Dawn.
The Enemy.
Murderer of my most sensual dreams.
Thief of my dance with death
Interrogator with light and exposure as weapons
Dawn comes too fast, too soon,
and with too much force
when all of my desire wants nothing more
than to writhe in Stygian fantasies
for the rest of my existence.
-Lesa Renee

In response to "Dawn"

Dusk.
The Protector/the Temptress.
The Twilight Goddess consuming the fire
her black shawl darkening the sky
   with looming desire
spread from her hellish cave, forlorn.
She beckons with lust within devilish dance
consuming my soul with her smells,
   taste, skin, eyes and hands.
Her torturous reward
   as I scream for your skin
is to allow but a glimpse
   of my fallen goddess' silhouette of sin.
112209~5.22p

Cold is setting in to the city
as this feeling seeps in
   so deep.
Mists of misery engulf me
and grey once again covers the skies
filtering the color and joy from my eyes.

I've grown so tired
so alone
so mired in my misery.
I get ******
I breathe a little softer
I think a little less
about how I feel.

I conjure images of mountains
and me on top
a teetering soul dying to lean
just enough to the side
then I'll slip & drop.

The sweet end to this
would be so welcome.
I'm tired of hurting;
tired of this ******* pain.
I'm sick of wishing it were over

101309~5.9p

Still riddled with holes
straight through my soul
An empty longing
A hollow belonging
I miss it all
(except the ****)
I yearn for an escape
yet, I can't stay lit
I'm so lonely
I'm scared to form a bond
Grasping so firmly
to something so insubstantial
is nothing but a trainwreck.

070909~6.51p

My sweet love
captured by a bug
oh, that I could chase it away,
bringing the light back to your day.
I'll give you kisses,
though I may catch it, too.
You have all my well-wishes
to help get you through.
I'll grab the bunny veg
(and some soup for you)
Just tell me, my love...
I'll do whatever I can do
to bring back your happiness
within that sweet Summertime Sadness.
........................................................­...................

061715~7.23a

My mind sways this morning
like the tops of tall trees
My fingers across your skin
as the breeze caresses through the leaves
Each one touching and bending
to connect with another
A sweet good-morning
to awaken my lover

061615~6.57a

Now, forever with
the one true for me
Time's slow gift
took so long to see:
Our hearts wouldn't shift
no matter how free
or how wide the rift
or how deep the sea.

050115~1.36p

I want to reach out
pull you back
     into my life
To bear the obligatory
     anger
to revisit the reasons
I shut us out
Both selfish and selfless
because I love you
     and because I still love you.
Because happiness for you
was threatened by me
because however selfishly I wanted
and because it is never to be.
You are a dream, an ideal
an immortal muse
that should not be real.
But, selfishly, I desire.
Selfishly, I'm weak.
Because god ******* ******
I need you to speak!
I need those words that ignite passion inside me
I need the sound of your breath
so that I may breathe.
I need the stare that
looks deep, then down and away...;
that bitten lip....
that timeless face.
We share stomach scars
and we stared at silent stars
I miss the intensity
   that Distance knew as ours.
I need the unique bond
I've only found with you,
my inspiration.
     My goddess
          my friend,
               my muse.

033109~5.03p