I should really just disappear,
I am worthless,
I am bland,
I have nothing to give nothing to hand,
I am a fool,
A ****,
A tool,
I am no queen, I have no rule
I live for no reason,
No happiness or lot,
Without purpose
Without wisdom
Without thought

Without goodbyes,
Or  alibis,
I sit and stay in silence,
But in my sleep,
Threw sunken eyes,
I lay and dream of violence

I lost my legs yesterday,
They no longer carry me or walk,
I lost my mouth yesterday,
I can’t seem to smile or talk,
They jumped on a plane and flew away,
In to the midday sun,
My head and chest,
Lay still in rest,
Without emotions,
Without a thought,
I watched with hollow eyes,
As the yellow lemon sun  swallowed my memories sweet,
And sit in silence now,
On my hallowed feet

Three words,
Three little words,
They come in different formats,
And can be used in endless situations,
I’ve said them,
And I don’t think you quite understand what I ment,
Those three little words,
Are how I express so much more then language,
When I whisper those sweet words,
I’m not just exercising my mouth,
You know how I’d do that,
And I’m not just expressing my love for you either,
When I say those three little words,
I’m saying that I want to stay with you forever,
I’m telling you i will do my best to make you smile,
I’m promising you, that I’ll be yours until you don’t want me,
I’m offering you my life,
Not just my love,
Those three little words mean that I want to talk to you everyday,
I want to wake up  surrounded by the life we build together,
I want to feel your warmth at night,
I want to cry over our fights, not because of our words but because we aren’t together,
I want to be able to call you home,
And Those three little words are the only way I can say that to you without pressure, without commitment, without guilt,
Because I know you plan on leaving,
Going back to your hometown,
And you aren’t going to invite me,
So instead of saying I want to be with you forever, without  pressuring you to take me along for the ride, and without the guilt of knowing you didn’t want me there, I say those hopeless three little words, and I mean it every time.

I reached out and grabbed a star today,
I pulled it from the early morning sky,
I took it as it lay,
Without  guidance,
I climbed highest mountain I could see,
Looked into the eyes of time,
And it gave you to me,
Today was not suppose to happen,
I should be long gone,
Asleep,
But I reached out,
And I became the best that I could be.

“I wish I had more of it “
People say,
Time is a  precious thing,
You can’t hold it in your hand,
Feel it grow or shrink,
But it shapes it’s way around you,
Touching everything,
You only have it when you have nothing for it,
And you long for more of it if ever you have a reason,
Your time with love,
Your time with life,
You spend your time and walk on by,
Eventually your time will end,
And  you will only have been,
But until then you’ll lay in bed,
And wish silently in you’re head,
“ I wish I had more of it ”

Warm, blurry, dancing,
The dust mites swing through the air,
My fingers curling his hair in small circles,
I close my eyes and drift into the abyss,
The gentle hum of radio
Playing a smooth sweet melody,
I stretch out like a cat sun bathing
This basking warm feeling in my chest
Spreads and flows through my veins
Driving, down, slowly
Caressing the  elegant  Keys through the window,
Soft, and warm like the grass we lay in as we gaze up at the dark curious sky.
The purple haze of the mountain painting  brilliant streams of sunlight on the cotton clouds,
You’re strong  comforting  arms Surround me like the ocean,
Silky and silent I watch as the luminous stars dim and glow in the  velvet blue sky,
I want to stay with you,
I want build and grow and climb with you,
But that’s for time to decide,
I close my eyes and slip into the sun
Warm, blurry, dancing

I feel empty,
I feel grey,
No color,
No feeling,
No life today,
I know I can be happy,
I vaguely remember a smile,
I can try to copy,
But I wouldn’t last a mile,
Like a broken down car,
Like an abandon circus clown,
I won’t go far,
But I can go down,
I’ll wrap my arms,
Around my legs,
Get choked my liquid charms,
Crawl on my knees and beg,
I don’t care if I disappear,
I am colorless I am dull
My life is a pale shade of nothing
And I don’t care at all

He is young, beautiful and simple,
I know what he likes, I can feel it,
Watching him on top of me,
His warm, hot beauty rocking back and forth,
My heaving breast covered by his rough hand,
My legs wrapped around his body,
His tongue, warm and strong, in my mouth,
I can feel him inside me,
A low drum driving me insane with desire,
The fire inside me burns and licks at his skin as our *** builds and climbs,
Every time he crosses my mind,
I lose all self control, if I see him in the hall,
I have to beg myself not to fall,
To my knees and plead for him to let me do as I desire,
To push him hard against the wall,
And let my fingers caress his beauty,
Hard, strong, thick and warm,
I’ll trace him, taste him, tease him,
Until his desire is begging me to let go,
I tease him until his mad tantalizing lust turns against me,
Now I am on the floor,
He pins me down and grinds me till I burn,
I yearn for more, I beg and plead
Please,please,please
The cliff I stand on shakes and my legs brake beneath me,
I fall down, soft and slow
Until the icy, cool water submerges my heat,
I want to say I love him,
The words play on my lips,
I pull him close,
I want to stay like this forever

I close my eyes, but no compromise can be seen,
The fragile fabric of my fort,
is tearing at the seam,
the dainty  frame, remains the same,
no time will make it warp,
and still my dreams like tambourines,
get played  and tossed, like sport,
a steady low drum, becomes their run,
as they sprint and glide and leap,
the darker side, is leaving hyde,
marching to my trembling keep,
red, glowing eyes, like spears,
pierce my shield and brake my spell,
when the night sky clears, through all my fears,
I get dragged to hell.

My world isn’t safe,
My walk home is full of rathe,
Greedy people, haunted lands,
Drunken fools hungry hands
Running, still it hardly hides,
The fear I feel,
Consumes my mind,
I try and I plead,
And I stand stiff in line,
The words leaves my lips,
With dominance in its tone,
Please, dear God,
Leave Me Alone.

Please help me I lost my way,
The road looks the same
And honestly who is to blame,
My  hitchhiking Gears aren’t working today,
The bright stains on my  clothes refect the orange clay,
My arms go heavy and legs get lame,
Without support I’ll fall so I use a cane
I need to rest but I don’t know where to lay,
My direction is lost and my eyes are heavy,
Death in the desert is cold and on fire,
The the slow march of my stumbles as I levy,
My ich in my thought is burning and dire,
Please help me I’m lost and alone,
But you can’t  lead me for I have no home.

My life is full of you,
If I were to be a cup,
You my dear would fill me up,
Not to the middle but to,
The moon, where your  iridescent eyes,
I dive in and swim through,
For your smile there is nothing I wouldn’t do,
But if only you really knew,
The deepest fear that lives inside me,
The  silent deeds I preform to please it,
For all that I live I’ll long to hide the,
I’d rather be burnted and hit then finally submit,
I love you deeply for you are my light,
But in my heart I cover you in spite

You, You annoy me,
Your fake smile reflecting glee,
Like A stuffed animal,
You sit silently with your marble eyes ,
Slowly charming through all of your lies,
I hate that you’re like this,
You warm people like a sun,
While inside you’re abyss,
an empty shell of a car with a fresh coat of pant,
Someone might buy it too,
But I know they can’t drive you,
Yet you do drive me,
You drive me to anger with the world,
Make me for a child,
Sleepy and curled,
Your not real, this I know,
But I can’t hate you so,
I sit by the door like a lonely pup,
And wag my tail,
You’ll come home and drink your cup,
You, you aren’t clear,
But I want to hold you near,
Please, please don’t leave me alone,
For you might be hollow,
But I am stone.

An ant bit my eye,
Oh me, Oh my
An ant bit my eye,
But still I do not cry.

It burns..
I will learn,
Will it swell,
I can’t tell,
But it stings
In my eye
Oh me, Oh my.

An ant bit my eye,
But how am I to cry,
The irritation is present
But what does it represent?
Will it swell?
Who should I tell?
It’s starting to burn...

I should probably take my contact out,
I dont have my case,
Numbness comes to my face,
An ant bit my eye,
And even though I don’t cry,
It burns...

Walls are meant to be broken,
truer words have never been spoken.
I stand and I stare,
and I want and I need,
my arms still stay at my side,
my eyes grow wet with plead.
A desire to be more than a word on a page,
even just a change in font would offstage.
My expression is always blank,
emotionless I comply with whatever you state.
Without motivation I' ll die where I stand,
for I am a woman, and you are a man.

Take a long, lurking look,
let the lush locks last through your lungs,
little and lumpy you'll lie as you lay,
you'll say limply lets love today.
Your lisp looms loadly and through your lips lava flows,
lighting low the last lingering, laughing  pose.
You are the large lady of the lake, or the lady of the large lake,
the label lacks legal life, so little does it convey.
lift lightly the level of liberty allowed,
lend luck to the litigate link or the literal crowd.
Your laziness and lustful desire for more,
launches like leeches your obsession to lore,
my liquid lady belittles my league,
be it later or latter I must ask you to leave.
leave my life, my longing my light,
let the lead list you left lift me higher,
allow the lead I gave you bring a everLasting pyre.

She came from the water,
her beauty  unbearable,
She lived in the water,
her power unbreakable,
We loved in the water,
our passion desirable,
We died in the water,
our liquid burial.

He was a lonely little lad,
His life was full of hardships, but he wasn’t mad.
His mind was a diamond,  brilliant  and pure,
He smiled like an  angel, his kindness was a cure.
Still the world beat him down,
His heavenly wings cemented to the ground.
He smiled at the folks as they went, but still he cried while he slept.
He was a saint, a gift, a child
Yet the burns on his heart were far beyond  mild.
The world was still cruel, and deemed him not useful,
But he just smiled because he knew people were beautiful.

From this day forward I vow to never again let you wake up alone,
I will hold you tight even when your cold as stone.
No more tears will shed from your eyes and run down your cheek,
for I will be your umbrella.
No more burden will weigh you down and make you feel meek,
for I will be your horse.
Your sweet lips will never again be lonely,
for you will be my one and only.
The moonlight you love will be yours to bath in,
for I will fish it from the night sky, and plant it in our den.
Till death do us part,
your beautiful smile will be my favorite work of art.
Till a dark kiss puts me to sleep,
yours will forever be my sweet.
your eyes to the moon, your lips to the stars,
your mark on my heart is far than a scar.
Everlasting bliss,
will be sealed with our kiss,
our eternal souls forever intertwined in the abyss.
Oh, I loathe if it were to dismiss.
An eternity with you in my arms,
perpetuity basking in all of your charms.
Where ever we go, whatever occurs,
forever you will be mine, and always I am yours.

Ode to magic,
ode to life,
little by little we all say goodnight.
Open the box to find your dismay,
innocence is merely an illusion they say.

I think not,
The fiery embers in a dragon's gold eye,
the brilliant blue in a indigo dye.
The light might be bright,
but the shadows are brighter,
come all ye faithful and bring me a lighter.
Find War and find Famine,
bring them to heal.
Look for death and Pollution,
make them deal.
A little magic can go a long way,
the broken and fallen know where they lay.

Ode to the trickster,
Ode to the fool,
ever protected by the honest ghoul.
A bit of salt over the shoulder,
a bit of luck to be bolder.
Over the rainbow,
and through the woods,
promise to all it will be good.
Some truth for the youth,
and some lies for the elder,
a life without love, or some steel with no welder.
to be dishonest,
to be a slave,
ode to the magic we gave.

She’s crying, how dare she cry.
I hate it when she does that. Hate,Hate,HATE, but her eyes only show sorrow.
How am I suppose to compete with that?
“STOP!” I yell, but it doesn’t work.
She sobs, uncontrollably like a water fall, her eyes an endless pool some how overflowing.
How dare she cry at a time like this.
I’m supose to be scolding her, sharping her like a dagger,
And then she cry’s.
Her silent tears begging me for forgiveness,
No, No, NO!
I can’t give in, not now not ever.
All I yell is met by  innocent  eyes,
She doesn’t understand,
She whimpers” I’m sorry”
I go to the door” actions speak louder than words”.
The door slams shut.
I can hear her crying, but I can’t comfort her,
I don’t care if she hates me.
She needs to to stronger,
She needs to  survive

Twas a dark day, a dark day indeed,
The day the dead doth come forth and feed,
graves upon graves and miles upon miles,
suddenly you'll be bombarded by evil grins and sinister smiles,
At dawn you might fawn,
as the dead ***** the lawn,
but your pride might subside,
it is best that you hide
Oh mark thee a fragile mind,
for my humanity has left me along with the time

Run, run little rabbit,
Run far away from me,
Go, go little rabbit,
Go where I can’t see
Far, far my beloved
Far from my hungry eyes
Hide, hide my beloved
Hide from all my lies,
Quick, quick fragile flower,
Quick to turn around,
Fast, fast fragile flower,
Fast before I pound,
Down, down little rabbit,
Down before you fall,
Poor, poor little rabbit,
Poor to  listen to my call.

What do I do,
when my comprehension of you,
surpasses your understanding of life,
Your wants and your yearns,
are far from grown up concerns
My longings and desires,
are no where near your mental pyres,

I fell for you, a child
and when I say you drive me wild,
I mean in denial,

I'd be a alterable Sensi
my loss of emotions would leave you hear say,
the court would call nay,


I ponder who is more incompetent,
an immature child,
or an adult who believes their intention mild?

To fly away is a lonely way to attain my freedom,
My heart doth slip from hand to hip,
It's drum slowly rises,
My eyes are red and shoes are lead,
without a purpose,
I am not,
My only wish,
is for a waking kiss,
be it reaper, angle or prince,
My life it seems,
hath been a dream,
no magic woe or love,
My endless ocean of not,
is storming me off,
to my very own island of lone,
Oh, wish me away to another day,
if only to be in motion