inject me with sunshine
blast me off in a rocket with a destination of the sun
paint me a bright tint of yellow
cover me in sparkles and call me a sparkly star

i'd do anything not to be dull

You constantly search for
Yet fail to see what is already there.
I thought you knew;
Subtlety is my favorite vice.

I understand your need,
I feel your longing;
You never seem hesitant
To remind me.

Is it so wrong to trust you?
To love you enough to pretend?
I thought you knew;
Martyrdom is one of my many follies.

Just because I do not wince
At every infliction of pain
Doesn't mean I can not feel;
Expression was never my forte.
I do try and, little by little,
I'll prove to you that the "real me"
Is better than the "idea of me" that
You created in your mind.

You, the way you are,
On the other hand,
Are more than enough for me;
I just thought I should let you know.

I am flawed and undeserving, but
Willing to work on myself, on us:
I am yours, you are mine; I love you...
And I will keep letting you know.

here's a letter so i can ensure this is not your fault
and never will
don't you dare think that
you're one of a kind

don't be alarmed
when i'm gone
it's not your fault
you tried your best
i tried too little

you were good to me
i was bad to you
i was bad to everyone
i deserve my fate

i'm sorry i broke my promise
please don't hate me
don't shed a tear for me either
i'm not worth your golden output

remember that i love you
and i love the memories we shared
and the jokes we made
the worlds we created
and the worlds that never got to be visited

please still live on the memories i destroyed
they're meant to be shared
not just for us, but for the world we would have changed
the world that is in your hands
and is left for you to take on

you're strong and are able to do this
without me
without any burdens
because you're strong, brave, and powerful
everything i am not
and can never be

i love you
regardless of where my body lays

My carefree girl
My girl of the roses
The friend I love
So very dearly
She holds the sunshine
And the wind and rain
Locked inside her tender heart
I'll never forget
How you love to romp with me
So you are my best friend forever
Beautiful girl of the roses

*~Marian~

Open up your eyes, sunshine.
The world is bright, the sun is shining just for you.

The grass is greener than ever.
The birds are chirping, just for you.

The sky is a different shade of blue than usual.
It's a new tint of baby blue, just for you.

Cheer up, love.
Everything will be alright.
Everything will work out.
Everything is well and will always be well.

Just for you.