave it off
Who's to care if it's a cue ball head
Between the hrs I spend in bed
Enough enough ! Get a grip
The stranger really does exist
You lost, your path took a wrong track
Now though you must come back
Until the morn when as before
The stranger looks at you once more

My ***** have dropped
My legs are stumpy
My face is drooling as well!
My nose is running down my face
I'm potbellied too
My clothes don't fit
My hair is gone
I'm freezing off my **** !
My eyesight is crap
I can't hear a thing
Lets face it folks
If I wasn't snow
I'd be on Jeremy Kyle!
With 15 kids and a wife that sleeps around
Thank Christ I'm gone when the sun comes out and she doesn't take me home!

Tattooed and a bike rides in the night
Sleeps in a onesie and loves her dog
Loves the world hates the worst
But wants to have spoons
Oh I'm tiddly poo where are you
Whats it all about

Remember at school ?
Sat in a row?
For a team to pick you to go
You silently prayed you would never be last
Knowing you can't play was bad enough.

Years pass by then the dates begin
The one you like always with him.
Not just him
It's HIM again !
The one who left you on the bench

Time moves on more years pass
You meet again they are married now
The perfect pair or so it seems
He still shares who is in your dreams

A few years more you cross again
He's on his *** and life has changed
The perfect pair no longer together
The love you thought would be forever

But now its odd he's all alone
She flew the coup his lover gone

People change as values do
As time erodes both me and you

She wanted more or was it him?
Communication imploded in

So now you share a different bench
No now picks who ends up friends
You raise a glass to drown the past
Pick me!
Pick me!
An echo now

So now full circle years past
Still they know you not
You write for you not lovers lost
You write to record the thoughts you have
The good the bad the sad the mad
You write in hope it's understood

Now others read the words you write
From far away day and night
Pick me, pick me it matters no more
For those who read already know.

Turn the TV on but I don't want to watch it
Pick up a book I will never read
Close my eyes but sleep escapes me
As million thoughts freefall away
Its not today or yesterday or simply days before
It's the replay of life 30 yrs before
What is contentment what will stop this film
That plays in my mind when I try to sleep

Not today you ******* thing
Two days early it isn't fair!
Mother natures evil work
I'm like a grenade waiting to go off
My stomach aches burning hot
Don't speak or ask me what is wrong
I'm a woman you ***** it's obvious!
Give me a hug x No don't touch me now!
For I'm the moody PMT cow
I love you I hate you god your a man
But next week I'll want you if your still around

Ok let me see Old Testament says seven days
Well six in fact as God stepped back
And like all men, job done! Sat on his ***
Seven days to do all that on week out of 52
52 that make the year that times us here
Now God you see thats my rub because creation was so long ago
We did not orbit quite this way and days and weeks where different then
Six or seven, eight or nine search me God I don't know
But your figures don't add up you know
Big bang I think and primeval soup
Won't sell like Moses other stunts!
So God or Hawking heaven or hell
Choose your own I'm lost as well

Oh mirror mirror on the wall
I think I'm drunk he's gone the bar
Oh Mirror mirror shut your face
I look like i've been smacked again
Oh Mirror mirror your so **** cruel !
The ***** seems to make me drool
Oh Mirror mirror make up time
Mascara in my ****** eye
Oh Mirror mirror lets make a deal
Just keep still my lipys smeared
Oh Mirror mirror I'm finished now
Off to lure another man
Oh Mirror mirror see you soon
If i need to top this up!