Sending you back to the dream
from
Once you came

You were only really in
my brain and
I remember thinking that
The same when I first saw you
It's like with your smile
you could light up a whole room
in the classroom
Where we met you
stood out
From the rest

I still remember your chest
The first time you hugged me
Can still feel your arms and
Hear the way you said you love me
But dishonesty was
The only thing
you could ever mean

Though the way you looked at me
created sun beams
To nuture my frail leaves
You only did that so
You could take these
So you wouldn't feel empty
Like a teen flick on
The movie screen
In the end you find out she
Wasn't ever appeased and
That he could not be pleased
Watching it back now

Nothing is as it seems
Lovers but not on the same team

And during the whole thing I must have been asleep, infact it must have been a dream.

Give them some space
Be but don't chase
like the sun rays that
Lay on the earth's face

And in your life
They'll take their place
Don't uproot the flower

Just appreciate

Off grid

I remember those cages
I kept putting in my location
Being lost
The hours wasted
exhausted
But still waiting
Hoping the train
Stops at this station

Guess I never really left there
Every breath is still that same air
Minds wondering what’s next
When you mentioned it time stopped

So I guess that means a death.

My mind is like a coffin
Take it easy
Don’t just walk in
filled with bodies
And their toxins
Memories
Unforgotten

If you do
watch where you’re walking
You might step
On something rotten
And then
Sink right down
To the bottom
Where leaving is not
An option

six feet under
When you’re trapped
There is no screaming
So stop that
Close the lid
Seal the cracks
Then you’re dead
It’s a wrap

Call me evil
I was born here
Just don’t say
I didn’t warn you.

M.E.

You hate me right?
Why don’t you hate me like
I hate myself you always
Seem to be right and
Show me the light end
Of the tunnel


I keep turning around  though
and you’re still there
Picking up the puzzle
Up off of the ******* ground
You said I’m made for you
I think I made your crown
There was no boss before
You came around

There was no right or wrong
Nobody taxed the town
But now it feels like you're running me
Train feet in front of me
Feels like we’re enemies
But you say you just want the best for me

I’m tired.

From points of two

Have hope, cut throat
Being with you is always cut throat
You could have warned me, said don’t get too close
Behind your jail bars I always drop the soap
****** over, forced sober
There’s a hangover when the love is over

You say you love me but then he slept over
when I get angry you say it’s all over
walking away, heart smoldered

The days still pass, we’re both getting older

M.E.

Never better words

Than when you said you love me

something from above me

Whispered



“He doesn’t give a ****.”



Still I, went with it I felt

Comforted by your

Subtle admiration

Acceptance



The maze in my mind

Faced extrinsic interruption



Eruption, like a roofie

where relief is what I’m drugged with

Attraction

Contraction

Reaction

Distraction



Love made it seem like life’s wasn’t happening

But don’t be a fool, you might get trapped in



Love’s not a choice



It’s a chemical reaction.

Unreal

Sitting here feeling bad for myself
Feels like I want to take my health
Rejected pushed back on the shelf
How can I ask someone for help
If I can’t even help myself?

Feeling like everyone will notice
Because no one really knows this
But the pain is getting focused
Guess It’s payback time I’ve owed this

It’s a token from when life
Was so simple and seemed right
Only up until the light showed me
The ******* knife-- in my hand

Is this real?

reality’s getting cloudy
Don’t want nobody around me
Don’t touch me you’ll end up drowning
This abyss of a *****
Let me go you won’t miss it
Don’t hold my hand, not a kiss

What did you say, you’re tired of this?

Me too.

Just a phase

Phases you

Said it was a phase

Just a phase, haha

I wished you could rephase

The way you called it

Meant It wasn’t a place

So inside of you

For me there was no space

Time, hours, days

Please ignore me, I’m already dead

you won’t mourn me

A phase is but a passing of shadow

Something there now that will be gone by tomorrow

**** man, you’re killing me

I, wish I took it more seriously when

You told me this was just a “phase”

Written in the chapter of your book

I was the first line of each hook

Spinning the phrase, “And in this phase…”

Like an actor on the screen

Sometimes I was happy

Sometimes mean, but I could never intervinene

In the...phase.

I was someone that you could lean on

Urging you to dream on

Peddling the wheels of this

Phase

Falling deep into the haze

Of an anecdotal leisie

and called “love.”

What was just a phase.