You look at me like you’re nervous.
You ask me why I was staring at you.
I pretend I wasn’t.
I tell you I was reading the poster behind you.
You look away.
Memories of you come back.
I don’t know if I love you again.
Do I want to?
Do you?
Please do.
Ugh.
What am I doing.

I forgot how to love.
Now I am mistaking things
For what they aren’t.

I don’t want
People to gravitate
Towards me
Like moths to a fire
Like light to a black hole.

I want people to come to me
Because I am happy
And they are too.

I feel like a vessel,
Holding salty water inside.
But my metal is weak
It’s basically tinfoil,
And my water rushes out.

I'm wrapped in coils,
metal and scaled
wrapped in problems
tall and small
i wonder where the hell i went wrong
it could have been on the first drink
it could have been just yesterday
i really don't know when i started
maybe it happened with the star necklace
now i'm included, yes indeed
im not lonely anymore
but is this really for me?