I know this all seems so blue
And you feel you're gonna lose,
But one day you'll see
Just come with me...
Come take my hand,
I promise you this...

When life is like a sad song,
You feel you can't carry on.
One day you'll see
Just how brave you can be...
There will be some sunny days
So just stay strong...

I know you're tired of these days
Don't want to carry on,
But listen to me
I promise you'll see
A reason to hold on...
Just follow me

When life is like a sad song,
You feel there's nowhere to go.
One day you will see
How strong you can be...
There will be light again
So just stay strong...

I know it's hard to go on,
I'm there too but I'll help you.
I know that it's tough
But I'll promise you this....
When you sing a sad song,
The days will brighten up

I feel like...
I'm slowly fading away,
lost and so afraid,
I can't really find much hope anymore
and everything just seems so cold....
I just keep hoping that I will find some sort of light
or someone who will help me hold on
until I can reach the end...
I generally have this fear
that I'm going to be left alone
and no matter how loud I cry or scream
no one can hear me...
I'm slowly fading away...

A knife in my hand
I'm wishing it will end.
I know how easy it is
To make my mistake.
Wishing for the end
So I guess....
Here I go!!!

I've done it again
Another mistake
I'm here for you always
Just remember that.
I've done it again
Cried another tear
I need you to be there
You promised me that.

I'm always here
Whenever you need me
I'm a hand to hold
And a shoulder to cry on.
I'm not going anywhere
I'm here till the end
I made that promise
You need me to stay.

I'm scared and I'm worried
I know how you feel
I'd take it all away
I promise I would.
I keep you in my thoughts
I know that you struggle
Step by step, fight by fight
I'm here to share the load...

I feel like...
Nobody understand
Nobody cares
Nobody wants me
Nobody needs me
Nobody sees me
Nobody hears
Nobody gets me.

I feel like...
An outcast
A shadow
A ghost
A nobody
A waste of space

This is all I am

I think it's better if I leave.
Nobody to hurt anymore,
Nobody worry for me.
I can't stand to be around.
I think it's better if I go.
I'm never going to be that person,
Never going to be missed at all.
I can't carry on.
So here I go....

I can't do this,
I'm only fooling myself.
I can't go on like this,
I don't feel right here.

I think I've dealt enough with this.
Too many people I've let down,
Too many people I have missed.
It's better if I'm gone.
I think I've put you through enough.
Too many tears I've seen fall,
Too many fears I have held.
It's so hard to go through.
So here I go...

I can't go on like this,
I've fear of hurting you more.
I can't go on like this,
I'm scared of losing you.

I think I've made many mistakes.
Not ones you're likely to let go,
Not ones you will ever forget.
Let me go now.
I think I've done too much damage.
No one to hold anymore,
No one to tell me I'm okay.
Let me go now.
I'm ready....

Whispers of true friendship.
Is what you gave to me
And yet you've turned your back
And I can barely see,
Through the tears that blur my vision
And the pain that holds my heart.
The funny thing is, is that you promised
You would never leave me alone.

Whispers of I love you' s
And promises of forever.
By best friends words
That meant the world
Seem to be crashing down.
Kindness that I cherished
The person I so dearly wanted
Pushed me away in fear.

Whispers of true friendship.
Too many promises of I'm here
The gentle words you spoke to me
Have been torn out from my mind.
So many long, tight hugs
Making me feel wanted
Are now broken and shattered
On the cold blood stained floor.

Whispers of fighting together
Never leaving or parting.
Helping eachother through thick and thin
But now that seems to be leaving.
So many distant memories
I'm trying to cling on too.
The words forming in my head
Over and over and over....

I needed you there....
I need you here

I've tried to be so strong
But I guess it's failing.
I've tried to hold on
But I can't see the light.
I'm scared I'm gonna lose you
So I can't say what I want too.
I don't want to break what we have...
I don't want to mess this up.

I've got this fear of failing you
Or not helping you enough.
You mean the world to me
And I can never give you up.
I've seen you cry
And held you tight
To let you know I'm there
And I promise you, I'm never going anywhere.

You are my best friend
You said we always fight together.
I have you and you have me
Never alone to defend ourselves.
The things you've told me
And no one else makes me feel worthwhile.
My dearest friend who means the world.
I hate to see you so hurt.

A promise is a promise
And for that I will never leave.
I love you company and hate to leave.
I'm just a call away when you need a friend.
This will get better for us
The words we say so much.
I'm here until the very end.

We've cried together
We've laughed together.
I've seen you so very low
I want to take this all away from you
And help you see your worth.
I can't help but think I've failed.
There is so much I want to say to you
But I'm just too scared.

You figured out I fell for you
But we both couldn't say those words.
I know I had my chance before
But I need you in my life.
You are my best friend
And I can't mess this up
But you told me I would get that chance again
We still talk but avoid that topic
When will we get this second chance?
When will we admit we want this change?

So many times I have sat and cried,
You've wrapped your arms around me
And comforted me until I was done.

So many times I have faked a smile
You've seen right through it every time
And told me everything will be alright.

So many times I have forced a laugh
But with you, you make it real enough
And you bring the light to my world again.

So many times I have wanted to let go
But you've gave my world meaning and purpose
And you fight along side me for a better day.

So many times I have failed to see the truth
But you help me realise the many reasons
And told me what you think of me.

So many times I have lost faith in me
But you've held onto me until I'm strong enough
And you tell me you will never leave my side.

So many times I want to be in your arms
But I know what you've been going through
And we both promise to keep eachother going strong.

So many words I want to say
But how to make you see,
That how I feel is true.
So many words there jumbled up
Inside my messed up head.
But one thing I know is how strongly I feel
And I just cannot let you go.

You hold me up when I fall down.
You've held me when I've cried.
You are my best friend
This I cannot deny.
So many things I want to tell you
But how to make you see
That I think I've fallen for you again.
I cannot jeopardise what we have.

My best friend, I need you to stay.

I feel so drained and tired
yet I can't sleep...
I don't really eat and I barely drink anything
Yet I feel so hungry...
I've cried near enough every night
Yet I cannot stop...
I feel like this barrier I have been putting up is slowly breaking down
I can't control it...
I feel so weak and fragile
That one single thing could throw everything out of proportion
and I crash...

I'm so scared and worried.
The thought of losing you
Haunts me.
The thought of you not being here
Sends tears down my face.
I love you more than words can say.
You always know just what to say.
I will be lost without you here
Another piece of me gone.
I need you here with me..
I can't cope with you gone.
I love you more than words can say
I just hope you realise
Before you leave me all alone.

Why do you tell me I am strong
When I break down and cry.
Why do you say you need me
When I can't help but bleed.
Why is it everyday I forget
How to look ahead and see
That I am not going to be this person
The person you all see.

I am weak, I break down.
I always cry and get lost.
I feel alone and so empty
I have nowhere else to go.
I'm too weak to carry on.
I need you more then you know.

I can fake a smile,
I can force a laugh,
I can sing and dance if that's what you ask.
I can hide the tears,
I can mask the pain
I can come out of hiding if that's what you ask.
I can shelter my heart,
I can distance my feelings,
I can keep secrets and silence if that's what you ask.
I can shatter my hopes,
I can burn all my dreams,
I can turn away from you and them if that's what you ask.
I can be true,
I can be blind,
I can hide my true self and thoughts if that's what you ask.
I can say goodbye one final time,
I can do it all now,
I can end it all and watch it burn if that's what you ask

I'm feeling so tired
To the point I can't bare to stand.
I'm feeling so drained
To the point I can't bare to be around.
I'm done with the caring, the trying, the breathing
I'm done with the hatred, the crying, the bruising.
I'm just so sick of it all
I want to give up and throw it all away...
I'm tired of the hurt and
Weak from the pain
I want to be free
And this way I can

I ask for your time
Yet I'm left all alone.
I long for those talks
But I'm scared of getting too close.
One day I will not need you always there
But right now I do
And you never seem to care.

My friends I can't stand to be around
I'm afraid I'll hurt them so.
My family I can't stand to see
I know all I do is let them down.
I long for the end of it all
The day that I can finally rest.
I hate getting to close to anyone.

I don't want to be around anyone
It hurts to see them hurting.
I can't stand to let you all down
And now all I want to do is change this.
I know I've got to do something about this.
I'm too scared to put down my defences
They are  slowly creeping higher.

I think too much
When the darkness comes.
My mind keeps racing
Thoughts are swirling.
Round and round inside my head
This all happens when the darkness comes.

I deserve all the pain,
The cutting, the bleeding.
I deserve all the hatred
The lies, the blaming.
I deserve every heartache
I deserve the bitter taste of loneliness.

"You're fat and ugly"
"You're a ***** and a slab"
"You're never good enough,
So go die in hell"
"Nobody cares about you're tears"
These voices are haunting.

When I'm in a dark place
I lose who I am.
It's a different girl completely
I'm done with all the pretending.
I'm a selfish ***** with no one
I deserve to suffer and die.

I take a final step
I hold my breath and count
I'm going to take the leap
It's finally the end.
My mind will be put at rest
And I can finally sleep.

This sharpener blade
Pressed on my skin
Drawing blood as I breathe in.
The scars will not fade
And the scars will not lie
About the story of my life.
The sickening felling I get afterwards
I know that this is no good.
There I  one thing that vegetable
One thing that makes me think
And that is the heartbeat
Which tells me that I'm alive
I cannot escape the feelings
Of never being good enough
I cannot escape the feelings
Of wanting to let go of life.
I'm desperate but still I can't accept
This life is just too hard to handle
So many people think I am strong
But they can't see the tears that fall.
I'm not good enough for life
I'm not good enough to stay alive.
With this cold blade pressed to my skin
I can feel the blood oozing
This lets me know I'm alive
That's the last thing I want to be.

When your tears fall each night,
You can't help but sit and cry.
You know you've messed up once again.
When you smile but it cracks
Yet nobody seems to see
The fact your wall is breaking down again.
You spent so long hiding
Your real smile has gone
Replaced by this fake faded smile.
Now I'm only one person
But that should be enough
To make you see I'm barely hanging on.
I'm tired of holding on
My strength is fading fast
I'm not sure how long I'll make it.
When your tears fall each night
You've forgotten how to smile
Your not even sure you've got a place to go.
Just know I'm not the only one
Who feels this way.
My strength has gone
I'm so close to the edge...

There are so many critics
They all want something more
I'm sick and tired of faking
That I am happy still.
There are so many demons
They all want to break me down
I'm sick and tired of trying
To make everyone else happy.

So this time I will hold my breath
Count to three and pray it be over.
I just want to let it all end.
There are so many helpers
But I still feel so **** helpless.

I'm crying here
All alone left on the floor.
I'm dying here
I want help but can't accept
That you're there for me all along
That you want me to stick around.
But I know I'm not better here
I'm scared I'll let you down.

You have tried so hard to help me
But you just don't understand
No matter how much help I get given
I'm still sick of being around.
I know it's not fair to do this
But I'm not quite sure you see
I want the help I really do
But I always feel so down.

I'm crying here
All alone to face my fears
I'm dying here
Even though I know you're there
But there's one thing I can't help but think
Is this the way it's meant to be?
Am I meant to try and hide my pain
To try and prevent it all from affecting you.

I'm not sure if I can do this
I never meant to hurt you bad
But I needed to know you would be there for me
No matter what went wrong.
But I guess  I pushed it too fat
I had nothing left to say.
If I could change the way things played out
I would never of hurt you.

Oh oh oh
I'm crying here
I'm pushed you all away again
I'm dying here
I want to change the way this all worked.
But I'll never get the chance
To tell you that I mean this
I'm sorry for what I've done
I never meant to push you away
I need you around.

I don't think I can do this,
I've done to much already.
I'm going to leave you all alone
So you can carry on.
I'm not going to be there to hurt you all
Or to make you worry anymore.
I'm not going to watch the pain in your eyes.
I've got to keep away....

So many people out there
Think that they know me
Truth is you can't see
The secrets inside of me.
So many tears I hide
Screaming for something more.
I can't let them free
Because of what others think of me.

I've got to try and run away.
Let these things disappear.
I'll fade away into nothingness
Let it all wash me away.
I'm too afraid to fight it off
To afraid to speak.
But I know it's getting closer
To the end that I may face.

Food is like a nightmare
A scary reality.
The thoughts of ever eating
Haunt each day I like e.
I have a deep dark secret
The walls I've built to hide.
I cannot speak,I cannot say
The reason that I cry.

Talking is now my enemy
I've lost the ones who cared.
My head is spinning in circles.
I know no one is there.
I'm broken down inside
Left to shed these many tears.
I want to end everything
But I can't open my mouth.

I've pushed them all away.
I know the truth about me.
I'm too ignorant, a *****, an idiot,
Worthless, a failure and weak.
There is no point to carrying on.
There is no point to life.
I don't know what I can do....

I'm lost on these dark shadows.
I have no escape from this.
It's dark and cold.
I'm so alone.
But I'm the reason
You have all fled.

Tangled up in thoughts,
These words circling my head.
blades lay out beside me
Ready for the first cut.

Tangled pieces of my heart
Unable to make amends.
I'm lost for words
And so it seems
I'm out of my witts end.
I'm struggling to face it
I'm struggling to live.
I think I have enough strength
To take this life I live.
I've had enough if misery
The lies the heart ache too
But deep inside I know the truth.
I'm nothing without you.
But people say they understand
Could this really be.
I take this blade, I take this knife
And then I count to 3.
The more blood that is flowing
The easier it seems
To hide away all of my pain
So it will never be seen.
I'm finally going to do it.
I have the courage now.
I'm going to end this life I leave
No one can stop me now.

You told me this all before
They say it all again
but they never understand
Deep down I know the truth
But things happen and its not me.
I'm lost somewhere I sure
And I can't make my mistake.

I'm trapped in a room
With no Windows or doors.
I'm trapped in a box
With no keys but a lock.
I'm tortured inside
With no cure to be found.
It's not me who is showing.

When the darkness takes over
The real me is lost.
I feel a different person inside
I know I've been lost.
It can take days, weeks, months
For my true self to return.
I'm trapped once again.

I often think about myself,
That I'm worthless and weak.
I often think I can't make it,
That I'm a terrible person.
I feel like a failure
Often a loser too.
I can't escape from my nightmares.

I cry so often on my sleep,
I cry in front of people
But they cannot see.
I often do not eat
I starve away the pain ,
Instead of cutting
No matter what I hurt.

I want to scream
But no one hears me.
I want to cut
But it makes me feel worse.
I want to cry
but I am afraid of these people.
I never know what to do.

With words I've been betrayed
You tell me that you care
But I won't let you bring me down.
Tell me why it's always me
The one that always feels scared.
You smile when I fear the world
After you promised to be there.

I can't trust people
I'm too scared to let them in.
People tell me to be strong
But they don't know what it's like
To be lost inside your own head
With nowhere to escape
But let the darkness consume me.

Shattered glass
Broken promises.
Filthy lies cover you.
Scratches up and
Scratches down.
Painful fears behind painful tears.

Popular people
Put you down.
Laugh and  joke
Behind your back.
Scratches that cover.
Scratched that hide the pain away.

Your mask is your wall
You use it all day.
Hiding real tears
while fake smiles get I'm the way.
Black makeup running down your face
As the true emotions come spilling out.

I know that I sound crazy
But it's happened once before.
To all you girls and boys
Who never quite fit in.
But remember you a're different
And that's something you should cherish.

Be strong my dear and hold on.
It's never right to bleed.

Blackened skies haunt my dreams,
Nightmares that are just too real.
Droplets of blood
Seeping through my cuts.

1 cut, 2 cuts, 3 cuts and then more
Waiting for your words
To tare me all apart.
Another ****** memory.

Snow white scars line my wrists.
Blood red tears line my cheeks.
Safety pin bandages cover my arms.
Long  restless nights of pain.

I don't know what I'm doing,
Scaring my arms and legs.
I don't know what I'm doing,
Hiding away from the world.

I'm a lost cause,
We've known that from the start.
I'm a messed up girl,
That's never going to change.

Her bittersweet revenge
Lingering in your mind.
Those haunting ghostly words
From a girl locked away
from this evil eyed world.

Her haunting ghostly complexion
The cause of all your nightmares.
The blooded knife that fell
And missed you by an inch.
You are too afraid to cry.

The ****** in the alley
Your name written in blood.
You know that she is coming,
You're the next one on her list.
She tells you that you best get running.

To her it's all a game
The first one dead wins it all.
But you don't know her secret...
She is a figment of your imagination.
She is that girl you bullied to death.

Her bittersweet revenge
Lingering on your mind.
You made a promise
and never again
Will you make anyone suffer.

So just before you speak a word,
Make sure you know the truth.
This could be your next sin.
You could be her next victim...
The girl you bullied to death.

Soft red liquid
dripping down my arms.
Scarlet crimson colour
possessing my thoughts
and mind.

Thoughts of death and spirits
clouding up my mind.
Death notes written
thoughts of death
crossing my mind.

Trying to hide my pain
away from those so called friends.
Trying to hide the tears
that come so frequently.
I'm not who i used to be.

Pain is just apart of life,
apart I've grew up with.
Another day of trying to get by
but no-one see's me cry.
I hate this so called life....