" Say something I'm giving up on you". ...

My blue has faded to gray
My heart gasps as I let you go
I wait to hear just a word
Is there anything you like me to know

I've bared to you my soul
Walls I let crumble in vain
Giving you more than ever returned
I would of loved you the rest of my days

I'm left with broken pieces
The smallest petal to fall from a rose
I weep for what will never be
For emotions you could not bear to show

I would of held your hand forever
Beside you on the darkest day
Capturing the sunshine through all the storms
Showing you a love that would never fade

I could feel what you can't share
I see what you refuse to admit
I just need a sign
Don't let this end like this

Love so precious in this life
I tried to give all I had with you
Each day I loved more
Even the one I realized we were through

I tried with  all I am
To let you feel beneath my skin
I couldn't get past those walls
You guard so closely what you hold within

I wait to hear your voice
Anything to ask me to stay
The silence is deafening
How could you just let me walk away

Kiss me like there is no tomorrow
As if I were the rarest rose
Cradle me in your sunshine
Make me feel at home

Be the silk rose petals on my pillow
The air through my lungs
The tender kisses that sustain me
The lyrics to my favorite song

Be the hot breath on my neck
The soft nibble to my ear
The arms that surround me
Conquer my fears

Be the hand that I hold
My lover for life
The keeper of my heart
The thornless rose I hold tight

I vow to you my love
I place my heart in your hands
I will love you like no other
I will give you all I am

I will adorn you with kisses
Loving each inch of your flesh
Showing what true love feels like
I will take away your breath

For me you are my rose of perfection
I have loved you a thousand years
I promise to love you forever
Never with doubt or fear

My  thirst for you
Intoxicating bliss
Weak to your embrace
You are my only wish

I am drunk to your touch
Inebriated with each kiss
You're my drug of choice
I can never resist

Love drunk with you
My addiction so sweet
I can never have enough
You are the air I breathe

No words can express
My deep love inside
I am no longer lost
I feel so alive

You are all I desire
My passionate need
In your arms I am perfect
I finally feel complete

I searched a thousand years
I almost lost faith
I thought love was but a myth
I let my dreams fade

One beautiful night
My destiny arrived
Awakening my heart
Letting me know I'm alive

I fell in love
A man of pure grace
His beauty and devotion
We're to be my fate

Love drunk I surrender
My heart and soul in hand
I vow to love you forever
Giving you all that I am

This woman
Caged within
Bound by what's ravaged her
She rips through my skin

Her mind darkened
Aimlessly roaming through the night
With words unspoken
Of horrors that delight

Tears of anger
Spill from the heart
Bleeding profusely
Ripping me apart

Wanting revenge
For tragedies, pain  
Suffering immensely
Tears of acid rain

Just to watch
As others wither in vane
Of sins they cast
Of damage that remains

Watching them suffer
She just walks away
They are not even worth
Their pitiful display

Picking up her pieces
Shroud in disgust
No happiness in closure
So few you can trust

Lost within my mind
As chaos ensues
Don't leave me stranded
The memories I can't lose

I need to feel
My scars so deep inside
As I wallow in the pain
Reminding me I'm alive

Fragility rattles
My layers within
The core of defying me
Where it all began

I open myself up
As I die again
I choke just to breathe
You seep through my skin

I can't be in the dark
Alone I"LL break
Feed upon my demons
Tell me lies to my face

Pain buried deep
I will never be whole
It will never leave
Defeated, I let go


Paralyzed in fear
Alone in my mind
I rip out my heart
I can't leave it behind

Tears of acid rain
Burn through my flesh
I'm never enough
Always second best

Regrets have stolen
My memories decay
Don't steal from me my horrors
Slowly I will fade

I give you my emotions
Dark and intense
As you have forsaken all I am
I have no defense

I lie within the ashes
The darkness my home
Devoured of memories
You have taken control

These thoughts I let define me
Exhaustion pumps through my veins
I am enveloped in misery
I have become numb to all the pain

Everything is silent
There is only the beat of my heart
Unable to share what's inside of me
I wander alone in the dark

As if I were crystal that has been dropped
My pieces crash to the floor
I look aimlessly as they surround me
I have become the person I deplore

Within my mind a storm is brewing
The clouds have turned an ugly gray
The winds of self destruction are agitated
With malice they scream my name

Once I fought like a warrior
Now it is so hard not to succumb the shame
I fight with all that I have in me
Knowing in the end It is only myself, I have to blame

I beg of you not to try and fix me
This is who I truly am
I drop deep, but I pull myself up
Please don't try to understand

This is my battle
I know its so all too well
No one else can do this for me
It alone is my inner hell

In the end, I rise above this
Dusting off the immense pain
My pride whimpers softly
Tenderly I cradle my sane

Intoxicated in his embrace
His succulent lips so bitter sweet
Sinking into waters uncharted
Baring all in sensual defeat

Innocence is not invited
This seduction is wild and free
A kiss of temptation awaken a seductress
His hunger to taste her he could not foresee

No words have to be spoken
Touching with taste a canvas of greed
The flesh, so eagerly awaits its greatest fortune
Bodies of fire beg and plead

A connection that could never be fathomed
Two souls joined together are now one
The deepest core of their beings united
As love and lust become undone

The deepest of oceans has been discovered
Smoldering passion spreads like a disease
This ****** danced has drowned all senses
Two beings so feverishly please

Heartbeats pound uncontrollably
A cherished flower  devoured with ease
Two worlds collide in climatic unison
As wandering fingers continue to tease

The fruit is no longer forbidden
The hunger is not ready for flea
Yearning for more this night is not over
For in each others arms is the other key

I painted this smile
Do you feel who I am
Does it masquerade the ugly
Showing what's good and not bad

I adorn this gown
Made of satin and lace
Hiding from the world
Just taking up space

Behind this mask
You cannot see my eyes
They give light to what's dark
I would no longer have a disguise

They would show you pain
The type I could never share
Allowing vulnerability to blossom
Life is not fair

I remain silent
My words always reveal so much
The pain would surface
Showing how regret is a crutch

To share deep within
Always a risk
Allowing all flaws to peak out
How I cannot be fixed

I will keep this mask
I can't have you lost in my eyes
You would crawl in my skin
I'd have to confide

Here I am safe
I am surrounded by walls
In control of what is seen
As I crumble to fall

Cried out eyes
Haunted by dreams
Even when awake
Inside I scream

An echo through my mind
Tormented, I weep
The pain so excruciating
The secrets I keep

Darkness surrounds me
Taking my breath away
Somehow this life
Has lead me astray

My wrists bleed to just feel
The blood covers the floor
I have sewn them closed
Continuing to fight this war

Regrets have consumed me
My heart cries in vain
My mind is the enemy
Thirteen million miles from sane

This is the real me
I have hidden so deep
I have shed my skin
I struggled so hard to keep

Alone in the dark
Depression has eaten me alive
Anxiety its partner
I don't think I'll survive

Look past my facade
I am broken within
This cancer has forsaken me
I am too weakened to win

Do you know how it feels
Could you really know what it's like
To be verbally abused
To have words cut like a knife

Have you ever felt the fury
Having been punched or slapped
Simply because someone could
Then look into your eyes and laugh

Have you ever been the quiet one
Always a bit different than the rest
Trying each day to just make it through
Have you ever been an outcast because of how you dress

Have you even been to small
Maybe you are the one they feel is too big
Their words and actions bring you to a breaking point
Have you ever made someone feel they no longer wanted to live

At this very moment
Another child has taken their life
Another bully is destroying someones spirit
When they are done there is another close behind

Have you been the one to take the abuse
Maybe the one that looks the other way
You could be the one that does the damage
Just know these are memories that will never fade

If we all could just think before we act
Try to feel what our actions can inflict
For a moment, try to step into the shoes of another
Maybe then some of this torment would not exist

There are the bullies of the internet
Sometimes there are many who will band as one
Never thinking or caring
How destructive words can become

Could you be that one person to shout its wrong
To stop a punch before it hits
To stand tall against those who bully
To be that one person who resists

A silence that deafens
Echoes through the chill of the night
A single rose without meaning
Her petals wither and die

Lyrics without music
Screaming to sing for the song
Quietly it stumbles
Never recovering from the fall

A heart that is broken
Cries through the darkest of days
For without love, it is frozen
Into the abyss it shall fade

Those who lack faith
Can never see the silver lining of the cloud
They fall from grace without warning
Their spirits never to be found

Find something to believe in
This world is far too cold to be alone
Don't be a lion without courage
For your sins, you can always atone

This dark and frigid road
Is paved with broken dreams
Always I bare the struggle
Life never what it seems

A wildflower
Growing so lush
My love is not tamed
It's always in a rush

The first winter snow
Always so pure
It blankets my surroundings
Will love endure

Believing love is enough
Feeling it will always last
Diving in heart first
Then falling just as fast

Barely catching my breath
No longer feeling sane
Broken and used
I can't do this again

I look for enemies
The guiltiest goes by my name
Tearing me down
In a puddle of shame

My soul so weakened
This ache  won't subside
The heart always unstable
Has it finally died

Ugliness consumes me
Showering dark to my days
As I bring to life my own suffering
As I wallow in my ways

Standing all alone
It is always my fate
I search for answers
Does love really hate

Indignity follows
It's become a second skin
With nowhere to hide
So much damage within

God only knows
This love I try so hard to attain
Is always just out of my grasp
I am left  alone with my pain

Softest whispers in my ear
Delights have left me weak
Your touch confines me
Deep within I long to please

Slowly dancing cheek to cheek
Feeling each move that we make
I am  surrounded with your desire
All inhabitants I forsake

Each taste of my skin
My heart begins to pound
Each nerve has awakened
As we fall in unison to the ground

Eager and wet lips
Are burning in my soul
Slowly hands glide past my hips
I have relinquished all control

As our heated bodies align
An intimacy that clearly speaks
Exploring each inch of bare flesh
Hungry for all that our lips do seek

Falling eagerly into you
I share all that defines what is me
A need to give you all that  I behold
This is the only place I long to be

A soft sernade can be heard
As each ****** is drowned in delight
Our rivers join together as one
There isn't anything that has ever felt so right

Drenched bodies slowly breathe
As we revel in our bliss
Through the night our dance, we repeat
As we are devoured within our kiss

In the darkness I am free
I no longer dwell within the light
A fractured existence left for me
There is no relief in sight

Bury what you feel
Deep inside my soul
Keep far away from me  
Pain eats you whole

I cannot breathe
Deep within my core
Love is never what it seems
Always tainted never pure

If you have love for me
Don't ever let me know
I've surrendered to the dark
I have nothing left to show

Leave me in my hell
I can't be who you are
My heart ripped from my chest
All that was sacred torn apart

I still see your face
It is imprinted with my soul
Your breath gave me life
Till the day you let us go

My fingers trace your place in bed
I always remember how you felt
Your lips so bittersweet
Was it worth the hand it dealt

Just walk, no run away
Your words I can no longer bare
You just gave up on us
You can't love if you don't care

How wrong it all  can be
You are still in my life
Id love to be your misery
To cut you  like a knife

Cry your tears of sorrow
Against my hardened heart
You never cared at all
You were lethal from the start

It is the darkest pain
That fills the soul of the poet
Freely it paints a canvas
The torturous agony that bestows it

The night so dark and cold
The scars of yesterdays blackened tears
Screams echo so loud within
Yet outside such strength has appeared

So tired is the oppressed mind
That must live within its self proclaimed hell
Listening for a sign to light the way
Wanting to never look back from its tormented spell

What is it that will make them flee
To escape from all they've ever known
To bask within the numbness and tranquility
To release the misery and atone

To be lost among the thousands
To never look back on affliction again
As nothing is as it ever seems
Life always so hard to defend

In the end their words remembered
A voice desperately needing to be heard
For a lifetime of darkness they could not escape
The canvas of emotions, their final word

Drown me in your passion
Your kisses so sweet
Pulling your hands through my hair
My knees already weak

I need to bask within your essence
Melt within your embrace
'Tasting your lips so tender
Tracing the lines upon your face

Your eyes the perfect hue of blue
Your hands always know their way
Loving me so intimately
As I watch the expressions on your face

My body bends to your will
Your touch sends shivers to my spine
As we make love so breathless
As my desires I confide

As two we become one
I forsake all control
Together in climatic perfection
I finally feel whole

As we both touch, with taste
Our only concern each others needs
I love you with each fiber of my being
Your hunger I long to please

In the afterglow of sweet surrender
As you declare your love to me
I have waited for you a lifetime
You are all I'll ever need

It is not seen
It cannot be heard
It is not felt by touch
It never speaks a single word

Could darkness be a place
Maybe it is a state of mind
Could it be clouds within a storm
The one place I can always find

Where I learned to be strong
Where I ran to forget life's tragic ways
Where I never had to be perfect
As  the nights blend into days

It is where I hear a thousand words
Yet not one passes through my lips
They sing a chorus of my deepest sorrows
Will there ever be a day I can forget

Please keep your tissues for yourself
This is my self proclaimed fate
It is where I wallow in silence
From all the mistakes I've ever made

My house of glass has shattered
Only a fool could believe it would not break
The heart always the most fragile *****
Love seems to visit yet never stay

I fell upon the most treasured beach
Its grains of sand became my gold
It was true love upon my arrival
Then heartbreak called my bluff

For a mere moments I was beautiful
I wished the moment would never fade
I was amazing, I felt wonderful
This foolish heart, I have to blame

I thought I had found forever
Two hands whose fingers lock in place
The other half to make together
The sweetest memories to never fade

Within the bliss my world shattered
I learned forever, I would never breathe
Many others had learned this before me
My salted tears felt no relief

Soon I will just be a forgotten name
Slowly I will fade away at dusk
A distant memory that felt such strong emotions
Till it realized it was *******

This broken mirror is like my twin......

Broken mirror
Shattered dreams
Nothing ever
As it seems

Scared of life
Scared of death
There is no place
To catch my breath

Crushed internally
My mask a smile
Cloaked Facade
My demons hostile

Tears of love
Heart of pain
My demons rise
Clawing at insane

Such jagged lines
Below the skin
Hidden from the world
All I have sinned

I beg forgiveness
Save my soul
This pains devours me
I have lost control

This reflection
Tortures who I am
My heart is cold
I feel I'm dammed

I want to hold you tonight
Help you undress
Corrupt your morals
Hear your desires confessed

I can't deny my hunger
I'm left with such a constant ache
My thoughts drip with anticipation
I can feel your body shake

Let me consume you
Make love to you all night
Let my fingers stimulate nerves
That I playfully bite

I need to taste your flesh
Leaving not an inch I haven't touched
In places most never talk about
Let me show how to make love

Explore my body
Leave no stone unturned
Feel the muscles in my thighs
I'll whisper things you've never heard

Your skin is but a canvas
I need to create with my lips
Your moans are the sweetest sounds
Your hands so strong on my hips

You have awakened my tenderness
It is drenched in my rain
It awaits your sweet kiss
Climatic ecstasy calls your name

Our bodies are famished
Our thirsts we must  quench
As we collide together
Falling off the bed

Both saturated  in sweat
Both so out of breath
A glass of wine as we rest
Then we climb back in bed

That single moment we touch
You whisper my name
Our guilty pleasures, a hunger
My temptress you tame

Upon a brass bed
Enthralled, we are one
Our love filled with lust
Our desires succumb

The warmth of your lips
Touching with taste
Our hands entwined
To make love without haste

Fascination reveals
As out clothes shed with perfect ease
A playful nibble to the neck
Such an appetite to please

Wet lips pressed together
They make love real slow
Your hands pull through my hair
Our bodies in passionate throes

A gentle touch of my breast
Awakening my sin
Lower you explore
Shivering within my limbs

Falling into your embrace
I relinquish control
As you ravage my essence
My rain overflows

In a climatic eruption
I call out your name
My body still squirming
You tenderly caress my face

Our bodies align
I can taste the salt of your sweat
Making love with such a frenzy
Silk sheets on the bed

Two have become one
Seduced within each others grace
Your river has overflowed
Your wetness invades

Our bodies are on fire
As we taste each inch of flesh
Fulfilling each others needs
We are both left such a mess

Laying in the afterglow
The sweetest kisses are met
We start to make love once more
Wet bodies, damp bed

My breath has been stolen
Words whispered sweetly
Taste of lips so tender
Ravage me completely

Skin touches
Bodies pressed together as one
Mouths hungrily seek
The first time , the unknown

Hands through my hair
Pulling me close
Lips devouring my neck
So little control

My flesh quivers
Nimble bite of the breast
Hands caress my hips
Your hunger confessed

Touching , tasting
Souls exposed
Two that we're alone
Finally whole

Feasting upon my eden
Climatic ecstasy begins
My voice fills the room
Your sin buried within

Bodies collide
Together they are one
Overflowing in our rains
The beauty of making love

His voice confines me
Hot with the stench of stale wine
His hands rip through my hair
Entering the darkest corridors of my mind

I submit to his game
His nails dig deep into my flesh
His teeth draw blood
As he devours my neck

He snickers so wickedly
Watching my reaction to pain
Smiling, he bites my lips
As he whispers my name

Pain his sadistic pleasure
Nipping at my ear again till it bleeds
Lapping the blood from my neck
He is aroused and pleased

My will has surrendered
I forsake all control
Enticed with his mystique
He ravishes my soul

The darkness is his playground
He seductively draws me in
Touching as he tastes
He's awakened the temptress in my skin

My flesh is like fire
Each touch releases a climatic relief
Lost within my essence
His pleasurable pain drowns within my sea

My screams in the night
Fall upon silent ears
I am weak to his pain
This ****** pleasure I fear

He is  euphoric were alone
He is seductively teased
He towers above my small frame
As I cry out he is pleased

Pulling me tight in his embrace
He knows I won't resist
Famished he devours me
Biting down harder with each kiss

Skin scraped from my hands
I fall to my knees
He rages inside my essence
Filling me with his disease

All good has been depleted
Fulfilling all his sadistic desires
Each time he caresses my skin
My flesh bleeds like fire

This is how he loves
Enraged and fierce
I have fallen prey to his beast
My existence very clear

He lays upon my *****
Satisfied and pleased
I dig a dagger deep in his chest
Pulling his heart out with ease

I gorge upon the feast
******* with pain
The most intense ****** is reached
Forgive me, but I can't wait to do this again

"We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I've left to do
Discover me
Discovering you  John Mayer "



Take my hand
I have missed you so
Love me all night
Please don't let go

I have longed for the touch
Of your lips on my skin
I desire you so much
I have imploded within

Pour us some wine
As we lie by the fire
Look into my eyes
Tell me all you desire

Such passion held
In my heart for you
Reflects on all
That I say or do

If I searched this world
There could never be
Another man that
Could complete me

As you pull me closer
Whispering what we will do
I melt in your arms
I am infatuated by you

My love my passion
Will never die
One kiss from your lips
Reminds me why

Your lips on my neck
Send shivers down my spine
Your slide pass my hips
Exploring all that they find

You pull me closer
As you softly moan
Sliding onto your lap
Whispering I hate to be alone

I am shaking from inside
My composure
undone
Embracing in all you are
Our dance has just begun

Our bodies entwined
As we fall to the floor
Moaning softly and gasping
All our passions soar

Your body against mine
Nothing in the way
Such a rhythmical motion
As our hips sway


I am intoxicated as you kiss me
In places I never knew
You have touched nerves
That came alive just for you

I lay in your arms
My knees have become weak
Such beautiful pleasures
I can barely speak

I loved you with
My heart soul and mind
Tonight was about us
All the pleasure we could find

The eyes always a window to the soul.......


Beautiful eyes
Begging me to stay
Sultry kisses
Take me away

Strong arms
Around my waist
Feeling their way
Without haste


Fingers explore
Soft and slow
Turning the heat up
As desire grows

Skin to skin
Falling to the floor
Lips to lips
Wanting more

Devouring each other
As carnal delight
Soft moans heard
All through the night

No one else exists
Just you and me
Bodies entwined
In pure ecstasy

''You take away the old and show me the new '' Justin Furstenfeld





I am a "open book"
Complicated as can be
I always love to deeply
My emotions take over me

I have to have honesty
A liar I deplore
Trust is imperative
It is so hard to restore

Looks are just a mask
To cover whats within
The beauty that we seek
Is beneath our skin

Friendship is most precious
It is where all relationships start
If you don't have that
It is so easy to fall apart

This is what I need
To ever love again
To really love a lover
You have to love them as a friend

I am like a raw nerve
Always on  alert
I am strong on the outside
Inside is where I hurt

I always love to fast
It such a huge flaw
I wish I could change
My hurt wouldn't be so raw

I want to feel again
With someone new
It seems a life time away
Impossible to do

I never feel a little, it is always so intense.


I am so enticed
By your mystique
I distress the intensity
I feel with you

The joy I feel
Brightens my life
It intimidates  
My thoughts of loss

The hunger I feel
Haunts me to my core
I am intoxicated
In who I am with you

When I kiss your lips
I fall into a stupor
The taste of you lingers
You ****** my senses

You consume my memories
The softness of your lips
The strength of your arms
You arouse each nerve

I desire you
I undress for you
The emotions I feel
Bring me to my knees

Entwined together
My lust is overcome
The furor to be with you
Has rendered me helpless

Alone in my mind, heart and soul.........


Your name echoes
Through the streets
Dark and desolate
This is my mind

Your beautiful face
Resonates through pain
In an obscure fantasy
This is my mind

Your smile delights
The bleakest stairways
Secluded in fear
This is my mind

Your touch silently
Roams unnoticed
In the frozen corridors
This is my mind

I am oppressively tired
I have walked miles
Empty chambers of darkness
This is my heart

I am frigidly alone
Emptiness has stripped me
I am naked and feeble
This is my heart

I am emotionally frail
Pathetically opaque
Judgement has died
This is my heart

I am morbidly desolate
Exhausted and depleted
All feelings destroyed
This is my soul

I am luridly forsaken
By pain ravishing inside
Leaving nothing but darkness
This is my soul