When you can feel your temperature change a degree, it's strange
When you are sure calories have just converted into energy and climbed atop a great cell divide,
When you fraction yourself merely just to survive
When who you were turns blue right in front of you and you don't do all that you could do to revive

When you feel like feeling isn't fair,
When you think knowing too much is as certainty a disability 
When you are so far out of touch you're self reflecting 
When you are so tired of hearing it you close your ears to spite your sound ability to listen
When you have said all that is in your head,
Maladjusted as is everyone you once trusted

When you fall to the ground because your heart aches, and not a soul is around

When you begin to realize to really realize
Decipher the real from the lies aka the truth apart its guise
It is so crippling ..
You immediately begin to paralyze

Out right
Left in cut short
A little less retort could more
For sure of sorts,
For what peace of mind the ego of pride
Mind you deny,
So shall you continue to try
You know you are a diabolical fish out of water,
So you drown yourself
You don't respect me
So why not let feelings abide

I feel like ****
Remember it

The art of breaking down a box hasn't a hat to match
The art of breaking down an animal,
Breaking down a human being
Well let's define meaning;
We will wreak carnage
We will be savages,
Ravine all that is before or bestowed upon us
Settled into content with no remorse or resent,
A prudent taught into a student
Intuitive

But the dawn is what brings us in
To a new day again & again,
From head to tail we spin
As do bottle tops & drunks from gin,
What the **** is zen
When the world we live in
Is sin isn't it insane

I wish for stars that aren't even ours
far more than showroom cars way past par
I wish for hope & dreams to rearrange 
to be free from falling apart
for every day to disengage
between all that we love to hate
I wish we could turn around
just to come back 360 


Full swing lord you must forgive we
the people you set sail & to see
how inglorious is he
who takes from unforgivable greed
envious thus proceed unfeasible tangiblities
so dense, we cannot see much sense
so we heal in hope that bleeds

There is something to say with being deprived
Of everything short of the sun,
That with freedom comes undone
You don't even feel like one
Whole isn't your sum,
Not even half
You are apart to every nothing to start at something
Would be anything I am willing
I am able
I am always able, body permitting
Which can always be shaped for fitting
I am seen as an incapable, which to me is indivisible
I don't want your sympathy
For I am an individual my belief is incomprehensible