I am a good guy
I work out
And not bad looking

I want to meet a woman
i want to meet a woman

A woman to be my friend

I hope to meet a woman
Who will be my friend one day

Why are you still rooting for America?

I'm not rooting for American sports teams

This corrupt and wicked land

Corrupt banksters

And politicians

I separate myself

From this wicked land

He sits in front of the television

For hours each night

Don't you have better things to do

What a waste of time!!

I'm Matt
And I do as I please

Thousands and thousands
Of hours

Human condition
Downloaded

20th century history
Downloaded

I'll tell you
What "I do"

I read books
And take notes
And learn about history
And other societies

I'll tell you
What you do

You watch the television
And water the lawn

That's what you do

I've had enough
No one tells me
To do anything

I have images

Of Mujahideen warriors
Driving out the Russians
To defend
Their way of life

And while others fight
To defend their way of life
I will fight to defend my way
Of living

It will be a war with words
I am a man of Tao

You do not tell me
To do anything

Whoever "you" are

You have a lot of nerve
Suggesting that I get
A part time job
On the weekends
To pay my bills

I'm a substitute teacher
That means working
Two days a week

I have no intention
No intention
No intention

Of ever teaching full time
Of ever teaching full time
Full time teachers don't make much
Anyhow

And they dedicate 50 hours a week
To what they do

I have too many interests
I like to read
And hike

There are too many
Beautiful things to see
Mother

As I drive
Drive around

Get away from the TV

This nation is in trouble

I will not work part time
Over the summer

You will pay my bills

If you want a war
Bring it on!

You can't picture a time
When our society has collapsed
When we are eating canned goods

When the shipments sent
To the markets are infrequent

I can, I know
I know
That our country is in
Some trouble

And no
I won't work
Part time
For a minimum wage

Because
I do As I Please

If that makes me selfish
So be it

Stop announcing where you are going
Or what you are doing

I don't f** care
I am 30 years old

You never worked
Just sat at home for 30 years

I don't ask how he is
Because I don't care

Get a clue

Sit in front of the television and stare
Stare at the screen from 7 to 10

All you can do is repeat
The same cycle again and again

Don't ask me how I am
You'll never know

Remember
I don't ask you
How you are
Because I don't care
I don't care how you are

I don't care to know
How many anxiety pills you had to stuff down
To make it through the week

I wish you well

I worked my whole life
And this year
I'll be working part time again

America the ship
Sinking down
Down down down

In deep waters
Buried in the ground

Trillions in debt
What a shame
To the bankers
I guess it's just a game

I don't like violent movies
With excessive violence
It is one thing if the violence is necessary
In telling the story

If there is excessive violence for no reason
I find it bothersome

Why does he watch these movies
Such garbage on the television
He watches such garbage

I don't care for the television

Bashing
Smashing

Iphone cameras

Sitting across from me
Recording the Chinese
Flute player
So sneakily

Was an asian man

I hope you keep
That video private
I don't like to be
In anyone's video

It was a powerful moment
And you captured it
On your camera

I think I had
My glasses on

So you could not see
Small tears that flowed
From me

I understand if people
Want to record a ceremony

Next time
I will be more careful

Look around to see
Make sure there is no
Idiot

Filming me!

People who record me without
My permission

That is something
That is difficult
To forgive

Well
It was probably
For his own
Personal enjoyment

I learned a valuable lesson
Not to be in the same area
As the performer

Must hide, hehe

"Lonely_Christian

Do you have a mic?
Then we could both chat"

Said in a loving and kind
Female voice

I don't I thought
And I said that I didn't
In the chatroom

And she left

I was close
If only my mic
Could hook up
To my ipad

That beautiful voice
She is out there
Somewhere

What a kind lady

I am a young American
I do not know
Any women

I spent my time alone
Reading books

I dream of a female friend

I dream of a female friend

I dream of a loving friendship

Of hugs

And smoothies

Of loving each other

But not too deep

Of sleeping with each other

But not having ***

I'm kind and romantic

Hehe

Are you misunderstood?
Ignored?

Not liked
By your own family?

Are you poor?

If you care,
This is just to say
I can relate

I am told
I have to choose
A "career"

In a dying economy

And I laugh
I laugh

Does he not know
There is only poverty

For people my age

Does he not know
The middle class
Has been decimated
In this country?

I will not work my forty
Hour work week

I do not buy into
A dying system

I have not had anything to eat
Since this afternoon

Do you know
What it's like
To be very hungry?

I don't
But I think
One day I will

I dream of another place

I dream that my wife
Is a Kurdish woman

That I fight alongside
The YPG against ISIS

I have a community
I am not isolated

Like in America

The things I do
Don't result in
Many paper bills

But that's okay

I'm kind and loving

Remember all
The small deeds
Count in the end

How you treat
The parking attendant
Your family
And barber too

All the small things

I am a poor man

I dream of kind
And loving women
******* exposed
So I may
Drink their
Nourishing milk

I dream of friends
And spending an hour
Or so with someone
Chatting, walking

I see other people
With friends

And look at me
All alone

I have
A few good friends
They do not
Live alone

I dream of friends

If I am living in the end of days
Or the end of America
Let it come

After all the things
I've been through
I'm not afraid

I'll be on the golf course
Even if they have shut it down

Even if there are hurricane force winds
And lightning
I just don't care!!

I'm alone again
How I always was

This is my game
A game I will play forever

The emptiness, The pain
And there is always more

Always more of this
Whatever it is I am doing these days

On and on
Shot after shot
Hole after hole

The therapist she
Left me
And it would have

Been nice
If she told me
She loved me

But she didn't!

And so I return to
The golf course

Despised by man
Misunderstood
Hated

My akward shoulder and hip
Forever alone

When judgement comes
There is nowhere to run
Or hide

When judgement comes
To America

I am sitting all day
Alone again

Month after month!

America dies slowly

I return to the mountains
Like Gollum
Hobbling around

To eat a small fish
Out of the stream

Pretty women
Didn't like me!

And all I ever wanted
Was to find a mistress

A loving woman who
Would listen to me cry
And comfort me

But of course
Things you desire
Don't usually ever come true

A man that likes women
But is never around them

I am always tired
It's this earth
This existence
That I find exhausting

Eating
And seeing and seeing
The same thing

My female friend is not coming

And so I go to hit
Golf *****

Return to the golf course
Until Jesus the Savior returns

They announced
It was the end
Of the world today

I just smiled and laughed
And thought
It will all be okay

And so what
Is after this life
We will one day see

Heavenly and peaceful fields
For you and me

I create what it would
Look like
In my own mind

And I envision
How I would pass the time

A conversation with Socrates
Maybe Epictetus too
Oh how intellectually stimulating
And good for you

I will climb pristine peaks
Wade waist deep
In crystal waters clear
Great love is always near

I think
I may always be
Quite bored

Wandering here
Wandering there

And what's it
All about?

Just be a good guy
I guess

Maybe I'm not like
Other people

I lack drive
Or commitment

I'm just lazy

I found myself
Gently *******
On a *****

For a beautiful woman
I talked to online

Then I found myself
Listening to
A British documentary
On Afghanistan

And no
I'm not embarrased
To admit that

Lol I hope the women
Will think I am a *****
And wonderfully whimsical
Loser

Well have a good one!
I guess I'm just
Born to lose
Lol

If the world ended tomorrow
I would just say who really cares

I'd just be sitting under a tree

Laughing at all the people
Running here and there

I guess this is the end
I'd say
Oh no

Looks like
I never found
A female friend

And the therapist
Left me

Earth really blows

So if Russia drops a nuke
Or China deploys an EMP

I'll just be the guy
With the akward shoulder

Eating dried apricots
In some random tree

Women

They never touch me
Or notice me
Standing over there

I do not think
They even care
That I live or exist

Being ignored by beautiful women
Really is sh**

Maybe one day
A woman will hold me
And let me ****** her breast

Women are ****
They are the best

I should buy a birding book
After all
I now have a video of a sparrow hawk
And an oriole!

I enjoy watching the birds
How they go from one place to another
Like people do

First here
Then there
Flitting about

I had cereal, yogurt, strawberries, grape tomatoes
A small bit of toast, and some peanut butter
For my breakfast

Although I can't remember the order
I have no money for gas
So I'll walk to the gym again

I think I'll chip golf ***** later

Need to pay off minimum payment on credit card

Ugh and I have to pay that parking ticket
I needed the money days ago
Oh well
I'm used to being broke

I hate it here
I am tired of these people
When I leave

I do not ever want to see
Or talk to these people again
I don't think I will even bother
Going to their funerals

These people are obnoxious
These people are repetitive
I don't ever want to see them again

Don't pat me on the shoulder

I'm 31 years old
I don't wish to be patted
On the shoulder

Do it again
And I'll punch you

And run your body over
With the car

Go to hell Dan

I hate this home
Let's watch it burn

Put torches to it
Now it's your turn

Grab some gasoline
And a breathable mask

Let's burn down this home
And make sure the fire lasts

I'm tired of this home
And these people here

There is no job
And never any money

I'm going to scream
I'm tired and angry

Soon our whole economy
Will collapse

Worthless America
Soon to be taken over
By Russia and China

I won't be here during
The holidays
I don't care at all

I hate this place

Look at me!
Alone in my room writing poems

So ladies, is my profile picture ****?

You know I am a ****** and almost 30 right?

I have been practicing with my fleshlight, haha
I have been practicing
OOhhhh *** and *** and more ***
Americans love ***
And I am a 21st century ******!

I hope a woman finds my writing arousing
And I hope it makes her ***, hehe

I hope to begin
My retirement soon

I talked to a teacher
Who had just retired
"I'm finally free"
She said
Lol!

Free from what?
You were suppose to enjoy it after all

Freedom is doing what I love
Freedom is being a teacher
When I begin teaching
I will be entering into
A permanent retirement

Non striving
Let the times pass through
Cessation
Extinction

Gone beyond
All topsey turvey absolutes
This phrase I remember
From Allen Ginsberg's rendition
Of The Heart Sutra

I hope to breast feed
Like a hungry baby

To be comforted and consoled
By a loving woman

As I **** the warm milk from her breast
What a delicious treat
Mmmmm I'm hungry

I hope to buy a driving iron
And I hope one day
I have some steady money
To play golf
And buy some things

I hope to have a little money
To have a decent apartment

Maybe I'll be living at home
For a few more years

I can't seem to find a job
Lol

I hope to find a mistress
I want give her oral pleasure
For as long as she desires

To help her ******
Again and again
Is a sacred event

I ran three miles today at a 7 minute pace
I did something I didn't think I was capable of
Our minds our powerful

I will go to bed holding a pillow
Wondering what it would be like
To have a female friend

Just hugging that's it
Hugging and to feel loved by another
It would be so fulfilling to me

Could a woman ever like me?
I don't know

I can't get a good job
Or get my own place

A shame I guess
As kind of a guy
As I am

And can't find
A female friend

There are female voices
I guess
On the internet

I like asian women especially
I hope to meet
An Asian princess
Perhaps

Well chances are slim
I suppose

When you have no money
At least there are mountain trails

I hope to be hugged
And to be loved one day
I have a bit of an akward shoulder

But that's okay

I would like
To find a female companion

Please give me a hug
And isn't it nice

I served you a pumkin latte
With cinnamon and spice

I hope to meet a pretty woman
I hope she likes me too
After all, I am a loving person

We could talk about history and philosophy
And after we got to know each other more
We could become intimate
Maybe I could give her oral pleasure

I am in love with women
Strong and kind women
Compassionate and caring

I want to hold a woman
And have her hold me to
I've always been alone

This is a hard thing to do

When oh when will I meet my mistress?
I hope she has a lovely apartment or small home
She will wear her lovely black boots and designer jeans
And perhaps a **** blouse too

In the winter evening
We will have a nice fire

I will lie across her lap in only my *******
It will be so comforting to receive a firm spanking from her
It will be a loving spanking
Just firm enough to show she is in charge
But not too firm to make me cry

She pulls down my pink satin *******
Whap! Whap!
First 10 spanks with her hand
And then the next 10 with her wooden hairbrush
She used the hairbrush because
She thought I could have done a better job
Cleaning our kitchen floor

I have never been so happy to serve my mistress
I have prepared a lovely dinner prepared for her
After we eat
I will give her oral pleasure for as long as she desires
What a beautiful evening indeed

I hope to use my tongue
To help a beautiful woman ***

Oh heavens!
I didn't realize she was a squirter

I'd like to think
There is some secret admirer
Of my poems

A woman who has very much enjoyed
Some of my writings

Perhaps a line or two
Excited her sexually

Well
I can always dream
Lol

I was once told
That I had
To work a
40 hour work week

I laugh at that idea

I am here
To do
The absolute minimum

Because I can
And I will

The end.

I'll go to the gym
Then come home

In the morning
I think I'll pack a lunch

And I think
I'll spend
A day at the park

You know
I just don't care
If I'm always poor

This country is doomed
Anyhow

I am a loving person
And It's not that fair
That I spend so much
Time alone

But life is never fair

I spent alot of hours
At the gym
Never got a great body

I'm content
To be misunderstood
Ignored by the world

Looking at attractive women
As I walk around the park

Yes, this is earth
This is life on earth

Mum asked me
If "I had a nice day"

What is a nice day?
I dislike the word "nice"
It is a meaningless adjective

Sounds like something
A mind control subject
Would say

I just say it was fine

And I don't even care
If they threaten to kick me
Out of here

I'll keep the key
To the house

I'm going to live in
The park

I joked with my therapist
About that you know

About living in a park

She used to say
My poems were beautiful

She left me
And her other clients

I enjoyed seeing her
It was enjoyable
She left me

I think
She left me
And I'm leaving society

Forgot a job
And money
I do not care

I am content
To wander here and there

Time alone is for me
I expect no sympathy

I guess
I'll go reading
Tomorrow in the park

I may sit there
Until it's dark

Liz my therapist she
Went Away

Now nature is my friend
I like trees, okay?

I Realize Now
Why I don't watch movies
Or television shows

It's because I hate violence

I believe in a final judgement
I don't care if people think
It's stupid

There must be justice

Every time
I try to watch a **** movie
There is guns
And violence

I'll just stick to my podcasts

I refuse to work
Part time

Somewhere
As a cashier
Or something

Over the summer

Not like I could
Find anything anyhow

I'll lose my car insurance
If I can't make my car payment
It's an automatic withdrawal

Then what will I do
How will I substitute teach

I won't be able to drive

Then they will get their wish

I'll be stuck here.

I'm never touched

And no
I don't want
To shake your hand

I shook my therapist's hand

She left me
With little advanced warning

I don't trust most
All people

So I'll bow instead

I spend the days alone
Nights too

Oh well
No female friend
Will ever come

I will try not to write negative poems any more
I have much to be grateful for

Still there is a certain sadness in life at times
I don't know why
I guess I really care for a beautiful married woman

Now I told her all my private thoughts
So humiliating

Maybe one day I'll meet someone
At least I have golf

I'm almost the last one to leave the driving range

It is a special game
If you love the game like me
You would understand

It's so hard
I'll play that game in heaven one day

I know I will be able to do that
The game always loves me

Not like this woman
Who broke my heart
Into a million pieces!

Listening to music
Writing poetry
Reading articles

The machines are what help me feel!
God bless the machines

But the machines are always there
I think I will read about impermanence

Kind women

Are everywhere

I love their beautiful smiles
And beautiful eyes

One day I hope to meet
A female friend

And pleasure her
Between her thighs

So Ladies
Could a woman
Ever be

Interested in me?

I love history
And philosophy

And enjoy a bit
Of stand up comedy

About 12 to 15 miles
A week I do run

To keep my bottom in shape

For my future mistress
So she can spank it
Just for fun

Lol

I hate you!

I screamed at Dustin Hoffman
As he sat with Elaine
On the back of the bus

At the end of The Graduate

I was angry because he found
Something real

Something fulfilling
And someone
Who cared about him

All I have is an IPad
And another day alone!

Showin' up
At randomn times and places
Seein' different faces

Got a check for $42 dollars
At Play It Again Sports today

Then deposited the check

Not sure what to do with the money
Should I buy some emergency food
Or an extra pair of shoes?  lol

Finished off the other half of my double double
And small chocolate shake

Chipped golf ***** and hit sand wedges

I'm here, I'm there, I'm everywhere
But I'm never in a place
That pays me money, lol

Put my tax refund
To work to start
Saving for the long term

The more I save
And the sooner I start
The easier it is
To build up
My retirement savings

Yes, sounds wonderful
Spend every waking moment
Form age 31 to 65 getting ready
For work
Going to work

Saving up money

I'll pass
There will be no
Retirement savings

I rely on the generosity
Of others

And I only work 1 or 2
Days a week

This is my life
Heh

According to the teachings of the Buddha, life is comparable to a river.  
It is a progressive moment, a successive series of different moments, Joining  together to give the impression of one continuous flow.
It moves from cause to cause, effect to effect, one point to another,
One state of existence to another, giving an outward impression
That it is one continuous and unified movement,
Where as in reality it is not.
The river of yesterday is not the same as the river of today.
The river of this moment is not going to be the same
As the river of the next moment.
So does life.
It changes continuously, becomes something or the other
From moment to moment.

All human activity
Must be geared
Toward
"Earning dollars"

Preparing to work
Going to work
"Working"

These
Are the requirements
Of the simulation

Choose to design
Your own life program
WIth its own parameters

And that will annoy
Some people

So what
If I don't
Want to work
Five days a week