I guess I didn't reflect it well.
I guess I was too shy, too reserved—it felt cold.
But to picture you speak out the words typed in my screen,
And to impress your voice in my head like a song.
I felt the happiness of a child, achieving a milestone in his life.
Too see your lips turn up, untroubled by prejudice.
Too see your eyes stare at mine, free of malice.
I felt the world was working with me.
But clocks can't scream urgency.
Books can't hug you.
I wish you knew how much those little things mattered to me.
If only you knew, that I was about to overcome my silence.

Everyday I wake up
the world is a little different
something has changed

My lover
of yesteryears
is  too boring to look at
my house feels larger
and the echoes are touting

Something's changed
so I take a bottle of beer
and Bury myself somewhere familiar

But the questions
and the exclamations
are still there

I would have travelled
across galaxies for you
buy now
your like a beautiful painting
amazing when looked at
but no idea what you mean

I am just a young man
who is dark
like the Graves upon my path

Don't uphold my name
unless I've earned it

I've been cruel and murderous
the darkness made me more violent
a man with no soul
no conscious

There's beauty in sin

You'll always be my heart beat