I fell in love with your poetry
at the very first line
feeling gentle words kiss my lips
rich emotions charged my mind

a title that caught my eye
and it really said it all
when I wasn't even looking
my heart began to foolishly fall

so deeply besotted now
with arranged words that you display
a heartbeat bashfully racing
and I'm left with nothing to say

you'll not even notice me
as you're wrapped up in beautiful forms
but I keep your poems close to me
and can only imagine you in my arms

I am right here, unmoving
Inside, although you can't tell
   I am running
    My heart is so naïve sometimes
     it seems to hold no fear

My head is in reality
I am motionless almost
  like a single teardrop
   clinging, never sure when it is going to fall
    inevitably gravity and life determine this

It is only my heart
and not my mind
  that I allow to run free
   needing the independence
     from this troublesome world

Living as it wants
in small pockets of time
  experiencing all
   'innocent and fresh'

Pockets of time are short
and my heart returns
  no wiser really ..

    but quenched ..

       for now .

Yay! It's the weekend
out with the girls tonight
Feeling rather perky
but wish my backside was feeling tight

I've squeezed it into jeans
they hold everything in!
Can't eat or drink too much
as there's really not much give

I will make it work though
and wiggle it all with pride
feeling 'bootylicious'
Thank god I've got alcohol on my side!

:D

Living a lonely life
that is just so coldly cruel
I forced you to turn, walk away
when you were willing to be my fool

Holding on to the painful words
I knew I wanted to say
they choked up my insides
on that dark and desolate day

A million emotive words
stabbed at my throat and heart
I found them hard to swallow
when they were of our love

A desperate and yearned for intimacy
when for me,  there was none
the seams that held me together
were finally coming undone

I pleaded to save your soul
to show that you were not lost
I almost gave it all
but feared there would be a cost

I lay here again broken,  yearning
still nursing a scarred soul,
weeping and questioning
if you even cared at all

(Triolet)

Why do we miss
what breaks our heart
which is worse, lonely or just alone
why do we miss
the fiery passion of a kiss
that holds us 'til we're no longer apart
why do we miss
what breaks our heart

White  as a blank canvas, a pure angelic sight

Yellow  wishes wishing I'd stopped to say 'Hello'

Purple  pleasing and caring words so thoughtful

Blue  feelings being alone without you

Green  eyes hiding tears you've never seen

Red  harsh words left isolated and unsaid

Pink  thoughts so sweet that the paper exhibits the ink

Grey  for all the words I couldn't say

Black  cloud in my mind containing qualities I lack

Cream vision, hoping you'll be in tonights dream

These are my colourful emotions
Tucked away deep inside
Yet the vivid and unpredictable rainbow is frequently arduous to hide

I beg you to let the light shine on me
it opens up my world
opens up my eyes to see

Hold the brightness from above
promise me you'll stay
I can now see all that I am afraid of

Things don't look so daunting now
it should always be this way
Why don't you stay and show me how?

It's as though I've been locked in a room
it was so lonely and dark
like the furthest place from home

Maybe now I can see a new beginning
a freshness has just arrived
the birds and my heart are singing

Stay in the daylight, foul fears
just leave me be
my smiling eyes should be left without tears

I hate to see you dear poet
writing out all your pain
it makes me feel quite useless
like an umbrella without the rain

I want to put my arms around you
to let you know someone is there
we won't even have to speak
it's just to let you know, someone cares

In reality there's a distance
and I'm unable to sit with you
but I hope you don't really feel alone
with this pain you're going through

Some times I wonder how I would cope
stranded on an Island sporting a thong made of rope
Not sure what I'd do about my hairy pits
And I've got curly hair so I'm sure I'd get nits
I suppose I could exfoliate with a coconut shell
but the unwanted hair would be absolute hell!

I could go without make up and pretty clothes
and I'd have time to practise my Yoga pose
I would work on my tan, relax and chill
even catch breakfast with my new fishing skills

This actually sounds like a dream to me
so much alone time, just me and the sea
I'd look fab with a tan and a body so ripped
cellulite gone and slender hips
Wearing a grass skirt, feeling it sway
feeling so alive eating my five-a-day!

each word you delicately write
is taken from a page of my heart
I feel that you must know me
the pain I've felt from the start

it torments and pulls
yet you'll never know
you pen your lines so innocently
my emotions combined with your flow

your words of love bring tears
an unbearable ache inside
were you there with me
on those many nights that I cried

you wrapped me up in your stanzas
kissed my head with gentle thoughts
so I could lose myself in literature
with alternate breaths, we held a pause

my heartbeats matched your meter
only this form kept me alive
while I sleep, consumed in darkness
my story you continue to write

Collaboration with Jack

Where oceans dance on sleepy shores,
glistening beneath crescent moon breaths,
counting star drop secrets on charcoal skies
I stare at a horizon, a single shadowed line.... waiting

Into the depth of the distance, my thoughts drift
I know they will find their way somehow
I'll remain here, the closest point to you
my time, my freedom, I no longer wish to be my own

Cast upon these harmonic waves, my desires,
whispered into a sea breeze of flowing dreams,
Become one with a metronomic tide of needed current
seeking a path to your perfect heart and I breathe...slowly

Thoughts and desires now run free, seeking their destiny
the direction, always known to them, yet hindered
a moving course across the ocean, the destination, always you
wistfulness and impatient dreams will become a reality

And of this reality, these distant shores, we shall be together...
not of sun drenched morning awakenings,
nor a midnight sky of watchful eyes,
but of one love on a tireless journey, far beyond every horizon ....eternally

I'm immersed in silky water
drifting out to sea
It reminds me of that lost feeling
I'll continue to fight with indefinitely

No control over my direction
it's all out of my hands
drifting onwards and returning again
the tides not appreciating my plans

I can still see the shore
but it's already forgotten about me
it doesn't notice or care
that I'm floating away so aimlessly

I don't even feel I can fight it
just let it hold me in its grip
I'll let the ocean make my decisions
and I'll gaze in wonder at the cliffs

I doubt this will end well
about the conclusion I don't want to think
can't help but roll with the tides now
until I'm saved, or left to sink

...a place I must quickly find
          to lay these words in peace
            to escape my congested mind
              in which they torment and tease

                       they need to be seen by you
                desperately want to be heard
                so now I must release them
           each and every sordid word

           it's like my mind is compelled
      and I'm going against my free will
                 but a decision had to be made
                  for my chaotic mind to be still

                            I'm laying myself bare
                 exposing every part of me
  see kindly please, my nakedness
   as you're now seeing all of me

        I watch you stare into my eyes
                       urgently trying to see it all        
                            glancing at bare white skin
                          searching deep within my soul..

I fell
and continue to fall
into fantasies
of me and you

I fell,
not just part
but all
and it's all I seem
to do

Steamy
***** moments,
bodies wrapped
in desire,
passionately intense,
burning feelings
creating fire

I'm kissing reality
goodbye,
I'll stay
in my imagination,
as each time
you pass me by
I'm resisting
a torturous
temptation

; )

She can still recall
    
       the footprints

that were made ..

oh, so long ago

    Left behind
a thousand footprints ago

Footprints on a path
walked in another time

     Invisible to others

She knows they still remain
      'out there'

   she remembers.

They are eternal ..
       invisible footprints ..
                on a path ..

                        she ..
                   will never ..
                      walk ..
                     again.

My mind is full of thoughts of you
   Green eyes, readily searching
       Lips still laced with your taste
          Neck exposed awaiting your kiss

              My whole body alert, ready for your touch


Fingertips stretching, exploring
   Hands desperately grasping a memory
     Arms hopelessly clutching a vision of you
       Legs striding eagerly in your direction

             Bare feet retracing the steps ....

                  of our forgotten love.

My heavy heart feels so fragile today
I'm sure it is leaning to one side
I hope this feeling doesn't last
it's affecting the clarity of my mind

I'm pretty sure the beat is slower
and it's affecting the way I move
struggling to manoeuvre limbs
I soon hope things will improve

I've decided just to lay here
to let the feeling fade
I hope my heart's healed tomorrow
so I can begin a brand new day

Hearts get broken, once and then again
without receiving love we'd go insane
  Like a sponge, it soaks up all the feelings
   confusing our head and leaving us reeling
    Our 'one true love' or 'infatuation'
     the one we worship and give all our devotion
      We give our 'everything' over and over
       all to our beautiful, enticing lover
        Giving our all and then we pray
          pray, they wont' take it all away
           If the day comes, the one we dread
            taken is the food of love we were fed
             Our soul is destroyed, no fight to defend
               hearts are broken once, and then again

Each word
'curls'
around my heart
like smoke shaped, teasing
wispy fingers

I don't see it ..
               or feel it ..

                     but then my heart begins to tell me.

It moans
                and creaks

                             demanding that I listen.

I can't ignore it now
                            as it hurts.

I lay my hand upon my wounded chest
                               telling my heart,
                                            reminding it

   that we cannot feel this way
                                        
                    ­                          not today ..

                                                      not tomorrow.


                 My heart calms ..

                                     for now

        

                           but I know that it won't be for long.

I'm unable to ask for help
What if I'm turned away?
Can't take rejection
So in this situation I'll stay
My fear of being ignored
Outweighs this pain
What choice do I have?
Feels like I'm going insane!
Why am I so stubborn?
Is this the price I'll pay?
Think everything is Black and White
Need to dissect the Grey
"God help me perfect this on my own!"
It will be my Salvation, at the end of the day

She no longer writes about 'him'
she is without words
without structure
without rhyme

she no longer feels him
she is without sense
without emotion
without affection

she no longer wants him
she is without need
without lust
without love

She ..

      no longer ..

                 is

I always watch the way you laugh
the lovely creases around your eyes
sometimes you act tough
although you're not, despite your size

It's the most immature things
that you find so very amusing
making my heart sing
I just can't stop watching

It suddenly reminds me
that there's an innocence to you
laughing so heartily
any funny joke will do

Your laughter is so alluring
I deeply love that side of you
my little heart starts purring
I'll want to be in your arms soon

I don't know what it is
but I just need to stop and gaze
it's a moment of beautiful bliss
our surroundings are in a haze

Your handsome face lights up
a gorgeous smile displayed
I hope the laughter never dies
and will continue to fill our days

You knew her so well
yet didn't know
Picked her up when she fell
but the pain hadn't showed

Was it all lost?
Disappeared in the night?
Her mind isolated in frost
She'd lost her fight

Losing her way with no idea
which way to turn or go
Moving further away with fear
her mind without a sane flow

It stopped you in your tracks
made you sit up and stir
Clouds had turned so black
Were you losing her?

Set her free if you must
she needs time, this she'd prefer
Support her during rest
many weeks passed in a blur

Unravelling like a flower
she came back into view
Something different about her
a spirit, refreshed and renewed

Would she spread her wings
fly so very far away
Perhaps but see what this brings
and just pray that she'll stay

It was so familiar to me
walking across this empty land
lonely but accustomed somehow
was it really what life had planned?

I never questioned how it was
it just 'was' you see
I tried hard and carried on
knowing I was alone, it was always just me

Time passed as it usually does
yet it seemed reluctant in some ways
and if this was how it used to be
Why does it still feel the same these days?

How many times did I die
how many times did my heart fail to beat
How many times did I just lay
and just stay amidst defeat

How many times did I starve
how many times did I cry
How many times did I just want to sleep
when you left, when we said 'Goodbye'

How many times did I collapse
how many times did I fail to get up
How many times did I force myself to continue
when I knew what in me was not enough

How many times did I think of you
how many times, did you I search
How many times did I try to forget
and my voice could not say the words

How many times did you think of me
how many times did you care
How many times did you even realise
I thought I'd die without you there

I heard my name
upon whispers
within sighs
and wondered
if you'd remembered
the sadness of our
goodbyes

I felt a gentle touch
upon a breeze
within the night
and wondered
if you'd treasured
the love
in my eyes

I tasted a moment
upon your lips
within a kiss
and wondered
if you found pleasure
in us
as much as I

I inhaled a scent
upon a memory
within my mind
and wondered
if you'd surrender
to me
one more time