It’s my decision to be happy at the end of the day
Not yours

Your the very reason
I grip my body pillow at night

You show me off
as if i'm the plant on your hanging bracket
am I a accessory or a necessity
make up your mind

I like gettin you mad
The same way I dab red lollipops onto my lips to make them warmer
I wonder if you notice my change of tone
I’m just trying to get you hyped
I just want your attention
Your selfish attention
Your worse than me

Thanks to you,
I made it
And I’m not sure if I’m ever gonna go back


- Alan

I wish to see you in my dreams
I wish to see your beauty that you call home
I wish to get to know you

In the morning I’ll pick you up to go to school
Hold your hands even though your nervous
In the halls
Let everyone stare
They don’t know this feeling

We’ll skip classes
Run around the football field
Dance and trip
Make up fake passes

We’ll hide behind the tree’s shadow
While my hands on your face
We’ll see eachother from our perspectives
And share a quiet moment
And a kiss

Now noticing that we
Can be loved by strangers
And laugh
And leave school early

As I woke
I walked over to the pool
The lights rays bursting into my eyes
I don’t mind it

I grab a chair and take in the silence
Surveilling every detail
To the birds
The clouds
The movements of the water
Even me siting there all alone

As I come back to reality
I see that I wrote you a letter
“I’ve felt you leave me. Your presence.”
“So to my dearest Angle, I will start to move on.”

One day I’ll wisper this to a hole in the ground
And bury it
Planting a sunflower seed with it
I’ll watch it nourish and blossom
Both in the earth
And in me